in the wake of incomplete time

spent literally all day deep cleaning my bedding and let me tell you. the feelings of crawling into bed ? i looked forward to it for 8hrs. my sheets will never be this clean again. cannot describe to u the level of my gratification rn

and i mean really the problem with most networking these days is that it feels like a dicksucking contest. everyone is trying to be the best at sucking the dick of someone else. and half the time at the very least it doesnt even feel like a good dicksucking. it’s a performative dicksucking. and you’re doing it in hopes that eventually the right conditions will pop up for the person whose dick you sucked to remember you and go ‘hey, they sucked my dick 6 months ago, and they were pretty good at it, so i think they’d be a fit for this thing to which the dicksucking applies’. and when that does happen u think to yourself ‘aw well im guess im glad i did suck their dick, it’s paying off.’ and look im all for reciprocity and fairness and repaying the favour but i think we have to admit that all of this performative mutual dicksucking is just a facade. i dont want to have to care so much about being the first to suck some guy’s dick while the match is hot or however the saying goes. but unfortunately if you dont do it someone else will and then you’ll be unemployed forever