Könntest du mich bitte noch etwas fester drücken? Ich glaube, ich falle sonst auseinander.

bpd is so stupid. i hate dealing with it every day. feeling like i’m constantly being replaced, feeling like no one wants me around, feeling like i don’t matter to anyone. it’s stupid. logically i know none of that is true but it doesn’t make me feel any better.

You say you want to be alone and you like it that way, But aren't you the one who once wanted to feel belonged and included? But some stupid people once made you feel stupid for being happy and excited. Their under excitment towards your over excitement made you feel like they're not really happy to be with you and didn't actually want you to be around? It made you feel like you're bothering them which ended up you making feel worthless. Damn that look on their face. You still remember it? right? It really made you feel like a heavy burden that those people had to deal with even when they didn't really wanted to. Since so, you decided to be on your own and started telling people that you're anti social and don't really like hanging out with people?

orange is so pretty how can you not like it shut up

i wish to be more poetic, more romantic, more classy yet i stumble around like a thirteen year old boy with no sense of direction