tired

i constantly do something wrong. i feel so guilty for even existing. i should shut up for an eternity, but even that wouldnt be enough. i feel so ashamed of my own being. everyone makes me feel ashamed. every single situation i go through, every text and every word i say there's something wrong in it.

i don’t know who i am anymore, depression devoured me whole, i have no personality, no passions, no goals. all i have is a sick brain and ways to cope.

I was never supposed to make it this far.

I feel incredibly sad and lonely and exhausted and defeated right now. And I’d really love to stop feeling everything so deeply for once.

i will forever be a burden to anyone or anything i come into contact with