Mariner of the Stars

sleep is stolen time. don't let them take it from you anymore. tonight. we are staying up. til one billion o clock.

when you get crazy enough about The Character you'd think the situations you imagine them in would get more elaborate and lore intensive. but no. imagining my wizard pacing around huffily being slightly peeved at a mild inconvenience. I don’t even know what the inconvenience IS. and it's giving me enough joy to power a city for a month

Making "oog. Waugh. 🥺" kinds of noises after being reminded of a very basic fact about blorbo I already knew

#me to a person i've known for 5 years: remind me what your gender is

[suddenly disillusioned] my illusions..

having a multi year long character obsession becomes like a abstract thought experiment at some point

a child who is persistently alone & does not want to be alone does not learn that they on occasion have time to themselves during which they can do whatever they want, they learn that occasionally they will have time to themselves throughout which they will do nothing except exactly what they do not want to do - something that is synonymous with that duration of time. if they were being made to do some or other unpleasant thing, like hold their hand on a hot stove, that would not be synonymous with the duration of time, it would be something occupying that duration of time. when they are made ito be alone, the fact that they are alive & conscious is felt as a profound lack rather than the fundamental opportunity atop which all other opportunities are built, & the passage of time becomes something to be endured because it continually implies their continued existence & awareness. life for them then becomes organized not around exploration nor seeking enjoyment or fulfillment, but around strategies for continually enduring the fact that they exist

never take for granted the moments when you’re not nauseous

ough i feel terrible… noa save me….

sorry it’s gonna be another day of being too tired and in pain to move. i’ll live somehow

people will really defend marriage so hard because it has benefits as if its not super limiting and frustrating for ONLY marriage to have those benefits. "hey i think we shoudn't prioritize marriage that much in our lives" "but marriage comes with so many benefits!" okay and why is it the only thing that lets you put someone else in your life as a designated "i trust them with healthcare or finance or my will". why cant marriage be extended to more than one other person. why is it only marriage, why cant you choose someone you really trust to handle your affairs, why does it have to be marriage. get real

Reblog this and tell me what was your biggest crying over a piece of fiction. You can be vague if you don't want to spoil.