Drowning In Ship

And then thinking about how physically distant Ethan was with Benji through most of DR - even the shoulder touches were done with Ethan facing away from Benji

And how they seem to have got closer, how Benji knows his hug will be welcomed, is what Ethan needs and how Ethan without thinking takes his comfort from Benji - I’m guessing that very soon after DR and before Benji left for London, the two of them had another conversation about how Benji will not leave him, but also Ethan admitting, perhaps for the first time to Benji, perhaps for the first time to himself, just how much he needs Benji, how Benji makes it all better. How he survives and keeps going for Benji.

And poor Carter, not wanting to let Benton know that he slipped. And then being so ashamed he can’t look him in the face when he admits it.

(Also that Carter knows Benton well enough to know he’ll be using a mathematical formula to choose med students)

These two know each other so well and Benton has such faith and hope in Carter, even relies on him in the ER.

All amazing. All emotional. Just fantastic.

Looks like Tom Cruise is going onto the ice again...

(and on my god, Sandra Huller!!!!)

And usually behaviour like this is condemned or looked upon as weird and unsettling. And sometimes I wonder whether my fandom obsessions are too much, should I dial it down.

But this exhibition wasn’t like this. These shrines are treated with understanding, love, admiration, respect. And the people who talked about their shrines talked of the joy and love and hope and inspiration and connection their fandom had bought to their lives.

Made me rethink fandom and my fandom obsession. It does give me a lot of joy. It brings me to friends. It helps me create. It gives me hope and inspiration and ambition.