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The way I broke up with you was fucked up and unfair. I didn’t want to continue to be in a relationship with you, but I should not have let the urgency of that emotion convince me you didn’t deserve kindness and respect. I know things could have gone better if I hadn’t rushed to get out, and instead talked to you like a person about what I wanted.

I convinced myself you were unreasonable when I put you in a situation where you felt discarded and taken for granted. But you have shown in our relationship and so many others that you can move through anger with compassion and practicality. I know this about you because I have seen you work during our entire time together to be that kind of person.

I also know that I would have come out of the relationship in a better position if I had taken the time to end things with care. I’m aware how my urgency sabotaged me. Thank you for being reliable even when I hurt you. That was something you didn’t owe me, but I know you. You would not try to ruin my life out of anger. It wasn’t fair how I referred to your integrity as something unmeetable. After everything it was that integrity that came through for me one last time.

I can’t imagine how much my actions have hurt you. I can try, but I know the scope of damage is wider than I could ever understand. I know you must have felt betrayed that we started this relationship with a dynamic of complete devotion from you, one I willingly encouraged, only for me to feel stifled and restless.

I didn’t leave you for her. I left you because I wanted out of the relationship, but I am sure it must have felt like I left you for her. The timing of everything was perfectly horrible, my college fund included.

I can’t say that security of having that money didn’t reassure me in my decision to leave. I had figured you would be fine since you had the money you saved. You are also very financially responsible. But I don’t imagine you felt very safe with my sudden departure. I’m sorry for that too. I know how scared you are of becoming homeless again.

I shouldn’t have texted people telling them you sent me trash. I know this. I see how that makes my character look after everything. I really did believe you had planned something because you sounded so angry.

But I saw other people burn you and you didn’t retaliate, and I think I was convincing myself further. I wanted you to have sent me trash, I wanted a reason to say you were horrible and that what I was doing was justified.

But it wasn’t.