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irl, i live alone. irl, i am disabled. irl, that intersection and my lack of interest in partnering actively makes life really hard. everything is expensive. i can't always cook when i want to or have fresh ingredients, because my symptoms don't care if I want to cut up vegetables and eat something homemade before they go bad. if I have a bad flareup and getting up is not in the cards, that's it. i have what's next to me. the lack of social support for single folks, for disabled folks, for folks whose family care is inadequate or damaging... it's impactful.

I talk about how i once visited a place with an ex partner. i mention how our relationship started because i was pressured into it, and i wasn't really into the level of seriousness and 'forever' she treated it with. everyone says it's weird that i agreed if i didn't want it to be serious. i remember being 16, saying no, and a chorus of people telling me i was stupid and immature, that her family was rich, that we would be cute and to listen to them, not my heart. my heart was saying nothing.

i look at my current age and life goals. for many of my peers, dating and marriage and eventual kids are common goals. i am watching my rights erode and trying to practice good mental hygeine. my five year goal is to be alive. my next major life milestone is a nebulous desire to find a life i can tolerate living.

being aromantic significantly impacts my day to day. i want to see aro people living their lives, and doing so with joy. i want to see aro adults making it, ones like me. i want aro people to thrive. i want to live, aromantically.

"there's nothing wrong with being effeminate." of course. and do you feel happy with how you look?

"i worry people would feel unsafe around me." do you feel safe around you?

"it would be hard for other people to adjust." and you think it'd be easier to suffer quietly?

"he/they is fine. i really prefer he/him, but i have to make it easier on other people." so you want to let other people decide your gender? again?

"if i'm going to be a man, i owe it to other people to be as soft, friendly, and nonthreatening as possible."

abortion

Shows you how much you know

I know several trans men who can piss standing up without meta or phallo. I've seen it for myself quite a few times now actually.

Step 2: feet shoulder width apart (if at toilet have shins/knees touching or right in front of bowl) with pants down far enough to allow that (down to knees for me)

Step 3: hook fingers on either side of tdick and pull back to the sides

Step 4: jut hips out forward a bit but not too far, kinda aim urethra with your fingers (hard to explain sry)

Step 5: piss. Adjust aim if necessary.