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Why a Romantic monster?

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Yea that's right

I'm going to kill you

Don't look so scared, you knew I desired this.

You knew I was going to fuck you until we both could barely breathe anymore and now it's time for the finale.

Holding this knife right at your throat, agh I can feel your pulse. Are you excited too or scared for what's to come.

Your life on the edge, fuck are you going to try kill me aswell? With those hands wrapped around my neck I cant really speak.

I hope you feel it, that orgasm rising with mine, knowing with fear how close we are to oblivion. I'm getting dizzy. Too little air. You're holding so tight and my efforts to cum make my lungs burn.

You feel the ache until it's right there, a dam ready to break. Even with hearing my heartbeat in my ears I widen my eyes in a grin and swipe the knife against your throat.

You're surprised, just a moment before your eyes roll back, just seeing that makes me cum too. Goosebumps all over as I shudder, twitching from pleasure and lack of breath.

I wonder if you'll bleed out first, all that gushing blood between us, over us, spilling so quickly as you choke. I just want to feel this forever. The panic, the fear, the pleasure, coming together in our violent desire. Nothing will stop your death now.

Then did I really do the right thing?

I see them in my dreams, once I was able to reach out to them but now they're mostly turned away. Shunning me even as I sleep. I believe they're doing alright IRL. And it would be selfish to crawl back and say I was wrong.

Mutual self destruction is romantic as much as a worry.

was it Right, was it wrong?

Rather let me ask you this, whether or not u were right, unless they told u they didnt want you in their life, why would u make that choice for them?

Perhaps im bitter, thinking its arrogant to assume you knew better. Perhaps I'm scornful of people who do not own up to their choices and decisions. who seem too prideful to just swallow their ego and apologize if they truly thought they made a mistake.

But perhaps most of all, im just sorry to the person who was left behind with no choice in the matter. without letting them decide whats right for them. We are not the authority on that.

Youre not right. But youre not wrong. Its only your indecision that vexes me. Make a choice. And stick to it. Accept it for what it is now and leave the matter alone or do your damnest to apologize. Even if you have regrets in either choice.

Decide.

Who you pick it from is also entirely up to you ;)

Prettiest? Hmm... The heart. Cliche probably.

I don't want to be this soft. Is it wrong to say that I want to be monstrous too? Knowing I'm this soft and taming... and gentle.

I wish to be violent and destructive, but I don't know how to be those things. I feel like it will help me to become stronger and more confident.

My love is always taken for granted. That builds hatred, but it's still not enough. The hatred transforms back into love and I'm soft all over again.

I always hear it at the back of my head echoing, "soft hands too scared to touch the untouchable". I touch it, the untouchable destroys me, but I cling to it.

Do you think it's best to let go?

(I'm scared to interact with you idek why, I feel like anon isn't enough to hide from you lol)

-littlemaiden

Oh dear

You need not be scared. I only appear scarier because of my interests, but I'm quite gentle more often than not. Or perhaps silly may be a better descriptor.

I never used to be monstrous. It's in part why this blog was born. To explore, play, indulge the violence inside me. I relate to your sentiments little maiden. It's not wrong at all.

When parts of ourselves are closed off, hidden, or sheltered away for too long our desire for the most extreme version is inevitable. Whether you can, or are, doesn't matter. Only that u try it out. It'll be scary. But thats why online is rather fun. The consequences are far less than if u had to try with people irl.

Make mistakes, tear off more than u can chew, bite too hard. Be unapologetically unpalatable. And I guarantee you, that you'll eventually find the balance on where you prefer to be. Because to lash out is as much to protect ourselves as it is to test where the line truly is. And perhaps the ones for u are those who can appreciate that, rather than taking your love for granted.

2, 3, 7, 14, 39

2. Weirdest fantasy?

Mixing my kinks into an absurd laughable mess like zombie fucking, cumming, breeding, but it turns me into a zombie or watching it happen (since I'm often not a subject in my fantasies necessarily) which would be a mix of rape, murder kink, monster fuckery and breeding. Lots of risks. Weird only in how weird it can be. Another being undead and my physiological processes are fucked so things like touching my internal organs are pleasurable. Honestly I'd fuck with being anything nonhuman. Anyway that's the weirder out there fantasies.

3. Do you have a specific theme/motif you think of over and over in your fantasies?

For this themed ask about murder kinks, simply, being killed while cumming (either participant). It does not need to be complicated. Choking and strangulation aswell (and rape but that's it's own thing). Of course excessive lust/instinct is great aswell.

7. Have you watched someone die in person?

Im not sure. Die no. But dying? I thought I could have. But Id never know. Walked with friends once when I was a teenager and a (I'm assuming homeless) guy was staggering, collapsed, spoke nonsensical and was bleeding from the back of his head. Called an ambulance after much confusion and didn't stick around so wouldn't be asked questions (or suspected foul play). So possibly? These kinds of things are always more profound in retrospect, never in the moment. Because in the moment, it never feels important.

14. Replied to in the prev ask

39. Favorite horror movies/shows/books/podcasts?

Well, I've got normal ones and pervert ones. A normal one: the magnus archives (an audio podcast/story, great slow burn plot).

A perverted one: a Korean Manhwa called The Black Mirror by Muhwa / Sugeun(Art). It's my absolute cup of tea in regards to love and horror. I often times wish I could find a 'straight' version purely so I can recommend it to more people who'd actually read it and be subjected to my interests (because I know far too many people seem to care about the genders in the relationship more than the plot and story but fuck whatever). I'd love more like it honestly.

When it's no longer fun. Hard to define that wouldn't you say? I personally don't think I'd be keen on boat loads of blood. But I do enjoy some.

Like... An analogy would be, You wouldn't bathe your meal in sauce right? But you'd have enough to enhance the dish, to dip into or complement it. That's kind of the same for me.