Moments where Love is Violent

Why a Romantic monster?

About me (updated Feb 2025)

Kink list

Most things tagged generally. I'm not getting into the specifics. I use leet/l33t aswell for reach and getting around the search function. Be mindful when blocking tags to include those just incase.

#Andi stuff = my writing/kink concepts

#Andi speaks = nonsense I say

#Andi nonsense = further straying nonsense

#Asking andi = asks

#art = all reblogged art

#nonkink = non kink? You get it.

There may be overlap between tagging.

#me for post with me (tho seems to not work well when I search but fuck it).

for nonsensical reblogs and 'woe is me' o' clock

It's likely why I don't have extreme sadism as well since the basis for it is in moderation, control, and more about the kind of reaction I get than the pain inflicted.

A switch vers overall. demi, pan, polyamorous. Agender (enby), all/any pronouns. Have fun with it. I don't care much for gender, but I can sympathise as Im disappointingly human and thus it's inevitable.

Netherlands based but not raised.

I suffer from "too much in my head, don't touch enough grass" syndrome. No it's not a real thing, alas, but I really don't get out much.

I write some original stuff, and arbitrarily anything really. This is a hard kink/dark kink blog so keep that in mind.

Asks are open. Anything goes. I have no rules really. I can be a bit antisocial at times even though I rather adore being social. Dm's are open sometimes. Give me something to play off of, or be curious, and I may engage more easily. I may take a while to get back to you.

I value the inherent romanticism of things. Yet heartachingly know that rationally it's all a beautiful lie in relation to the reality of things.

Quite the prosocial & antisocial contradictory individual.

I desire to feel so deeply or wanted so much that it tears me apart. The sad reality is that I can't have that most of the time & the world doesnt tend to work that way. One can't always access those feelings, and I know it's merely because I relish in the euphoria to circumvent the numbness I failed to see as depression. It's what it is, and I'm under no illusion that reality plays out differently.

I'll be contradictory and in conflict with myself more often than not. Trying so hard to be alive, survive, live, yet I relish in the idea of dying.

Enjoyments?

Well I'm always keen to get to know another to a fundamental level. Be it romantically, or platonically. It's difficult to how who will catch my attention. Otherwise I adore Psychology and philosophy but I also have a poor memory for specifics so I tend to rather remember the idea of things. Love Romantic horror/erotic horror. Some fitness stuff. Larping to a degree. Crafting and creating. Writing. anime, manga, manhwa etc. Fireworks, and the feel of the sun on my skin.