I Have A dream

Loyalty is extremely rare to come by in this generation. Most people are too self-centred, it's all about them and their needs only.They just do what they please without a care of how it may effect others,hurt others. People lose interest fast. When they see something in someone else they don't see in you, they might think, this guy/girl has these traits but the person i'm currently with does not, so i'll stay with both and keep them both around cause i have something to gain from both. People are at times so quick to choose a good time over a good thing. They lack the true meaning of morals and values.

An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. "A fight is going on inside every single one of us" he said to the boy. "It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil-be is anger, envy,sorrow, regret,greed,arrogance, self-pity, resentment, hatred, false pride, superiority, jealousy, bitterness, and ego." The other stands for, peace happiness, love, hope, serenity, kindness, friendship, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, benevolence, humility, forgiveness, and faith". The grandson thinks on it for a few moments, then replies.. "well, how will i know which one wins" The grandfather says " whichever one you feed into the most".

Unfortunately, just because something is familiar, doesn't mean it's good for you. You might feel comfortable in situations that are actually very limited. Just because that's what you're use to. If you have low self-esteem you may feel more 'at home' with people who perpetuate that myth around you because that's how you're used to seeing yourself. Unconcious this might feel much safer to you than the terrifying unknown beyond your own self-imposed walls.

if you have karma to resolve in the close relationships, you may be sucked into a whirpool if repetitive past patterns and behaviour that appears to have very little to do with your concious wishes and actions. But because you know the pattern, you're compelled to repeat them.

Change your perception, change the world.

For what reason on earth could it be?

Is it the way i dress? Is it my character, or the way i speak? I dress the only way i know how. I dress to feel comfortable, not to impress. It is no more justified to judge a person on their style, than it is to judge them on their lack therefor. It is like judging how a walnut will taste by examining the bumps and ridges on it's shell. The two entities, though one unit, are not directly related to one another. I dress the only way i know how.

Perhaps it is how i speak.

I speak the only way i know how. My speech is for clarification, not for impression. Why is it that one group denotes my speech as 'too proper' Whereas another group see's it as 'not proper enough'.

If i want to be down, i have to speak a certain way. If i want to rise up, i have to speak a certain way. Or so they say...

You know what i say?

I say my voice is my character. To know my speech is to know me. But i am afraid they do not see it my way. I don't think anyone see's it my way..

I wonder if it is the way i carry myself. My personality is not one that stands out. Except to those who are in my soul. Low-key you might say, is the word for me. At least that is what you see. Unless i let you in.

But for some this is my drawback. They use my personality as a means to discredit me. Telling me that i'm this or that. Placing me in a category because of my choice. Can't they see? I am just like they, and they, like me. If you strip away all the matter we are all the same. But they will never see me as such. So they use my personality as a crutch. To justify their false beliefs in facts they themselves cannot prove.

Is that what we have come to?

Or is it the defining factor that our society chooses to be. To separate us? Is it my race that keeps me from the fit? For me answer is two sided, you see yet joined in one, in it's simplicity. I'll admit, 'race' has been a benefit and a burden i'm sure you can agree. But what is so important about this four letter word?

For some it is the ladder upon which they climb. For others it is the heavy chain that choked the very life form from them. For the vast majority, it is very significant, it is the reason they feel they don't fit.

What does race mean to me?

One to straddle boundaries between in night and day? Race is just a word. Simply a word. Not a barrier to be crossed. Not an obstacle to overcome my very existence. A word.

For many years i tried to hard to live a life.. a normal life. But i can't escape this dark shadow that's always creeping up beside me. For many year's I tried to hide my true self. Fighting my battles quietly inside me. Afraid to say something and open up. This dark shadow that has taken over my life, fearful of being judged, misunderstood. I thought hiding it is for the best. Though this dark shadow won't give me rest. Many night's I cried myself to sleep asking 'why me'? why it had to be me? But i can't seem to find the answers. I just happened to be an innocent sufferer of this dark shadow that never leaves me. Even when i beg and plead.

Secrets

Hidden from our feelings

Hidden from our soul.

Blocked to keep us moving,

As they take a heavy toll.

How long will we hold it

Silent to the pain

Lost is isolation.

Feeling marked like by a stain.

There is no undoing

No un-ringing of the bell.

There is only reliving

This memory trip through hell.

There is no joy in secrets.

When pain is in your heart.

It's time to do some sharing

I change my life when i change my thinking.

I am light. I am spirit.

I am a wonderful, capable being.

And it's time for me to acknowledge that.

I create my own thought's.

No response is a response. And it's a powerful one.

You can do a hundred things right, but it takes only one thoughtless, reactive action to destroy it all. As we grow spiritually, we must attempt to enter into a state of non-judgementalism, and be more unconditional in our capacity to be more loving, tolerant and forgiving of others. Think of how many friendships and relationships with loved ones have been lost, damaged or permanently destroyed within a second as a result of being reactive. Especially, never speak in anger. Redirect your speech in prayerful meditation. Words are so powerful. What you say can never be erased, it becomes akashic record. It will follow you to infinity, it will even hurt your personality and your reputation. Use your words to heal, uplift, build and bless everyone. Do not use your words to divide and destroy others. Sometimes when you want to react, wait. It is important to practice the spiritual art of waiting because so much more is revealed in time and this leads to positive spiritual transformation. Look back over your life and remember times when you reacted and later, realize that waiting would have been better for you and everyone else. By taking time for ourselves, we allow divine intelligence to work on the subconscious level in ourselves and others so that we may be shown what to do next. The process of not reacting is a spiritual practice that develops your awareness. It makes you more conscious and open to listen to the voice of divine wisdom causing you to see things from a broader perspective. When you are more conscious your character starts to change. A conscious person is more compassionate. Happiness is not possible without self-discipline. For us to operate from a place of pure consciousness we have to be completely free from all negative conditionings, all complexes, all unhealthy likes and dislikes and prejudices so that we may have absolute neutrality. All situations we are faced with happen in order to provide us with opportunities for growth and learning. They prepare us for things that may happen in the future to ourselves or others. In the present moment these things cannot so clearly be seen. By not reacting we allow ourselves to enter more into a neutral space of our own divinity, then it becomes clear, in time, why things unfolded the way they did. We must keep in mind that the Creator always reveals his vastness and infinite wisdom to mortal minds over time. In the same way you must always look at the actions of a true Spiritual Master over time. Above all, it is important for us to work upon ourselves constantly in order to ensure that in a moment of forgetfulness we do not become reactive and hurt anyone who has done something that, according to our mortal perception, is seen as being wrong or having caused us frustration or anger. Our perception of reality can change our reality, and through our words and actions we can change that reality for others as well. If we choose to see sunshine then that is what we will see, and we will not give power to the dark clouds that loom to spoil the day. If we choose to focus on the negative aspect of everything, then negativity will penetrate the way we see everything. If we choose to go through our challenges with a smile on our face, then our challenges will never have a chance to cling to us like mud. When, through a lack of consciousness, we choose to give the power of our good feelings and of our joy over to somebody who is excessively critical, then we allow our good feelings and joy to be clouded by their negativity. As a result of giving away our power, we spiral down and down into the mud. Do not allow an overly critical person to make you feel negative. Some overly critical people often have unreasonably high expectations of their own accomplishments and personal behavior. Most of them are smart, talented and effective. Sometimes they are so set in their ways that their narrowmindedness causes them to constantly complain and look down on those who do not share their limited view of life If someone is criticizing everything that

I forgive you...

For the way you treated me. I forgive you for stabbing me in the back. I forgive you for turning your back on me when all i gave you was unconditional love. I forgive you for all the lies, cheating, deceit, pain, envy, and most of all the suffering.. oh, the suffering i endured through the rough times when you had your back turned to me like i meant nothing to you.

I forgive you for everything. You taught me lessons i needed to learn. Important valuable life lessons such as strength, self love, self respect, and the value of oneness.I needed to learn these lessons, i am now stronger because of you. I know now what kind of people i need to be around, and i learned that because of you.

So thank you for treating me in the ways you did, because i now know i am better off. I release all my hatred and resentment i once felt for you. You no longer have close ties to my heart. I am no longer holding a grudge against you.