yeah i’m doomed by the narrative but i have a little time to be absolutely gay

putting my inevitable death on pause to be homosexual for a second

nvm i’ve said too much #unknowme

Neil Josten

im pregnant with maserati and its yours......

i just know in my heart neil josten does so many spelling mistakes over text. like barely readable, you mostly have to guess the meaning

reaching the point of hyperfixation where I can no longer engage with it due to the nausea that I experience at the mere thought of seeing it on my screen is the closest I’ve ever been to being diagnosed with female hysteria

“oh is this your favorite character from that show?” get that fucker away from me. I’m gonna be sick

something i think about often in regards to andrews mania is the fact that like. iirc nora has said she sees him as having bipolar? i dont have the ec memorized and i know theres stuff left out of the compilation doc that exists so im not 100% sure but im fairly confident on this though. if im right, the meds didnt make him manic in the sense that it came out of nowhere, they made him manic in the sense that he already had the capacity to have manic episodes and the meds exacerbated it drastically. its likely that without the meds, he leans more towards the depressive side of things, but that doesnt mean his bouts of mania will be gone for good. it just means they arent as constant. so i wonder what his mania looks like without the meds adding fuel to the fire, since i doubt that itd look exactly the same without them. like for example i dont think his regular mania would make him as smiley as the meds, but i can see it making him a bit more talkative than we see him in tkm. my mania makes me more impulsive, would he deal with something similar? or maybe insomnia? i think the fandom really sleeps on this because they see the mania as tied to the meds and not andrew himself. give me more bipolar andrew im begging you