i miss writing

also fuck me eyes playing for a minute or two before alec came out to play was such a lethal crime i think i almost died

that searows concert was amazing like holy shit i felt that whaling business death transcend through my bones

who up crying at the searows concert

i've been fucked from the start and i will never know peace

to deactivate or not deactivate is the real question

i don't think anyone i know will truly know who i am like ever

i like writing in my diary because it's a better way to say things out loud without actually speaking

last night my boyfriend texted that he would get my favorite ethel cain lyrics tattooed on him and he doesn't really listen to her

brought a knife to the gun fight

im so fucking tired but all i wonder is will there ever be a night i get proper sleep