I wish depression were an emergency. I wish someone could take one look at how sick I am and go “oh my god, we need to get you to a hospital!” and then when we get there I get rushed into surgery and the surgeons say “it’s a good thing you brought her here when you did, this is a seriously advanced case” and then they put me under and spend the next ten hours pulling metres of long, sticky black strands of gunk out of my body, throwing it immediately into an incinerator so that it can’t infect anyone else. And then they could stitch me back up and I could rest a few days, and when I leave the hospital everyone can see how much better I am and they congratulate me saying “well done, you’ve been so brave, I’m so glad you’re ok. I love you.”

imposter syndrome is so funny like fuuuuck i hope nobody finds out im tricking people into thinking im competent by knowing things and doing them

ok note to self i gotta leave the house regularly so that i dont feel like im slowly transforming into an evil fucking shadow clone of myself

So as it turns out your sense of self doesnt exist in a vacuum. You gotta actually use it and bounce it off of other people like echolocation to see where you are as a person and shit. So if you dont regularly interact with other people the echoes just get weaker and weaker and before you know it your personality is a blurry fucked up fog clone of its former self. which it sucks because this makes it really hard to interact with people again but yknow

i cannot hate myself into a version of me i will love.

i cannot punish myself in any way that will unmake the past.

i hope a ceiling fan falls on the empty spot in the bed next to you and it starts understanding your needs

stop reblogging this post without the art this is the only version that exists now

hate to be a "it's not you it's me" person but it really is me a lot of the time. like, if i'm scared for my life because someone is talking in a frustrated tone, it doesn't mean they're a dangerous person for experiencing frustration, it means i'm projecting past adverse experiences onto them. I feel like it's important to notice when you're projecting instead of just saying "trust your gut" in every situation when you're aware your perspective is skewed

I genuinely think there was no greater insight into the modern Christian mindset than when the Pope said he very much hoped Hell was empty and he was absolutely hounded by both Catholics and Protestants outraged at the idea of a man who wanted a place of infinite suffering to have nobody in it.

I wish i was different i wish it all was different . *cleans and does laundry *

Why does being really sleepy either make u feel mellow and content or like you're going to actually kill yourself for real this time & no in-between