Drowning In Ship

Something just clicked in my head. Been referring to myself as a writer for years and all of a sudden I’m ’aspiring filmmaker’ in my own head.

(Still writing of course. And singing and dancing and playing piano and hey time to have a go at some art and the acting as always….)

I mean, making films is something I’ve wanted to do for a while now but it’s been one of plethora of things and something has just clicked in my head and pushed it to the front.

Only one thing - I would have liked to have had Ethan find Benji injured in the hospital or in the vaults. I understood why it didn’t happen - didn’t want to break the flow from Ethan’s landing, Luther’s speech, and then the reunion but my Benthan heart yearned for it. But at least there’s a plethora of brilliant fanfics about it.

Or a moment in Trafalgar Square where we see Ethan and Benji speak. But again, I understand why not - Ethan has chosen to walk away from missions and join Benji, and we are left standing where Grace stands, watching him walk away. We get to see the missions and all that happened but the life Ethan is walking away to - that’s not a mission, that’s his chosen peace, and we are not allowed to see that.

So be prepared….

Spoilery stuff below

Grace thinks himself a coward, so does Benji (of course I’m afraid of dying!)

Both have a enquiring, curious mind that comes up with innovative solutions

Both found themselves in a position they didn’t expect, didn’t want, but lived up to - Grace solving the Petrova problem, Benji a team leader and all that came with it.

Both had someone by their side who had absolute faith in them (Ethan and Stratt/Rocky)

Both lost people they cared about on this mission. And both felt so deeply about that loss.

And then the bomb destroys him a little more and then Ilsa’s death and he keeps going and going

And it’s probably not healthy at all. When Ethan sent him away he probably should have said ‘ok’. In fact I thought Ethan was going to find him and give the ‘I can’t do this without you’ speech. But it was Benji who refused to give up.

And by TFR he’s together again, no longer falling apart at the seams. I think Benji needs someone to look after. Ethan was pulling away in DR (probably thinks it’s safest for Benji) but by TFR Benji has Luther to look after and whatever happened between DR and TFR, Ethan and Benji clearly had at least one revelatory conversation about not pulling away and about needing each other and about letting down walls with each other because Ethan just collapses into Benji’s arms when he sees him and now Benji is the one looking at him with gentle care.

But - I wanted them to find each other. Aziraphale and Crowley. They spent so long apart, loving each other so fervently and so silently, agonising that their time together could lead to them losing each other but unable to stay away.

They deserved happy ending in this universe.

Benthan Bingo 2026 PROMPT 7 ‘You need to wake up because I can't do this without you.'

The Cord That Binds Us Can't Be Broken (9030 words) by RebeccaStevenTaylor Chapters: 4/4 Fandom: Mission: Impossible (Movies) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Benji Dunn/Ethan Hunt, Benji Dunn & Ilsa Faust Characters: Benji Dunn, Ethan Hunt, Ilsa Faust, Luther Stickell Additional Tags: Post-Mission: Impossible - Rogue Nation (2015), Angst, Major Character Injury, Explosions, Fire, Hurt/Comfort Summary: Ilsa Faust needs Benji for a mission, and he's happy to join her - without telling Ethan. But when it all goes wrong, Ethan has to rescue Benji

Benthan Bingo 2026 Prompt 4 'This is by far the dumbest thing you've ever done'

Cinders (2164 words) by RebeccaStevenTaylor Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Mission: Impossible (Movies) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Benji Dunn/Ethan Hunt Characters: Benji Dunn, Ethan Hunt, Cinders the Cat Additional Tags: Fluff, there's a cat Summary: Rescuing a kitten maybe the dumbest thing Ethan has ever done

and Benthan Bingo prompt 7, which was a Wild Card, and I chose 11 "when I picture myself happy it's with you'

Not Alone (2622 words) by RebeccaStevenTaylor Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Mission: Impossible (Movies) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Benji Dunn/Ethan Hunt Characters: Benji Dunn, Ethan Hunt Additional Tags: Angst, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Trauma, Longing, Post-Mission: Impossible - Rogue Nation (2015) Summary: Benji is surprised to find out that Ethan won't go on missions until Benji is ready