clutching at starlight

Babe you’re so delusional you belong in a Dostoevsky novel

when i saw this i thought about you (i love you) when i heard this i thought about you (i love you) when i made this i thought about you (i love you) when i

they should invent a being in your twenties in which you do not feel your life is unsalvageable and ruined

Ksenya Istomina (Russian), Nightfall, 2023, Oil on canvas

sometimes I see older people and I’m like... how do you do it? how do you cope with the loss of people and places and things as life progresses

hi everyone. does anybody else miss something they can never return to. anyone else being swallowed whole by grief. anyone else clinging to love as a life preserver

I miss everything and will never get any of it back. whatever

one thing about orpheus and eurydice is you guys are all like “i’m different i wouldnt turn to look at her” because you are all familiar with the story of orpheus and eurydice. but orpheus wasnt familiar with the story because he was in it lol.

“i wouldn’t look back bc logically if she’s not there it wouldnt help to look and if she is there looking back would cause me to lose her” cool so has love never made you stupid and insane

another thing thats interesting is i think most people assume its a walk of reasonably short length that you have to resist looking back. but we dont know how long that walk was. its out of the underworld, time could work very differently. could be days. could be months. could you walk for months without looking back to see if your love is okay? i dont think you could

I think you carry the people you’ve loved with you forever, not in a ‘you can never get over them’ way but more like loving them changed you and it meant something and you have to make peace with that

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