My life

When you lose someone that has been a big part of your life forever.

You start to realize how much you truly love that person.

The one you could die for

The one you could go through fire and flames for just to reach.

The one you could sacrifice your own life to save.

We all have or flaws and do shitty things. We make the wrong decisions sometimes and some catastrophic mistakes unfortunately. But everything is a lesson you learn from.

But sometimes it's to late to do anything.

Even if you could do anything and everything, just to get a chance once again and show how much you can change.

To Show them the love they deserve and how much they really mean to you.

I miss to have someone who are there for me

I miss to have someone to hug and love

I miss to have someone seeping next to me, someone that I could hold in my arms.

I wish I could be a different person sometimes. Then maybe I wouldn't be this punching bag to people just becouse I'm to kind. So they think that they can use me and treat me like shit and stab me in the back. But I guess that the only thing I'm good at. To be this weak fucking punching bag.

I wish I could be a better person. Somone that people enjoy spending time with and not get tired of. Someone that isn't a dork or boring.

I wish I could go back and do so many things different then I maybe wouldn't feel like I do. But I can't do a shit about anything and that sucks. But I only got myself to blame. I have hopefully learned from my mistakes so I don't do the same things again. My biggest misstake in my life was to hurt you. The person who meant the most for me. The person I could take a bullet for and sacrafice my life for. But all I did was to throw it all away and made you belive something else. I'm so sorry for everything. I don't know what I could do to make you belive in those words unfortunately.

Fighting through the same old

The nights have stolen the days

For way too long

If I could break myself in two

One for them, and one for you

At least I know a part of me

It can't be wrong

'Cause you're my addiction

You're my one belief, you're my life

So kiss me one more time

Standing faces towards the wind

We can force someone to turn me in

And I'm scared

I may never feel this again

I may never feel this again

I wish I couldn’t have any emotions or feelings. All it does is to make you do stupid things and making you hurt people you care about and yourself. All those mistakes you do, do you have to live with forever with the knowledge that you can’t make them undone. Maybe it’s just better to be totally empty inside and be alone. Because then hopefully it dosen’t have to go down hill again..