🌾 ARTROT 🌾

I've been in a domestic violence situation for four years, it's getting so bad to the point I cannot actually do anything in this house. I'm a prisoner in my environment and cannot safely shower or go to the bathroom without being accused of heinous things.

I think after a certain point your morale drops so low you start questioning yourself as being a human being. You'd do anything to get out of your situation but I have someone that does want to take me in for a time. I'm at the point I wouldn't mind if I ended up homeless because of it but I'd rather I do get to keep some of my things (like my clothes and books.) I need to be able to afford to ship my things, I need to cover travel expenses. Mostly I need a little over to be able to afford things until I can get myself another job because, I'm functional enough to work. But I haven't been able to due to physical injury and then, nearly being nearly placed inpatient because of the critical break I went under. Only reason I afforded my bills this month is because my sibling and boyfriend helped me.

I'm a functioning schizophrenic, but without being able to afford the medications that keep me in reality and allowing a space for me to actually BE a human being I'm stuck in a perpetual loop of barely scraping by to afford what I can for myself and I get no help with anything outside of that. And now I just want out.

I just want out of this place. I want to go somewhere I'm okay. I need something to help, like a little bit. Really I need at least 2k but I don't know. I have a cashapp, paypal, yeah.

$IsaacThatcher [email protected] is my paypal.

I've been to crisis, I've been given the numbers, I know either way it means I lose most of my stuff, I don't want to. I should be allowed to keep the things I have. What's left that I like. It's upsetting. I want to ship some of my things to my boyfriend.

I am still very much, in need. Really I'm just looking to ship my stuff and get a plane ticket at this point which is like, 500-600 dollars. I'm counting a Lyft ride to the airport in that, and USPS ground shipping. If I can get that done I can get out of here.

I've been in a domestic violence situation for four years, it's getting so bad to the point I cannot actually do anything in this house. I'm a prisoner in my environment and cannot safely shower or go to the bathroom without being accused of heinous things.

I think after a certain point your morale drops so low you start questioning yourself as being a human being. You'd do anything to get out of your situation but I have someone that does want to take me in for a time. I'm at the point I wouldn't mind if I ended up homeless because of it but I'd rather I do get to keep some of my things (like my clothes and books.) I need to be able to afford to ship my things, I need to cover travel expenses. Mostly I need a little over to be able to afford things until I can get myself another job because, I'm functional enough to work. But I haven't been able to due to physical injury and then, nearly being nearly placed inpatient because of the critical break I went under. Only reason I afforded my bills this month is because my sibling and boyfriend helped me.

I'm a functioning schizophrenic, but without being able to afford the medications that keep me in reality and allowing a space for me to actually BE a human being I'm stuck in a perpetual loop of barely scraping by to afford what I can for myself and I get no help with anything outside of that. And now I just want out.

I just want out of this place. I want to go somewhere I'm okay. I need something to help, like a little bit. Really I need at least 2k but I don't know. I have a cashapp, paypal, yeah.

$IsaacThatcher [email protected] is my paypal.

I've been to crisis, I've been given the numbers, I know either way it means I lose most of my stuff, I don't want to. I should be allowed to keep the things I have. What's left that I like. It's upsetting. I want to ship some of my things to my boyfriend.

It is the sign of the scales. The scales have not settled and they waggle back and forth. Like this like that.

“It’s really not that complicated.”

“Close the door.”

“It’s three in the morning.”

“I should have told you a long time ago.”

“Why are you helping me?”

“You have to leave right now.”

“Just trust me.”

“I’ve been waiting a long time.”

“You’re in love with her.”

“Come here.”

“We could get arrested for this.”

“What are you thinking about?”

“I thought you were dead.”

“You’re never going to let that go, are you?”

“Was that supposed to hurt?”

“I can explain.”

“Love is overrated.”

“Watch me.”

“I’ve missed this.”

“I don’t believe you.”

“Sometimes, being a complete nerd comes in handy.”

“I don’t owe you an explanation.”

“We have to be quiet.”

“You’re trembling.”

“I want an answer, goddammit!”

“It was you the whole time.”

“Tell me again.”

“This is why we can’t have nice things.”

“I’m not going anywhere.”

“You don’t see me.”

“I can’t keep kissing strangers and pretending that they’re you.”

“You could have died.”

“Prove it.”

“I might never get another chance to say this.”

“Do you regret it?”

“Tell me I’m wrong.”

“Lie to me then.”

“You’ve thought about this, haven’t you?”

“We need to talk about what happened last night.”

“I never stood a chance, did I?”

“I feel like I can’t breathe.”

“I’m only here to establish an alibi.”

“Are you drunk?”

“I still remember the way you taste.”

“How much of that did you hear?”

“What happens if I do this?”

“Why are you whispering?”

“You make me want things I can’t have.”

“I don’t want to screw this up.”