24/7 Diaper Boy

41 year old gay incontinent 24/7 diaper boy.                                                              I was never a super fan of public rest rooms but I never really thought about diapers either. I met a dom when I was 22 who introduced me to diapers. I wasn’t a fan at first but he had me in a cage without a hole in the front so when I peed it sprayed back all over me. We were out shopping one day and I told him I had to go and could we leave I was told no. When he asked why I don’t I go to the bathroom at the mall. I informed him that I didn’t want to sit on a public toilet to pee. That was a mistake lol. He took me to the bathroom made me stand in front of the urinal open my zipper and told me to go. I obeyed and soaked my pants as the piss sprayed on my stomach and ran down my balls. He continued his shopping and made me walk around in my wet jeans for about an hour before we went to a store where he told the salesman that he needed some new pants for his friend that had an accident. I was allowed to change my pants before we drove home. From then on I was given a choice to wear a diaper when we were out or risk repeating the humiliation. I reluctantly chose the diapers and was never changed while we were out. After 2 months of this he decided I would wear diapers when we were home also. I moved in with him 6 months later and for the next 2 years I was diaper trained to the point of incontinence. I lived with him for 5 years total and I tried to toilet train when he traded me for a younger model or the next challenge as he called it but I was never able to stop soiling myself . I never managed to get back out of diapers completely So I stopped trying at 34 have been 24/7 ever since. I know I need to change by the feel of the diaper but have no idea if or when I am pissing and I mess 3 to 5 times a day