#deactivation

[Reupload of a deactivated account, these are not my images nor words]

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Hello to anyone that may read this I just wanted to make an announcement I made this blog all the way back in the pandemic when I was at the lowest point in my life I was struggling with mental health and and my anxiety and loneliness was at an all time high because I couldn't go outside or interact that much with my friends so I started to self isolate and even pull away from my family and some of my friends It was then I had the most dark moments of my life where a lot of my relationships hit rock bottom and I even lost some people I cared about IRL due to me becoming increasingly self isolated and suffering from an addiction to my phone because it was what I was using to cope with at the time so I made this account to bring myself some comfort and it has been a big help for me and I have gotten better since the pandemic ended due to help and me trying my best to change this blog has been a huge place of comfort and where I formed a lot of actual genuine friends and mutuals so it did help me a lot during my darkest hours but at the same time this blog also represented a very dark point in my life and a lot of my behavior wasn't the best IRL or even sometimes online since I would get paranoid or even so anxious at times that I couldn't sleep because of a interaction I had on here even sometimes close to a full on breakdown causing me to leave for extended periods of time or just shut down or became bitter and angry towards people I thought wronged me I've been trying my best to improve a lot as a person and that includes being more open and trying to please people less or care what they think about to give myself some moments of peace but I find I have a hard time and struggle with that still sometimes especially since my ADHD makes it hard to me to focus or forget to check up on people after a short while I also get super anxious if I ever think I offended somebody and try to apologize best as I can so with all that said I have decided to deactivate this account somewhere around this year the decision I'm making is not exactly new since I have been contemplating this since last year and have even made similar posts to this before but have never posted them and deleted them the reason why I am deleting this blog is because it represents a very dark point in my life and recently someone who I liked the writing of and was mutuals with on here blocked me out of nowhere and I suffered severe anxiety from it and couldn't sleep for nights so I find it more of a stress rather than a joy to keep up on here recently due to my anxiety so I've decided to leave until I get better at managing my emotions so I hope whoever is reading this I hope you know that you probably helped me through a rough time even if we never directly interacted before and I hope you're happy and healthy no matter what and if you still want to keep contact I can give you my discord this post maybe sad since I'm deactivating but don't worry since I probably won't be gone forever I just need to sort out some things in my life and I'll probably come back when I feel I'm ready so I hope whoever reads this understands my decision and thank you for sticking with me despite everything I'm eternally grateful for it

I need my mutuals back asap