somehow scheduled therapy while i’m still on vacation instead of when i get back so i had to cancel, which is fine because i am embarrassed about my last session and becoming increasingly disillusioned with talk therapy. the only hope for me is to actually start living a life i don’t hate and the biweekly check-ins have been demoralizing

ppl will actively read the most evil intentions into your actions and despise every act of agency you demonstrate and still try to say some shit like “iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou” lmaooo

often the inability to compromise stems directly from a perpetual victim mentality, where others are always viewed as oppressive figures over one’s autonomy and must be defended against. unfortunately this is not sustainable for cultivated and collaborative relationships and many will retaliate harshly when self-concept is challenged. i think this is likely where the weaponization of “boundaries” as a means of control comes from

this bomb is literally ticking and i literally gave explicit instructions on which wire to cut…why is the bomb still ticking???