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Roman, bursting into his room and falling dramatically on top of Logan, practically bawling: LOGAN DECEIT AND VIRGIL SHOT DOWN MY IDEAS AND NOW I'M STUPID WHAT DO I DO

Logan, sitting with a pen in hand and several stacks of flash cards around him: Oh no, of course not, why would I be-

Roman: Perfect, you're not. Anyways me and Virgil had a debate we need you to settle!

Logan, busting into his room: Roman I need to test how long we can hold our breaths and you're the best at swimming so come with me-

TStweet 09/09/19 : Whew today has been... training, meeting, shower, meeting, review edit, meeting, photoshoot, supply run, film a video, pack suitcase. Annnnd I’m going to NYC & LA this week...

Hi! It is September 8th 2019, and I need your help. Could you take a moment to reblog this post?

Here’s the situation.

I’ve been homeless since June and living in a spare room with a couple of friends. It’s been really rough. They didn’t really think through the cost of an extra person, and they want to help me out, but.. I definitely feel the tension, and I feel so much guilt for not being out on my feet yet. While I try to contribute by cleaning the house, and I do finally have a better job in retail.. it would be a lie to say things haven’t been tense at times. I’ve been trying to pay them back where I can and even set up a gofundme, but it hasn’t gotten too far past the halfway point. The fact is moving out is expensive with having to pay for both the first month’s rent and the down payment, and well… it’s not easy being a homeless person in a spare room with two of your best friends.. not easy at all. There’s definitely been a high emotional cost. Of course, this hasn’t been the only thing, but.. yeah. Let’s just say that I love these people, but… I definitely feel like a burden, and I don’t think I’m entirely wrong in feeling that. Of course they would never tell me that, but.. it’s just not been easy. I want to pay them back, I want to be a good roommate… I am doing what I can, but, it seems like I can’t ever do enough on my own.

I can’t really move back in with my folks, either, even if that was a good idea (which I don’t think it is). They’re currently housing two of my dad’s friends who are also experiencing homelessness and don’t have room for me. It’s not feasible. They’re currently housing my two kitties, who I miss terribly. 

I’m disabled, but getting help for that is lengthy and less than easy, espeically when you don’t really have an address of your own. I can work, and I am working, which makes it harder to get help to make up the difference in the cost of living. I have been hospitalized 6 times for depression, I have ADHD, DPDR, and an unspecified mood disorder, I have endometriosis - it’s ridiculous to list everything to be honest. I’m able to keep out of the hospital with psychiatric help and medication for the endometriosis but it is something I have to be constantly managing. I’m also queer - demisexual, polyamorous, panromantic - and if we’re real I don’t know if I’m cis but I’ve given up on the question. Managing my health is my #1 priority because it has to be. It keeps me out of the hospital and alive. It’s hard, and I don’t get everything right, but it’s better than being dead. I’d like to stay not-dead and out of the hospital. 

So yeah, there’s a lot going on, and I’m quite exhausted by being in the thick of it at this point. I’m glad I still have access to depression treatment because without it… I don’t know where I’d be, you know?

It may not seem like much, and I know these posts get shared and made all the time, but please reblog this. It’s not even the first one I’ve had to make. But the lease on the apartment I’m lucky enough to stay in ends soon, and I really am doing everything I can. I’m working, I’m looking at a second or third job, and I’m just trying to get by. I’m disabled and working full time is extremely difficult, so working two jobs isn’t going to be great either. I’m trying to get what help I can, but a big source of need here is money. Upside, I can finally consistently eat! Downside, I desperately need to not be living in a spare room anymore. I’m even trying to pay back the people I’m living with where I can, but it’s tough. Thanks to the generosity of others I was able to start filing for bankruptcy (yay medical bills!) but it’s not enough to move out. On top of that you guys might’ve seen my post about how google ads told me I could make payments and that was a big fat lie? Yeah… it’s been rough. It’s like every bit of progress I make, I have to buy food, or my meds, or drive to my psychiatrist, or there was the time I had to get a foot xray.. being sick isn’t cheap, neither is eating. I’m glad I’ve got more work now, and I am trying to get a second job, but that’s no guarantee. So I’m asking all of you.

I am working at last - both on art AND in retail, and hoping to finally move out soon. I’m SO CLOSE to not being homeless but I need some help. The lease on this apartment is up soon and I need to be ready to move out before that happens. 

You can help me get back on my feet by 

reblogging this post

becoming a patron

buying a coffee 

reblogging this post for your followers

Giving on PayPal, CashApp ($secretladyspider), or Venmo (Ellerosecunningham)

reblogging / sharing this post

Everything helps, I promise it does. I’m so thankful that I’ve made it this far. Now I need to make it even farther.

Thank you for reading, and thank you for your help. Have a great rest of your day!

The Sanders Sides series started out as four three parts of a guy’s personality helping him out with small every day issues that popped up in his life in short videos that were usually under fifteen minutes (that’s a guess don’t quote me on it).

Now the videos are about half an hour to an hour long, the character line up is bigger with more distinct villains, and more complicated messages. Ya’ll we legitimately went from “It’s okay to not be dating during valentines day.” to “Am i even a good person or am I secretly horrible?”

I, for one, am still having fun. But if you’re not for some reason? It is absolutely more than okay to block both tags and other people and to stick your head in the sand and ignore the less lighthearted things. Things are getting darker, but if you only want to consume the bright content then you are valid and accepted.