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I’ve hated my life for so long I’ve been depressed for so long I’m so sad and empty.

Ik ppl say to not rely on shifting like this but I don’t want to get better I just want my life to change.

I’m taking steps to get better in this world I’m on meds and I’m looking for a therapist.

I have parents and family who’d do anything for me and it’s still not enough. I still dream of a better life. I just think I want my depression to leave. And I want a more exciting life. Bc I feel like this world isn’t good enough. When I focus on this world I see how much I’m lacking how much I hate everything I think of what I’d rather have and shifting offers that.

I probably sound psychotic. I don’t want to try anymore I want the freedom of my dr of finally shifting. I want that power and idk what to do nothing is getting me there nothing has worked everything is going wrong and I just want it to go right I have nothing left to do yet I’m still here and it hurts

I’m so desperate but ik nothing technically matters no matter how much time I’m here it doesn’t measure up to the eternity I have waiting for me once I successfully shift.

But I want it so badly

I keep convincing myself that this awful feeling I hate somehow points me to shifting that I’ll shift soon bc of this feeling that I’m closer than ever

And at the same time I feel like I’m missing something abt my DR Ik everything abt it and even if I didn’t my mind knows it like it would work out anyway bc if I don’t like something I can just shift again

I think a lot of ppl think of shifting (and manifesting) as not the physical thing but as the feeling they get in the end, and that’s just not what I want. I want to actually physically experience it. I don’t want to live in the end to the point of when it comes I don’t need it. I want to want something and have it. And ppl act like u can do that. But when I’ve actually talked to them it’s just some type of loa (affirming and acting as if or treating like an order coming). They say ur in control but to ignore ur 3d. If I was truly in control I should want something in my 3d and then it be there a split second later. But ppl like to argue against this and say that if that’s how reality worked than every thought would immediately materialize making the 3d highly unstable, that’s why repetition is needed. But then why when I repeat an affirmation over and over again or truly beleive something it still doesn’t materialize in the 3d. It’s just annoying to me that I’ve tried to apply everything I’ve been told but it just doesn’t work like they say. (This isn’t an assumption I made before I did it. I would do the methods fully believing they’d work and then they still didn’t). And then I’m told to not listen to other ppl’s advice. But bro I’m just fucking sick of it I can’t get back to where I didn’t hear this advice. And still when I do stuff I want to do it doesn’t materialize. Like bro they say “do what you want” but all I want is for shit to be in the 3d I don’t care what will get me there as long as it does, but the only fucking advice is to not care abt ur 3d. If I don’t care abt my 3d than I wouldn’t shift or manifest id just live whatever fucking life I live and day dream.

If u read all of that, thank you. And if u have any advice please give it.

Everytime I see a post of shifting/manifesting methods ESPECIALLY the ones that involve loa (law of assumption) it’s like they don’t understand the whole point is to get it now. See originally I was into manifesting and I tried loa and other methods but it just didn’t work and loa’s distant and unknowable timeline became too strenuous on my life. So I found shifting, what was said to me as quick instant manifesting, loa now is making it again a long drawn out process.

Loa is annoying to me bc I’m an impatient person and also it just doesn’t make sense logically when u remove loa from manifestation. I saw a post that talked abt loa feeling like half the manifestation/shifting equation, and I completely agree. But when I looked at the comments it was just ppl being defensive towards loa or saying they did it wrong. And I think where loa becomes to annoying is for two reasons.

One bc you’re not allowed to look at the world around u, if you ever mention not seeing your desire after x amount of tries you’re told your not living in the end state even tho u were previous to making that post and therefore loa should’ve worked. It just keeps everyone in a vacuum of doing loa without being able to logically and accurately talk abt it.

Two bc for them it’s abt the process. They seem to enjoy affirmations and being while not having their desire. And I think that’s legitimately true for ppl especially those with fear surrounding their desire. So for them loa is perfect bc it’s all abt pretending/affirming until u get ur desire at an unknown date. So to them it doesn’t matter when they actually get it bc at least I think they’re scared or don’t want to experience it.

I wasn’t around for the shiftok when there was the “misinformation”. In the sense of you have to lay flat on ur back and drink tons of water and do all your work. But I don’t think that’s was all that bad than what we have in comparison. Bc with that “misinformation” at least it was productive and it contributed positively to ur life. And also if it didn’t work there wasn’t as much victim blaming, or maybe there was I just have never seen stuff abt it. Whereas now it’s all conceptual stuff it’s abt being in a state of having without wanting. And there r all these arbitrary rules to loa that just don’t make sense. And there is now tons of victim blaming, bc like I said earlier you can’t critique it without being called out for not living in the end for one moment. Loa also focuses on more reasons why it doesn’t work than why it does. I don’t see actual proof of the loa working outside of manifestation. I get that this shouldn’t be abt proof but if ppl want to claim this is how the entire world works then I should see it in my life outside of manifesting/shifting. But I don’t.

Basically…….

Shifting at one point was do this and shift now! But with so much loa involved it’s now do this, don’t look at the world around u, and it’ll come.

Bro I’ve been trying to shift and manifest for forever and I HATE loa it’s so dumb to me. Bc it just doesn’t work outside of manifestation. Loa is the belief that your beliefs/assumptions/repeated thoughts (they all mean the same thing) create reality. That your imagination creates the physical 3d reality. But this is why it doesn’t make sense to me. Before I went to school, played a sport, or learned abt government and politics I had no beliefs/assumptions/repeated thoughts abt those topics. From loa since I had no beliefs/assumptions/repeated thoughts concerning those subjects then they don’t exist. Like if I’m created reality and I’m not aware of something it shouldn’t exist. And I thought of a few counter arguments to this: as a kid you believe/assume/repeatedly think that you don’t know everything -> you’d later come to experience things with no previous beliefs/assumptions/repeated thoughts abt those topics. But sometimes kids genuinely beleive they know everything. Like Santa, most kids fully beleive in him or at least I did, yet I was crushed to see a box with our elf in it therefore showing Santa isn’t real. But in loa bc I believed in him I should’ve never seen proof he wasn’t real I should’ve never experienced that. And ppl also blame your subconscious but that doesn’t fully make sense either bc your subconscious is more of a physical thing taking care of automatic bodily behaviors which means a physical thing is constraining your manifestation/reality creating power.

I don’t really care to argue abt these things. I just want to find ppl, primarily those who are consistently successful in shifting/manifesting without using loa, but those who agree with my belief system would also be nice.

I’ve just been struggling with this for so long and I want it to work so badly but no matter what methods I’ve done it still hasn’t come and I’m sick of trying to ignore the 3d or whatever you wanna call it when you don’t let the 3d control your assumption but literally all I want is my desire IN THE 3D

Please tell me there’s ppl who agree/can help me

I genuinely cannot keep waking up here. It’s awful and terrible. And ik someone is gonna be like “well work on ur life here” but I’m just so sick of it. And if shifting real like all of u say it is then why would I do the work if I can just shift???? I wouldn’t.

I’m so scared that I’ll never shift and all this effort goes to nothing. I’ve tried so many methods I haven’t found “new information” in months. The closest thing I’ve found is to just do what u want (which I already know) but from the perspective that ur subconscious/awareness knows what to do to shift already. But I’m still not shifting.

Everyday here is hell it’s awful I want to shift I want to leave. I can not do another second. I hope to god I never see this post again bc I’ve perma shifted.

Ik ppl say shifting is inevitable but sometimes this daily hellscape outweighs that hope I just want to shift why haven’t I

I want shift so badly and idk what to do anymore

Ik I sound like a crying baby it’s bc I am and I’m just so tired

Background: I’m a high schooler and I have liked this guy all year. I’m pretty nerdy I would say and this guy is popular and a grade older than me. We had a class together last semester and I would talk to him when we’re assigned together. He’s kind of ugly (acne, just all around not super conventionally/aesthetically attractive). And he’s also not very smart. But he’s on a varsity sports team at our school (which is not the main reason I like him btw). Ik it sounds bad how I’m describing him I’m just trying to be accurate to how my friends also see him ig. Anyway I’ve liked him all year and our moms are friends. And I would go to his sports games with my friends. I DMed him once when he went to the playoffs saying that he played well and that he deserved to go. But I talked with my friends and some of them thought it was good and other ones said that my DM didn’t really open it up to a conversation. Also I follow him but he doesn’t follow me and the message never left pending. (This is on insta if u couldn’t tell) so after a week I unsent the message and currently I have no classes with him not but my friend has two classes with him. And our friends r not in the same circle at all.

I really want to talk to him and idk date him if he’d want that….. idk if I should DM him again or what I should do or just let it fade….. 😭😭😭

I have been trying for years now. I have tried every method I can find. Every mindset. Every everything. And I’m so done.

I saw a post on here a while ago saying something along the lines of “you’re creator so just decide and that’s enough and the 3d will change” but still nothing is working.

I don’t want bullsh1t like just affirm and keep persisting, try your own methods, the 3d delays. Bc I’ve tried this. And also the 3d delaying makes no since bc if we’re shifting/manifesting it should be instant, like how quickly it shows up should be our decision.