˚₊‧꒰ა ᴸʸʳᵃ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

I want my room to be cute and minimalist but its difficult to keep it that way when I can't throw things away because I'm scared that I'm being ungrateful and because I imagine they're alive and I'm worried they'll be sad if I throw them away.

But also because I get so exhausted to the point I just can't do anything productive at all and that causes my room to end up messy again.

Because when I zone out im getting no information at all, I can't see anything, and I just feel so out of it.

But when im focused, I feel and hear everything and its so uncomfortable, and then I get stressed out and paranoid of everything, and everything hurts and I feel nauseous for no reason at all, and I also feel out of It and sometimes I feel like I'm leaving my body and I get so depressed with everything.

The middle ground is kinda chill like yeah I get stressed out and stuff but its less and yeah I'm kinda dumb but its less, but then I start kinda like hallucinating? Like I see things in the corner of my eye, hear knocking and tapping on my window, feeling bugs digging and crawling in my skin.

oh you only played 2 games of out a 8 series game franchise and call yourself a fan? Cool! You only watched gameplays? Cool!

Like genuinely I can't help to care anymore since people are becoming so strict about what considers someone a fan

"oh but then when ME a PROPER fan wants to talk about the lore, nobody understands what I'm saying!" Buddy i saw like 8 tiktok ranters say "if you only watch resident evil gameplays instead of playing the game yourself then you aren't a fan" you'll be fine, trust me