feelings are so confusing

i’m just silly

reading ur past posts really hits different

where are the actual nd neets that don’t work I need neety depression talks

i’m scared of being loved and abandoned

I want a cuddle party with my fellow bpd peeps

It’s so weird how you believe things will be ok but then it changes really fast

today has been a horrible day. I do need to remember that I have friends and family around me that came through today. Idk how to lean on them for help when I’m just a ball of fuckery

Even though I want to die and have been praying to goddess Hecate for that and another thing. Is quite scary. I find myself hating life more and more. Being stressed and anxious over small things. This life isn’t for me. I’ve accepted that I’m done “experiencing life” basically participating in society. I’ve always wanted to be dead , this has been on going. Writing letters, video diaries. Seems like I’m not preparing for a new version of life but preparing to leave. Maybe somebody else who is more appreciative will take over

I’m so tired of being broken

I just want to go to the beach at night

I’m so tired of coming back here and things being the same

I really need a space for lonely ugly femcels. Idk where they go and it pains me

I’m genuinely scared of letting my bpd thoughts out or entertaining them. I just know I would be the crazy stalker bitch, literally already did it to an ugly fat spineless fucker