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I use ‘b’ and ‘c’ for personal, expressive writings/posts. ‘c’ is for the very short posts.

I use ‘srs’ for lengthier, “serious” writings. I’m not satisfied with every one of these posts as they are, and would (drastically) change most of them if I could. So there are errors, flaws, inaccuracies, or issues (apart from grammatical errors), etc. that I (would) only see now, as a result of reading the posts with ‘new eyes’.

I use just ‘reblog’ for reblogs of serious posts, and ‘reblogging’ for other ones.

☆ Not every single post has these tags (yet); I only started using them recently.

♡ I am open to making friends and encourage reaching out in general, but obviously my posts here may drive one away… If you want someone to vent/talk to, my DMs are open. But I don’t guarantee quick responses.

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I LOVE $TING BY THE NEIGHBOURHOOD SO MUCCHHHHHJSGXGSFCS ILOVE$TINGILOVE$TINGILOVETHENEIGHBOURHOOD MY FAVOURITE BAND ♡♡♡

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Starting from 2:38… it is like heaven the way it sounds

Sorry if it disappoints a certain somebody 🙏 I am happy you checked/are checking it out 🙏🙏

#b

catrocketship

I LOVE $TING BY THE NEIGHBOURHOOD SO MUCCHHHHHJSGXGSFCS ILOVE$TINGILOVE$TINGILOVETHENEIGHBOURHOOD MY FAVOURITE BAND ♡♡♡

#b #their songs are on another level for me..

Sometimes I really don’t like my dad 😠

#c

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I DESPISE summer with all my heart 😊😊 I see summer as BENEATH me 💕☺️ I feel a genuine hatred for life at the moment. A genuine hatred for this world. I feel such disgust. It is unbearable to have to be when you do not want to be.

#b

spamloaf

#reblog

The concept of an employed winner

#c

iamgoob

Its the way female singers are expected to give an extravagant performance, dancing and singing without being out of breath with the most beautiful outfits and a ‘snatched’ body, anything less then this and you will be cancelled. But for males its about the music, anything else doesnt matter because he is an artist and isnt expected to be anything more. For example, Olivia Rodrigo and Zara Larsson getting mass amounts of hate for looking tired or being out of breath, but Justin Bieber can pull up to Coachella and play Youtube

#reblog

misandristwoman

I’m sick of women criticising leg hair discussions by saying “it’s personal choice”.

If it were a true choice, men and women would equally shave and not shave their legs. And yet, its 99% of women who shave, and 99% of men who don’t.

I’m honestly sick of women complaining about beauty standards when they take no steps in ending them. If all adult women stopped shaving their legs, young girls and teens wouldn’t feel compelled to shave, and boom, the beauty standard of hairless legs for women no longer exists.

I consciously look out for hairy legs in the summer, and I haven’t seen any yet. I’m just screaming into the void at this point.

spookyshrinesage

beauty standards become a lot less of an issue when you accept that they are mostly kept alive by women themselves. yeah it’s for the men, but it’s not like the men aren’t gonna fuck the women anyway. it’s a mix of women loving to please men’s creepy tastes and intrasexual competition, the women wanting to make them get picked over potentially naturally prettier women. we can keep blaming men all day long for liking these things but at the end of the day, it’s women sharing tips in magazines, tiktoks, blogs, etc of how to better execute these beauty rituals. it’s almost always the mother shaming and encouraging her daughter to “take care of her appearance, otherwise no man will want her”, which we know is false LMAO. if all women collectively chose to stop partaking in these things tomorrow, the men would have no choice but to accept the hairy legs, pits and pussies, the dark under eye circles, the pimples, the comfortable practical clothing, the higher muscle mass and less dieting. so many women wouldn’t obviously try to alter their voice to sound like children because grown woman voices are apparently not cutesy or submissive enough. unfortunately for dick obsessed OSA women, that would mean accepting even more so that some women are naturally gonna be still considered prettier and isn’t that so “unfair”? what if she doesn’t get picked by jakey because stacey was preferred?:(

#reblog

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Today has been such a bad day and no matter what I ultimately desire death. It is tiring to experience hope sometimes, to have some pleasant, enjoyable, funny experiences, to feel lightweight sometimes, excited sometimes, but to be let down, or to just end up feeling awful, scared, indifferent anyway and want to simply fade from existence.

I can’t do this. I only enjoy what I enjoy momentarily/temporarily, it is actually tiresome; at the end of the day I don’t wanna be here. I’m tired of going through this continuously. I’m tired of also knowing what I enjoy actually contains harm and is part of a larger problem.

I don’t want to doubt and wonder if maybe my existence could be something positive altogether. Tired of all the ways I feel. Tired of the tiredness of others, the pain of others. Tired of feeling confused.

I don’t want the lovely or the pleasant, the fun and the warmth; just let me go. Even though both that and ‘just letting humanity die out quickly’ are not simply possible, somehow the former feels more possible, just because it’s one person, it’s less. Who will let me go anyway? Life? I wish it was possible. I feel drier and conflicted and worn out as days pass.

#b #I don’t have positive things I am driven to write about #it just doesn’t end with me

On the way to an outdoor wedding event. I feel so sad I could cry. One thing ruined my emotional state and made me feel down. I could’ve done something about it to maintain my ‘dignity’ but that is honestly a bit pathetic and better to not do. It’s kind of like a cage.. It is a disgusting hot and humid summer day and I am wearing heavy clothes. Apparently small things like what happened remind me why I would be so much better off dead.. I have grown up wishing so deeply at times that I wasn’t the way I was (“foolish”, “embarrassing”, etc. etc.) and what I was called by others. That’s how I felt again. I was hoping for today to be an exciting and also peaceful day. It’s rarely like that when it comes to big events actually, with this family.

#I don’t want to perform there feeling like this #b

Relationship with my dad? Do I even have one?

I feel awful after coming back from some social event held by/involving people closer to my age. I feel so awkward, gross, and am uninteresting and boring to others. I feel so uncomfortable with/as myself. My sensitivity makes me worry and feel bad about others’ reactions and behaviours towards me. I think about their facial expressions, responses, looks, tone of voice, etc. I feel the same way about online interactions. There are so many things bothering me right now…. memories of experiences online/offline with certain people and in certain places, the person I am overall, family, my surroundings and the place I live in, the world and the way things work, the way people are, my own lack of comprehension and knowledge, disappointment with various aspects of myself. I weirdly feel bad for people, often for inexplicable reasons. It’s been so long and I’ve been in the same situation. I am worried and fearful, and uninterested. I’ve realized that being out and the process before it has gotten horrendous; the specific reasons for that eat away at me from the inside. I am so lacking in the desire to really be here. I feel removed and so down so low. I am concerned and unconcerned. I am sick of even talking so much about what I feel and what I see and saying I, I, I; it’s tiring. But I am all I have, constantly. I feel rotten.

#ramble #b

Went to a music festival yesterday too and only stayed a short while; it was horrendous and so boring. The girls and guys I see whom are around the same age as me, it feels like they live in such different dimensions. I feel like shit among them. I feel such hatred for my existence, and I couldn’t speak of some of the main reasons to anybody.

#b

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I see the harm everywhere in everything, even the ‘pleasant’, but I don’t have enough knowledge to comprehend it and its sources and links. I feel lost, confused, blind, and simultaneously intensely aware. But it makes me so disappointed, uninterested, hopeless, devoid of strong positive emotions; I see no point in those pleasant things going on. I feel such sadness and anger. Today I went to the mall again and felt these things.

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I came back disappointed. I went to sleep. I woke up accompanied by such disappointment and displeasure; it’s such a shift being asleep and then waking to (your) reality. I feel horrendous right now, filled with green, purple, and black.

#b

I see the harm everywhere in everything, even the ‘pleasant’, but I don’t have enough knowledge to comprehend it and its sources and links. I feel lost, confused, blind, and simultaneously intensely aware. But it makes me so disappointed, uninterested, hopeless, devoid of strong positive emotions; I see no point in those pleasant things going on. I feel such sadness and anger. Today I went to the mall again and felt these things.

#b

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