✨ karson ✨

There is no drug on earth that can replicate the absolute euphoria of hitting a writing flow state at 2:00 AM. You aren’t even typing anymore. You are a vessel. You are a channel for the gods. The characters are speaking directly into your brain and you’re just the stenographer trying to keep up. You feel like you could fight a bear. You feel like you invented the alphabet

anytime i see someone call steve or eddie max's sibling i wanna kill myself. shut up

why is there an upgrade button on gmail. why does twitter want me to scan my palm to get into my account. why is google a chatbot. why does the transit app make a transit app wrapped for me. why does youtube keep shoving its infinitely scrollable shortform content down my throat. why do my doctor and psychiatrist and therapist want to use an ai notetaker during our appointments. why do free trials want my credit card number. why are most scholarship websites just data brokers. how do i make capitalone stop sending me mail. why is my school making its own special chat gpt powered chatbot. why is every third video on instagram an undisclosed ad. why is nothing online real anymore. why is everything so FUCKING STUPID

I NEED TO WRITE FANFICTION <- guy who is perfectly capable of writing fanfiction <- guy who is not writing fanfiction

i guess i just think there’s a lot of talk in fandom about how mm romance sex scenes aren’t realistic and how by the way here’s what you REALLY need to know about anal sex and like. yeah. we know. the purpose is not realism. this isn’t sex ed. it’s a sexual fantasy and like all sexual fantasies it is written for a specific audience. it’s like being like “oh mainstream lesbian porn is unrealistic” well yeah. realism is not an intended goal of mainstream lesbian porn. and you know, nobody is out here being like oh by the way tentacle monsters aren’t real… they assume the author is aware of that. and it seems kind of infantilizing and patronizing to assume all these female mm authors who by and large are over 40 with spouses and adult children are just sooooo silly and immature and glitter gel pen heart eyed that they think they are writing truth about gay male relationships. like surely we can acknowledge that a man writing a mission impossible style thriller doesn’t think that’s how the world really works. and i think it’s fair game to talk about the politics behind the fantasy!! why monogamy is so crucial to women’s fantasies and why intimacy and sexuality are considered analogous. that’s good to pick apart. but. women also get to have fantasies and that doesn’t make them hysterical and out of touch with reality.

its my pleasure to produce a grammatically fucked sentence

I hope I'm not just a mutual to you but also someone you regularly consider blocking

"the fandom is dying" no it's not. i'm here

so this ones resonating huh

getting fixated on something is funny because the first like week i have an insatiable need to tell everyone i know about it and spread the good word but by weeks 2 and 3 it becomes so intense and personal that even hearing it mentioned in public makes me sweat as if a dark secret was alluded to