to indeed be a god

the idea of shane just fucking. REFUSING to acknowledge what's happening as he is CLEARLY having a reaction to something out of nowhere.

ilya is eyeing the hives creeping up over his skin and watching shane get sweaty and clammy and is trying to SO gently be like, "shane, solnyshko, maybe-"

Hudson Williams is so misogynistic he decided to work with female directors for his first projects out of Heated Rivalry.

Hudson Williams hates Black people so much he decided he should have a Black woman as his stylist.

Hudson Williams is so homophobic he chose to play a bottom in gay show with care and his past filmography include include earnest stories about queer relationships and identity.

Hudson Williams is so ableist he chose to portray Shane in a way that was not popular or easy to digest for the masses in order to provide a more realistic portrayal that autistic and other neurodivergent people can connect with.

just imagining someone who was here for the genesis of it like?? last thursday i think?? and yeah yeah pen won't shut up about it but yeah sure i follow.

Anyway, I think if they’re keeping their relationship secret, knowing how locker rooms are, this is absolutely a thing that happens to Ilya before a hotel room hookup but after he learns about Shane’s allergies.

oh man i see this and raise you: ilya coming into the ottawa training center one day and just hollander! 🙅 stay away!! 🙅 no kisses for you!!!

and shane just 🙄 as he continues doing his reps on the rowing machine

and everyone is ??? discord?? fighting??? marital spat?? angry enough that they can't even be near each other in the gym???

Thinking about how in episode 1 we get a front row seat to Shane and Ilya’s first intimate moments, and it’s sweet and sexy and fun. How we’re along for the journey as much as they are.

Thinking about episode 2 and we’re watching Ilya watch Shane, but we’re the ones who really see them.

Thinking about episode 4 at Ilya’s house, how we start out so far away before we press in so close, like we’re right there with them. Thinking about how the frottage almost feels too painful to witness, but they don’t let us look away. How Shane and Ilya lock eyes with us at the end of the episode: I see you. Do you see me?

Thinking about episode 5 and how they shut us out of the Tampa hotel room, like what happens there is too fragile and new to let anyone else see.

and ilya is used enough to allergies atp that he doesn't freak out or anything, so he's already calm, but the kid is like, "it's okay, I'm only a little allergic 🥰"

and ilya just "...y-you know you are allergic but ate them anyway??? why???"

and kiddo "🤤 they're so good 🤤"

and ilya

"new camp rule!! everyone with allergies: 🗣️STOP EATING ALLERGIES🗣️"

to the end result that it's not uncommon for shane to be like, "wait, can i eat this?" about things during team bbqs or something because he was over having fun with a ginger ale and ilya got the rundown because he wanted to know anyway.

but this also then evolves to a game of shane pointing to things that are OBVIOUSLY not safe and asking "can i eat this?" and ilya going "no. bad." purely as a bit. (like bowls of peanuts/cake with slivered almonds on it). and it's just a way of making an important part of their life also feel less heavy. like when it comes time to actually eat, the question is genuine and important, but if they're mingling and just passing by, it's just a funny inside joke.

and it's one ilya reciprocates, too. he has no allergies, but he still points at things and is like, "can i have this?" and shane just "nope. not allowed. forbidden.". and it's a joke.

to THEM.