running tests on seashells

Yes this is about Octavian my vengeful king, look he learns to love again after so many decades of being too scared to fail the people close to him and you betray him by giving that up?? Deserved lbr. And I think Lucanis would agree with that too; Bad Ending is also the Lucanis Rock Bottom Ending.

The true end for him in my setup is that he leaves the Crows: he has a blowup fight with Caterina after months of diplomatically going along with First Talon training even though he has little intention of actually doing the job once she's dead and not acting as First. And it's all because his friendships from VG make him want for more than what Caterina made him to be. And it's the close intimacy and trust and support of Rook/Octavian that gives Lucanis the courage and motivation to seek it out.

It’s so unusual and unexpected. You don’t think an NPC would have this kind of agency, especially after you did all the right things and pressed all the right buttons and got into their pants. This is where romance storylines tend to end: they boned, and lived happily ever after.

But… no. Hawke does nothing wrong, as far as we know. The sex was, at the very least, ‘fine’. But Fenris doesn’t want to risk another flashback, or just too upset by the first one, or simply feels this is all too much and too soon, as he says. And he leaves. There’s no discussion. He apologises, he knows this will hurt Hawke, but he’s not letting Hawke talk him into anything. He doesn’t even explain all that much, and frankly he doesn’t need to. Of course he’s free to walk away from a relationship he doesn’t want, or isn’t ready to have. 

And that’s Hawke! Fenris’ first and, at the time, still only friend. The only person Fenris can count on to have his back if the hunters come for him again. (And this scene happens after A Bitter Pill, so hey they just did) By then Fenris is getting closer to Aveline, Varric and Isabela at least, but he probably knows that if they’re forced to pick a side they’ll choose Hawke. So Fenris risks severing all the connections he’s made in Kirkwall, if Hawke is hurt and offended enough to throw away their friendship.

Fenris really thinks that’s a possibility. He’s relieved and happy when Hawke takes him on a mission again, there’s a banter about that. But he still leaves, even if it’s the hardest thing he’s ever done, because that’s what’s right for him at the time. 

I still can’t believe the things I read about da2 before playing - the people who were angry at Fenris for leaving, who moved on to other LIs and even chose to sell Fenris to Danarius as some kind of punishment for breaking their precious Hawkes’ hearts.

it was gonna be motorcycle shepard and then it was the eighties and then shepard had a guitar? straight 2 your heart i can’t get

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