Imagine feeling unwanted and misunderstood your entire life and then you meet a beautiful boy who looks at you and only sees you and he's so perfect you think he's too good to be true and then you find out that actually he is real and then he tells you he likes you and then you kiss him and then he tells you you were amazing after a game u actually tried at for him and then you lose him in a fucking deadly riot and you start to realise slowly that he has been hiding something from you this whole time and now he's going to die and you're neither getting him back nor your answers and you're stressed and you're panicking and so you ask ur best friend where he is and what's been going on hoping for a clue to start from and then your best friend goes "you were always going to lose him" Andrew Minyard you are so valid you were Not crazy for that i applaud your restraint actually

We love to call Neil oblivious or dense for not noticing he was in a slowburn romance with Andrew but how many of us were smacked in the face with the “that doesn’t mean I wouldn’t blow you”the first time you read it then of course you go back and reread and andreil was very obviously there the whole time you just get so caught up in thinking like Neil Josten that you also become oblivious so props to Nora for that

sometimes i think about how neil probably went days without speaking to another human being before becoming a guy who literally couldn't keep his mouth shut if his life depended on it in contrast to an andrew who literally couldn't shut up bcus of the meds before returning to his normal state of 'i speak to 3 people and one of them is my therapist' and its just like wow. andreil.

but that’s MY autistic probably bisexual murder obsessed emotionally damaged traumatized ptsd ridden comfort character

Btw I loooove starting a post like "also" "by the way" "and another thing" when there was fully no conversation or preceding thought. U will experience my posts en media res