everyone can see me burning

5.) Lars Fucking Dies

I will never be over SU literally showing us a dead body. And HOW Lars died. My man was in an explosion. He probably broke his back/ribs hitting that wall. He slammed a couple more times on the way down. Something went through his goddamn eye. Like FUCK.

I still hold that Lars dying was the most fucked thing Steven saw. And Steven saw a LOT.

4.) Steven accepting Rose's choices

Rose's Room is such a good character study. Steven wanting so desperately for Rose to be a good mom. But he never knew her, and he can't replicate her properly. And he cries. He decides he has to make up for the things she's done. It's sad, and hard. Least he got pizza after.

3.) Steven's Fucking Traumatized

I know SUF is pretty mixed bag, but I love this episode. Having Dr. Maheswaran gently sit Steven down and realize just how fucked his childhood was. How it's made life hard for him as a young adult. How it'll always haunt him because, hey ho, trauma is a bitch.

2.) Drift Away

Sarah Stiles has my heart and soul. She was SO good as Spinel. She put so much emotion and pain into this Gem. And Drift Away can still bring tears to my eyes. "Isn't that lovely? Isn't it cool? And isn't it cruel? And aren't I fool?" STILL MAKES MY INSIDES WILD

1.) You'd stay for HER.

Amethyst's relationship with Rose is very rarely touched upon in the show or the comics, but the bits we do see are damning. Rose was the closest thing Amethyst had to a mom. She was the Gem of her "type" (or so she thought) to compare herself to. She brought Amethyst home after thousands of years of isolation. And though she likes Greg, she was so bitter about him taking her away for a long time.

day 4 RADIO

(=｀ω´=) → trans bi peridot icons

"It's called being efficient at your JOB, clod."

the other week/month we were talking about an au where rq’s gem got cracked, but she wouldn’t be able to heal herself by crying because crying is something she personally associates with guilt and shame and ultimately her self contempt. with her own mind split into three: her adult self, her inner child and the bully; the only way she could heal is if she refused to be accomplice of the bully and be there for her inner child for the first time - an act of self love and compassion.