I have obsessive, stalkerish, and sometimes violent tendencies and this blog is my outlet for that.
Triggering themes are heavily present, including but not limited to:
β₯ violence
β₯ murder
β₯ self-harm
β₯ possessiveness
β₯ manipulation
β₯ stalking
β₯ abduction
β₯ cannibalism
β₯ (con)abuse
If any of that makes you uncomfortable, it's best you not interact. This blog is not a promotion of these behaviours, but it is a safe space for the people prone to them.
I block as i see fit, but here's an insight to more set-in-stone reasons:
DNI + BYF
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Askbox rules:
β₯ If you reach out, include the word "fester" to help confirm you're not a bot. It's not required, but it is appreciated.
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This is a side-blog so I'll interact from another. I can't follow or like posts from here. I don't really mind if anyone finds my main, but I won't be linking it here.
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Look, I am NOT possessive or jealous. I just need you to send me screenshots of every single text you send to everyone and their answer, always. Easy, isn't it?
yeah, no kidding about things turning sour very suddenly. i had my doubts that i'd stick with that answer to that ask for long and i'm already rethinking it again. honestly, i think the memories that don't waver much are when i go for walks and find cool things or get to spend time with my cats. i really appreciate them
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overall? i've generally preferred purple throughout my life, maybe on the side of indigo. i've been partial to light blue for a while now too though. sometimes pink as well, but i'm more particular with the exact hue and shade for that. as far as clothes go, i primarily wear black. i'd say my answer depends on context, all of these are good in different ways.
i haven't really been sure how to answer this. i got this ask during an emotionally difficult time so everything seemed very sour. that happens easily, where the things i cherish most suddenly seem like a way of mocking where i am now. even then, i wouldn't change everything about them.
some of the memories i value most are the ones where i make a difference for the better in other people's lives, and when i can connect to them in ways that we struggle to find in any other corner of life. that way, even if things go poorly for me, i know that something positive still came from it. that maybe what hurts me might be solace to someone else. it's easier to accept in a way than something that hurts everyone.
all of this to say that every situation is complex and has give and take, which definitely applies to the best parts of my life as well. i think if i really had to pinpoint a specific moment, it'd be the day i befriended the person who inspired me to be where i am today. all the simple things that showed me something worth striving for, and how i gained acceptance when i felt like i least deserved it. one thing that stands out from then is how i gave them a tissue that night, and how they later told me that it showed them that i was kind even in the moments they thought they were gross.
that's ultimately what i want to be for people. i didn't expect it to be reciprocated, especially since we'd only just met, but that person has become one of my biggest supports and i hold onto all the small things that got me here. before then i had been in the most isolated point of my life in years, and i never expected to find myself taken from that so soon. it just goes to show that there's hope in ways you can't predict. it all happened because of chance; i would've never been there had it not been for an unlikely lineup.
i realise a lot of this is vague but it's hard for me to call out just one thing and i'd want to do things justice if i really talked about them. not to mention my memory's been sort of fuzzy lately. some of my other asks touch on things i'd say fall into this, at least.
tldr i really appreciate the small moments i have with friends who either inspire me to be better or when i can inspire them to be better too
not to be rude but some of y'all need to look on the bright side sometimes. like, yeah sure the world is fucked and people suck and we all die whatever, sure, but like. go outside.
i'm not saying the cure for depression is touching grass. however, if you surround yourself with sad things and talk about how terrible life is and how much you're suffering and never take a breath and remember it's not all bad, you'll end up making yourself worse.
stalking your socials and sending you reaffirming messages when you're down, with just enough convenient timing to comfort you without being suspicious <3
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i hope all your friends die so you learn to stop taking me for granted. i hope their loss makes you too afraid to let anyone new into your life in case it happens again. i'll be the only one left to comfort you, and you'll never want to stray from your final friend. you'll always be at my side just as i'll be at yours for the rest of our lives. and you'll be happy to have me there, just as you were always meant to.
hey. hey, pay attention to me. don't you want to spend time together? yeah? so why don't you let me join you? don't you like me? nobody cares about you like i do, nor do they know you like i do, so why spend time with anyone else? i'm all you'll ever need, so just focus on me instead. what could possibly be more important to you?
i need to be a cute stalker who gets away with it by being too endearing, for nobody to suspect i'd ever do such a thing because i'm so friendly.
if my victim ever noticed and tried to tell anyone, nobody would be able to believe them. after all,
they'd never do that, it's just too out of character!
are you sure you're not just imagining it or misinterpreting?
you must be kidding, right?
until everyone thinks they're just being paranoid or petty, when in reality it's all true :3
you're better than this world, so don't waste your breath on it. you only deserve the best, after all. no matter how much i ache for your attention, i don't deserve for you to notice me. you're far too divine and i fear i'll only get in your way. nothing is even near perfect enough for you.
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i've been thinking of making an update post. i've been staying offline more often because i've been doing better not using tumblr every time i'm unwell. sure, i still like visiting here and there, but i've been trying not to get stuck in these thought cycles as much. it's a lot easier to fall into them when i'm on here. i love this community but i need to be less active in it for my own sake. thanks to everyone who has been a part of it with me, even if we're not specifically friends. hope y'all are doing well.
given that this is on anon, i can't respond to it very personally. there's only a couple people this is likely to be, and i'm not quite sure what to say; especially with how indirect the approach is. is the goal just to get this feeling out somewhere, or are you genuinely trying to reach out?
