There's nothing more annoying and digusting to me like mental masturabtion like what are you even doing? I'd rather you take cocaine and meth and actually get high than whatever you're doing right now? Gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous smart girls that grew up academically gifted and extremely pretty with attention on them finding out the adult world doesn't work like that and therefore turning to mental masturbation instead of putting in the work.
Girls that watch all the blogs and videos and read all the books about finance and atomic habits and how to get rich and whatever else for the mental masturbation of feeling like they are doing something for the future and themselves and giving in to the mental meth of more level up posts more motivation more YouTube vlogs more just more just chasing the next high like girl.
The mental masturbation of planning is what actually disgusts me the most like you have a plan you just won't follow it. Planning is just productive procastination like girl you've planned your Level Up 234 times the last half year and proceeded to do nothing. New bullet journal new whiteboard new notion new whatever newwwww form of mental masturbation.
The mental masturbation thats daydreaming especially maladaptive daydreaming and the accompanying diassociation is to me the most disturbing because it requires such extreme levels of self abandonment. Like yeah planning as a form of brain meth sucks but at least theres a desire for better there. Like yes motivation and how to blogs are mental maturbation of course but are you trying to be someone else? Annoying yes, disgusting even , but not so terrible, is it. Diassociation, on the other hand, requires self abandonment. You have to reject yourself so completely that you're literally someone else entirely. You're not 19 at home with your annoying family you're 19 and a celebrity dating Harry styles. Thats literally a whole other person. You're self abandoning to a point your life force is spent on a literal phantom. Like JESUS CHRIST girl get your shit together. This kind of brain porn is the absolute worst like no sit in your body?? Ma'am??
Mental masturbation is disgusting because it all stems from one point-an aversion to responsibility. And if you don't take responsibility for yourself literally what even is life. Like no you made a plan you follow it not run to the high of a new one the exact second it all stops being nice and dandy. Oh No I HaVe To AcTuALLy WoRk FoR WhAt I wAnT WhAt If I PLaN FoR sOmEthiNg ElSe FoR tHe 25673874894th time this month as i do absolutely nothing and just rub one off real quick brain version. Oh NO Achievement Requires Effort How Devastating I Used To Be Smart And Now I hAve To StuDy WhAt IF I JuSt SacRifiCe My DreAmS ToThE ALtAr Of PasT Glory?
I UsEd To- no one cares. Build a relationship and reap the awards of it like a normal person.
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