AMAZING DIGITAL CIRCUS LAST ACT THOUGHTS:
Woof what can I even say, I legit just doing this by what comes to mind first, then writing it down.
I wasn’t onboard with Soma theory at first but after episode 8 it just felt like that’s where they were going, despite them all deciding that the idea of leaving was unobtainable any way. I’m glad ep 9 kinda just said it and moved on cuz at the end of the day, them being brain scans doesn’t take the humanity out of their characters.
The reveal that Jax abstracted was so abrupt like I was actually so flabbergasted I didn’t even realise it was him at first. I do have a gripe here like I would have loved to of seen him abstracting but I do understand why it was shot that way.
I didn’t register the Pomni and Ragatha hug scene first time I watched cuz I was still reeling over Jax haven abstracted but the second time I watched it made me cry. (I do think they walked away from waaaaay too long).
I do think it’s a lil weird for Pomni to call Ragatha her closest friend, like of course Ragatha has been doing her best to be there for Pomni and what not but I would have loved if they had more scenes together that were the awkward ones so I could be more happy about Pomni saying that.
That fucking parallel with Pomni looking up at abstracted Jax the same way Kinger looked up at Abstracted Queenie… oooh the funnybunny girl in me oooo.
That entire sequence inside Jax’s mindscape was just amazing, how he feels about everyone and if they abstracted. I can’t lie the Gangle one makes me uncomfortable in all the right ways like Jax get a job and stay away from her.
I knew from the get go that Jax fucked up his relationship with Ribbit, that entire confession which if you aren’t dense or in denial that Jax is closeted trans fem/genderfluid which ever floats your boat (that rabbit is not cis tho), tells you everything about why Jax is the the way (s)he is. But deciding after Ribbit needed to be punished because they knew his vulnerability was insane but exactly what someone like Jax was going to do, it was insanely hard to watch but it was perfect.
Loved Ribbit and Kaufmo btw omg they were wonderful.
The streetlight. The fucking streetlight man, I wasn’t crying at this point yet, it wasn’t until Jax said “you weren’t supposed to love me” I started crying. Then he said “I don’t wanna go” and I started bawling.
The way he said “I hate you”, that was the most unhateful way I’ve ever heard it said. He really loved her, and I see it either platonically/romantically, love is such a beautiful thing I just wish Jax could have let that love from others in.
ISN’T SHE LOVELY, ISN’T SHE BEAUTIFUL.
Gangle not being able to cry initially when Jax abstracted was absolutely beautiful for her character. Considering this person had borderline tortured her for the duration of her time at the circus, she has every right to even be happy that Jax can no longer hurt her. But then later when it sets in that this is it and Jax is no longer around and can’t hurt her, she finally cries. It’s so complex and nuanced GOD.
Caine coming back had me and my theatre yelling “WHAT”, but I frigging loved that scene and haven’t seen a lot of other theatre people talking about it. I just love his epiphany of his selfishness and the letting go of the anger he had. Though it did feel a tad rushed, I feel like he needed to stew in his feelings for longer but they only had an hour so I get it
Using the shapes he first ever responded with to get back to the circus was amazing omg, absolutely loved that sequence. I’m glad that he gets to be happy, I would have felt bad if died without ever learning WHY the way he treated the others was bad and him redeeming himself so he could be on equal footing with the humans.
Some part of me kinda wishes that we didn’t get to see what they looked like as humans cuz I loved seeing people interpretations for them, but I’m not gonna pretend seeing and hearing what they’re up to as humans didn’t also make me cry. I’m so happy they’re all in the places they wanted to reach and some version of Jax is out there finding himself.
Such a bittersweet but hopeful ass ending, I’m so glad they all have control of the circus and are making it a place they can all call home
You can’t tell me you didn’t wave back at Pomni.
The credits were SOOOO cute omg, my fav was defo them back at the beach and you see Kinger and Caine doing some father son fishing.
ABSTRAGEDY FUCKING SEX SCENE WE FUCKING WIN.
My biggest complaint of the series is that I wish it was longer (so we can explore characters like Ragatha and Zooble), I think if that’s the complaint I have, it speaks to how good the series was.