❝ What’s it like, mama? ❞ Words repeated like a mantra, between one and another childish giggle. Karin jumped and ran around her blindfolded mother, promising not to peek when asked where the girl was. She got it right every time! No matter how careful she was, moving quietly, shifting quickly, walking next to strangers in an attempt to cheat — her location was always given precisely. Like a magic trick. ❝ How did you know? ❞ A frustrated pouting. ❝ I can find you among a thousand people. Family is different. ❞ Stubbornness and curiosity shine in her crimson eyes. ❝ And what’s is like? ❞ The woman’s hands were fast enough to grab the little body and pull towards her, a sudden tickle attack making the girl’s laughter fills the air. A child would understand a gesture better than a lot of words, and although Karin insisted for a long time she secretly liked things that way after all.
It’s funny how you suddenly begin to understand your parents after you grow up. If a younger version of herself came up and asked the same question Karin wouldn’t have an answer either. Words were missing — no, there were so many of them that to put order in this chaos was impossible. Different sensations reaching her at the same time, interpreting themselves intuitively, extracting a sense of all that disorder — people are disorders. Small private universes unfolding before her without warning or permission, offering untold stories, urging her to dig deeper, opening every door. Following this path she found the answer to the old question in a place she was not expecting. The red hair was a stupid clue, the joy of his voice wasn’t exactly attractive, but it was there. Like home.
Thoughts still prowled her mind as she approached, purposely light steps to surprise him. Silence was rarely a good thing, a signal that some project was taking shape and Karin expected something she wouldn’t like or agree to — just to be teasing as usual. The only difference was that in this case she put an extra dose of respect, albeit disguised as sassy indulgence. ❝ A coin for your thoughts? ❞ Popping up beside him, leaning in for a closer look, the hint of a smile bloomed on her lips. Feeling was good, but listening was better. Each person has a way of conveying their own ideas and she liked Shank’s, because he was still able to be reasonable in his own particular way. Maybe not every damn time, but he made an effort.
HOME. What was a home? A house that stood strong over you? Laughter and love that saturated a room? Maybe it was the patter of feet against hardwood as games were played. Whatever it was, Shanks had never had one. Not in the physical, roof over your head, warm meals before bed, sense of a home nor a person to call home sort of way.
In truth, he had given up the thought of it. Buried the longing for a family, the need to be wanted, beneath anger and smiles and loudness.
And then she came along and everything changed.
A bright laugh, a shake of the head and then he’s nudging her away.
“ My thoughts are worth far more than a coin! ” Pretend offense betrayed by the turn of his lips. He knew she was curious, but --- “ Haven’t you ever heard, curiosity killed the cat. ” His tongue stuck out childishly afterwards, waggling at her as he tugs down the lower lid of his eye in an attempts at a funny face. In an attempt to make her laugh.
Quiet follows this brief happiness, a gentle comfort that hugs them and wraps them in warmth beneath the bright sun. A moment to breathe. Then he’s flipping open a journal to the most recent page. Scrawled upon it are drawings, crudely done in childish wonder, of the sea and of ships and of dreams.
A longing in every line, a need to be free from the shackles of their island obvious in each drag across the page.
“ I - I dreamed we were sailing away.” It’s whispered, like a secret of the utmost importance. “ That we led our own lives and captained our own vessels.” He wants to go.
He wants to see all this beautiful, terrible world has to offer.
“ Would you run with me if I asked it of you? ” Leave behind all she has ever known? Or would she stay? Would she force him to stay?