when people talk about emotional attachment between sebastian and ciel (or lack thereof) they almost always talk about it from sebastian's perspective, but imo ciel's is the most interesting.
because no matter how carefully he maintains his cold persona and denies his own vulnerability, ciel is a traumatised and grieving child, and sebastian has indisputably taken on the role of psuedo-parent in day to day life (emotional attachment is not a requirement for this, although lack of it does not usually lead to healthy outcomes).
we know ciel is prone to seek comfort from sebastian when his walls break down, and we also know he has feared sebastian in very similar circumstance. and THAT. that is chilling.
the horror of being mothered and protected by something inhuman, evil, something that wants to consume you. the horror of realising you've grown emotionally reliant on this creature against every better instinct.
and no matter how you try to distance yourself, and how much you hate and even fear it for what it's done, and how deeply you understand that this unholy imitation of a human cannot possibly care... you rely on it. and some tragic, childish, grieving part of you still craves the comfort of the one you rely on most.
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