Scattered Thoughts and Important Things

i hate that i’m so absent as a person. i don’t start conversations. i can barely maintain them. i’m so weary and spaced out all the time to the point where i can’t even keep up small talk and i’m just so disappointed in myself

what’s poppin i have a deep, empty loneliness i can feel in my bones and i don’t know how to function

*spends all of my time alone* perfect! but why am i crazy

call me boring and vanilla but i lov… romantic relationships built on friendships

Have y’all created your 2020 vision boards yet? Have you purchased a 2020 agenda/planner yet? Did you buy a 2020 manifestation journal yet? Did you thoroughly write down your goals for 2020 and what you hope to accomplish yet? A new year is coming up, please make sure you’re more than prepared so that this year will be different from the last year.

I need this.

Reblogged last year, hoping it comes this year

sharpay was right: this is not what i want. this is not what i planned. and i just gotta say. i Do Not understand

2020 is more flowers, more rosé, more perfume, more pink, more dance, more lingerie, more skincare, more healthy food, more books, more gardens and more self love.

Not to be like “we live in a society” but I think a lot of people’s mental health would be significantly less fucked if they didn’t have to function in a system that forces them to think about their value as a human being as based on how productive they are/how much money people can make off them

i distracted myself and thought i was healing

opposite of depression nap. depression awakeness. refreshing the same three websites over and over. there’s nothing new on any of them. eight seconds have passed and it feels like a century

i want people to unknow me

Depression/anxiety convince you that both everyone and no-one cares

blessed samhain! the veil is thin and so is my damn patience