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Did it ever happen to you? It was funny to me when I realized what had happened in mine.

I tried fixing my sleep schedule yesterday!

Waking up early, not drinking coffee, not taking any power naps and sleeping earlier!

Should work! right? Right?!

Then WHY did I sleep at 22:00 (10 p.m) and woke up at 02:00 in the morning today????

That was NO noise, NO movement, NO lights, the room was pleasantly cold!!!!

I have begun going to law school this year!

And I had always wanted to study it, so that was never the problem. But, from mid-2025 to 2026 I have been struggling with my studies.

Throughout most of my middle school (I don't know if this is the right grade in english) I have done very well! I could make myself go to sleep and study at a reasonable time - there was barely a sleep schedule, but it was better than the current one.

I keep asking myself what changed, but other than having more freedom to dress how I like (really happy with this one) and having more time to myself, I can't think of anything else.

My classmates are very good, I was able to interact and form a few ties with people (which is something I had a really hard time with before).

I'm quite sure time itself has become more like a little trinket I throw around rather than something important! I can barely meet deadlines, I have stopped arriving on time at places (something I HATE), there is no longer a feeling of "Oh! It's late, I should go to bed! Or else I'm going to barely stay awake", everything seems to be all over the place even when I organize and clean them!

I know I need to study, I have the time to do so! I have the place! The materials! But every time I get as close to that damn desk with the intention of sitting down to study I feel like my mind won't shut up, I feel my heart rate escalate and even feel dizzy(?) at times.