Sad Girl Hours

I’m just so fucking sad for really no reason I mean yes there’s a reason but it’s stupid. I’m tired of hope always being fuckin lost

I’m starting to truly believe all the horrible comments those have thrown towards me and hurt me with. Maybe I am all those horrible things, maybe I should just end it. I don’t know man I wish I had someone to talk to about how I feel but I don’t and never will bc I’m fucking stupid. I can’t believe I stay on this planet for the sake of the ones I love who always are the ones in the end to hurt me the worst. Why do I stay, literally to not hurt anyone else.

What is the fucking point? I feel like I’m just fucked from the get and that life will never get better it’s just failure after failure and once I regain hope and trust again life’s just like fuck you nah. Maybe I just truly need to be a hermit, not talk to anyone or have anyone (I don’t really anyways) bc that’ll lessen the pain of being let down or treated like trash. At that point I just make my self just as sad. I literally make no sense. I’m just a fucked ruined person idk how I’ll come back from this.

I will not let social media destroy the things I love

It sucks having two parents who are both emotionally and mentally fucked up. Like Jesus fuck has anyone else’s mom or parent ever asked them to check on their dad after they verbally abuse the fuck out of them to make sure they arnt hanging from a beam in the garage because same. Since I was 5.

It literally sucks hating someone you can’t do shit or live without. Like ugh fuck you.

I just don’t know what to do but I do know I don’t really want to exist anymore.