Oh man but how nice would it be if it was?!?!
We all have those ppl that we follow on social media and we think man their life looks perfect.Ā But itās just a bunch of squares that everyone fills with happy momentsā¦yes I myself do it as well but I also share things that arenāt ācupcakes and rainbowsā.
But I will sayā¦that personās life isnāt perfect, no ones life is āperfectā I mean really what is perfect??Ā I donāt think there is anyone you follow on social media that doesnāt have issues whether they make it known or not may be a different story but I can promise you they are going through something or have gone through something that you as a follower donāt know.
This weekend for some reason was crazy emotional for me, Iām not sure what it was but I know that I am not truly happy with myself, I know that the things in the past couple of months have weighed me down..and while I have the best children, the best husband and iāve had the mind set of āf it iām going to do whatever makes me happyāā¦I still have a lot to work on!
I canāt have anxiety about going out b/c I donāt like the way I feel about myself..I have to work on it. I canāt not talk about things b/c i know that other people have a harder life, I need to talk about things to get it out and I am allowed to feel the way I feel.
The pics that I have here are when I was pregnant with Hayden and then one where I was pregnant with Hunter (my rainbow baby).
To be honest I wasnāt one of those people that loved being pregnant..I actually hated most of it if iām being honest, I wasnāt one of those ācuteā pregnant ppl, I was wellā¦iāll just say not cute!Ā I was always sick, my back was always sore but on the other hand I was so excited to meet these two little onesā¦Annd itās amazing what your body can do!!Ā Feeling a little baby move inside you, seeing their hands and feet punch out at you is truly amazing..they sometimes literally play games with you while they are inside youā¦the womanās body (even though we curse it ladies) is truly wonderful!Ā This being said I would love to go back to that pregnant stage even when I really disliked a lot of the moments..the good always out weighs the bad.
Not everyone has the chance to feel this feeling and my heart hurts for them.Ā Ā I am super lucky I have felt this feeling and because of that I would try my best not to complain and just enjoy itā¦donāt get me wrong Iām not saying I didnāt complain at all b/c I def did!
We wanted a third and we have tried so hard and I am sure the trying is not over but itās def on hold for the moment.Ā I donāt talk about the things that have happened because I feelĀ bad about being sad and I donāt want to sound like iām complaining to others because again we are so insanely lucky to have the amazing two kiddos we have!!Ā But I Iām realizing itās okay to be sad, itās okay to talk about it and itās def okay to be a bit angry and shed a few tears of sadness and frustration.
Even if you are extremely lucky, even if you have an amazing family, an amazing house and an amazing life it doesnāt mean that everything in your life is amazing and itās okay to be sad about things when you go through them and when things donāt happen the way you vision or the way you want them to.
Itās OKAY!!Ā Ā Even though you feel guilty for feeling this way itās okay to and we have to realize that.Ā We have to realize that some things are okay to cry about, to talk about and to be completely and utterly gutted about.Ā So take that time to be angry, take that time to be sad and always always take that time you need to heal and work on what will make you feel better!Ā Remember that no matter how āPerfectā someoneās life looks from the outside, they are probably battling a demon of some sort! Donāt bottle it up and talk to someone!
That being said ā we also have to focus on the amazing and imperfect life that we have b/c the good outweighs the bad and you donāt want the bad to completely consume you..thatās not healthy for anyone!
Letās talk more about the things ppl donāt talk about, lets talk to each other and help each other rise above!
The photos with Hayden in my belly are done by my amazingly talented cousin: You by Mia Photography
The photo of Hayden and I dancing in the field was taken by my other amazingly talented friend Lesley Cowan Photography
āThe World isnāt all Cupcakes andĀ Rainbowsā Oh man but how nice would it be if it was?!?! We all have those ppl that we follow on social media and we think man their life looks perfect.Ā