#im done

I just feel very done with life. I wanted to enjoy these two weeks of no work, and instead I wasted them on severe panic attacks and anxiety. And like yeah it's small shit but it feels so fucking monumental to me. I'm trying to get better at regulating my emotions but that shit is hard when you don't have the tools and no one to fucking help you. I'm just done.

so tired of being ignored on discord. not to mention most servers im in are dead. and no i dont want to join new ones or super active ones with all the drama out there. so close to just deleting my account. really tired of people saying they will respond on there and then just ghosting...

I just want to be someone's Agnes and have my Jude is that too much to ask?

i need to stop posting about commissions 😭

So I'm going to BASH my head to the fucking wall because the chatfic I make KEEPS GETTING PROBLEMS AND I LOSE MY MIND WHEN I REDO IT AGAIN

ouhhhhggggg i feel sick a d paralyzed