babygirl.

Honestly there’s so much I wanna say. So much I want to explain but then I think about all those times you left me on the floor aching because your ego meant more than caring for the “love of your life” and I stop. I gave everything I had. You sucked me dry in more ways I can describe. And here you are again trying to tell me that I didn’t give it a chance. Didn’t give you a chance to be a better man. But you don’t see what you’ve done to me. I was the most vulnerable version of me that I’ve ever been. I felt naked and exposed and you took advantage of that and you nitpicked and you belittled and you degraded until I became numb. You disguised your mediocre efforts by doing the bare minimum and throwing it in my face… while I was trying to build a life with a man who didn’t even know his future had me in it. You manipulated every situation into me trying to control our lives but no one even knew we were building one together if it’s up to you. I kept telling myself our love is enough to get through any obstacles but every time it got hard, you bailed. So at some point, the disappointment just never left and that’s all I had left of the man I loved.

He was no longer the man of kindness and potential. He no longer loved me for my soul or who I was. He was no longer the man I thought I’d spend my life with.