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(having a good week) that’s right. the goal is to increase my baseline. make the spirals shallower until they spin lazily on the surface of the water, lose their suction. im not trying to fix it all at once, im trying to incrementally improve my way into something tolerable. and once im there maybe i can shoot for good

#see they probably disinfectanted him before putting him on the ship to prevent any additional bacteria or some shit #so i actually don't think he had dirt left under his fingernails #which personally is even sadder for me #he tried so hard to cling to any tiny piece of earth he could before they shipped him off #and they took that from him too —from @plumbley-bee

thinking about Ryland in Ilyukhina's dress at the beginning of the movie - outside of it making sense given how drunk he was, and the logistics of using any available clothing later on...

also - just to add on, the idea that he was putting on all of these different articles of clothing to figure out what felt RIGHT to him. he had no memories or preferences to work with at first.