Tags - big dick Carmy Berzatto (specs in the fic), talking you through it, oral sex, unprotected piv, creampie, hella size kink, dubcon aspects, gentle dom!carmy, painful sex, youâre kind of a crybaby. 2k words
Youâve never been much for fluorescent lighting. Itâs terrible, isnât it? Migraine-inducing, though what isnât migraine-inducing here? Between all the constant fucking yelling and the unending onslaught of demands and problems, well. Itâs enough to make anyone fucking nuts. You wonder daily what the hell you got yourself into, and whenâs a good time to leave.Â
The clock on the wall shows the time, 1:57 AM. You can do five more minutes, at least. Five more minutes of this - Carmyâs tongue lapping at your folds, his strong nose rubbing against your clit - and youâll be cumming. The fluorescent lighting of Carmyâs kitchen doesnât much bother you when your eyes are squeezed shut as he fucks you on his tongue. The once-cold marble counter is now warm with your body heat, and there will be a mess left on it when Carmyâs done with you, cleaned away with the rest of the dayâs work.Â
âCarmy,â you pant, looking down at him as he eats you. Heâs got two fingers deep in your cunt, stroking away at that delicate place inside you. You canât see the lower half of his face, only his gorgeous, striking blue eyes. Itâs amazing how much of his iris has been eaten by pupil, all that endless, sparkling black.Â
Carmyâs half-naked, and one of your knees is tossed over his broad shoulders. His free hand is on your thigh, squeezing you to keep you still when you start to shake, losing yourself to your own pleasure. Carmy draws circle after circle onto your throbbing, aching clit, steadily pushing you to meet your peak. Youâre making a mess of him, you know. Dripping down his reddened, swollen lips and his chin, dripping down his calloused fingers and into his palm, too. Itâs a good thing. Heâll need you soaked. Youâll need yourself soaked.Â
He holds you tight when you cum, fucking you through it all on his skillful tongue. His messy curls are tangled around your fingers, and youâre tugging hard enough to hurt him - not that Carmy minds any, no. Heâs all but numb to physical pain at this point, that tolerance built up through years of burns and sliced fingers and aching feet that stood for too many hours on end. Youâre moaning incoherently until youâre not, instead moaning broken whimpers of his name, in between breathy pleas to stop, Carmy. S - too much, too much. Mâdone, Carmy. Fuck, fuck, pleaseâŚÂ Â
Carmy pulls away finally and wipes his mouth on your inner thigh, then stands up. You kiss him then, tasting yourself on your lips. Your hands are on his cheeks, flushed the most gorgeous shade of red, then travel lower. Down his thick neck, taking care to trace the pulsing veins in his throat. They stop at his shoulders and you allow yourself to squeeze his biceps before sliding down his toned torso, reaching for the button of his pants. Carmy stops you, and you give him a look.
Heâs hiding something. You can see in his eyes that he is, and you wonder whatâs up. âCarm?â
âItâs okay,â he says. âJust close your eyes.âÂ
âWhy?âÂ
âBecause I want you to, okay? Would you do that for me? Please?âÂ
You smile, tilt your head. âIs it a surprise?âÂ
Carmy exhales shakily, pulling his tattooed hand down his face. âYeah, maybe. Just close âem, okay?â You look at Carmy skeptically, but gently close your eyes anyway, nerves on fire as you anxiously anticipate what comes next.Â
Carmy takes a deep breath, then unbuttons his pants and reaches into them. He knows heâll hurt you, thatâs all, and he doesnât need you to be intimidated by his size. Thatâs why he doesnât let you look, and itâs why he doesnât let you feel. Itâs like getting bloodwork done, right? Youâll feel that pinch either way, but itâll be worse if you watch it happen. So donât look.Â
He pulls himself out and reaches between your thighs, using your arousal to lubricate his length, then repeats the action. He spits into his palm for good measure, too.
Carmy spreads your legs and tilts your hips and god, youâre feeling fucking electric. You feel it everywhere, in your fingers and toes and in your fluttering stomach. Itâd be a disservice to yourself not to witness his cock parting your folds, right? And fuck Carmy, anyway - how many times a day does he ignore you?Â
He positions himself at your entrance, then slides his cockhead through your slippery folds. Right as he notches himself inside you and you feel the initial, painful stretch of that, you open your eyes to get a look at that completely gorgeous and utterly erotic sight.
Your face drops and your lips part, at a total loss for words. You shake your head and try to squirm away, but Carmy keeps you right at your place on the countertop, holding up a hand. âCarmyââ
âNo, no, no, donât get all fuckinâ freaked out, okay? Itâs gonna be fine.âÂ
âMm-mm, Carmy. Youâre fucking - you - youâreââ
âItâs gonna be fine,â he repeats. âHey - itâs. Fine. You can do this.âÂ
âAre you sure?â
âYes, Iâm sure.âÂ
You should have expected it, honestly. It was naive to think Carmy would be anything less than above average, when the rest of him is so fuckingâŚbig. All that man, those big fucking shoulders and his thick thighs, that big personality. His hands are big too, knuckles are thick and his fingers are long.Â
Eyeing his cock, it looks maybe eight inches in length, give or take. Fuck, not that thatâd help you any. Heâs girthy, and thick like a fucking beer can. Maybe even more than that. Youâre not sure you could wrap one of your hands all the way around him, and that scares you. He curves gently to the right, and his pubic hair looks like itâs not been trimmed in a while.Â
âIâm not gonna hurt you,â he whispers.Â
âYou already are,â you reply. Carmy looks up and away, sighing heavily. He runs his hand through his hair and then firmly holds your hips, making you squeak when he inches himself a hair further into you. And this is exactly why he didnât want you to look. But hey, whatever can go wrong, will go wrong, right? Does he not experience that law every day in this godforsaken restaurant?Â
You cry out, watching in distress as Carmy readies to fit himself deeper into you. âHey, relax, okay? Donât look, honey. Eyes on me. Can you do that, hm? Can you look at me?â Carmy stops you from shaking your head, then holds your cheek in his large palm. âYou can look at me. Right here. Weâll do it a little bit at a time, yeah?âÂ
âI donât know, Carm,â you tell him. âFuck, itâs scary.â Â
âNah, itâs not scary,â Carmy murmurs, pushing into you a little more. âYou got thick skin, donât you? Youâd have to, right? Working here, for me,â he jokes, though you donât laugh. Humor never was his strong suit.Â
âNo,â you mumble.
âOh, I think youâre full of shit. Yes, you do.âÂ
The argument stops there for no reason beyond thatâs simply Carmyâs will. If he lets it go on, youâll be here all fucking night crying with his cock all but an inch inside you. Heâs not mean about it, heâs not forceful. Heâs justâŚassertive. And you need that, donât you? His gentle yet firm hand nudging you into place. Carmy gives you a kiss, then tells you that you can do this.Â
Your eyes drop to where his body begins to meet yours as he slides into you so excruciatingly slowly, all that length stuffing you nearly full already, and heâs not even a quarter of the way in. You moan in pain, wriggling in his grasp as he fills you.Â
âDonât look, donât look, donât look. Right here, sweetheart,â he reminds you, maintaining steady eye contact with you as he guides himself into your slick, aching cunt, ignoring the pain of your nails digging into his muscled shoulders. âEasy - woah, easy. Let up,â he tells you when you squeeze him. Not that he doesnât love your tight fucking pussy, but you really are only making it worse for yourself. And Carmyâs not a psychopath, despite what Richie says. He doesnât want to hurt you. God, never. You already have such a low pain tolerance to begin with. You canât handle a cut or a burn the way others usually can, and thatâs not a flaw on your part, but it is something that probably needs to be worked on. Heâs just helping you, is all.Â
Your face breaks, the pain written in your expression. Itâs your furrowed brows, your frown, your worried eyes. Carmy slides maybe four inches into you, about halfway there. âWeâll take a minute,â Carmy says, pausing. He keeps you where you are and reaches for a nearby plastic takeout container full of ice water, taking a sip for himself before offering it to you.Â
Youâre a fucking wreck. Thereâs tears streaming down your cheeks, which Carmy wipes away with a gentle swipe of his thumb. âYeah, thatâs it,â he says, waiting patiently for you to finish. He takes the container back from you and sets it down.Â
âI know it hurts,â Carmy says, breathing deeply. âBut youâre doing good, okay?â His neck and chest are flushed, too, all red and splotchy. His skin is damp with his own sweat. He feels for you, really. He wouldnât want to be in your position either, truth be told.Â
âPromise?âÂ
âYeah. Fuck, yeah.â Carmy rubs your cheeks, offering you a sympathetic look. And youâre still fucking squeezing him, even while heâs not actively pushing into you. Poor thing, only hurting yourself. Carmy knows what your answerâs gonna be when he asks you, âHow about I rip off the bandaid, huh? Let me do that?âÂ
Your eyes widen and you shake your head. âNo, no, Carmyââ
âYes, yes. Yes, because weâre gonna get nowhere if you keep fuckinâ squeezing on me like that, huh?âÂ
âIâm not trying to.âÂ
âI know youâre not trying to. Just let meââ Carmy sighs and wipes sweat off of his brow, then takes your hips and thrusts into you quickly and smoothly, eliciting a sharp noise of pain from you. You feel him deep inside yourself, and itâs painful in every conceivable way. The stretch, the dull ache that comes from his cockhead hitting your cervix.Â
âCarmy!âÂ
âMm, my fuckinâ girl,â he groans, bottoming out inside of you. âYeah, there. There, okay? Worst is over,â he tells you, knowing thatâs probably not true. The song and dance happens all over again as he pulls out of you and then pushes back in, the pain dissipated then renewed. He hushes your whines as he moves his hips, looking down at his cock all coated in creamy rings of your arousal.Â
Pleasure comes eventually, which makes it all easier, though only marginally so. Carmyâs thick fucking cock fucking you in half is a sensation you never get used to. The ache and the fullness is ever present, never vanishing. Itâs so big and so fucking commanding, so inevitable. âOh, Carmy. Fuck me, oh my god.âÂ
âOh, fuck, fuck, fuck,â Carmy moans, steadily snapping his hips into you. âSo fuckinâ - fuck, youâre tight.âÂ
Carmy rubs your clit to bring near your orgasm while chasing his own, losing the rhythm he had going. He fucks you wildly, pulling your hips off the counter, his heavy balls slapping against you. When you cum, the fierce pulsing of your cunt coaxes his own, and Carmy empties himself into you. He makes the most beautiful noises as he does so, breathing heavily through his nose when heâs done.Â
You whimper when he pulls out of you, feeling satisfied by your orgasm, and relieved that itâs over. Carmy reaches for a nearby dish towel and wets it with water, then comes back to you. He nudges your thighs apart, then crouches down. âLet me see, let me look,â he says, assessing the damage. Your poor cunt is gaping, dripping his cum, and your folds are all puffy and swollen. He gently cleans you with the towel, then has you press the cloth against your center. âHold that there for a minute, yeah? Youâre okay, dude.âÂ
Carmy cleans himself up, then goes back to cleaning the kitchen. Heâs got a few things left to do before locking up for the night.Â
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Isaac Knight x Reader | Wednesday (Nevermore) AU Series
Status: finished
Fic Summary: A girl who can coax life from nothing and a boy who can resurrect the dead collide long before they ever admit what they mean to each other. Thirty years, one failed resurrection, and a lifetime of consequences bind them together long after their first mistake.
Chapter Summary: Thirty years after death, you awaken to a changed worldâand to Isaac, the man who brought you back. As roots are torn away and old tensions flare, the first uneasy threads of trust, anger, and something far more dangerous begin to weave between you.
A/n: this is probably my favorite chapter so far!
Rain whispers through the cracks in the ceiling. You can hear it before you can see anything, a faint, persistent dripping that keeps time with your heartbeat, or what should be your heartbeat. The air stinks of ozone and burning, the sharp tang of lightning and singed metal, but beneath that something sweeter, almost floral, foxglove. It hangs heavy, cloying, like perfume left too long on dead skin.
Thereâs movement near you. A sound not footsteps, exactly. More like the soft rasp of fabric against stone, a tool tray being dragged closer. Then a voice.
âWelcome back.â
He says it so quietly that, for a moment, you think itâs the room itself speaking. But no, the sound has weight, a shape. It belongs to him. Itâs not warm or triumphant. Itâs dry, wry, like heâs testing the phrase for the first time, trying to see if it still means what it used to.
You try to open your mouth, but your throat burns. It feels packed with dirt, like the earth hasnât entirely let go of you.
He doesnât wait for you to answer. Heâs crouched beside the slab, tools in hand, already moving with that same careful precision he always had methodical, deliberate, maddeningly calm. The light flickers, catching the edges of his face: sharp cheekbones, tired eyes, hair that looks like itâs been cut with a blade and no mirror. Thirty years dead and he still looks like someone who hasnât slept in a century.
He starts talking.
Not to you, not really, more to himself. His voice bounces off the damp concrete walls, off the hum of the machines still cooling down.
âYou probably donât remember much. Thatâs fine. It took me a while too. I didnât even know I was dead at first.â
You try to move your hand. Itâs stiff, heavy. The skin feels too tight around the bone. You look down and see whatâs binding you, roots, thin and pale, burrowed into your flesh like veins made of plant matter. Foxglove roots. They pulse faintly, still feeding on you even now.
He notices your eyes flick down. Without missing a beat in his monologue, he picks up a pair of tweezers from the tray and leans over you. âHold still,â he says absently, as if youâre a lab specimen. âThey went deep.â
Then he starts pulling them out.
Itâs a delicate sort of horror. not pain exactly, but a pressure that makes your stomach churn. Each tug sounds faintly wet, like pulling soaked thread from fabric. Some of them come free cleanly; others tear, and blood wells up, dark and slow. You feel it trail down your arm, warm against the chill of the air.
He keeps talking.
âWhen I came back,â he says, as if you asked, âI didnât know what I was supposed to do. I was starving. It wasnât normal hunger, not for food. For something else.â His tone is measured, almost detached. âBrains, as it turns out. Itâs a clichĂŠ, but a fitting one.â
You donât know whether to cry or scream.
He keeps going, drawing the tweezers out, plucking another root from your wrist. âIt took me months to figure it all out. The worldâs different now. Electricity everywhere. Cars that drive themselves. No one even remembers who we were.â A small, humorless laugh. âI didnât either, for a while.â
He moves to your other arm. âThen I realized something,â he says. âIt had been thirty years. Iâd been dead for thirty years.â He says it simply, like reciting data. Then, after a pause, âAnd the one who dug me up was Pugsley Addams.â
Something in your body reacts before your mind can. The sound of it - that name, that tone - pulls you upright. Your hand swings, weak but sharp, and your palm connects with his cheek. Itâs not a strong hit, but the sound cracks through the room like static.
He blinks, more out of surprise than pain.
Youâre shaking, your throat tearing open with your first real words: âYouâre a liar.â It comes out low, raw, barely human. âYou knew. You knew that the machine was unstable.â Your breath catches, jagged. âYou knew it would kill Gomez.â
Your chest heaves. The words scrape your throat. You cough, deep, painful and a clump of dirt spills out onto the slab beside you.
He doesnât move. Doesnât argue. He just looks at you. Not angry. Just that same unreadable calm that used to make everyone else feel like idiots.
When you push yourself up, the slab feels slick under your palms, blood and rain water mixing. Your arms shake, still bleeding where the roots had been torn out. You manage to rise halfway before his hand lands on your shoulder, not rough, not gentle, just firm. He presses you back down as if this is routine.
âDonât strain yourself,â he says quietly. âYouâll undo all my work.â
His voice doesnât rise. It doesnât need to. Every word slides under your skin like a needle. That infuriating calm, the way he speaks like heâs always right, like reason itself is on his side.
You meet his eyes, and thereâs something in them you donât recognize, exhaustion, maybe, or pride masquerading as pity.
âYou should rest,â he adds, and the way he says it makes it sound less like advice and more like a command.
You want to hit him again. You want to scream. But your body betrays you; itâs too weak, too recently dragged from the dirt. So you just glare, your breath shallow, your chest still rattling with the remnants of the grave.
He wipes a streak of your blood from his hand with a rag and continues his work with the tweezers.
Somewhere above, thunder rolls, low and distant. Water keeps dripping through the cracks. The foxglove smell thins.
The last of the roots embedded into your legs slid free with a wet little pop, leaving trails of blood where they had clung. You shift, muscles still shaky from thirty years of rest, and he doesnât even glance at you. His hands hover over the table as if heâs still calculating angles and physics, not undoing what nature and time have done. Rain leaks through the cracks in the ceiling, the sound sharp in the quiet lab. The smell of foxglove hangs thick, sharp, almost choking.
He finally speaks. Not an apology. Not in explanation. Just a single, slow drawl:
âWell,at least you got the easy way out. I had to cannibalize people just to stop myself from rotting.â
You grit your teeth. The words are meant to be clever, and they sting exactly as he intends. Heâs doing that thing again, the one where he turns observation into insult without ever raising his voice. You donât want to admit it, but it makes your blood boil.
You push yourself up from the slab, hands braced on the metal edge. Your legs wobble, muscles quivering under the weight of years and blood loss. âIâm leaving,â you snap. âI donât owe you anything.â
He doesnât move. He just tilts his head, expression flat, as if heâs watching a child attempt a puzzle theyâre not yet strong enough to solve. âWhere exactly do you think youâre going?â he asks lightly. âYou can barely stand. You donât know this world. I do.â
The irritation flares hotter, a low, tight burn in your chest. His voice is calm, collected, smug in that particular way he has, the way that makes it feel like your very survival depends on his judgment. Your hands tighten on the slab. You stumble forward, ignoring his presence.
He finally rises. Not in a rush, not with any need to assert force, just deliberate, confident. âYouâd be dead in a day without me,â he says, almost bored, like stating a fact.
You spin toward him, anger snapping through you. âMaybe I shouldâve stayed that way,â you hiss. âI donât even know why you bothered to bring me back.â Your eyes find the handle of the metal door, and youâre halfway reaching before he moves.
His hand catches your wrist, firm, deliberate, careful. He doesnât grip hard. He just holds you steady.
âDonât touch me!â you yell, wrenching.
You swing to hit him again, the motion raw, uncalculated, pure fury. His hand catches your wrist midair without effort. You feel the weight of your motion falter, stumble, and before you can fully recover, he pulls. The movement is sudden, controlled, and your momentum carries you just a little forward, your knees threaten to buckle, and he doesnât let them.
Then he kisses you.
Not slowly. Not teasingly. Not waiting. It is a collision, an immediate, all-consuming act. His mouth presses against yours with the force of all the restraint heâs carried for thirty years. It is sharp, demanding, impossible to ignore. You cry out into it, somewhere between shock and release, but he keeps the pressure, lets the kiss stretch and deepen, letting all the tension, the anger, the betrayal, the disbelief, the fury, flood through the connection.
Your hands press against his shoulders, grip his collar, claw at the weight of him. His arm wraps around your waist, holding you close, the other tilting your wrist so you canât pull back. Breath mingles harsh, hot, uneven. You taste metal, rain, and something faintly floral. Every second stretches impossibly long, every touch electric.
He does not speak. He does not pause. He simply holds the kiss, lets it grow, lets it demand everything your body can give. You can feel the tremor in his jaw, the barely-there shift in his chest, the way his hands are deliberate, knowing. You are trembling from anger and blood loss and the shock of contact. The world outside the lab ceases to exist. The hum of machines fades beneath the raw immediacy of him.
Time dilates. The kiss becomes something more than collision. It is insistence. It is obsession. It is all that was wrong between you, all that he hasn't taken responsibility for, all compressed into one physical truth that leaves you gasping when he finally releases you.
You stumble back, dazed, clutching your chest, unsure if youâre furious or faintly startled by the audacity of it. Rain splashes from the ceiling, cold on your neck. Your hands shake. His expression is unreadable, as if the storm of your emotions has not registered at all. He wipes a strand of wet hair from his face, smooth and clean in contrast to the chaos of the moment.
Finally, he speaks, quiet, controlled, almost casual:
âI brought you back because I couldnât stand being the only one who was supposed to be dead.â
The words strike deeper than the kiss, sharper than any slap. Silence folds the room. You lean against the table, overwhelmed, furious, shaking, breathless, confused, and startled by the truth of it. You are not angry at him for the kiss, not exactly. You are angry at yourself for feeling anything at all. You are angry at everything.
And through it all, he turns, already muttering about Francoise, already mapping the next moves as if nothing happened. Your hands drop from your chest, trembling. You sink slowly to the edge of the table, processing what just happened, and realizing that in this moment, you cannot walk away, cannot untangle yourself from the collision that was both violent and impossible to ignore.
You blink against the flickering bulbs in the forgotten lab, muscles stiff from weeks of disuse, and the rotting fabric of your Nevermore uniform clings to you like a second skin. The smell of old death and damp lingers between you and him. Thirty years, and nothing has changed except that the air feels heavier now, older somehow.
He finally speaks. The words are quiet, precise, carrying that same calm, infuriating weight he always did. âOur next step,â he says, eyes not leaving the blue-white glow of the table, âis to find Françoise. She was at the asylum the same time I was. Sheâs alive.â
You glance down at your uniform, the sleeves fraying almost to the elbow, the color faded to a sickly shadow of its former self. His clothes are no better, stiff and cracked, as if time itself conspired against both of you. You canât even imagine walking out of here like this.
âIâm not going anywhere dressed like this,â you snap. âWeâre getting new clothes.â Your voice wavers slightly, but the authority behind it cuts sharper than you intend.Â
He doesnât argue. He tilts his head, barely acknowledging the protest, as if itâs more convenient to humor you than waste breath. Thatâs Isaacâs way, picking his battles, and you can see the logic win over pride in his cool, measured stare.
âFine,â he murmurs finally. âWait here.â
Hours pass, or maybe just minutes, time is strange when youâve been dead for decades. When he returns, itâs like a scene from a modern ghost story. Heâs clad in mismatched modern clothes, something you wouldnât have recognized thirty years ago, yet strangely appropriate. Two wallets sit on the counter beside a small pile of folded shirts and pants, one of them your size.
âHere,â he says, almost too casually, blood still faintly running down the corner of his mouth. He half-heartedly wipes it with the back of his hand, and you suppress a shiver. Itâs like heâs living in a parallel world, detached from the horror, from the remnants of who he once was.
He turns around and you throw yourself into the clothes without a word, trading the smell of decay for something that will let you walk among the living without causing immediate suspicion. The fabric is foreign, but comforting in its mundanity.
By the time you both step outside, the rain has stopped. He gestures to a sleek, unfamiliar car waiting outside, something straight from the future, a Tesla with shiny black paint that gleams in the dim moonlight. You raise an eyebrow. âYou drove this?â
He shrugs. âYes.â
The car hums as it powers on, autopilot engaged, and he stares at the dashboard like a boy trying to read a book written in a foreign language. You snort. âYou know it drives itself, right?â
âI know,â he mutters, voice tight with irritation. âI just prefer⌠engagement.â
Itâs comical, watching someone so lethal wrestle with modern technology. The car jolts slightly as he presses the wrong pedal, and you canât help laughing. âYouâll get us killed.â
âIâll get us there,â he says, voice clipped, hands gripping the wheel too tightly. But despite the fumbling, he manages to figure it out, and soon youâre gliding down the empty streets.
Your stomach growls. âIâm hungry,â you state bluntly.
âFine,â he mutters, as if the admission of basic human need is an inconvenience. âWeâll eat.â
The diner is cheap, the kind of place that hasnât changed in decades, neon signs flickering faintly. You slide into a booth, immediately scanning the menu with ravenous eyes. He sits opposite you, expression unreadable, yet you notice the faint twitch at the corner of his jaw, a hint of something almost human in the way he surveys the room.
You order a bacon cheeseburger without hesitation. He doesnât order. You canât help but glare. âNo. Youâre too skinny. Youâve been dead for thirty years. Youâre eating real food.â
âI donât need real food,â he says smoothly, gaze sweeping the empty diner. âBrains were sufficient.â
âEw brains arenât sufficient anymore!â you whisper-yell, âEat something or I swear-â
His lips twitch, a flash of amusement, and then he sighs. âFine. Can I get⌠a club sandwich, I guess.â He grimaces at the menu, clearly weighing the pros and cons as if every bite is a mathematical equation.
You shake your head, exasperated, watching him in disbelief. Thirty years dead, and this is the meal he chooses, a club sandwich. Unsurprisingly he eats like a machine, mechanically, yet thereâs something oddly intimate in the act of sharing this mundane moment with him.
You bite into your burger, the bacon crisp, the cheese melted perfectly. Itâs like tasting the world again, feeling alive after thirty years. He watches you, expression still unreadable, but you catch a flicker, almost a smile, faint, fleeting. The tension from the lab, from the kiss, from everything unspoken between you, hangs in the air.
Finally, you lean back, wiping a smudge of ketchup from your mouth. âSo⌠Françoise,â you say softly. He doesnât respond immediately, eyes scanning the diner, calculating, always calculating. The silence is comfortable, a strange mix of camaraderie and ongoing battle of wills.
Eventually, he leans back in his seat, club sandwich in hand, and says, âBy nightfall, we leave. We find her.â
You nod, chewing, still savoring the act of being alive. You know the hunt isnât over, and the tension isnât gone, but for this fleeting moment, in the glow of neon lights, the smell of fried food, the hum of distant traffic- it feels like youâre both just⌠alive.
The dinerâs neon sign fades in the rearview mirror until itâs nothing but a pulse of red swallowed by fog. The futuristic car hums down the highway, silver light flickering across Isaacâs face as he drives â one hand loose on the wheel, the other resting on the center console like it owns the space between you.
You watch the world slide past in streaks of gray and gold. The moonâs a thin scythe through the clouds, the kind that feels like itâs watching. The kind that looks sharp enough to cut.
For a while, thereâs just the sound of tires and quiet. He doesnât play music â of course he doesnât. It feels like him, somehow: fast, focused, and way too silent.
You tap through a few radio stations. Static. Ads. A burst of something new and terrible. Then,a familiar beat, something from the 80s. You leave it on, just low enough to make it bearable.
He doesnât comment.
You glance sideways at him anyway. His eyes are on the road, pale and cold in the dashboard light. He looks like he could drive forever. You look away first.
After a while, boredom wins. You rest your palm on the window, and a vine curls from your fingertip, thin and green. You twist it absently, let it bloom into a small dandelion. It wilts. You try again, white this time. Then blue. Then a perfect little bonsai, perched in a cupholder like itâs proud of itself.
You sneak a look at him. Nothing. Not even a flicker.
âSeriously?â you mutter. âNot even impressed?â
âIâve seen you do stranger things,â he says, eyes still on the road.
âYouâre impossible,â you grumble, flicking the bonsai away. It vanishes into air.
He smirks faintly â not quite a smile, just that ghost of amusement that always makes you want to slap him and laugh in the same breath.
Time stretches. The sky deepens from navy to pitch. The world outside feels endless.
You sigh and lean your head back. âIâm tired.â
âThen sleep,â he says, not looking at you.
âYouâre a terrible driver,â you counter. âI don't want to wake up dead again.â
âYour faith in me is touching.â
âYouâve been driving for hours,â you push, voice light but teasing. âYou have to be tired too.â
He exhales through his nose, the smallest sign of annoyance. âWhat do you suggest we do about it?â
âUm, you find us a motel.â You say as if it were the most obvious thing in the world
He cuts you a sidelong look, the kind that could freeze boiling water. âFor someone who spent thirty years underground, youâre awfully picky about where you sleep.â
You shoot him a glare, but thereâs no real bite to it this time. He still veers off at the next exit.
The town you end up in is small, a gas station, a few flickering streetlights, the kind of place that smells like pine and asphalt. The headlights catch the VACANCY sign of a small roadside motel, its red glow bleeding into the fog.
He pulls into the cracked parking lot, but doesnât move to get out yet. The engine hums low, steady.
Your elbow rests on the center console. His hand shifts - just slightly - and suddenly your pinky brushes his. Barely a touch.
You donât move. Neither does he.
Itâs nothing. Itâs everything. The smallest charge, a pulse of warmth threading through the quiet.
Outside, a moth flutters against the windshield, drawn to the light. You watch it until itâs gone.
Then you glance at him again, the shape of his jaw in the glow, the faint circles under his eyes, the line of his throat when he swallows.
âYouâre not half bad when youâre not trying to be,â you say softly, surprising yourself.
His eyes flick toward you, just once. âDonât get used to it.â
You smile, faint and tired. âWouldn't dream of it.â
The silence that follows isnât empty anymore. It feels like something alive, quiet, fragile, suspended between you.
He finally opens his door. âCome on,â he says, that same clipped tone. âLetâs see if this dump has any beds.â
You roll your eyes, but when you step out, your pinky still feels warm.
The motel looks like itâs been rotting for decades, a half-dead place clinging to the edge of the highway. The sign outside blinks weakly, missing letters. The air smells like cigarettes, dust, and rain.
Isaac holds the door open for you, and the bell overhead chirps a tired ding.
Inside, the front desk woman looks up just long enough to squint before returning to her crossword. A cigarette smolders in the ashtray beside her, a thin curl of smoke looping into the air.
Isaac steps up to the counter, posture perfect. âTwo rooms, please.â
Without glancing up, she says, âNo.â
He blinks once. âNo?â
âWeâre full.â
He inhales through his nose, slow, measured. âAlright,â he says. âA double, then.â
âNo.â
âFine. A room with a pull-out couch?â
She sighs, finally setting her pen down. âListen, kid. The only rooms we got left have a full-size bed. Either cough up sixty-five bucks, or get back on the road.â
Isaac stares at her, the way someone stares at a locked door they canât rationalize being locked. Then he mutters, âWhatever,â and slides the money across the counter.
You canât stop yourself from smiling. Watching him lose an argument feels almost holy.
He notices. âWhat?â
âNothing,â you say, fighting a grin. âIâm just glad genius-boy met his match.â
His eyes flick toward you - a warning - but he doesnât speak.
You snatch the key off the counter. âI call the first shower.â
The room smells faintly of mildew and lemon cleaner. The wallpaper is peeling. Thereâs a single small bed, a rattling air conditioner, and a bathroom that hums faintly with fluorescent light.
Itâs not much, but itâs quiet.
You close the bathroom door behind you and flick the switch. The light blinks to life, harsh and yellow, and for a long moment you just stare at the mirror.
The reflection hits like a slap.
You look awful. Thereâs no other word for it. Your skin has that faint grayish cast that doesnât belong to the living. The veins at your wrists are pale lines under translucent skin. The hair at your temples is uneven, thinned from where roots had burrowed too close to the scalp.
And your hands, God. Half your fingernails are gone, the beds dark and tender. A few small scabs curve along your forearms where the vines were pulled loose.
You swallow hard. The sight is a reminder: thirty years in the ground doesnât wash off overnight.
But the shower helps. The water runs hot, almost scalding. It feels like itâs burning away the last of the dirt, the grave smell, the touch of decay. You scrub until your skin stings, until you can almost pretend youâre new again.
You wash your hair twice. Condition with your fingers. Scrub your skin pink. The cheap motel soap smells like fake apple, but itâs intoxicating anyway.
When you step out, steam fogs the mirror. You look less like a corpse and more like a person. Thatâs enough.
You wrap yourself in the thin robe hanging on the door. âYour turn, Stinky,â you call.â
Heâs sitting at the edge of the bed when you emerge, back straight, hands resting on his knees, eyes fixed on the patterned carpet like heâs studying it.Â
He glances up, expression unreadable. Then he stands and disappears into the bathroom without a word.
You change into your clothes, still the stolen ones, but at least theyâre clean. You sit cross-legged on the bed, brushing through your damp hair with your fingers.
The shower shuts off.
A few minutes later, Isaac steps out, barefoot, wearing a faded t-shirt and jeans that fit wrong. He looks like someone pretending to be human and not quite getting it right. His hair is still wet.
For a while, neither of you speak.
He surveys the room, the cracked painting above the bed, the broken alarm clock, the flickering light by the window, like itâs data to be processed.
âYouâre driving tomorrow,â you say at last. âYou should sleep.â
âI donât need much,â he replies.
You tilt your head. âThen donât waste what you do need. Bedâs big enough. Come on.â
He hesitates, just for a second. You can see the calculation in his eyes, like heâs measuring the odds of awkwardness versus efficiency. Finally, he moves toward the bed and lies down on top of the blanket, straight as a board.
You glance at him. âIâm freezing just looking at you. Get under.â
He doesnât look at you, but he obeys, careful, cautious.
The silence stretches. The heater hums weakly. The neon light outside leaks faint blue through the blinds, painting soft stripes across the room.
You lie still, staring at the ceiling. The air smells like detergent and faint dust. You can hear his breathing, quiet, deliberate at first, then slower. Softer.
And slowly, he drifts.
Itâs strange, watching him sleep. When heâs awake, heâs controlled to the point of cruelty, sharp words, sharper logic. But asleep? Heâs all loose edges. His long limbs tangle in the blanket. One arm flops halfway off the bed, fingers twitching faintly. The other drapes across his chest.
You roll onto your side.
He shifts unconsciously - closer, this time - the warmth of his body brushing against your leg.
You freeze.
Itâs still cold in the room, the kind of cold that sneaks under your skin. You try not to shiver, but itâs useless.
And then he moves again, deeper into sleep, and the back of his hand brushes your arm, warm, human, grounding.
You should move. You donât.
Instead, you let yourself inch closer. Not much. Just enough that you stop shaking.
You fall asleep like that, not quite touching, not quite apart, suspended between discomfort and something you canât name.
When morning light leaks through the blinds, you wake to warmth and weight.
At some point in the night, you both moved, his arm now loose around your waist, his forehead resting against your neck, your hand curved near his chest, and your leg draped over his middle.
You blink at the sunlight spilling across the sheets.
Heâs still asleep, mouth slightly parted, the hard lines of his face softened by it. For the first time, he looks almost young.
You lie still, listening to his breathing, to the hum of the heater that finally caught up to the cold. For a few minutes, it feels like something close to peace.
Then he stirs, eyes opening slowly.
He doesnât move right away. Just looks at you, the faintest confusion flickering through his expression before the familiar calm sets back in.
âYouâre hogging the blanket,â he murmurs.
You huff a quiet laugh. âYouâre hogging the bed.â
A pause. Then, almost too soft to catch âWeâll call it even.â
Isaac Knight x Reader | Wednesday (Nevermore) AU Series
Status: finished
Fic Summary: A girl who can coax life from nothing and a boy who can resurrect the dead collide long before they ever admit what they mean to each other. Thirty years, one failed resurrection, and a lifetime of consequences bind them together long after their first mistake.
Chapter Summary: What begins as Pugsleyâs midnight dare becomes the spark that wakes a dead genius and the memory of the girl he left beneath the roots. And as Isaac claws his way back to himself, the first threads of resurrection begin weaving the two of them together again.
A/N: oml i have been so busy lately but you already know i had to deliver
Thirty years had passed since the night the clocktower imploded. The Skull Tree still loomed at the far edge of the Nevermore woods, its bare branches coiled like black veins against the fog. Rain whispered through the leaves, a cold, endless drizzle that blurred the graves into gray shadows.
Pugsley Addams stood at the base of the tree, shovel in hand. His coat was soaked, his hair plastered to his forehead, and the lantern beside him flickered like a heartbeat. He wasnât supposed to be here but curiosity had always run in his blood, thick and irresistible.
He had heard the stories. Students whispered them when the lights went out in the dorms about the corpse buried beneath the Skull Tree. About how sometimes, when the wind was just right, you could hear the gears turning underground.
And tonight, Pugsley wanted to know if it was true.
The shovel bit into the wet earth. The first layer came away easilyâloam, roots, tangled grass. The deeper he dug, the heavier the soil became, thick and cold, almost reluctant to move. After an hour, his lantern cast strange shadows down the hole, making the dirt walls pulse faintly, as if something beneath them was breathing.
And then, at last, the metal hit something that wasnât rock.
Not a coffin. There hadnât been one Pugsley crouched, brushing the soil away with his bare hands until he saw it: gray fabric, threadbare, stretched over what might once have been a chest.
He stared for a long moment, his own breath fogging the air. Then he reached for the copper wire coiled at his belt.
âI donât know if thisâll work,â he muttered, half to himself, half to the night. âBut it worked on frogs.â
He dragged the wire through the mud. Blue light flared from his hands. Electricity sizzled through the rain, danced over the ground, and vanished into the soil.
The earth convulsed.
Pugsley jumped back, eyes wide as a faint tremor rippled through the dirt. The shape beneath it stirred once, twice, then stilled. He hesitated only a second before turning up the power. The next bolt split the night open.
The smell of burning filled the air. Fog lit up like ghost-fire. And then a hand, pale, stiff, slick with soil, broke through the surface.
Pugsley gasped. âIt worked,â he whispered.
Isaacâs first breath in thirty years was silent.
It wasnât air that filled his lungs but memory, electric, jagged, full of light. His mind sparked, fragments rushing together without order. Metal. Smoke. The crash of gears. A girlâs voice calling his name.
And then hunger.
He moved slowly at first, his muscles foreign and weak, the weight of his own body a puzzle he couldnât quite solve. The boy standing above him, he looked familiar somehow, with his dark eyes and unshaken curiosity. Lightning still clung to the boyâs fingertips, and Isaac could feel it, humming in his bones like a second pulse.
The first few weeks blurred together. Isaac stayed in a shed, where moonlight cut through the roof in thin, silver bars. He didnât remember much, just flashes of the boyâs voice, the sound of rain, the faint hum of electricity that always seemed to be nearby. His body was weak, his thoughts scattered. Sometimes, when he looked at his hand, he wasnât sure it belonged to him.
But the boy, Pugsley, fed him. Bits of something cold, something that quieted the ache in his stomach. It wasnât enough. The hunger never stopped. It gnawed and grew, a low thunder beneath every heartbeat.
Some nights, when Pugsley wasnât there, Isaac would stand by the door and listen to the forest. He could hear everything, the scrape of branches, the whisper of animals moving through the leaves, the rain dripping from the trees. It called to him in a way that words didnât.
Once, he caught his reflection in a windowpane. His face was half missing, eyes dull, hair like ash. But somewhere beneath the ruin, something alive was waking up again.
Something that remembered.
When Pugsley announced the school camping trip, Isaac felt a pulse of something like fear or maybe anticipation. The boy was excited, practically bouncing as he packed. âYouâll like it,â he said. âIt will be nice to get some fresh airâ
The forest stretched endlessly, green and dripping. Pugsley and a handful of classmates set up camp near a lake, their laughter echoing between the trees. Isaac stayed close to the edge, hidden in the tent.
He didnât remember the moment quite when he escapedâonly the scent of smoke and fear, the sound of screaming, the sudden rush of instinct that drowned everything else. And when he was done feeding, he was alone again, the forest silent except for the soft hum of insects.
They caught him hours later.
He remembered only flashes of white light, gloved hands, voices speaking in sharp, frightened tones. He didnât fight. He couldnât. His body had grown stronger, but his mind was still full of static, as if every thought was half-broken. They strapped him down, brought him to a building that smelled of metal and bleach.
The asylum.
Here, time stopped again. White walls, white lights, the sound of his own breathing echoing through the room. The doctors spoke in low voices, writing things he didnât understand. Sometimes, they tested him. Electricity, again mild, clinical, nothing like the power that had brought him back.
He didnât sleep. He just waited.
And every time they turned off the lights, he saw her ,the girl in flashes of memory. Her hair tangled with smoke, her hand reaching for him before the world went dark. It hurt, that image. It was the only thing that ever did.
He began to remember who he was from scraps. A builder. A dreamer. Someone who loved too much, lost too much. Someone who died once, and probably should have stayed that way.
But he hadnât.
And now, he was something else.
The moon sits high and colorless over Nevermore, casting the ruined campus in silver and shadow. Wind whispers through the ribs of the collapsed dormitories, stirring ivy that has claimed the walls. The once-perfect courtyards are wild now, riddled with cracks, roots, and moss that glitter faintly under moonlight.
From the far edge of the forest, a figure limps into view â slow, deliberate, uneven. His clothes hang in tatters, dried blood and dirt staining every fold. The air around him hums faintly with decay and electricity, like a storm about to break.
Isaac stops before the old unkept greenhouse, or whatâs left of it. The roof has caved in, the glass eaten by vines. He stares at it for a long time, head tilted slightly, as if measuring its rot against the memory of what it used to be. He remembers the colors, orchids in rows, the soft buzz of insects, her laughter echoing under glass.
her name flickers through his head like static, the first clear signal in decades of noise.
He closes his eyes. For a moment, he can almost hear her voice, faint, muffled by the soil of time.
When he opens them, his gaze catches on the patch of foxglove glowing deep purple at the greenhouseâs edge. They sway, though thereâs no wind. Their stalks are thick too thick. The flowers shimmer faintly as if pulsing with breath. Isaac freezes.
Foxglove.
He remembers thirty years ago, when he died, there were no such plants here. Not one.
He kneels, tracing a fingertip along a petal. His nail, blackened and cracked, snags slightly on its edge. The bloom tilts toward him, following the motion.
Something in him sharpens.
He studies the soil, its depth, the curve of the mound, the way the plants grow in perfect radius around a central point. Foxglove roots, thick as veins, diving straight down. He calculates growth rate, climate decay, nutrient cycles, and it doesnât add up. These arenât thirty years old. Theyâre far older. Mutated, impossible.
UnlessâŚ
A shudder runs through him. He knows.
Sheâs here.
For a moment, Isaac just stands there, jaw twitching, fingers tightening until dirt falls from them like ash. Then he begins to dig.
He doesnât have tools, only his one hand. The soil resists him, heavy and damp. He claws through it anyway, silently, feverishly, flinging clumps aside. Mud cakes under his nails, streaks across his grayish face. The foxglove bends toward him, petals trembling.
He digs deeper. His fingers strike something solid, not wood, not stone. Flesh. Cold but unrotted.
He hesitates, breath catching in his throat, then keeps going.
Roots are tangled everywhere, thick cords threading through the soil and into the flesh of the body below. As he pulls more dirt away, her face emerges, ashen, almost luminous beneath layers of earth and vine. Her lips are blue, but her features are intact. A long root curls from her collarbone to her jaw like a parasite. Another burrows into her wrist pinning it to the ground.
Itâs grotesque â and beautiful.
He sits back for a moment, staring. His mind, fractured and brilliant, begins assembling theories: post-mortem regeneration through residual power, photosynthetic preservation via plant symbiosis, a closed biological loop. The foxglove was never just decoration, it was a shield, a conduit, a grave and a womb at once.
He should be horrified. Instead, he feels something else: relief.
âYou didnât rot,â he murmurs, barely audible. His voice sounds strange to him, low, rough, unused. âOf course you didnât.â
He slides his arm under her shoulders and pulls. The roots protest, tightening. For a moment, it seems they might keep her â but he yanks harder, teeth gritted, until they tear free with a wet sound.
She comes up slowly, soil cascading off her hair in sheets. Her eyes are shut, her lashes clotted with dirt. Some parts of her have decomposed, thinning and holes in the cheeks,hair thinning in places,missing finger nails, but most of her remains eerily whole. Itâs wrong. Itâs miraculous.
He holds her for a moment, unsure what to do next. His hand trembles where it touches her arm. The skin is cold but pliant.
Something glimmers faintly beneath the surface, veins laced with a faint green glow.
He doesnât think. He moves.
Isaac drags her across the ruined courtyard, past the Skull Tree that looms like a sentinel, its hollow eyes tracking him. He finds the rusted metal hatch near the Iago towerâ half-buried, just as he left it. It takes effort to pry open, the hinges shrieking like an animal.
Below, the air smells of copper and books. His hidden lab. Untouched. Forgotten.
He carries her up.
The hidden underground chamber hums faintly with old energy, cracked tesla coils, broken tubes, and the long-dead machinery of obsession. Cobwebs cling to the ceiling like tissue. Isaac sets her on a table covered in dust and old schematics.
He looks around. All of his old equipment still stands, the reactor modifications, the arc generators, the blood-conduction panels. The memory of how they work comes easily, as if pulled from a deeper, still-living part of his brain. He was always good at remembering.
He wipes dust from the control board with the back of his hand. Heâs eaten enough to think again, to calculate, to create.
He begins to work.
Wires. Copper filaments. Saltwater conduits. He rigs them around her form with meticulous care, weaving between the roots that still cling to her. Static begins to build, blue light flickering like breath against her face.
He doesnât speak. Only the machines do. The hum grows louder, resonant, a pulse that syncs with the faint glow in her veins. The air thickens with ozone and memory.
Isaac watches, head tilted, motionless. His eyes dart between the wires, the veins, the faintest flutter of her chest.
Above them, the moon passes behind a cloud. The lab is swallowed in shadow, save for one pulse of light, faint, rhythmic, under her skin.
Isaac stood over her.
She lay across the gurney, a body once meant to rest, now caught between decay and preservation. The foxglove roots that had wrapped around her in the soil were still there, some embedded in her arms, some woven through her scalp. Their stalks trembled in the labâs flickering light, still impossibly alive. Her skin had taken on the color of stone.
He didnât move for a long time. He just looked at her, jaw locked, thoughts splintering into a thousand unfinished words. Every instinct told him to stop, to leave her, to end this before it began, but hunger and loneliness and guilt had all conspired into something stronger.
He checked the wires again. Adjusted the dial. His reflection flashed in a puddle beneath the table: a creature half-healed, half-rotten, stitched together by appetite and regret. The room filled with the sound of voltage rising, air tightening until it felt like the world itself was waiting to exhale.
He pressed the switch.
The surge split the dark. Lightning rolled through the wires, through her, through him. The smell of ozone burned through the damp air. Her fingers jerked, just barely, the smallest betrayal of stillness.
The current built again, wild and uneven, rattling the shelves. Jars of old specimens burst, their contents spilling into the stormwater. Sparks leapt from the coils and crawled up the metal legs of the table. The foxglove vines shuddered violently, glowing faintly from within, veins of light threading through their translucent stems.
And then, silence.
The hum cut out. The only sound left was rain.
Isaac stepped closer, every movement uncertain, like gravity itself might turn on him. He looked down at her â still motionless â and thought, for the first time, that maybe heâd failed her again. Maybe she was meant to stay buried, wrapped in roots and mercy.
But then her chest rose once.
The movement was shallow, fragile as breath on glass, but it was there. Her head turned slightly, a creak of bone and muscle too long unused. The roots along her arms trembled, loosening their grip, curling back toward the floor.
Her eyelids fluttered.
Not open, not yet, just enough to show the faintest shimmer beneath. The violet hue of the foxglove reflected in them, echoing life through death.
Isaac froze. He didnât reach for her. Didnât speak. He could feel his heart, or whatever was left of it, ticking harder in his ribs.
The machines sputtered again, weaker this time. The power had nearly burned itself out. A coil snapped loose, sparks falling like fireflies around them.
She inhaled, a sound too soft to be called a gasp, too eerie to be called a sigh. The first sound sheâd made in thirty years.
Her eyes opened.
They werenât the same eyes he remembered. They were glassy, deep, but alive with something not entirely human â the faint luminescence of decay turned divine. She blinked once, slow, as if the world hurt to look at.
And from the cracks in the floor, foxglove began to bloom again.
Petals unfolded in slow motion, luminous and trembling, their color deepening to that same impossible violet that shone faintly in her eyes. The blossoms reached toward her like they recognized their maker.
Isaac Knight x Reader | Wednesday (Nevermore) AU Series
Status: finished
Fic Summary: A girl who can coax life from nothing and a boy who can resurrect the dead collide long before they ever admit what they mean to each other. Thirty years, one failed resurrection, and a lifetime of consequences bind them together long after their first mistake.
Chapter Summary: You and Isaac push a malfunctioning invention to its limit, hoping it can save a life before the storm tears the tower apart. But the moment the machine flickers alive, you understand Isaac cares more about finishing it than surviving it.
A/N: Wrote the second chapter bc the words could literally not stop flowing out of me.đ¤Ş
The thunder starts like a warning. Low, heavy, rolling through the foundations of Nevermore as if the school itself can sense whatâs coming. You hear it from the depths of the abandoned workshop classroom, where the air smells of metal, moss, and rain-soaked dust. The machine sits half-disassembled before you, too large to move whole, too delicate to rush.
Isaac stands across from you, sleeves rolled to his elbows, jaw tight in concentration. He doesnât say much while you work. He never does. The silence between you stretches, broken only by the scrape of gears and the rustle of your vines as they curl around a copper panel, guiding it gently into place.
He glances up once, catches sight of the ivy winding on the walls, and exhales sharply through his nose.
âFocus on the calibration,â he says, voice clipped. âNot your⌠horticultural theatrics.â
You bite back a smile. âItâs called multitasking, genius.â
He doesnât respond, but his eyes flick briefly toward you dark, unreadable. The look isnât angry exactly, but itâs not friendly either. Itâs that sharp, assessing stare he always gives, like heâs trying to solve you the same way he solves equations.
You keep working. The vines obey your thoughts, weaving around bolts and screws, tightening where your hands canât reach. The air hums faintly when your power moves through it, a soft, green shimmer that reflects in the glass tubing of the machine. Itâs beautiful, in a strange, otherworldly way and you know it irritates him that you make something so mechanical look alive.
After a while, he speaks again. âWeâll have to take it up to the clocktower. Itâs the only place with enough exposure.â
You pause. âExposure?â
âTo lightning,â he says simply, wiping sweat from his temple. âThe energy will surge through the spire and into the conduits. Itâll be enough to activate the core without draining the schoolâs power grid.â
Lightning. Of course. Itâs dangerous and dramatic exactly the sort of thing heâd think was a good idea. You glance toward the narrow windows, where the sky bruises darker by the minute.
âSo we wait for a storm,â you say.
He nods. âAnd we move the machine tonight.â
You groan. âYou do realize this thing weighs more than both of us and your ego combined, right?â
âThen use your abilities,â he says dryly. âIsnât that what itâs for?â
You roll your eyes, but thereâs no real bite behind it. The vines snake beneath the base of the machine, lifting carefully. Isaac steadies the floating weight with his telekinesis. Together, the two of you carry the monstrous device through the empty halls of Nevermore, part by part.
It takes hours. The vines tremble under strain. Your head aches from the concentration it takes to keep them moving steadily. Isaac says nothing the entire way, only gives curt nods when somethingâs adjusted right, or sharp commands when it isnât.
When you finally reach the clocktower, the doors groan open on rusted hinges. The air is cold and electric, thick with the scent of rain and ozone. The great gears above creak and moan as the wind slips through their teeth. You both stand for a moment, breathing hard, surrounded by dust and darkness.
Then the work begins again.
Piece by piece, you and Isaac reassemble the machine beneath the heart of the clock. The vines lower the heavier parts into place, while his telekinesis guides the fragile glass tubing through the tangled web of wires. The glowing liquid within the tubes pulses faintly, as if aware of whatâs coming.
You can feel the storm growing nearer, your abilities respond to it instinctively. Petals bloom in the room from the dampness in the air.
âFocus,â Isaac says again, without looking at you.
âI am focused,â you reply, exasperated. âYouâre just allergic to ambiance.â
He gives a quiet, humorless sound. Maybe itâs a laugh, or just an exhale that almost becomes one.
Time stretches. The sky outside flashes white, illuminating the stained glass in shards of color. The rain begins, soft at first, then harder. Youâre down to the last piece when Isaac steps back, studying the machine with a strange expression, pride mixed with something heavier.
You watch him wipe his hands on his coat. His eyes are distant, calculating. Then, for once, they soften.
âNo oneâs ever helped me finish something like this,â he says quietly. His voice sounds different, lower, less guarded. âMost people give up halfway.â
You look up from where youâre tightening a bolt. âMost people arenât as stubborn as I am.â
A faint twitch pulls at the corner of his mouth. It isnât quite a smile, but itâs close.
He hesitates, then adds, almost under his breath, âThank you⌠for actually caring. You saved her with me.â
You freeze. He doesnât say things like that. Ever.
For a heartbeat, the storm quiets or maybe it just feels like it. The only sound is the ticking of the great clock above you.
You take a small step closer, heart thudding against your ribs. The air between you smells like metal and rain. âYou donât have to thank me,â you murmur. âThatâs what friends are for.â
And before you can second-guess it, before he can retreat back into that wall of cold, you lean up on your toes and press a soft kiss against his cheek.
Itâs quick, light, barely there. But his reaction is immediate. He goes utterly still. His hand twitches as if to stop you, then stills again. His face turns slightly toward you, expression unreadable. The stormlight catches in his eyes, something flashes there, gone before you can name it.
âYou shouldnât thank me yet,â he says finally. His tone is quiet but edged, like a knife turned in velvet.
You blink, startled by the shift in his voice. âWhy not?â
He only looks at the machine. âBecause thereâs still a price for everything.â
Another flash of lightning splits the sky outside, flooding the room in white. The thunder follows a second later, rattling the glass.
You turn back to the machine, pretending not to shiver. Somewhere deep in its frame, a faint hum stirs â as if it already knows what itâs going to take from you both.
And from far above, the great clock creaks once, its gears shifting like a giant waking from a dream.
The machine stands in front of you like something alive. Copper veins pulse faintly beneath the glass casing, the vines you guided through its frame swaying like theyâre listening to the thunder outside. Every bolt, every wire, every coil you and Isaac carried up those endless stairs gleams with potential.
He stands beside you, his sleeves rolled, his eyes reflecting the stormlight. âItâs ready,â he says. His voice is low, certain, but the tension in his jaw betrays him. âAll it needs is one clean strike.â
You look at him, then at the sky beyond the clocktowerâs fractured glass. âThen letâs give it one.â
The two of you move quickly, you to the gear platform, him to the main panel. You can barely hear his words over the howling wind. âOn my mark!â he calls. Lightning forks across the heavens, a jagged vein of silver. âNow!â
The tower erupts in sound. The lightning crashes against the spire, channeling down the rod with a blinding flash. Sparks leap across the machine, blue and gold, alive and thrumming. The glass tubes ignite, light racing through the coils like wildfire. For a heartbeat, it works. You can feel the hum deep in your chest, the air vibrating with something too powerful to name.
Then, all at once, it dies. The lights flicker, stutter, and fade into darkness. Smoke curls from a cracked wire. The clocktower groans as if disappointed.
You blink through the haze. âDid we-?â
âNo.â Isaacâs voice is flat. He slams the switch again. Nothing. âThe current wasnât strong enough. It couldnât sustain the transfer.â
Rain pounds against the windows. A low growl of thunder answers him, mocking.
You exhale, frustration curling through your chest. âSo we wait for another strike?â
âIt wonât work.â Heâs pacing now, one hand dragging through his hair. âIt needs something living. A surge that can adapt. Itâs like-â He gestures toward the inert tubes. âLike it needs a heartbeat.â
You frown, thinking. The lightning rod hums faintly above, but the charge is gone. The machine looks dead again.
And then it hits you. âWait.â
He turns.
âWhat about Gomez? He can make and control lightning. If he focused it through the towerâŚâ
Isaac freezes. The stormlight paints sharp angles across his face, and for a fleeting second, something shifts in his expression, hesitation, guilt, maybe even fear. But it vanishes before you can call it out.
âThat would work,â he says evenly. Too evenly. âYes. That would be perfectly.â
You grin despite yourself, relief washing away the tension. âThen what are we waiting for?â You grab your jacket, lightning flashing against the wet glass as you rush toward the stairs.
Behind you, Isaac doesnât move. He just watches the dead machine, the faint smell of ozone lingering in the air.
When you glance back at him, his eyes are still on it, not with hope, but with something colder. The thunder rolls again, closer this time, as if the storm itself is answering to him.
Minutes later, Francois and Gomez arrive; heâs drenched, laughing, a streak of mischief cutting through the gloom. âIf this is about lightning,â he says, brushing rain from his hair, âMorticiaâs going to kill me if I fry my eyebrows off again.â
You laugh, the sound light in the heavy air. Isaac doesnât. He stands behind the machine, half in shadow, hands gripping the control lever tight enough that his knuckles pale.
Gomez cracks his knuckles. âAll right, guys. Let's do this.â
The next flash of lightning doesnât crackle â it roars. Gomez raises his arms, and the storm obeys. The entire tower fills with roaring white sparks, electricity crawling over metal and glass, pulsing through the vines like veins of fire.
You shield your face. Isaac doesnât look away.
When itâs over, the machine hums again â brighter, stronger, alive.
And still, that flicker of guilt in Isaacâs eyes refuses to die.
The storm has swallowed the night whole. Every few seconds, the world outside flashes white as lightning claws across the sky, throwing jagged shadows across the clocktower walls. The air hums with power â thick, metallic, almost alive. Inside, the machine glows gold and blue, veins of light pulsing through its glass coils. It hums like it has a heartbeat.
You help Isaac and Gomez connect the final wires to a very nervous Francois, hands shaking as you twist the metal into place. The heat radiating from the machine makes the air shimmer. Gomezâs laugh breaks the tension for a moment, bright, forced, a little too loud.
âMan, this looks like something out of a mad scientistâs basement,â he says, flashing his grin like armor.
You donât laugh. Your heartâs beating too fast. âAre you sure heâll be okay?â you ask quietly.
Isaac doesnât look at you. He checks the dials, adjusts the coilâs position. âAt worst, heâll be tired,â he says. âThe charge drains fast.â
His voice is calm, too calm â polished like a lie heâs practiced. You notice the edge beneath it, the faint tremor in his fingers when he brushes against the console. But you donât push. You believe him.
Gomez settles into the chair in the center of the tower, surrounded by copper cables and glowing glass. âLetâs bring her spark back, yeah?â he says softly, glancing toward the girl on the table â Francois. Pale, thin, fragile as a porcelain doll. The sight of her twists something in your chest.
Isaac adjusts the machine again, his movements steady, precise. Thunder cracks outside, shaking the tower.
âReady?â he asks.
Gomez salutes weakly. âBorn ready.â
You step back, your vines spreading instinctively, curling around the edges of tables and cables, steadying the fragile beakers that tremble from the stormâs rumble. The roots at your feet sink lightly into the cracks of the stone floor, grounding you as the tension rises. The air tastes electric.
Lightning strikes.
It hits the spire, roaring through the cables in a blinding surge. Gomez jerks, electricity races up his arms in ribbons of blue fire. His grin falters. The laugh that follows is broken, hollow.
The machine answers with a low, resonant hum. The floor vibrates beneath your boots. Glass trembles in its frames. Every hair on your arms stands on end.
âIsaac-â
Heâs watching the readings, eyes wide with awe. âItâs working.â
You feel it before you see it, your vines flare to life, blooming violently. Flowers burst open on the wood next to your feet, too fast, too bright, wilting in seconds from the heat. You try to stop them, to focus, but the energy thrums through like wildfire.
âIsaac, thatâs too much!â you shout.
âHe can handle it.â His voice cuts through the noise â flat, sharp, utterly certain.
But Gomez isnât laughing anymore. His head falls forward, the light crawling higher up his neck. The smell of ozone burns your throat. Sparks leap from the console, snapping against your wrist.
âStop it!â you cry, reaching for the lever, but Isaacâs hand catches yours mid-motion.
His grip is iron. âDonât.â
âIsaac, heâs dying!â
âHeâs saving her!â His eyes blaze, desperate, feverish. Youâve never seen him look like this before, not even during the other experiments. His obsession radiates off him, thick as the storm air. He believes this will work. He needs it to.
You push against him, struggling, vines flickering to life around your arms, some lash at his sleeve, others recoil in confusion. The storm outside seems to pulse with the chaos inside, every lightning flash syncing with your heartbeat.
âLet me go!â
A sharp crack, a fuse blows somewhere above you, showering sparks like falling stars. Gomez screams. The sound tears through you. Francoisâs chest jerks upward in a violent convulsion, then falls still again.
The air has turned molten. The storm outside screams against the glass, every flash of lightning carving the clocktower in silver scars. The machine roars beneath it all, louder than the thunder, louder than breath.
Gomez jerks in the chair, back arched, eyes wide, electricity twisting through his veins. His scream is swallowed by the hum. You twist against Isaacâs grip, your wrists already bruising.
âIsaac, stop-heâs burning!â
He doesnât let go. His teeth are clenched, jaw shaking, eyes wild. âItâs working, look!â
You look. Francoisâs body trembles on the table, skin rippling like something trapped inside is trying to crawl free. For one dizzy heartbeat, her chest moves. Hope flickersâand then you see Gomezâs head slump forward, smoke curling from his collar.
âPlease,â you gasp, âlet me turn it off-â
He tightens his arm around your waist, pinning you back. âIf we stop now, thereâs no telling what will happen.â
âIsaac-â
Another lightning strike splits the tower. The whole world shakes. The gears above the clock face scream as they spin.
And then the door bursts open.
Morticia stands in the frame, rain streaming from her hair, light sparks illuminating her face. She takes in everything at once: Gomez convulsing, Francois half-alive, you struggling in Isaacâs grip. The look in her eyes is pure, unfiltered horror, followed by something colder. Rage.
Isaacâs head jerks up. âWait-â
Sheâs already moving. The ceremonial sword thatâs hung untouched for decades is in her hands before the word finishes leaving his mouth. Gold filigree glints white as she swings.
You see the blade move in two frames of lightning: first through air, then through flesh.
Isaacâs scream breaks the storm apart. His right hand hits the floor with a wet slap. For half a second, everything stops, rain suspended in the air, the hum of the machine holding its breath.
And then the bladeâs momentum carries it on, metal kissing metal.
It strikes the conduit.
The reaction is immediate, merciless. Blue light explodes outward like a sun being born. The machine shrieks, every wire snapping free, every gauge bursting.
You donât even have time to scream. The shockwave rips through the floor, hurling you backward. Isaac vanishes in a wash of light. Morticia is thrown across the room, her cry swallowed by the roar.
The air itself seems to tear.
You hit the railing hard enough to knock the breath from your lungs. The clock face behind you shatters, glass and rain collapsing inward. Wind howls through the gap, sucking everything toward the open night.
The floor splits. The tower tilts.
You grab for somethingâanythingâbut your fingers find only air and spinning light. A vine lashes out from instinct, wrapping around a beam, but the heat sears through it. It burns away before you can pull yourself up.
âIsaac!â you shout, voice raw. âIsaac!â
Somewhere in the glare, you hear him call your name, but itâs faint, swallowed by the storm.
The next lightning strike hits the spire.
The clocktower gives way.
For a heartbeat youâre flying, no pain, no fear, just weightless white noise. Then the world rushes up to meet you.
Impact.
Everything goes silent.
The clocktower lay in ruins. Rain poured through the shattered roof, pooling in rivulets along the jagged stone floor. Smoke twisted through the air, and the smell of ozone lingered, thick and acrid. Broken gears and fragments of the machine littered the room, some still sparking faintly, casting a stuttering blue light over the wreckage. In the middle of it all, two bodies lay motionless: Isaac, his right hand severed, and her, sprawled beside him. Fingers brushed against the pale, lifeless hand of the boy she had trusted, a final, unspoken connection, frozen in the chaos.
Gomez collapsed onto the floor nearby, his chest heaving. His body, stripped of electricity, felt fragile as paper. Morticia was on her knees beside him, one hand pressed to his shoulder, the other brushing rain from his damp hair. Her eyes darted toward the broken machine, toward the two bodies near the center of the room. âItâs over,â she whispered, voice small in the vast, ruined tower.
Gomezâs lips pressed into a thin line, and he shook his head. âNo,â he murmured. âNot yet.â His gaze fell on the colorless girl beside Isaac. The life that had been so bright inside her had gone out with the explosion. A sob threatened to escape him, but he swallowed it.
Morticiaâs eyes narrowed at the girl. âI donât understand,â she said softly, her voice breaking. âShe⌠she helped him. Build this⌠this monstrosity.â
Gomez said nothing at first, only staring at the scattered metal and wires, remembering every spark, every desperate glance from Isaac when the machine had begun to hum. âMaybe thatâs why he trusted her,â he finally said. âShe believed in it like he did. Believed in him.â His hands clenched into fists, nails cutting into his palms. âShe shouldnât have.â
Morticiaâs gaze softened as she glanced down at the girlâs still form. âShe didnât deserve this,â she said, almost to herself.
Farther away, Francois stirred, coughing and blinking through the smoke. Her eyes, wide and terrified, took in the wreckage of the clocktower before she pushed herself up on trembling arms and bolted, still shaking, still unsure of herself. The rain swallowed her almost instantly, leaving only splashes of mud in the empty hall. Morticia watched her go, and a small frown tugged at her lips. âSheâll live,â she said, but there was no conviction in the words.
By dawn, the storm had passed. Mist curled across the grass outside Nevermore, wrapping the ruins in a pale, ghostly light. Gomez and Morticia walked silently toward the Skull Tree. Each step squelched in the rain-softened earth, echoing in the empty courtyard. Morticia carried a simple shovel; Gomezâs hands were steady, though his face betrayed the exhaustion of the night.
They buried Isaac first, beneath the roots of the Skull Tree. Its skeletal branches reached toward the sky, bare and foreboding, like skeletal fingers gripping at the dawn. Gomez stood stone-faced, silent. Morticia whispered, her voice low and cold, âLet him rest in the shadow he built. He chose this path.â
Isaacâs grave was small, precise. No words were spoken as the earth swallowed the boy who had once been a friend, a brilliant mind twisted by obsession. The rain pattered on the dark soil, and a single crow took flight from a nearby branch, cawing once before vanishing into the mist.
Then, Morticia guided Gomez to the second spot â softer earth near the greenhouse, sheltered from the morning chill. âShe didnât deserve his grave,â she said quietly. âShe deserves sunlight.â Gomez lowered the girlâs body gently, reverence in his careful movements. He brushed wet hair from her face and gave a small, almost imperceptible nod.
The rain softened to a drizzle, droplets glinting like tiny stars on the soil as Morticia and Gomez began to cover the grave. The first shovelfuls of earth fell, then another, then another, each landing softly on the girlâs body, hiding her from sight but not from memory. As the last spadeful covered her, the ground trembled beneath them, subtle but unmistakable.
From the dark, wet soil, thin green shoots pushed upward. They curved and spiraled with a deliberate, almost sentient grace, racing toward the pale morning light. Within moments, a large shrub of foxglove had emerged, towering and full, its bell-shaped flowers glistening with raindrops. The blossoms opened immediately, pale purple petals stretching toward the sky like a sigh of relief.
Morticia and Gomez froze, staring at the miraculous bloom. Morticia whispered, awe and horror threading her words, âFoxglove⌠deadly, yet beautiful.â
Gomez knelt beside the grave, hand hovering over the flowers, as if he could feel her essence in their fragile petals. âJust like her,â he murmured. Rain slicked hair clung to his forehead, and his eyes glimmered with a mixture of grief, admiration, and disbelief. He let the mist curl around the graves, the morning light brushing the petals, casting shadows that danced across the soil.
For a moment, the world was still, save for the gentle sway of the foxglove in the breeze. It was a fragile, unspoken promise: she had been buried, but not forgotten. Life, even after devastation, had a way of claiming its space again, small, bright, and defiantly beautiful.
Morticia looked at Gomez, her expression softened by the dawn. âShe⌠she was brilliant,â she murmured. âIf only we had seen it sooner.â
Gomez remained kneeling, watching the flowers bloom as if they could tell him the story of her courage and her mistakes. âWeâll remember,â he said quietly. âEvery part of her.â
The mist thickened as the first rays of sunlight stretched across the horizon. In the pale light, the foxglove glowed faintly, petals trembling as if alive, a living memory of the girl who had given everything â her courage, her brilliance, and, in the end, herself â to try to save someone she loved.
And in that moment, beneath the trees of Nevermore, the world felt impossibly empty and impossibly alive at once.
Isaac Knight x Reader | Wednesday (Nevermore) AU Series
Status: finished
Fic Summary: A girl who can coax life from nothing and a boy who can resurrect the dead collide long before they ever admit what they mean to each other. Thirty years, one failed resurrection, and a lifetime of consequences bind them together long after their first mistake.
Chapter Summary: You catch the first cracks in Francoisâs health and the first flicker of something dangerous in Isaacâs interest. By the time the machine idea is born, the three of you are already tangled in a fate none of you see coming.
A/N: Been sitting on this idea forever and finally caved. Yes its corny, and yes it slaps.
Nevermore Academy, 1995
You slide into the lecture hall for the advanced physics elective, a class reserved for students who make everyone else feel slow just by breathing. The scent of aged wood, chalk dust, and faint mechanical oil hangs in the air, punctuated by the occasional hum of hidden apparatus tucked into corners. Friends chatter about homework and experiments, tossing jokes and shared glances, but your attention is elsewhere, sweeping across neatly arranged desks and half-finished contraptions.
A small pulse under your feet almost imperceptible catches your notice. At the edge of your desk, a sprout of lilac unfurls, curling and twisting delicately, petals shimmering in a hue no one else seems to notice. It lifts the edge of a notebook just enough for you to slide your pencil underneath, marking your place. No one looks. No one sees. Yet it exists, just like the energy you carry wherever you go.
Farther back, Isaac sits, arms folded, gaze sweeping the room. He catalogues every movement, gesture, and faint sound: a careless shuffle of papers, a half-smile, a pen tapped against a desk. Everything is logged, even your presence, though to him youâre just a subtle shift in the roomâs rhythm.
You lean toward your friends, joking. âWhy donât we just reverse the polarity of the atomic capacitor and pray it doesnât start a small singularity.â
Blank stares. Cheeks warming, you tug at your notebook, letting the joke fade into the shadows of your private cleverness. Behind you, Isaac shifts slightly, a flicker of recognition for your efficiency and precision then back to the room. He doesnât care for a single studentâs performance, only patterns, calculations, subtleties of error and correctness.
Later that day, the sun dips low over the fairgrounds. You weave through the crowd with friends, tossing playful jabs, teasing over games and food. The smell of popcorn and caramel apples mixes with the metallic tang of rides. Lights spin in dizzying patterns, casting reflections across the crowd. Laughter bubbles out of your group, effortless and bright, pulling attention without meaning to. Francois, your best friend and roommate, stays close, her hand brushing yours at odd intervals, her laughter ringing through the noise, and you mirror it instinctively.
You dart to the tilt-a-whirl, spinning until the world tilts and tilts again. Hair sticks at odd angles, shoes skidding on stray pebbles. Adrenaline hums under your skin, that reckless, alive buzz that only comes when surrounded by people who care. A balloon bumps your shoulder, someone shouts about winning a stuffed animal, and for a moment, the fair is endless.
Just far enough behind the crowd to remain unnoticed, Isaac moves through the chaos. Not drawn to the noise, not part of the laughter. He watches carefully, cataloging fatigue, missteps, and gestures that suggest unease. You donât see him yet; for now, the crowd swirls around you, each scream and cheer bouncing off wooden stalls and candy-scented air.
The Ferris wheel looms, lights blinking like stars dragged to earth. Friends urge you forward, and you climb aboard, letting wind whip through your hair as it creaks skyward. Francois clutches the railing, hair tangling in the breeze, laughing like itâs impossible to stop. You laugh, too, heart racing.
By the time you stumble off, breath still shallow, Francois falters, pressing a hand to her knees. A sudden stillness, her uneven breathing, tugs at you before your mind can process. You rush to her side, and already Isaac moves to intercept, precise and measured. His hand rests on her back. âShe just needs to rest,â he says, voice calm, steady, unshakable.
âIâm not letting you take her alone,â you insist, stepping closer. âI know sheâs tired, but sheâs my friend. Iâll come.â
Isaac meets your gaze, neutral but firm. âNo. You shouldnât. Itâs fine. I can manage.â
You hesitate, chest tight, caught between responsibility and unease. Then laughter and voices slice through the air. âCome on! Youâre missing the next ride!â one friend calls. âGet over here!â another yells. The pull of fun tugs at you. With a reluctant sigh, you release a breath and let the crowd sweep you back, shouting, âIâll be right back!â
The fair is still buzzing in your ears later when you finally tear yourself away, friends lingering behind to grab snacks and laugh over the last ride. Lights twinkle on the midway, casting long, distorted shadows across the path as you walk, the night air sticky with sugar and laughter. Your heels tap against the pavement, and your outfit, bright, daring, and in hindsight maybe a little skimpy seems to hum with the energy of the evening.Â
The dorm is quiet. Francois rests on the bed, one hand holding a book loosely, the other brushing hair from her forehead. âHey,â you say, dropping your bag, âwhat was that back there? Are you okay?â
Bright eyes meet yours, tension coiled beneath the surface. âIâm fine,â she says smoothly.
âThatâs a lie,â you insist. âYou can tell me. Weâre best friends, you donât have to carry it alone.â
âIâm fine. Too tired to argue.â A pause. You nod, letting it slide, but unease lingers.
You march to Isaac and Gomezâs dorm. Gomez opens almost immediately, grinning warmly. âLook whoâs here! Youâre a sight for sore eyes.â
âHi, Gomez. I need to talk to Isaac,â you smile back at him, tilting your head, making your intent clear.
His grin widens. âSure. Iâm off to Morticia. Donât do anything I wouldnât do!â And with a wink the door clicks behind him.
Isaac sits at a cluttered desk, tinkering. His eyes flick up, a sharp double take, subtle, fleeting before returning to the machine. âWhat is it?â
âI tried asking Francois. Sheâs not telling me anything. Whatâs wrong with her?â
He glances up briefly. âShe needs rest. Nothing serious.â
âNo. Sheâs been off. Somethingâs going on.â
âDoesnât matter.â
âDoesnât matter?â
He finally sighs. âSheâs a Hyde. Hydes can only live so long. Her condition is catching up.â
 You take a breath. âThen we fix this.â
âIâve been trying. Thereâs nothing yet.â
âWell, what if we take her outcast abilities away?â
He pauses, eyes narrowing. âThought of that. No machine exists.â
âSo, we make one.â
He tilts his head, sharp. âYou? And you know what about machinery?â
âAbout the same as you,â you shrug, âbut I can follow directions and figure things out.â
He hums low. âFine. But donât slow me down.â
You smirk âWouldnât dream of it.â
Days bleed into nights. Dorm rooms, labs, practice yards, all spaces become battlegrounds of wires, gears, and stubborn wills. Arguments flare constantly while building the machine in Isaccâs small dorm room.
âTorque is off by a millimeter!â Isaac snaps, eyes narrow, lips tight. His voice has an edge that almost cuts.
âThen fix it,â you shoot back, letting a vine curl and lift a dropped bolt, spinning it neatly into the mechanism. It twirls playfully, snapping like a ribbon when it lands.
âDo it properly next time,â he says sharply, microaggressions hidden in every clipped word.
You roll your eyes and retort, âOr you could, you know, double-check your own calculations.â The plant curls again, brushing a stray gear into alignment as if on cue.
Hours pass. Circuits tested, gears fitted, code sequences run. Flowers sprout along the railing, petals drifting lazily into the air. A bolt hovers briefly under Isaacâs telekinesis, guiding itself perfectly into place. You clap softly, delighted.
Sweat streaks your forehead. Finally, âItâs done!â you exclaim. A vine twists a dropped caliper into your palm, then you fling your arms around Isaacâs waist in jubilant excitement.
He freezes. Hands grip the frame of the machine. Doesnât hug back. Shoulders stiff, jaw tight, the closest he comes to acknowledgment is a twitch.
âYou could at least acknowledge a success,â you tease.
âIt works. That is all,â he says flatly, voice clipped, gaze fixed on wires.
You grin, letting a tiny blossom dangle into the panel. Isaac glances, jaw twitching acknowledgment, if nothing else.
Meanwhile, your absence from the usual social whirl doesnât go unnoticed. Invitations to parties start slipping your way, friends whispering in hallways.
âYouâre skipping the dance?â one asks. âFor⌠him?â
âYes. Canât. Busy with Isaac tonight,â you say, voice casual.
A faint shadow of awareness flickers across Isaacâs expression as he overhears, lips pressed to a thin line. Nothing more.
And still, the machine hums quietly, brimming with restrained energy. Vines curl along its edges, tiny flowers bloom in celebration, and you realize that even amidst Isaacâs cold precision, you can leave traces of magic and life small, whimsical signs that the world bends a little toward you, even here.
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you buy a toy thatâs marketed as âdeathly silent.â too bad your roommate is a highly trained soldier.
âdeathly silentâ: thatâs what the box said. thatâs what the ad, the website, the product name, all said.Â
and it was, in and of itself, silent.Â
but you and your noises werenât.Â
at least not to your roommate, government trained, experience-laden, finger on the trigger, simon âghostâ riley.Â
youâd been amicable, cordial roommates for two years. itâd gone without a hitch: he responded to your post online, went through your vetting process. agreed to get a background check.Â
once heâd moved in, (if thatâs what youâd even call it) it was like you still lived alone. even when he was deployed, rent was deposited right on time, every month.Â
but somehow a man that size had learned to move silently. youâd never quite been able to figure it out. sometimes heâd scare you, sure, but he always apologized and moved on. made sure to make his footfalls heavier for the rest of the day.Â
over the course of two years, youâd managed to learn a couple of things about him.Â
he likes his coffee blackâhe buys the same brand they keep on base.Â
but when it comes to tea, simon buys artisanal earl grey.Â
heâs got a couple masks, so heâs always wearing a clean one.Â
he puts his boots next to yours at the door. jackets are the same story.Â
he has to make huge portions for himself when he does cook, so youâre always offered some. you stopped declining a month in: the man knows his way around a kitchen.Â
he likes chocolate chip cookies, but not as much as he likes brownies.Â
itâs almost weird to know so much about someone youâre not quite friends with. not quite family with.Â
youâve never lived in such close quarters with a man youâre not related to or in love with. so this purchase was extremely necessary.Â
if you never had to hear him..Â
then he should never have to hear you.Â
âmm, fuck!â you whispered around clenched teeth. at the sound of simonâs feet walking down the hallway, into his room, you slap a hand over your mouth.Â
his presence next door just puts words to your unconscious thoughts. every sliver of fantasy pulling you closer to the crest is roommate related.Â
youâre reminded of his eyes above the skull mask, the bulk of his shoulders in a black shirt. how he spreads his legs when he sits on your couch watching the game. itâs inescapable to you, inexplorable. itâs a safe place in your mind.Â
your roommate, whose cologne lingers in the hallway. whose empty cups of tea sit in your sink.Â
inescapable. inexplorable.Â
a high pitched whine escapes from between your fingers, your back arching from the mattress.Â
this thing was a lot stronger than you realized.Â
your legs shake as you reach orgasm number three, your toes clenching. you can barely keep a grip on the toy itself, youâre so wracked with sensation.Â
pleasure coats your bones, a slickness that oozes out of every pore, out between your legs.Â
simon heard the buzzing from the kitchen. heâd seen the âdiscreet packagingâ in the trash. this wasnât his first day on earth. his roommate's got a new toy.Â
he canât get the sound out of his head. he can hear it over the sound of water boiling in the kettle, over the football talk show on low in the living room. itâs utterly inescapable.Â
an attack animal trained to hear frequencies he shouldnâtâsimon was cursed with the knowledge that you were fucking yourself stupid behind closed doors.Â
the thought alone had him throbbing under his joggers, blood swelling the piece of meat between his legs.Â
it was already torture, living with someone like you.Â
someone with such a light inside. someone who smiled at him like he wasnât a monster with a kill count in the tens of hundreds. someone with great legs, that peeked out from tiny sleep shorts. if you asked heâd toss you a pair of his boxers to wear instead.Â
he was waiting for you to ask, like you ever would.Â
it was torture, knowing he had a bird waiting at home for him that wasnât exactly his.Â
torture that he had to hear your whines as he walked down the hallway, and couldnât do anything about it.Â
shouldnât do anything about it.Â
he shut his door with a loud click, giving you the chance to stop if you wanted.Â
you didnât.Â
it was torture, but he couldnât resist any longer.Â
leaning against the wall, his head tipped back to hear better, he gives in.
simon slips his hand under the waistband of his sweats, fist immediately around his cock.Â
his thumb brushes over the tip, and heâs making his own noises.Â
they blend in with yours to soundtrack his thoughts, a scenario where heâd be the one under those sheets with you. instead of some stupid piece of machinery.Â
you grow louder, your poorly muffled whimpering seeping through the thin walls.Â
itâs obvious: youâre not trying to hide it anymore.Â
you canât.Â
pleasure has taken over. sensation has gained command of your good sense.Â
the finish line nears, and you can barely keep the buzzing piece of rubber on your clit as your whole body shakes, shudders. a full-bodied moan rips from your mouth as you soak the sheets, liquid squirting from underneath your fingers.Â
the next room over, cum coats simonâs knuckles as he shudders into his own fist, the room spinning.Â
he canât remember the last time he came so hard.Â
simon coughs, thankful for his mask. his cheeks are burning hot.Â
ânice shirt, eh?â he remarks, his eyes trained on the âRILEYâ painted over your shoulders.Â
you turn your head, smiling. it almost hurts to see you like this. like youâd just been rolled around in bed.Â
âthanks?â you reply, a little confused. it was just the first clean shirt in your drawer.Â
your roommateâs acting kind of odd.
he shakes his head. you have no clue what youâre wearing. what youâre doing to him.Â
âsâmine,â he growls out. tone a little harsher than he means for it to be.Â
you finish stuffing your dirty sheets into the washing machine, dropping a soap pod in after them before slamming the lid closed.Â
looking down at the shirt youâre wearing, the fact that itâs simonâs is becoming increasingly obvious. it smells like him, itâs about three sizes too big, and itâs sporting a logo reading TF141 over the left breast. pulling at the shirt until you can read the back, your eyes widen at the huge letters of his last name.Â
âiâm sorry! dâyou want it back?â you squeak out, mortified.Â
ânah, keep it.â simon says, tone flippant. devil-may-care.Â
if thatâs the way itâs gonna be, maybe heâll slip a pair of boxers into your laundry later.
ŕź first time writing cod! writing simon! i thought of this prompt and just knew i needed to put fingers to keyboard about it. lmk if i need to explore this more! â¤ď¸
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âCONTAINSâ18+ SMUT MDNI, fem!reader, slight dubcon vibes, boot riding till orgasm (i know that's right,) slight brat taming vibes, power imbalance (he's your lieutenant,) age-gap (late 40s/early to mid 20s,) superiority complexes, meanie & condescending simon, & no use of y/n. [979 words]
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You barge into his cramped, dimly lit office, skin sizzling and tongue hot with accusations, the only sound is the scratching of his pen on paper.Â
"Why the hell would you pull me out?" you shout at Simon, your lieutenant, who is hunched over his desk doing paperwork.
He doesn't even look up; he just scribbles messily across the page. "Best adjust your tone, Sergeant," he replies, his voice low and gruff as always.
You stand your ground, arms crossed over your chest. "No," you declare, your voice firm and unwavering.
This time, he glances up at you, and his tone shifts to a lethal seriousness. "What was that?"
"I will not let you or the other guys treat me like a little kid, Ghost. I may be young, but I earned my rank, and Laswell wanted me here, so you're just going to have to deal with me," you insist, your arms flailing with anger.
He exhales sharply, setting his pen down and rubbing a hand across his masked face. "You're gettin' to be a real fuckin' pain in my ass, you know that?"
"Good. Then maybe I won't be so fucking easy to ignore," you grit out, your voice straining.
"You should be thankin' me," he suggests, leaning back in his chair with a creak.
"Thanking you?" you gawk, your eyes wide.
"You're ungrateful," he stands. "Disobedient," he mutters, moving from around the desk to walk over to you. "A real brat."
"Ghost," you start, your voice trembling as he stands right in front of you.
"Worst of all, you come in here with your chest puffed, thinkin' you can talk to me the way you did. Oh, sweetheart," he shakes his head. "You need to learn some damn manners."
âGhost,â you urge, feeling the toe of his boots press against yours.
He shakes his head; his harsh emotions are easy to read, even with his face covered. âGet on your knees, Sergeant,â he directs firmly, his eyes looking down at you.
Your eyes widen in shock as his command catches you off guard. âWhaâwhat?â you stammer, confusion evident in your voice.
âDid I stutter?â he asks, his eerily voice low.
"No⌠IâGhost..." you manage to stammer, your voice trembling with worry.
He twists his head to the side, clearly agitated. "You show me some goddamn respect and call me 'sir,'" he commands before turning back to meet your wide eyes and tight shoulders. "You lack the discipline needed to succeed here," he continues, resting his hands on his hips. "You haven't a single clue how mean I can be. You haven't seen me lose control. Not really," he states, a hint of amusement in his tone.
"So, I'm⌠what? Lucky?" you say, trying to tread lightlyâor as lightly as your rebellious mouth allows.Â
"Yes," he confirms without hesitation. "You are. But right now? You're tearing apart every shred of patience I have left to give. So, Iâm telling you one last time: get on your knees, Sergeant."
 A fire ignites in your stomach that you despise, but you obey, sinking to the cold floor before him.
"Wasn't so hard, now was it?" he sarcastically questions. His tone makes you want to erupt in anger, but you hold back and bite your tongue. "Now, sit on my boot."
"What?" Your voice comes out more breathless than you intended as you look up at him.
He narrows his eyes, tapping his foot impatiently. You can tell he's testing your obedience. "Sit," he commands, his voice leaving no room for argument.Â
Your mouth opens slightly as you slowly move to sit on his foot, feeling his laces and the fabric rubbing your cunt through your cargo pants.
âGood girl,â he praises, making you swallow deeply as you stare at his leg. âUse my boot, Sergeant,â he encourages through clenched teeth.
âFor what?â You look up at him, your chest heaving from nervousness and adrenaline.
âFor this,â he says, picking up his boot slightly to rub against you. You grab his calf and let out a stifled moan at the sensation. âYeah. Feels damn good, huh? See what happens when you listen to me, Sergeant,â thereâs condescension in his tone before his voice goes dark and low. âYou get to have this greedy pussy takinâ care of.â
Your body jerks forward at his words, and you can feel yourself grind into his boot, mouth hanging open as you let out a small whimper.Â
He lets out a gruff laugh, which you look up with needy eyes. âTake what you need,â he tips his head in approval towards you.Â
And so you do.
Your fingers span across the back of his calf as you work your aching cunt on his boot.
Back and forth, the fire in your stomach burning hotter and brighter with every rhythmic movement.
âLook at you squirminâ on my boot,â he murmurs, hand resting on top of your head as you wail and whine. âLike a cat in heat. Fuckinâ needy and whiny.â
You lock your arms around his leg as you feel the soft blow of your looming orgasm.
âEyes on me,â he commands, moving his thumb to press against your pouty bottom lip.
You comply, gazing up at him as you rock yourself against the leather fabric, seeking more friction. Your eyes remain half-lidded as you watch his intimidating gaze swirl beneath the mask.
âYou gonna start mindinâ me, Sergeant?â he prompts, squeezing your bottom lip between his thumb and pointer finger. âBetter not mouth off again, or Iâll let Price deal with you.â
Your orgasm crashes over you as you wail into the fabric of Simonâs cargo pants, fingers digging into his calf.Â
âThanks,â he speaks after a brief moment as you are still trying to recuperate.
âFor⌠what?â You tilt your head in confusion as you try to catch your breath.
âMy boot needed a good shininâ.â
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Title: We Couldnât Stop
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Female Reader x Steve RogersÂ
Summary: Â During a sweep of a forgotten HYDRA lab, you, Steve, and Bucky trigger an old aerosol dispersal system. No one realizes what hit you until itâs too late. Now stuck in quarantine- burning, aching, and caged in with two dominant, unraveling super soldiers- youâre forced to ride out the drugâs effects together.
Word Count: Â 7k
Warnings: Â / Explicit Content /18+, Minors DNI, Sex Pollen / Drugged Lust, Threesome MFM, Dubious Consent (due to drug influence), Double Penetration, Oral (F & M receiving), Praise Kink, Rough Sex/Overstimulationm Fingering, anal ply, cum play, Competitive Doms
A/N: my entry for  @avengers-assemble-bingo for April Kinky Bingo
Square: A3- Threesome
Card Number: KB003
The mission was supposed to be a simple sweep- an old HYDRA lab buried deep beneath the forest floor, long abandoned, just a routine retrieval run for leftover tech and encrypted files that could pose a threat if they fell into the wrong hands. You, Steve, and Bucky had done that sort of thing more times than you could count. Clear the rooms, grab the drives, secure any volatile tech, and call for extraction. In and out. Easy.
You shouldâve known better the moment you stepped inside. The facility was too quiet, too intact. Dust settled thick on the floors, but the lights still flickered dimly overhead, and the security systems were half-alive, humming low like they were waiting.
You were the one who found the sealed door- reinforced, heavily protected, and drawing power. It was locked down tight, tucked at the end of a corridor where the flickering lights didnât quite reach. You called the others over.
"You think itâs storage?" Bucky asked, frowning at the biometric pad.
"Locked and powered," you muttered. "Could be data. Or maybe just a lab they forgot to scrub."
"Let's not poke the bear," Steve said, but he stepped up beside you anyway, scanning the door. "Looks like it's sealed for a reason."
That should've been the moment you backed off. But your fingers were already dancing over the keypad, overriding the old security system. The panel blinked. Clicked.
"Iâve almost got- "
The door hissed. Not wide- barely a few inches.
A soft spray hit you all in the face.
It came fast. Silent. A puff of pressurized mist like compressed air, followed by the faintest scent- ozone, chemical sweetness, almost floral.
You stumbled back, coughing once.
"What the hell was that?" Bucky barked, wiping his face with his sleeve.
Steve grabbed your arm, pulling you away from the door. "You okay? Did you breathe it in?"
"Yeah, but- I donât feel anything."
"Weâre all covered in it," Bucky snapped, glaring at the faint sheen settling over Steveâs shoulders. "Fucking hell."
"Close it," Steve ordered.
Bucky slammed the door shut, sealing it again with a growl. "Old security measure. Shit."
"Weâll report it," Steve said, but his jaw was clenched.
The spray clung to your skin. Sweet. Heavy. And whatever it was, it was in all three of you now.
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By the time the jet touched down back at the compound, you were already flushed and aching, your heart thudding too fast in your chest. Whatever had come out of that door- it clung to your skin, settled in your lungs, and made everything inside you feel off. You werenât the only one affected. Bucky was pacing the perimeter of the quinjet like a caged animal. Steve hadnât spoken for the last twenty minutes, but his white-knuckled grip on the back of a seat said everything.
Youâd hoped the decontamination shower would be the end of it. But blood was still taken. Swabs run over your skin. Scans. More questions. Until finally, they left the three of you in the quarantine room- one sterile space, no outside contact, and cameras in every corner.
You wanted to apologize. This had been your mistake. But Buckyâs expression was pure storm as he continued to pace like a tiger in a zoo. Steveâs face was unreadable- steely, distant, controlled. So you kept your mouth shut and tried not to scratch at your skin like you desperately wanted.
Soft static crackled, and then Tonyâs voice filled the room over the speaker. "Itâs biochemical bonding serum," he said. "Looks like it's engineered to push subjects into a state of hyperarousal and submission, designed to override inhibition and drive instinctual behaviors."
Your stomach dropped. What kind of mess had you landed yourself in?
"How long?" Bucky snapped, voice sharp.
"We'll have to check back on the decay and metabolic rate, and we- "
"What Bruce means is- we don't know," Tony cut in. "For you guys, it might be a matter of hours. Little Miss Curiosity might be stuck with it in her system a little longer."
You flinched and shied away from the speaker, burying your face in your hands.
"We're working on it, don't stress. It shouldn't kill you," Tony added casually.
"Big fucking whoop," Bucky growled, pressing a fist into the wall. Steve shot him a look of disproval.Â
"Buck.." His tone warning.Â
"Just, try and stay calm, guys," Bruce said, trying to sound optimistic. "It'll be alright."
"Donât make a mess," Tony said, his voice laced with sarcasm. "Weâll keep you posted."
And just like that, you were cut off again.
Biochemical- engineered arousal.
"Well, you heard him," Steve sighed, leaning back against the wall, scrubbing a hand over his face. "We just have to keep our heads. It canât last forever."
That was easy for him to say. Both Steve and Bucky had super soldier serum in their veins- enhanced bodies that could regulate, adapt, maybe even resist. You⌠you were human. And you could already feel your body reacting in ways that made your skin itch and your blood feel like it was boiling.
You didn't say anything. Just shifted your weight, trying not to squirm. The heat beneath your skin pulsed steadily now, like it was alive.
"This is fucked," Bucky muttered, pacing again. "They just dumped us in here like weâre some kind of experiment."
"Theyâre doing what they can," Steve said, tone calm but tight. "We donât know enough yet. Getting worked up wonât help."
You glanced between them, heart racing. The tension in the room was building again, only this time it wasnât from anger- it was something heavier. Thicker. Clinging to the air like smoke.
And under it all, that hum beneath your skin only grew louder.Â
Hours had passed.
You'd started pacing a little while ago, unable to sit still. Movement helped. Not much- but it was something. You were going through the water they'd left in the room like you were dying of thirst. You were hot, sticky, your tank damp and clinging to your body, and you were doing everything you could to ignore the throbbing pulse between your legs.
You kept moving. Pacing. Trying to shake it off.
Steve watched from the far cot, jaw tight. His shirt was damp, his breath shallow, but he was sitting like he was trying to pretend everything was normal.
Bucky was pacing again, eyes locked on you more often than not, his jaw clenched so tight it looked like it might crack. âShe smells different,â he muttered. âFuck.â
His words made the hairs on the back of your neck stand up. The rough, raw sound of his voice made your head twitch like it was a physical thing pulling at you.
"Gonna try and sleep," you muttered, not looking at either of them.
Maybe you'd be able to sleep through the worst of it. Maybe if you were lucky, your body would calm down. You slipped behind the thin curtain, stepping into the tiny corner of privacy around your cot. Laying down, the heat of your body only seemed to intensify. Your skin felt suffocated, and with a frustrated sigh, you peeled your tank top over your head, leaving you in just your bra, hoping the exposure would help you breathe easier.
It didnât.
You curled onto your side, arms around your stomach, thighs pressed tight together. The ache between your legs was a constant, heavy throb now. Maybe⌠maybe you could just handle your own needs. Just enough to take the edge off. Anything to ease the ache.
Your hands trembled as you pulled the thin blanket around you and lay on the cot. There was a small curtain for privacy, but it did nothing to muffle the sounds when your fingers slipped beneath your waistband.
You tried to be quiet. Tried to hold your breath. But your body was on fire, and even the gentlest brush of your fingers sent you bucking.
A whimper escaped, broken and desperate.
And then you heard it- Steveâs voice. Low. Strained.
âDonât- donât do that.â
You froze. âI- I canât- â
Still, you didnât stop. You rubbed faster, then slower, your fingers diving inside of you, pressing deeper, trying every angle- but nothing worked. Every shift of your hand sent sparks across your nerves, your breath hitching with each pulse of pressure, but the fire wouldnât break. Your legs trembled, your toes curled, but it all stayed out of reach.
You changed angles, tried circling your clit with trembling fingers while your other hand held onto the edge of the cot like it could ground you. You rocked your hips up, whispered pleas into the dark, but it wasnât enough. Not even close. You needed more- needed them- but all you had were your own shaking hands and the unbearable ache growing between your legs.
Your breath hitched again as frustration bloomed hot and frantic in your chest. You were soaking, your thighs slick, the air sticky with the scent of your arousal. Your skin was flushed and clammy, your body locked in this endless loop of need- and yet you still couldnât fall over that edge. Not like this. Not alone.
"You gonna keep pretending you donât want her?" Bucky asked, voice low and rough, growling on the other side of the curtain.
Steve didnât move at first, but his voice followed, strained. "I can smell her arousal from here, Buck. You think Iâm not affected?"
"Sheâs whimpering, Steve. Sounds like music to me."
"Weâre not doing this. We canât- "
"Fuck this. She needs someone."
"Donât you fucking touch her," Steve snapped.
"Then you do something," Bucky fired back.
Silence followed. You pressed your fingers deeper, hips rocking, but it wasnât working. You were going to explode- your body was wound so tight it hurt.
Your fingers werenât enough. You begged, voice cracking, desperate and broken.
"Please... please someone- "
Someone pulled the curtain back.
Buckyâs eyes were dark. Blown wide. He didnât speak.
It hurt. âI canâtâŚâ you whimpered, barely able to speak. âItâs not workingâŚâ
Your hips shifted again instinctively, your fingers still caught between your thighs, but the tension was unbearable. You were so wet, so swollen with need, it was maddening- and yet release stayed just out of reach. Your body craved more than your own touch could give.
They both appeared, stepping past the curtain without a word. You could see it in their faces- this was affecting them just as much. Steveâs eyes were dark, jaw clenched. Bucky looked wrecked, barely human with how sharp and hungry his expression had become.
You writhed again on the cot, body shaking, and Steve moved first- his weight shifting over you as he pressed your shoulders down into the mattress with steady, unyielding hands.
"Stay still," he said, voice gravel-thick.
At the same time, Bucky grabbed your wrist and gently pulled your hand away from you.
You whined, hips arched up, as Buckyâs gaze dropped to your slick fingers. He looked transfixed. Obsessed. His mouth parted before he dragged his tongue along your digits, groaning low in his chest at the taste.
Then- without breaking eye contact- he brought your hand to Steve.
"Tell me again we shouldnât do this," Bucky said, voice rough and knowing.
Steve hesitated, staring at your hand, your eyes, then your body.
"...Steve?" you pleaded, chest heaving. A bead of sweat slid down your ribs, slicking your skin as the heat inside you pulsed like a second heartbeat. "Help... please."
Steveâs jaw flexed. His eyes raked over your flushed, trembling body, lingering where your bra had ridden up from the way you were squirming, the curve of your thighs glistening in the low light.
Bucky didnât speak. He just stood there beside him, wild-eyed and rigid, chest rising and falling with short, shallow breaths. The scent of you filled the air. Thick. Sweet. Desperate.
Steve exhaled through his nose, heavy and slow like he was trying to exhale restraint. It didnât work.
"Youâre going to regret begging so pretty, sweetheart," he murmured, finally moving closer, the promise behind his words like thunder rolling through your veins.
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They were both on you.
You didnât know who moved first- Steveâs hand slid up your thigh, firm and sure, while Buckyâs mouth was suddenly at your neck, teeth grazing the sensitive skin just below your ear. The tension shattered. Clothing came off in frantic tugs- your joggers peeled away, your bra unclasped and discarded. Steveâs tank was tossed aside. Buckyâs sweats hit the floor with a low rustle.
Heat and skin and breath surrounded you. Their bodies pressed in, solid and hot and overwhelming. Steve's chest pinned you down as he kissed you- hard and consuming- his tongue sliding against yours as he groaned into your mouth. His hands cupped your jaw, fingers splayed, tilting your head how he wanted it.
Bucky moved lower, lips trailing down your throat, teeth scraping along your collarbone. His hands gripped your hips, dragging you down the cot toward him with a roughness that made you moan. He kissed your stomach, your ribs, your inner thighs, worshipping each inch like it belonged to him.
You gasped, arching into the touch of both of them. Their mouths- wet and demanding. Their bodies- slick with sweat, grinding against you like they couldn't get close enough.
You'd all held out for so long. Now there was nothing but the letting go.
Every nerve ending in your body sparked like live wires with every touch- every graze of skin against skin sent jolts of unbearable sensation through you. It was impossible to stay still. Your limbs twitched, your hips rocked, your breath came in short, gasping pulls as your body tried to process too much, too fast.
âDonât move,â Steve growled, voice rough but laced with something gentler beneath. âToo sensitive? No. Youâre just not used to being handled right.â
Bucky pushed your legs open wider, guiding your knees apart until your calves hung off the edge of the cot, completely exposed, completely theirs.
âSheâs soaking,â Bucky breathed. âFucking hell- sheâs dripping down her thighs.â
The cool air kissed your slick folds and made you shiver. Then his hand slid between your thighs again, and fingers plunged into you- two, maybe three. You didnât even know whose they were anymore.
Steveâs mouth found your chest, teeth grazing over the top curve of your breast before his lips closed around your nipple. You sobbed, your body already arching upward from the overload.
The blonde growled against your skin, one hand gripping your jaw while the other tangled in your hair, yanking your head back just enough to bow your spine upward. You gasped, helpless, writhing between them, your body trembling from overstimulation.
âYouâre taking it so well,â Steve murmured, voice low and rough. âJust like that. Good girl.â
âLook at her,â Bucky snarled. âThatâs it, sweetheart- ride my hand. Come on. Take what you need.â
His fingers worked deep inside you, curling and thrusting, hitting that spot that made your legs twitch and your hips lift off the cot. His palm pressed against your clit with every motion, grinding you into the edge of bliss, holding you there with cruel precision. You could feel everything. Every ridge of his knuckles, every flex of his wrist. It was too much and not enough all at once.
You whimpered, your hands scrambling against the sheets, seeking something to hold onto as your body rocked with each relentless stroke. Steve bit gently at the underside of your jaw, his hand still twisted in your hair as he whispered praises that barely reached your ears over the rushing roar of need building inside you.
Steveâs mouth was on your chest again, sucking one nipple into the heat of his mouth while his hand massaged the other, groping you with a needy rhythm that only made it harder to breathe. His other hand had tangled itself in your hair again, gently tugging until your spine arched up off the cot, your body straining toward both of them.
Buckyâs metal thumb pressed into your clit, circling with just enough pressure to make your thighs jerk. Your breath hitched, head tipping back as you let out a broken moan.
"OH FUCK." you cried, fingers clawing at the side of the cot, knuckles white.
He didnât stop. His fingers pumped into you, slick and steady, coaxing the sound out of your throat again and again. You felt like you were vibrating- nerve endings lit up with fire, each touch sparking through you like electricity.
âYou hear that, punk?â Buckyâs voice dripped with ego. âThatâs the sound of my fingers making her cry.â
Steve shifted beside you, sitting up to watch, his eyes locked on where Bucky's fingers slid in and out of you. One of his hands moved down, low and out of sight, and you could see the tension in his jaw as he fought to keep control.
Bucky glanced back at him, grinning as he curled his fingers just right and made you cry out again.
"Look at her, Stevie," Bucky growled, his voice rough and ragged with arousal. He didnât even look up, just watched his fingers slide in and out of you like it was the most important thing in the world. "Sheâs writhing just from my fingers. What happens when I put my cock in?"
"Youâll wait," Steve snapped, voice sharp, strained with barely checked control. He was flushed, jaw tight, clearly fighting the same battle Bucky was already losing.
"God, look at her," Bucky muttered again, breath coming faster. "Fuck, I want her mouth. I want every part."
You couldnât answer. Your vision blurred. Every nerve in your body felt like it had snapped tight, vibrating with unbearable pressure.
And then it broke.
You came- hard.
Your whole body convulsed as the orgasm tore through you. Your legs kicked against the cot, arms flailing blindly for purchase. Steve had to hold you down, one hand braced across your chest, the other still tangled in your hair as your back arched and a strangled sob tore from your throat.
It didnât end quickly. The drug made it last- your climax dragging on and on, crashing over you in waves so powerful they left you gasping, wrecked.
You felt Buckyâs fingers slow inside you, easing off just enough to let you ride it out without breaking. But they didnât stop touching you. They didnât let you go.
And worst of all, the haze in your head didnât clear like you hoped it would.
You were still shaking. Still needy.
Still burning.
You were a panting mess, your skin still hot and your chest tight when one of them scooped you up and lay you out on the cool floor. The shock of it made you gasp, the chill a sudden relief against your fevered skin. You blinked your eyes open, dazed, limbs slack and breath ragged.
"Youâre such a mess for us, baby," Bucky murmured, crouched above you now. His voice was low, ruined with hunger. "That sweet little body of yours wasnât made to handle all this, was it?"
Your eyes found him- Bucky, kneeling near your face now, his cock hard and leaking, so close it blurred your thoughts. He looked feral, undone, lips parted like he was barely restraining himself.
Your tongue slipped out to lick your lips without thinking. The taste of your own sweat clung to your skin, but all you could focus on was him. The way his chest rose and fell, the way his fist clenched at his thigh.
Your mind narrowed to a single point of clarity.
You wanted him in your mouth.
You leaned forward slowly, licking the bead of precum off his tip before taking him in fully- hungry, needy, your lips stretching around the thick, velvet length of him. Buckyâs breath stuttered, and he let out a ragged groan as your mouth sealed around him.
âFuck, thatâs it,â he gasped, one hand flying to your hair, not to guide but to anchor himself. âSo fucking pretty like this- taking me so deep. Look at those lips- look at that mouth.â
You moaned around him, the vibrations making him hiss. He was hot, heavy, pulsing against your tongue, and you hollowed your cheeks to take him deeper, until your nose pressed against the base and he swore low under his breath.
âMessy little mouth,â Bucky panted. âSo eager. You needed this, didnât you? Needed something to suck while we ruin the rest of you.â
You were lost in it- the taste of him, the heat, the way he twitched when your tongue flicked just right. Spit gathered at the corners of your mouth as you worked him with sloppy desperation, gagging slightly as you bobbed your head in a steady rhythm.
Just then, you felt Steveâs hands at your hips, steady and sure. He shifted your lower body, pulling your legs open and up until you were spread out for him on the floor.
âYou liked Buck's fingers? Letâs see how you do on my cock,â Steve growled against your ear, his voice dark and thick with restraint.
You gasped around Buckyâs cock, the moan caught in your throat turning into a garbled sound of pleasure as Steve aligned himself behind you. His fingers dug into your thighs, holding you wide as his tip pressed against your entrance- already slick, fluttering, aching.
He pushed in slow, filling you inch by inch, and every nerve inside you lit up in electric spasms. Your muscles fluttered around him, clenching and pulsing as he stretched you open, the thick drag of him stealing your breath.
The pressure, the fullness, the stretch- it was overwhelming. You sobbed around Bucky, the vibration of your moan making him groan above you, his hips twitching as he fought not to thrust.
Steve bottomed out with a hiss, his hands gripping tighter like he needed the anchor. Inside you, he throbbed, deep and perfect. You felt stretched to the edge of your limits, your inner walls fluttering in frantic spasms around him, struggling to adjust and clench all at once. Your body didnât know what to do- pull him in deeper or push him out.
It was too much. It was everything. Your head was spinning.
They started to move- slow at first. Steve dragging back only to sink in again, deliberate, controlled, while Buckyâs cock bumped the back of your throat as he rocked forward with a groan. You gagged, whined, clung to them both with your mouth and body.
You were stuck in it now. The lust. The drug. The heat. There was no thought left, only sensation. Only how it felt to be stretched open in two directions, trembling and gasping.
They didnât talk to you anymore. They talked about you.
âSheâs so sensitive,â Bucky growled. âPoor thing doesnât know what to do with herself.â
Steve grunted, his pace picking up. âTight as hell. Sheâs pulsing like she doesnât know whether she wants to come or cry.â
You tried to moan but it came out a broken, garbled sound around Buckyâs cock. Your tongue dragged along the underside of him as he pushed deeper, your throat fluttering as you swallowed around the stretch. Spit dripped from the corners of your mouth, tears tracking down your cheeks, but you didnât stop. You couldnât.
Buckyâs hand tightened at the back of your head, not forcing, just holding you there, gazing down into your wet, dazed eyes. âThatâs it, baby,â he groaned. âFuck, look at you drooling all over me. You love it, donât you?â
Your hips rocked back into Steve without meaning to as he thrust forward again, harder this time, grinding deep. Your nerves fired like sparks, the friction of his cock dragging against hypersensitive flesh sending bursts of pressure low in your belly. Your insides coiled, pleasure building with every thick, deliberate thrust, your body wound so tight it felt like you might snap apart.
âYouâre doing so well for us,â Steve grunted, leaning down, his mouth hot at your ear. âSuch a good girl, letting us use you like this.â
He hooked one of your legs over his shoulder, changing the angle, driving in deeper. The stretch made you cry out around Buckyâs cock, throat flexing as your moan turned to a sob.
"That's it," Steve growled, pace quickening. "Fuck, so fucking wet and warm... you gonna cum, sweetheart? Gotta feel you squeeze me while you swallow Bucky."
Your body arched, heat crashing through your spine as Steve hit that perfect spot again and again, each thrust sending a jolt through your core. Your throat tightened around Bucky's cock, the vibration of your desperate moans making him curse under his breath.
âFuck- sheâs so close,â Steve panted, driving harder. âYou feel that? Sheâs fucking pulsing.â
You sobbed around Bucky, tears streaking your cheeks, the pressure in your belly a coil tightening with no escape.
âSheâs gonna lose it,â Bucky panted, watching the way you writhed. âLook at how sheâs trembling. She needs cock.â
And then it snapped.
Your climax hit like a bolt of lightning, seizing your body with white-hot tension as your inner walls clamped down around Steveâs cock. You wailed around Buckyâs length, the cry vibrating through him as he let out a guttural groan.
âFuck, that mouth- â Bucky growled, watching your teary eyes roll back. âIâm gonna- shit- â
He spilled down your throat with a grunt, his cock twitching between your lips, his hand holding you steady as you swallowed every drop of him while he pulsed.Â
The clenching spasms of your climax milked Steve mercilessly, dragging his own orgasm from him with a ragged curse. He slammed in deep, staying buried as he came hard, filling you with warmth that only made the pleasure burn hotter.
âTake it,â he groaned, his breath broken against your shoulder. âTake it all. Good fucking girl.â
Bucky sat back on his heels, pulling himself from your mouth with a wet pop, still hard, his cock glistening with your spit. â"Fuck... youâre unreal..." he panted, shaking his head like he couldnât believe what he was seeing..pupils blown as he looked down at you.
Steve finally pulled out with a groan, the loss of him sudden and jarring, making you whimper. His cum followed, warm and slick as it dripped from your stretched pussy, pooling between your thighs.
His gaze dropped between your legs, transfixed. His eyes went heavy-lidded as he watched it leak from you, dripping down to your slick, twitching rim. Slowly, his fingers moved to your core, smearing the mess down lower, spreading it deliberately to your other entrance.
You gasped, twitching from aftershocks, your body still sensitive everywhere. His fingertip teased your tight hole, rubbing softly, slicking it with a practiced ease. You whimpered, already overwhelmed, but the moan that spilled from you was pure need.
âDamn, Stevie- you didnât fuck her right if sheâs still aching like this,â Bucky drawled, voice hoarse and edged with a smirk, watching the way your hips shifted restlessly on the floor.
You whimpered, the heat still rolling inside you, every nerve ending alive and twitching. The aftershocks made your muscles flutter, your body too sensitive and still so hungry. Steve didnât bite back. He was too focused- his fingers slick with his own cum as he spread it lower, smearing it over your pussy and then circling your tight, twitching rim.
And then one thick finger pressed inward.
You gasped, whole body jolting, a broken sound catching in your throat as your body tried to clamp down instinctively. But Steve worked slowly, steadily, easing the finger deeper, the stretch sharp and slow as he began to work you open.
You felt your core clench around nothing as Steve worked his finger deeper. âI need- please, I need more, I canât- â you gasped, voice trembling. Your head was a mess, fogged with lust and the aftershocks still sparking under your skin. Steve kept up the slow pump of his finger, pushing in deeper, working more of his cum into your ass to keep you slick and open.
âHear that, Steve?â Bucky said, voice thick with amusement, already fisting his own cock in lazy, slow strokes. âShe wants more.â
Steveâs gaze didnât waver, his finger sinking deeper, curling. You whimpered again.
âCanât say no, can we?â Bucky added, grinning.
âOh, I think I know exactly what our girl needs...â Steve muttered, voice thick with heat and control, as his hand disappeared between your thighs.
Steve pulled his finger from your ass just as Bucky got down onto the floor, reaching out to haul you up into his lap. Steveâs arms hooking under yours, supporting your limp, boneless body as they moved you together like you weighed nothing.
âLetâs get you on Buck now...â Steve purred near your ear, voice thick and smooth, a slow heat curling down your spine.
Buckyâs cock was already there- thick, hard, and waiting. They guided you together, Steve steadying you from behind while Bucky angled his cock to your entrance.
As Steve lowered you, your legs wrapped weakly around Buckyâs hips, and you felt the first stretch as his tip slid inside. A guttural groan ripped from Buckyâs throat, his hands tightening on your thighs.
âFuck, baby,â he gritted out, voice rough and reverent. âYou always take me so damn good. Still so fucking tight- even after Steve blew you open? Shit.â
âThatâs a girl,â Steve murmured, voice low with praise. âNice and slow... Want you to feel every inch of him, donât you?â
You just whimpered and nodded, the need to be filled consuming, overwhelming, as the pair of them helped you sink down onto Buckyâs cock, inch by perfect inch.
Your head fell back against Steveâs shoulder as you settled fully onto Bucky, who thrust up into you with steady pressure. The heat and stretch made your whole body tremble. You could barely breathe, still twitching from your earlier climax. Then Bucky's hands gripped your hips tight.
âOh fuck,â he hissed, hips rolling upward as he began to move you, guiding you into a rhythm. âLook at you. Still aching. Like how I feel doll?â
The moan that spilled from your mouth didnât even sound like you anymore- wrecked, raw, and desperate.
You were unraveling under Buckyâs rhythm- the way he filled you had your mind slipping, your thoughts scattering with every deep, slow thrust, how every thrust hit deep, high inside, brushing against that spot that made you shudder. Your head lolled back onto Steveâs shoulder, eyes fluttering, lips parted around desperate little gasps.
âShe bites her lip when I go deep. You see that?â Bucky said with a rough chuckle, voice wrecked but smug. âShe likes my rhythm.â
You didnât even notice the way Steve bent you forward over Bucky, hands guiding your body like you were something precious and fragile and already ruined.
You didnât have time to think too much before you felt Buckyâs hands grip your ass, pulling you open as Steve shifted behind you. It wasnât until the thick, spongy head of his cock pressed against somewhere youâd never let anyone touch that your eyes snapped open in surprise.
The first inch pushed into your ass slowly, carefully, but it still stole your breath.
âItâs too much- I canât- wait- â you gasped, voice cracking with overwhelmed panic as your body instinctively tried to jerk away.
But Bucky rocked his hips upward, pushing deep into your pussy again, and the shockwave of pleasure was enough to paralyze your resistance.
âShh... itâs okay,â Steve murmured, arms wrapping around you from behind as he continued to press in. His voice was thick and coaxing, his control iron-tight. âIâve got you. Youâre doing so good for us.â
You sobbed, your whole body fluttering around them as Steve sank in deeper, the thin wall between your holes trembling with every inch he took. The two of them groaned in unison, voices rough and reverent as they filled you together.
You were caught between them now. Two super soldiers, all three of you lost in lust and need. Your face twisted with sensation as they held you there- one thick cock filling your pussy, the other spreading your ass open inch by inch. Both sunk to the hilt. You were impossibly full. You were shaking. Overwhelmed. Unable to process the stretch, the heat, the drag of their bodies inside you. It was too much. And you needed more.
âYouâre both so⌠big- Iâm gonna- fuck- â you sobbed. You couldnât believe how sensitive youâd become- how just being filled, just being stretched, could reduce you to this. You werenât even moving, yet your body was already bracing to come undone again. There was no going back. No holding on. Just surrender.
You came without moving, the sensation of fullness alone tipping you over. Your body seized in the middle, core clenching violently, squeezing down on both of them at once as pleasure ripped through you like a lightning bolt.
Your voice cracked into a scream. You were gone- shaking, convulsing, burning from the inside out as your orgasm dragged through you with devastating force.
Both of them groaned at the way your body squeezed them- tight and hot and trembling.
âFuck,â Bucky grunted, rocking his hips once more. âDidnât even have to move. Just had to be inside you.â
Steve chuckled darkly, voice low and wrecked in your ear. âSheâs that sensitive. That fucking perfect.â
You couldnât even answer. Your lips parted in a silent gasp as Steveâs hands slid up to cup your breasts, thumbs brushing across your stiff nipples as he started to move again. Slowly at first, easing back before pressing forward, dragging against that thin wall with every thick stroke.
Bucky's grip returned to your hips, steady and possessive, guiding you to rise and fall on his cock. Your body jolted with every motion, your moans soft and slurred.
âThatâs it,â Steve cooed, hips snapping gently. âWeâll start slowâŚâ
âI-I canât- â you whimpered, but your body was already moving, driven by instinct and need.
âI know you can take more,â he murmured. âLook how beautiful you are when you come apart. It'll feel better- just gotta keep going.â
And it did. It felt better than the denial. Better than the ache that came from holding back. The pleasure rolled through you like a drug, heavy and all-consuming.
Your hips started to move again, slowly grinding into Bucky as your walls fluttered around him. You didnât know if it was need or instinct- maybe both- but you couldnât stop. You were cock-drunk. Barely aware of anything except how good it felt to be filled this way.
âBreathe,â Steve whispered. âJust like that. Hold it- good girl.â
Then Steve pulled your hips back into him and pressed all the way in.
âYou think youâre fucking her deep?â Steve growled at Bucky, voice low and wild. âWatch this.â
Bucky shoved his hand flat to your lower stomach and lifted his hips with a brutal thrust. You cried out, the stretch making your eyes roll back as he ground up into you. It was obscene how deep he reached, how thick he felt. You pawed at his chest, clinging to him with trembling fingers.
â..fuck fuck fuck...â you gasped, the breath knocked out of you before he eased his hips again, smug and steady.
âTold ya,â Bucky muttered with a grin.
But it didnât stop there.
Bucky answered your gasps with harder thrusts. Steve listened for his name and answered with praise. His mouth latched to your neck, nipping and licking along your skin as he squeezed your breasts roughly, molding them in his palms.
âDid you hear that one? That was mine,â Steve muttered against your skin when you gasped his name.
Bucky answered with a sharp thrust that made your breath catch. âShe moaned louder for me, sweetheart. Donât get cocky.â
Each of them was locked into the game- testing reactions, adjusting pace, trying to claim the sounds that spilled from your lips. One made you cry out, the other drew a gasp. They used your body like a live wire for their competition, and you were helpless in the storm.
âShe whimpers when I kiss her right here,â he growled, biting just beneath your ear.
Buckyâs hands gripped your hips tighter, fucking up into you hard enough to rock you against Steveâs chest. âShe clenched around me when you said that,â he rasped. âBet sheâs trying to pick a favourite.â
You couldnât keep up. Couldnât think. You only managed to gasp whatever name escaped your lips first, and they both heard it- every time. And they responded with sharper thrusts, filthier praise.
âYouâre so cock-drunk, you donât even know whoâs making you come anymore, do you?â Bucky said, voice rough.
âSheâs beautiful like this,â Steve murmured, licking the sweat off your throat. âAll wrecked. All ours.â
Then Buckyâs metal hand slid between your thighs again. His fingers brushed your clit, the coolness of steel a shocking chill of metal against your heat made you jolt, gasping as sparks danced up your spine.
âOh- god - fuck- â you sobbed, trembling uncontrollably as sparks shot up your spine.
âBreathe,â Steve ordered again. âJust like that. Thatâs our girl.â
They started to move faster now- driving into you in sync, pistoning in perfect rhythm. The slap of skin echoed, the slick sounds of your soaked cunt and the obscene wet pressure of being filled from both ends breaking whatever was left of your mind.
âYou want to make her come, punk?â Bucky growled. âYou gotta fuck her harder than that.â
âShut up, jerk,â Steve snarled, thrusting harder. âWe donât need to break her. Just ruin her a little longer.â
âSheâs shaking so bad. You keep her steady, Steve- I wanna see her face when she comes again.â
Your next orgasm ripped through you with a small wail, your features contorting as your body locked up tight. You clawed at them both- gripping Steveâs forearm, Buckyâs shoulder- as your walls fluttered around their cocks, milking them, begging for more without a word.
They didnât stop. Didnât give you time to come down. Steve groaned, his thrusts picking up as he rolled your nipples between his fingers. Bucky cursed, gripping your hips tighter, lifting and dropping you into him with growing urgency.
You felt them both losing control- felt their restraint slipping with every second you squeezed around them, heat and slickness pouring down your thighs.
âFuck- fuck, sheâs doing it again,â Bucky grunted.
Steveâs voice was a low growl in your ear. âShe wants it. Sheâs not done. Not till we are.â
Then the pace shifted- harder, rougher, deeper. Their moans grew louder, matched only by the slap of skin on skin. Your head spun, your vision blurred.
And then they were coming again- Steve first, pulled tight to your back, his groan muffled in your shoulder. Then Bucky, buried deep beneath you, eyes locked on yours as he spilled inside you with a strangled moan.
You collapsed between them, limp and boneless, your body a trembling wreck held up only by their hands. You didnât even try to move. There was no fight left in you- only the slow hum of satisfaction and overstimulation. Somewhere in the haze of your mind, a flicker of disbelief passed through you- how had you endured that? How had you survived the storm of them inside you? But there was no room for shame or second thoughts. Only surrender. And the quiet, overwhelming hum of being utterly, deliciously wrecked.
You were too dazed to understand what was happening at first, the haze still thick behind your eyes. The humming under your skin hadnât stopped, but it had dulled- muted to a low thrum that echoed in your bones. They were careful, even if your overstimulated body didnât register it that way.
You whined, squirming, as they slowly pulled out of you. The stretch reversed, the heat slipping away, leaving you empty and raw. It wasnât pain, but your body protested the loss with soft whimpers.
Someone pressed a water bottle to your lips, coaxing you to sip. You obeyed without thought, the coolness trickling down your throat a small mercy.
Another set of hands gently wiped you down. A cold, damp cloth slid between your legs, easing away the slick mess with slow, tender strokes.
Then your head was lowered into someoneâs lap. Fingers carded through your hair.
âYou did so well,â Steve murmured. âLook at you- perfect.â
You blinked slowly. Steveâs voice again, closer now: âEasy, sweetheart. Just breathe. Iâve got you.â
Your limbs twitched weakly, still responding to phantom pleasure. A quiet laugh came from Bucky.
âStill twitching. Still fucking gorgeous.â
You felt him kissing up your leg, mouth trailing along your calf, your knee, your inner thigh.
Then your legs were being moved again- lifted, spread with a gentleness that contrasted starkly with the earlier frenzy. There was no rush now, no urgency- just the soft reverence of Bucky's hands as he cradled your thighs like something precious, something breakable, as though he hadnât just wrecked you minutes ago. You blinked, barely aware, as Bucky settled himself between them, laying flat, his breath hot against your oversensitive core.
He pressed a kiss there, soft and reverent, and your whole body jolted in response.
âAnd Iâm not done tasting her,â he muttered, voice thick with need.
âBuck- she needs to recover,â Steve warned again, but his voice had softened to something indulgent.
âIâll be gentleâŚâ Bucky promised, his mouth already lowering, tongue dragging slow and careful over your aching folds as your head lolled back into Steve lap, eyes fluttering closed, lost to the warmth and the wetness and the impossible pleasure building again
Summary: Bucky has built a quiet life in the woods, content to keep the world at arm's length. But when a new neighbor moves to town, her presence ignites emotions heâs hesitant to face.
Word Count: About 18.6k.
notes: Iâve been wanting to write a story in a lumberjack AU for a while now, and here it is. It ended up being longer than I expected, but I have no regrets. In my mind, Lumberjack!Bucky=Beefy!Bucky.
Lumberjack AU Masterlist
The city stretched behind her, a blur of steel and noise shrinking in the rearview mirror. Relief and uncertainty warred in her chest, but she clung tightly to the thought of what lay ahead. The town had always been her haven: sunlit summers chasing fireflies, her grandmotherâs laughter ringing from the porch, and the quiet that once cradled her restless mind in peace.
It had been years since sheâd last visited, but the constant noise, relentless crowds, and a recent, unsettling encounter had made city life unbearable. Her grandmotherâs house, nestled at the edge of a sprawling forest, now felt like her only escape. It wasnât perfect -her uncle had warned her about the repairs needed- but sheâd gladly trade peeling paint and creaky floors for the chaos she was leaving behind. Besides, without rent to worry about and the freedom of her home-office proofreading job, she had the space and time to start over, one step at a time.
The road stretched endlessly before her, winding through rolling hills and patches of dense forest. The further she drove, the quieter it became. No blaring horns, no traffic, just the hum of her engine and the occasional rustle of leaves stirred by the wind. She cracked the window, letting in the crisp scent of pine and earth.
For the first time in months, she felt her shoulders begin to relax. And then, with an ominous thunk, the car jerked to one side.
Her stomach sank as she guided the vehicle to the shoulder, the once-smooth ride now bumpier than a cobblestone street. Stepping out, she found her fears confirmed: the back tire sagged, utterly deflated.
âOf course,â she muttered, brushing a stray hair from her face. âWhy not?â
She retrieved the jack and wrench from the trunk, determined to fix it herself. She wasnât helpless, after all. But after twenty minutes of grunting, tugging, and nearly twisting her wrist, the lug nuts refused to budge. Maybe they just needed a little more effort.
Two hours later, she slumped against the side of the car, her arms aching and her patience long gone. Sheâd tried everything -kicking the wrench, sitting on it for leverage- everything except calling for help, though the lack of cell signal made that impossible. Her lip trembled as she bit down hard, determined not to let the tears of frustration win.
âYou wanted quiet? You got quiet,â she muttered, her voice tight with irritation. Walking seemed like the only option now. Maybe sheâd stumble upon a house, a gas station, anything. Resolving trying her luck, she locked the car and started forward, her boots crunching against the gravel shoulder.
The air hung heavy with stillness, broken only by the occasional chirp of a bird or the rustle of leaves in the breeze. The walk felt endless, each step feeding her doubts. What if there was nothing ahead? What if sheâd made a mistake leaving the car? Just as she was debating turning back, a low rumble cut through the quiet.
She froze, breath hitching as her eyes darted down the empty road. The sound grew louder, unmistakably the steady growl of a truck engine. Relief flooded her chest, tempered by a flicker of caution.
Moving closer to the edge of the road, she raised a tentative hand to wave. Moments later, an old, sturdy truck came into view, slowing as it approached.
Bucky wasnât in any rush. The late afternoon light filtered through the trees, casting long shadows on the road ahead. He kept one hand steady on the wheel, the other resting casually on his thigh. The hum of the truck engine was a comforting sound, a backdrop to his thoughts.
As he rounded a gentle curve, something caught his eye up ahead: a car parked awkwardly on the shoulder. He frowned, slowing the truck. From the angle it was sitting, it didnât look abandoned, but it wasnât going anywhere either. A flat tire, maybe? His brow furrowed. Someone had to own it, but there wasnât another soul in sight.
He continued slowly, his gaze drifting to the road ahead, and thatâs when he spotted her. She stood near the edge of the road, a duffel bag slung over her shoulder and her hand half-raised in a cautious wave. She didnât look panicked, just tired, a little frustrated, and undeniably relieved to see another human being out here.
He brought the truck to a stop a few feet ahead of her, letting the engine idle as he leaned across the seat to glance out the passenger window. âNeed some help?â he called, keeping his tone easy.
She stepped closer, her cautious wave lowering as she approached. When she stopped short of the truck, her polite smile faltered, her gaze locking on his face.
He didnât notice at first, but she stared, caught off guard by the sight ahead of her. Shoulder-length dark hair framed handsome face, shadowed with a day or two of stubble. And those eyes⌠crystal blue, so piercing they looked like they belonged to the lead character of a romance novel rather than the driver of an old truck.
Her lips parted slightly as her thoughts ran wild. Maybe she was hallucinating. Two hours of frustration and the heat of the sun must have gotten to her, conjuring a guy from one of those pink-covered novels sheâd been proofreading.
âYou okay?â His voice pulled her back, laced with just enough concern to cut through the fog in her head.
She blinked rapidly, heat flooding her cheeks as she scrambled for an excuse. âUh, yeah, sorry. Just⌠fatigue, I guess.â She gave a quick laugh, brushing her hair back as if that would somehow erase her embarrassment. âItâs been a long day.â
Bucky didnât seem to notice anything amiss. He nodded, his expression sympathetic. âYeah, I can imagine.â
She cleared her throat, trying to sound more composed. âIâd really appreciate the help. The tireâs flat and the lug nuts are stuck. Iâve tried everything, but they wonât budge.â
Bucky nodded again, shifting the truck into park before stepping out. âI saw the car back there. Mind if I take a look?â
Her shoulders relaxed slightly, and she offered a more genuine smile. âPlease. Thatâd be great.â
She couldnât help but stare as he climbed out of the truck. It wasnât just the striking eyes or the scruff that made him look like heâd stepped off a book cover, it was everything.
Worn jeans sat low on his hips, perfectly fitted to legs that spoke of strength and endurance. A red flannel shirt, snug across his broad shoulders and well-defined arms, hinted at a life of hard, honest work. His boots crunched against the gravel as he moved with an effortless confidence that made it nearly impossible to look away.
Yup, she thought, feeling her cheeks warm again. A lead character.
She snapped her gaze away, trying to focus on literally anything else, the road, the sky, her worn-out sneakers. But as he approached, the heat creeping up her neck didnât fade.
âYou sure youâre okay?â he asked again, his brow furrowing slightly.
She blinked and met his eyes, cursing herself for getting caught again. âYeah! Yeah, Iâm fine,â she said waving a hand. âJust tired, I guess. Two hours of trying to fight with a tire does that to you.â
He nodded slowly, and his expression softened. âFair enough.â
She gestured vaguely toward her car in the distance. âItâs over there. Iâd appreciate the help, itâs like the universe welded those lug nuts on.â
When they reached the car, she unlocked it and retrieved the tools from the trunk, setting them down beside the flat tire. She stepped back, watching as he crouched and took the wrench in his hand. With what seemed like no effort at all, he twisted the lug nuts loose, the metal giving way under his grip as if it had never been stuck in the first place. She stared again, biting her lip as her gaze lingered on how his forearm flexed under the rolled-up sleeves of his flannel. Completely oblivious to her scrutiny, he worked in focused silence, switching out the flat tire with methodical ease. When he finished, he stood up, brushed the dust from his hands, and glanced at the car. His gaze snagged on the backseat, where duffel bags and boxes were crammed together.
âLooks like youâre movinâ,â he said, his voice low and gruff.
She nodded, brushing her hands on her jeans as if sheâd done any of the work. âYeah, I am. Heading to town. My grandmother used to have a house there, Iâm moving into it.â
Bucky glanced at her, his sharp blue eyes unreadable, but not unkind. âThe old house near the woods?â
Her brows lifted in surprise. âYeah, actually. You know it?â
He shrugged lightly, his gaze slipping to the ground. âSmall town,â he murmured.
Unsure if his hesitation was discomfort or just shyness, she shifted her weight. âWell, thanks again for helping. Iâm Y/n, by the way.â
He didnât respond for a moment and then blinked, as if snapping out of a thought. âBucky,â he said simply, his tone softening just enough to feel welcoming.
âWell, nice to meet you, Bucky.â Her smile was warm despite the long, frustrating day.
He nodded slightly, a flicker of a smile tugging at his lips before it disappeared. âYou should get goinâ,â he said after a pause. âRoadâs pretty empty once it gets dark.â
She nodded, grateful. âRight. Thanks again.â
He gave a short nod before turning to his truck. She lingered for a moment, watching as he climbed into the cab and started the engine, before finally slipping into her car and pulling back onto the road.
He gave her a brief nod, turning to his truck without saying another word. She stood there for a moment, watching him go, before climbing into her car.
Bucky climbed into his truck, shutting the door with a quiet click. As the engine rumbled to life, his thumbs tapped idly on the steering wheel, his mind drifting. So, she was the woman moving into the old blue house, the one the old ladies in town had been gossiping about lately.
âFresh face,â theyâd said, curious and speculative. The kind of talk he usually tuned out, but now he could picture her, standing on the side of the road with that friendly smile.
His jaw tightened as he glanced in the rearview mirror, catching a glimpse of her car pulling back onto the road. Attractive, sure, but that wasnât his business. He wasnât in the habit of noticing things like that anymore, or at least, he tried not to.
Shaking his head slightly, he put the truck in gear and pulled back onto the road.
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She reached the house in the late afternoon, the golden light of the setting sun painting the wooden structure in warm tones. From a distance, it looked charming, but as she got closer, the years of neglect became more apparent. A shutter hung by a single hinge, swinging slightly in the breeze, and the porch sagged in the middle, its boards warped and cracked.
It didnât seem unlivable, though, and for that, she was grateful. The windows were intact, the roof looked solid, and the front door swung open without resistance when she unlocked it. She stepped inside, wrinkling her nose at the stale smell of a house left empty for too long. Dust coated the floors and every surface in sight, but nothing that a good cleaning wouldnât fix.
Walking through the rooms, she made a mental list of things that needed attention. The walls could use fresh paint, the porch would definitely need repairs before it became a hazard, and a few wobbly cabinet doors in the kitchen caught her eye. It was all manageable.
By the time she returned to the living room, she realized the sun had dipped below the horizon, leaving the house in shadows. She flipped the light switch by the door, but nothing happened. A quick check of the other switches confirmed her suspicion, there wasnât a single light bulb in the entire property.
âFigures,â she muttered, setting her hands on her hips. Luckily, sheâd packed a portable lamp. Its soft glow filled the room as she set it on the floor and unrolled her sleeping bag in the corner, where the old sofa used to sit.
Dinner was a simple affair: a cup of instant noodles and a bottle of water, eaten cross-legged on the floor. She was too tired to think about anything elaborate, and the stillness of the house was oddly comforting after the chaos of the city.
Her thoughts drifted back to the dayâs events, replaying the encounter on the road. Buckyâs face flickered in her mind, those piercing blue eyes, the way his long, dark hair framed his sharp features, the slight rasp to his voice when heâd asked if she was okay. She bit her lip, and the memory of the way heâd effortlessly changed the tire brought a faint smile to her lips as her eyelids grew heavy. The moving truck will arrive by morning, and with better lighting, sheâll assess the house and start making it livable. Ideally, she would have cleaned beforehand, but the moving company only had that date available, so she didnât have much choice.
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Right at 8 oâclock sharp, the rumble of the moving truck echoed down the quiet street. She stepped outside, greeting the movers and directing them where to place the furniture. It didnât take long to realize the porchâs sagging boards were going to be a problem. One mover nearly put his foot through a weakened plank, and after a few close calls, they opted to bring in as much as possible through the windows.
After tipping the movers and seeing them off, she grabbed her bag and headed into town. The general store was easy to find, nestled on the main street between a bakery and a small diner. The scent of freshly baked bread lingered in the air as she pushed open the storeâs creaky door, the tiny bell overhead jingling.
Inside, the aisles were narrow and well-stocked, offering everything from cleaning supplies to locally-made jams. She grabbed a basket and began filling it with essentials: sponges, dish soap, floor cleaner, and a few staples for the pantry.
At the checkout line, she felt the weight of a few curious stares. Small towns were like that, everyone wanted to know who the newcomer was. A man in line behind her gave her a polite nod, and a couple of women nearby exchanged whispers before one of them, an older lady with a kind smile, stepped forward.
âMoving into the old blue house on Maple, arenât you?â the woman asked, her voice warm and curious.
She blinked, surprised but not entirely caught off guard. âThatâs right,â she said, returning the smile. âSpent summers there as a kid. Itâs been a while, though.â
âWell, welcome back,â the woman said, clasping her hands. âIâm Dorothy. Let me know if you need anything.â
âActuallyâŚâ she hesitated, seizing the moment. âThe house needs a bit of work, especially the porch. Do you know a good carpenter?â
Dorothyâs face lit up. âSam Wilsonâs the man youâre looking for. Runs a workshop just outside town. Heâs dependable and does fine work. Iâll jot down his address for you.â
After paying for her items, she loaded everything into the car and headed toward the workshop. The drive was short, and soon she spotted a neatly painted sign that read Wilson Woodworks. The building was modest but well-kept, with stacks of lumber and partially finished projects visible through the open garage door.
Grabbing her notepad and pen, she stepped out of the car, hoping Sam would be able to help bring her grandmotherâs house back to life.
The workshop smelled of sawdust and varnish, the soft hum of a saw cutting through wood filling the air. She peered curiously through the open entry, her gaze scanning the neatly organized chaos: tools hanging on pegboards, wood shavings scattered across the floor, and a workbench cluttered with projects in progress. Near the center of the space stood a man in a faded gray t-shirt and jeans, his sleeves rolled up to reveal toned arms. His easy smile and confident posture immediately struck her as someone who knew his craft.
âSam Wilson?â she asked, stepping further inside.
The man turned, his grin widening. âThatâs me,â he replied warmly. âWhat can I do for you?â
âHi. Iâm Y/n. I just moved into town, to the old blue house on Maple Street. The porch is in pretty bad shape, and I was told youâre the one to call.â
Sam gave an approving nod, wiping his hands on a nearby rag. âMaple Street, huh? Yeah, Iâve worked on a couple of those houses. Theyâve got good bones but can be stubborn. Iâd have to take a look before I can give you a plan.â
âOf course,â she said, relieved. âWhen do you think youâd be able to-â
Before she could finish, a gruff voice interrupted from the back of the shop. âSam, I told you that damn hinge on the-â
Bucky appeared, stepping out from what looked like a storage area, drying his hands on a towel. His words faltered the moment he spotted her, his blue eyes locking onto hers in surprise. He froze for a moment, the towel still in his hand, before nodding stiffly.
âHey,â he said, with a cautious tone.
She offered him a small, friendly smile. âHello again.â
Samâs gaze darted between the two of them, a knowing grin spreading across his face like a Cheshire cat. âWell, well,â he drawled. âYou two already know each other so soon?â
Bucky shot him a look -half warning, half exasperation- but Samâs grin only widened.
âWe met yesterday,â she explained, glancing between them. âBucky helped me with a flat tire.â
âDid he now?â Sam leaned back against the workbench, crossing his arms. âMan of many talents, huh, Buck?â
Bucky muttered something under his breath, his ears turning slightly red as he turned away to busy himself with a random piece of wood.
Sam laughed, clearly enjoying himself. âDonât let him fool you,â he said to her, his tone light. âHeâs a softie under all that brooding.â
âIâll keep that in mind,â she replied, unable to suppress a smile.
Buckyâs muttering grew quieter as he moved further into the workshop, but Sam wasnât done. âYouâre in luck, though,â he said to her, eyes sparkling with mischief. âI think youâre gonna give his wood a good use.â
She let out a small laugh, not entirely sure why but unwilling to seem rude. âWell, Iâll do my best,â she said with a shrug, hoping that was the right response.
The sound of tools crashing followed by a sharp, muttered curse that carried through the workshop interrupted the exchange, and she turned toward the source. âIs he okay?â
Sam smirked, his tone teasing as he said, âOh, heâs just fine. Just gets a little... tense when his workâs involved. My friend here is one of my suppliers. Keeps me stocked up on the best lumber in town.â
âOh, I see,â she replied, her gaze briefly flicking toward where Bucky had disappeared. Inwardly, she couldnât help but think that his... thick build seemed to match with the work lumber suppliers did. âSo, should we arrange a time for you to come by and look at the porch?â she asked, mentally slapping herself and steering the conversation back on track.
Sam grinned, leaning casually against the counter. âTomorrow works for you? Say mid-morning?â
âThat sounds great,â she agreed, already mentally listing what she might need to tidy up before his visit.
As her car disappeared down the road, Bucky emerged from the back of the workshop, his steps deliberate and brooding as he approached Sam.
âWhat was that?â he asked, his voice low but edged with irritation.
Sam raised an eyebrow, feigning innocence as he crossed his arms. âWhat was what?â
âYou know what,â Bucky growled, pointing a finger at him. âDonât.â
Sam held up his hands, his expression mock-innocent. âDonât what? Youâre projecting, man. Sheâs just a new neighbor who needs some help with her porch. Thatâs all.â
Bucky narrowed his eyes, his voice dropping even lower. âWhatever your bird brain is planning on doing, donât. Iâm not... Just stay out of my business.â
Sam gave him a sidelong look, clearly unimpressed by Buckyâs gruff warning. âYou think too highly of yourself, Barnes,â he said with a smirk. âIâm just trying to help the lady out, same as you did.â
The logger threw one last dirty glance at Sam, muttering under his breath. âNext cargoâs in four days,â he grumbled, already heading for the door.
Samâs amused chuckle followed him, but Bucky ignored it, his boots hitting the workshop floor with heavy steps.
As he reached the truck, a sharp twinge in his left arm made him curse softly. He grabbed it, flexing his fingers out of habit, then glanced up at the sky. It was streaked with soft clouds, their innocent appearance at odds with what he felt brewing in the air.
A storm was coming.
It wasnât something anyone could see yet, but Bucky didnât need a weather report. Since his arm had been crushed in Afghanistan, leaving him with orthopedic implants and lingering aches, he could always tell when the pressure was about to shift.
He flexed his arm again, rolling his shoulder to ease the discomfort. The storm would hit soon, inside and out.
Sliding into the truck, he decided to stop by the general store on the way home. He needed a bottle of scotch. Maybe two.
It was shaping up to be one of those nights.
When she got back to the house, she dropped the bags on the kitchen counter and let out a sigh. She glanced around at the dim, dusty space and resolved to tackle it head-on. After eating a quick sandwich, she got to work.
The first task was the lightbulbs, all of them. Room by room, she placed them, swearing quietly each time she had to stretch on tiptoe or drag a chair around. Next came the cleaning. By the time she was almost finished, it was late afternoon. She stood in the middle of the living room, exhausted and sweaty, a few stubborn cobwebs clinging to her sleeves. She pushed her hair off her forehead and noticed, through the newly cleaned windows, the unmistakable sight of grey clouds gathering on the horizon.
âGreat,â she muttered, dragging the vacuum to a corner. She glanced up at the ceiling, half expecting to see a stain forming already. âPlease, no leaks. Just this once, let me have some luck.â The wind outside began to pick up, rattling the loose shutter on the porch. She grimaced. The house might not be falling apart, but it wasnât going to win any awards for weatherproofing either.
She pulled the last bag of cleaning supplies toward her, determined to finish what she could before the storm hit.
The rhythmic patter of rain on the roof accompanied her as she sat at the small kitchen table, nursing a simple dinner. Her arms ached pleasantly from the dayâs cleaning spree, her newly functional lightbulbs casting a warm glow over the room. Despite the state of the house when sheâd arrived, it felt more like a home now, or at least the beginning of one.
The rain grew heavier, drumming steadily against the windows as she finished eating and washed her dishes. With a satisfied sigh, she headed for the bathroom. The steamy warmth of the shower was a welcome reprieve, washing away the grime and fatigue of the day. She closed her eyes as the water cascaded down, her mind meandering to the list of things she still needed to tackle.
The porch needs fixing first. Maybe some paint for the walls. And that loose shutter... her lips curled into a soft, almost dreamy smile as her thoughts drifted to Bucky. She bit her lip, suppressing a laugh at herself. It had been a while since sheâd had anyone to daydream about, and maybe it was just her exhaustion playing tricks on her. Clearly, she needed a break from all these romance novels. The irony wasnât lost on her, spending her days proofreading swooning declarations and lingering glances wasnât helping her sanity.
On the other side of town, the rain was more than just a backdrop for Bucky, it was a trigger, a reminder. He sat on the kitchen floor, his back pressed against the counter, cradling a bottle of scotch in one hand and absently flexing the fingers of his left arm with the other. The pain in his left arm wasnât unbearable -heâd had worse- but the weather had settled into his bones.
One would think Afghanistanâs climate rarely saw rain, but he knew better. In the northern regions, heavy rains could flood entire valleys in minutes, turning the ground into treacherous mud. It wasnât just the water he remembered, but the chaos it brought. Mud-caked boots slipping on uneven terrain. The deafening crack of gunfire cutting through the downpour. The screams of comrades whoâd never make it out of the storm, swallowed by water and bullets alike.
He closed his eyes tightly, forcing the memories away, but the rainâs steady rhythm seemed determined to drag him back. He took a long swig from the bottle, the burn of the alcohol a poor distraction for his haunted mind.
And then, unbidden, he thought of her.
The way sheâd smiled at him earlier today at Samâs workshop. Like she was genuinely glad to see him. He shook his head sharply, scowling at himself. He didnât deserve to think about her. Didnât deserve to let himself linger on the way sheâd looked at him with curiosity instead of judgment. He was a broken-down man who knew better than to let anyone get close. The rainâs rhythm matched the pounding in his head, and he rubbed his temple with a quiet groan. Thinking about her was a mistake, one he couldnât afford to make.
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The low hum of a truck pulling up broke the peaceful morning. She peeked out the window, spotting Sam hopping out with a clipboard in hand, a tape measure clipped to his belt. His easy smile greeted her as she opened the door.
âMorning,â he said, tipping an imaginary hat. âReady to figure out what your little slice of heaven here needs?â
She chuckled, stepping aside to let him in. âLetâs call it a fixer-upper and go from there.â
Sam gave a low whistle as he stepped onto the sagging porch. âFirst thingâs first, this baby needs a lot of love. Iâm surprised itâs holding up at all.â He tapped one of the warped boards with his boot, and it creaked ominously.
âWell, thatâs why youâre here,â she replied lightly, crossing her arms.
They walked the perimeter of the house as Sam scribbled notes on his clipboard, occasionally pausing to point out things that needed attention, a loose shutter here, a weathered doorframe there. He climbed the porch steps again, shaking his head. âYouâre lucky nothing majorâs out of whack, though this porch... Yeah, weâll start here.â
She nodded, leaning against the railing -carefully-. âSounds good. So, whatâs next?â
Sam grinned, snapping the clipboard shut. âNow comes the fun part, asking nosy questions while I figure out how to turn this place into a proper home. Whereâd you move from?â
âCity,â she said, her gaze flicking to the overgrown yard. âNeeded a change. Too much noise, too many people.â
He nodded like he understood perfectly. âYeah, city life can wear you down. And what do you do for work? So that I know if I ever need something specific.â
âIâm a proofreader,â she replied. âNot exactly glamorous, but it lets me work from anywhere.â
He chuckled. âSounds pretty glamorous to me. Living the dream: working in pajamas, no one to bother you.â
She laughed, shaking her head. âNot quite. Deadlines donât care if youâre in pajamas.â
âFair point,â Sam said, scribbling something on his clipboard. He glanced at her casually. âAnyone special missing you back in the city?â
Her brow furrowed slightly, caught off guard. âUh, no. Why?â
âNo reason,â he said with an exaggerated shrug, flashing his most innocent grin. âWe small-town folks are just naturally curious.â Satisfied, he tucked the clipboard under his arm. âWell,â he said, turning on the charm, âIâll put together a plan for the porch and those other fixes we talked about. Shouldnât take long.â
âThanks, Sam,â she said, smiling warmly.
He tipped his imaginary hat again. âHappy to help.â As he walked back to his truck, he patted the clipboard storing every little detail sheâd just shared. Oh, heâd have fun with this later.
Over the next few days, she found herself settling deeper into the rhythm of small-town life. Locals stopped to chat whenever she ran errands, and she was finally starting to remember their names. The house was slowly transforming under her care, each repair bringing it closer to what she remembered from her childhood summers.
And then there was Bucky. He was a puzzle she hadnât figured out yet. Quiet and guarded one moment, then unexpectedly kind the next. Their paths seemed to cross more often now. It wasnât intentional, but each encounter left her feeling like sheâd peeled back another layer of his carefully constructed wall.
The first time it happened, she was in the general store, arms full of cleaning supplies and pantry staples, along with a guilty indulgence or two. As she stepped into the checkout line, she spotted him just ahead of her with a modest basket of items, his broad shoulders blocking most of her view of the cashier.
As she shuffled forward, her eyes drifted to his basket. Among the practical items -bread, coffee, and what looked like a pack of nails- sat a brightly colored box of dinosaur-shaped mac and cheese.
She couldnât help herself. âDidnât peg you for the novelty pasta type.â She quipped lightly, a teasing smile curling her lips.
Bucky turned his head sharply, caught off guard. He glanced at the box, then back at her, a faint pink tinting his cheeks, as he muttered âTheyâre easy. And cheap.â
The combination of his flustered tone and stoic expression made her grin. âHey, no judgment. Dinosaurs are awesome. Iâd pick those over plain elbows any day.â
His lips twitched, just slightly, but enough to count. âYouâve got good taste,â he said, the faintest trace of a smirk softening his features.
The cashier rang up his items, and he moved through quickly, nodding politely as he passed her. But as she finished paying and struggled to balance her bags, she found him lingering outside near his truck.
âNeed a hand?â he asked gruffly, though he was already moving toward her.
She hesitated for a moment before relenting. âIf you donât mind.â
Without a word, he scooped up the heaviest bags as if they weighed nothing. She blinked at the sight, muscles flexing under his worn henley.
âThanks,â she said, slightly breathless, trying to keep up as he strode to her car.
âWelcome,â he said simply, setting the bags in her trunk with ease. His gaze flicked to her briefly, and he almost looked like he wanted to say more. Instead, he just gave a curt nod and walked back to his truck.
It was only a few days later when they ran into each other again, this time at the post office. She had just picked up a package that was almost comically large, far too awkward for one person to handle easily. Balancing it against her hip, she tried to maneuver her way out of the building without dropping it, muttering a steady stream of curses under her breath.
Just as the box tilted precariously, a hand appeared to steady it, large and sure.
âCareful,â came the familiar low drawl.
She blinked, startled, and looked up into a pair of blue eyes she was starting to recognize all too well. âThanks,â she said, exhaling in relief. âStarting to think you have impeccable timing.â
His lips twitched, that almost-smile she was beginning to appreciate flickering across his face. âJust passing through.â He replied, shifting his grip on the package and effortlessly hoisting it up, carrying it like it weighed nothing at all.
âOh, you donât have to-â
âItâs fine,â he stated simply, his tone leaving no room for argument. He glanced at her car and walked toward it.
She trailed behind him as he easily strode with the package. By the time she unlocked the trunk, he deposited the box neatly inside, brushing his hands off quickly.
âThanks,â she said again, feeling a little useless but sincerely grateful.
âItâs nothinâ,â he replied, already stepping back. His eyes lingered on her for a second longer than usual before he turned toward his truck, parked a few spaces down.
She watched him go, following the deliberate, measured way he moved. Just as he reached his door, she called out impulsively, âI owe you one, you know.â
He paused, glancing back at her with a quirk of his brow. âIâll hold you to it,â he said, the hint of a smirk tugging at his mouth. And then he was gone, leaving her with a warm, unexpected feeling she carried all the way home.
The days that followed were quiet but productive. Between finishing work assignments, and tinkering with small projects around the house, she hardly noticed how much time she spent indoors until her eyes began to ache from staring at her laptop screen for hours on end.
One crisp morning, the allure of fresh air proved too strong to resist. She decided to take a walk in the woods, craving a change of scenery. It had been years since the last time sheâd wandered those familiar paths, but she still remembered some of the trails from her childhood summers.
As she wandered along the narrow dirt trail, the sunlight filtering through the canopy in golden shafts painted the forest in a warm, serene glow. She hadnât expected to encounter anyone out here, but the steady, rhythmic thwack of an axe meeting wood broke through the quiet, catching her attention.
Curiosity stirred, and before she could think better of it, she found herself following the sound, her footsteps light on the soft earth.
There he was, in a small clearing just off the trail, splitting logs with effortless precision. Buckyâs axe swung high before coming down in a clean arc, the sharp crack of splitting wood breaking the stillness. A neat pile of firewood grew beside him, while fresh rounds waited in a haphazard stack.
He hadnât noticed her yet, too focused on his work, and she found herself lingering longer than she should have, watching the way his muscles moved beneath his shirt and how his hair stuck to his forehead.
When he finally glanced up and spotted her, her stomach flipped. His brows knit together in mild surprise, and he straightened, propping the axe against a nearby stump.
âYou lost?â he asked, with a low and even voice, though his tone wasnât unkind.
She stepped closer, shaking her head. âNo, just wandering. I didnât mean to interrupt.â
âYou didnât,â he said, grabbing a rag from the pile and wiping his hands. His gaze lingered on her for a moment, like he was trying to piece together why she was there. âTrail gets tricky up ahead. Lots of roots and uneven ground.â
âIâll keep that in mind,â she replied, glancing around the clearing. âThis your spot?â
He nodded once. âHelps to stay busy.â
She looked at the pile of wood, then back at him. âLooks like more than just âstaying busy.ââ
A faint smirk tugged at his lips. âWinters here are rough.â
There was a pause, not quite awkward, but heavy. She shifted her weight, tucking a stray strand of hair behind her ear. âWell, itâs impressive. I mean, you make it look easy.â
âItâs not,â he said simply, picking up the axe again. âBut you get used to it.â
She lingered, unsure if she should say more or let him get back to work. He tilted his head slightly, watching her with a curious expression.
âYou like the woods?â he asked, breaking the silence.
âYeah,â she said, smiling softly. âItâs peaceful out here. Different from the city.â
His gaze flicked back to the axe in his hand. âIt is.â There was a weight to his words, hinting at something deeper than just the stillness of the woods, but she chose not to push.
âWell, Iâll let you get back to it,â she said finally, offering him a polite nod.
âCareful on the trail,â he said again, his voice softer this time.
As she turned to leave, she couldnât resist glancing back over her shoulder. He was already back to work, the axe slicing clean through another log. She bit her lip, shaking her head at herself as she continued down the trail.
He sighed. Winters are rough? That was the polite answer, the one people accepted without a second glance. The truth was darker, heavier. Every time the weight of old memories clawed at him -screams, chaos, the suffocating fear that came into walking a dark tunnel that could bury him alive- he found his solace in the rhythmic swing of an axe. Splitting firewood was his refuge, the repetitive motion carving out a rare emptiness in his mind.
He kept chopping, waiting until he was sure she wouldnât glance back again. Then, he let himself linger, his eyes following her retreating form.
He was interested.
Shit.
Sam hadnât been helping either, dropping âinnocentâ tidbits about her, like breadcrumbs, every time they crossed paths. How she worked from home. How she wasnât seeing anyone. How she seemed to be settling in, though she was still getting used to small-town life. Bucky could tell Sam was trying to nudge him, but it only stirred something conflicted in him.
On one hand, he was drawn to her, from her curves to the way she smiled, also, the way her voice provoked a warmth in him he hadnât felt in years. On the other hand, the thought of pursuing something -anything- good for himself felt... wrong. Like he didnât deserve it.
And then there was the matter of simply not knowing how.
He was out of shape when it came to people. Always had been, even before life turned upside down. Now, with scars inside and out, the idea of approaching her felt like staring down at a puzzle he didnât have the pieces for.
What would he even say? What would she think if she knew the mess he was?
Bucky swung the axe harder, the sharp crack of the log splitting echoing through the clearing. He flexed his fingers and tightened his jaw.
For now, all he could do was chop and hope the noise drowned out the voice in his head whispering that he wasnât enough.
Over the next couple of months, the little town started to feel less like a temporary retreat and more like a place she could call home. The older women gushed over her porch restoration project and eagerly shared gardening tips, while the crowd closer to her age welcomed her into their fold with invitations for coffee dates or potluck dinners.
And then there was Bucky.
Though technically part of that age group, he was absent from most social gatherings. She couldnât picture him at a potluck, anyway, sitting around sharing recipes or small talk. It just wasnât him. Yet, in his own quiet way, heâd become more present in her life.
Bit by bit, he seemed to uncoil from whatever tension held him so tightly. He started to linger longer during their chance encounters, sometimes surprising them both with a dry, unexpected joke. Other times, heâd pitch in with simple acts of kindness, like carrying eventually heavy stuff to her car, or even fixing the wobbly step on her porch when Sam got busier and asked him to do it. He could have said no, but he still came, quietly getting the job done without any fanfare.
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Then, the announcement of the annual town festival brought a new wave of excitement. It was the event of the season, where everyone came together to celebrate the town's founding. Without much hesitation, she signed up to contribute, deciding to sell pies and baked goods. Not only was it a way to contribute to the celebration, but it was also a chance to make a little extra income for the ongoing repairs to the house. The porch was done, but there was still plenty of work to do: fresh paint, creaky floorboards, and other little fixes that added up.
So, she rolled up her sleeves and got to work. The week leading up to the festival was a whirlwind of flour-dusted counters and the comforting aroma of cinnamon and vanilla. She tested each recipe to make sure they were just like her grandmother used to make.
The excitement of the upcoming festival settled over the town, and she felt like she was becoming part of something bigger, a tradition, a community.
Meanwhile, word had spread that she was setting up a booth to sell her pies. Sam, always the one to keep an ear to the ground, couldn't help but tease Bucky one morning while they were working on a new batch of supplies for the festival booths. They were building the structure for several of the vendors, and Bucky had come by to help with the heavier lifting, always lending a hand when needed.
âSheâs doing a booth, huh?â Sam asked with a knowing grin as he hammered in a final nail. âMaybe you should swing by, get yourself a little sugar, hm?â
Buckyâs response was as sharp as ever. âShut up, Wilson,â he grumbled, his eyes narrowing as he worked, but Sam could see the way his shoulders stiffened, the way he held himself a little straighter.
He stayed silent for a beat, focusing on the sturdy plank of wood he was planing down. The rhythmic scrape of the tool seemed to be the only thing keeping him calm. Sam, however, was never one to let a good opportunity slip by.
âIâm just saying,â Sam pressed on, leaning casually against the workbench, âsheâs single, sheâs sweet, and she seems to like you.â He smirked, his tone teetering on playful. âYou could, yâknow, take a shot. Maybe buy a pie while youâre at it. You canât live on just dino-shaped mac and cheese.â
Bucky huffed a humorless laugh, setting the plane down with a bit more force than intended. âAnd what would I even say to her, huh? âHi, Iâm good at chopping wood and screwing things up.â Thatâs a real winner.â
Sam raised an eyebrow, undeterred. âYou donât have to lead with the self-deprecating monologue, man. Just... be you. Youâre a good guy, Buck, even if you refuse to see it.â He straightened, resting a hand on his hip. âAnd sheâs clearly got some interest. Not every woman looks at a guy like heâs the only steady thing in a storm.â
Bucky shot him a sharp look, the tips of his ears unmistakably pink. âShe doesnât-â
âOh, she does,â Sam interrupted with a grin that widened at Buckyâs growing discomfort. âAnd youâd see it too if you didnât spend so much time convincing yourself youâre not worth her attention.â
For a long moment, Bucky said nothing, his jaw tightening as he flexed his left hand, a tell Sam recognized far too well. Finally, he sighed, leaning his weight on the workbench. âItâs not that simple.â
âIt never is,â Sam agreed, his tone softening. âBut you donât have to figure it all out today. Start small. Talk to her at the festival. Buy a pie. Hell, buy the whole booth if you have to.â He clapped Bucky on the shoulder, eliciting a grunt. âJust donât let this pass you by.â
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The day of the festival arrived, and the town square buzzed with life. Booths lined the streets, each one bursting with local goods: handmade crafts, fresh produce, and jars of preserves. Children darted through the crowds, their faces painted like butterflies or superheroes, their laughter weaving through the cheerful hum of a local band playing in the distance.
Her booth stood out in its simplicity, decorated with gingham tablecloths and jars of freshly picked flowers from her garden. The pies were the centerpiece, their golden crusts glistening in the sunlight, flanked by trays of cookies and jars of homemade jam.
She adjusted the sign that read âBaked Goods â From Grannyâs Recipe Boxâ and stepped back, taking a deep breath to steady herself.
The day unfolded in a whirlwind of chatter and laughter. Her booth was busier than sheâd dared to hope, a steady stream of customers stopping to sample the pies or chat about the sign. Compliments came easily from the townsfolk, praising her buttery crusts and spiced fillings. Each kind word felt like a little victory, her heart swelling with the realization that she was becoming a part of the community.
The sun climbed higher into the sky, casting warm golden light over the bustling festival. Her booth remained busy, the stream of smiling faces keeping her occupied and distracted, though not enough to stop her from glancing through the crowd now and then.
By mid-afternoon, Sam strolled up, hands in his pockets and an easy grin on his face. "Well, well. Look at you, baking queen," he teased.
She laughed, brushing a stray strand of hair out of her face. âHardly. But Iâll take it. Want a slice?â
Sam leaned on the edge of the booth, scanning the offerings. âTempting, but I might be here on more of a reconnaissance mission.â
Her brow lifted. âWhat kind of mission?â
âYou know, checking in, seeing how you're doing, and maybe scouting for a certain broody lumberjack.â He winked, and she rolled her eyes with a chuckle.
âLet me guess, he sent you to grab a pie?â she joked, wiping her hands on her apron.
âBucky? Nah.â Samâs grin dimmed slightly, and he gave a small shrug. âDidnât see him around earlier. Honestly, he might not even show. Festivals arenât really his thing.â
She tried to keep the disappointment off her face, focusing instead on adjusting a jar of jam on the table. Sam caught the subtle shift in her expression, his teasing smile softening.
âHeâs around,â Sam said casually, leaning an elbow on the edge of the booth. âBuckyâs just⌠not much of a crowd guy. Give him time.â
Her fingers paused on the jar, but she didnât look up. âI wasnât-â
âSure you werenât,â Sam interrupted with a knowing grin. âBut I wouldnât hold it against him. People arenât really his thing. Except, maybe, certain people.â
She rolled her eyes, her lips curving into a small smile despite herself. âAnd youâre just full of insight, arenât you?â
âHey, Iâm just observinâ.â He straightened up, grabbing a cookie from the tray. âAnd Iâll take one of these for the road. Festivalâs not complete without snacks.â
She shook her head, amused as Sam strolled off, leaving her alone to greet the next customer.
The hours passed in a blur of chatter and sales, the sun dipping lower in the sky. Sheâd almost stopped scanning the square for him when, late in the afternoon, a familiar figure emerged.
Bucky walked slowly, his hands buried deep in his jacket pockets, his gaze flicking over the booths like he wasnât sure where to go. Then he spotted her. His shoulders straightened, and their eyes met across the square. For a moment, neither moved. Then, with an almost sheepish hesitation, he started toward her.
Each step closer felt like a mistake, and yet he didnât stop. His eyes took in the sight of her booth, tidy and charming, and then her. She wore a casual dress under a cardigan, and a frilly apron tied neatly around her waist, the image of a vintage housewife. The dress fit snugly at her chest, the fabric pulling slightly when she moved to rearrange something on the table. It wasnât anything overly revealing, but it didnât matter; all of the visual information seemed to bypass his brain entirely and head directly to the south. He swallowed hard, trying to redirect his focus before he embarrassed himself.
âHey,â he said when he reached the booth, his voice a little softer than he intended. He scratched the back of his neck, glancing briefly at the display of pies and jars before forcing himself to meet her eyes.
âHi,â she replied, her face lighting up in a way that made the whole awkward journey worth it.
âI, uh... thought Iâd stop by,â he continued, the words fumbling slightly as he fought the urge to retreat. âLooks like business is good.â He gestured vaguely at the booth, trying to seem casual, though his pulse was anything but.
âItâs been steady,â she said, her smile warm. âI wasnât sure if youâd make it.â
Her words made him hesitate, but only briefly. He nodded toward the pies, his lips twitching into what might have been the beginnings of a smile. âFigured Iâd see what all the fuss is about.â
âAnd?â she asked, a playful glint in her eye. âAre you finding the fuss justified?â
He looked at her then, his gaze lingering in a way that made her shift her weight slightly. His lips quirked into the faintest smirk. âSeen a few tempting products,â he said, his voice low, almost teasing.
Was that... a double meaning? She wasnât sure, but the way her stomach flipped at his tone left her biting her lip to suppress a smile.
âWell,â she said, leaning slightly against the booth, âwhat might you be interested in, then?â
âGot any plum jam?â he asked after a moment, his eyes scanning the jars displayed on the table.
She winced apologetically. âSorry, sold out this morning. Itâs a popular one.â
He gave a small nod, not seeming too put out. âGuess Iâll settle for a slice of apple pie, then.â
âYou wonât regret it,â she said, quickly cutting a generous slice and placing it in a little paper dish. As she handed it to him, their fingers brushed briefly, a small, electric jolt of contact that she tried not to overthink.
âThanks,â he murmured, his gaze flickering back to hers for a split second before focusing intently on the pie. He took a bite, and the deep, guttural groan that escaped him had her blinking in surprise, and then staring at him, very much not with pure thoughts.
Her gaze dropped helplessly to his mouth, where a small dollop of apple mush clung stubbornly to the corner of his lips. Oh, how sheâd love to help him clean that up, maybe even by lapping it up herself. The thought had her throat going dry. âUh, you have... there,â she managed, signaling to her own mouth because words failed her entirely.
He frowned slightly, his thumb swiping at his lips. When he missed, she gave a quick, stifled laugh, shaking her head and pointing more precisely. His next attempt was successful, and when he scooped the apple filling with his thumb and licked it clean off, her breath caught.
That should be illegal.
âDamn,â he said, glancing down at the pie with newfound respect. âGuess you can marry now.â
She blinked, startled. âWhat?â
His ears reddened as he fumbled for an explanation, suddenly realizing how strange that sounded. âUh... my ma used to say... I mean, like, if a woman could cook well, sheâd be ready for marriage, or something⌠uh, forget it.â He waved a hand, suddenly looking like he wanted the ground to swallow him whole.
âOh no,â she said, crossing her arms and quirking a brow, her lips twitching in amusement. âNow I really want to know what your ma used to say.â
âMy ma used to say,â he admitted reluctantly, âa woman who can bake a pie like this could keep a man happy for life.â
As the words left his mouth, he realized -really realized- what heâd just said. Bringing up marriage, even indirectly, in what was supposed to be casual conversation? A new low, even for him. His inward grimace was immediate, a mortifying mix of regret and disbelief at his own lack of subtlety.
She blinked at him, her head tilting slightly, a flicker of something unreadable crossing her face. âWell,â she said slowly, the edge of her lip quirking up, âBet she was the kind of person who made everyone feel at home.â
He cleared his throat, rubbing the back of his neck. âYeah, she... she was something.â Hoping to steer the moment away from the awkward territory heâd stumbled into, he gestured vaguely to the booth. âAnyway, uh... pieâs great. Really.â
âThanks, Bucky. Iâm glad you like it. Itâs one of my grannyâs best recipes.â She smiled warmly
He nodded, his lips twitching into something close to a smile. âShe taught you well.â
That earned a soft laugh from her. âYeah, sheâd make me practice until I got it just right. Burned a lot of pies before this one.â
The conversation lingered as they eased into a rhythm, the earlier tension giving way to something more relaxed. She asked about his work, curious about how he supplied Sam with lumber, and he surprised her by sharing a bit more than usual talking about the care it took to choose the right trees and how the process wasnât just chopping wood but understanding the forest itself.
âYou make it sound like an art,â she said, tilting her head thoughtfully.
âGuess it kinda is,â he admitted. âYouâve gotta respect it. If you donât, it shows in the work.â
Before she could respond, a familiar voice interrupted, cutting through their moment like a buzz saw.
âWell, well, look who finally decided to show up!â
Samâs broad grin was radiant as he strolled up to the booth, hands tucked casually into his pockets.
Bucky groaned softly, his shoulders slumping a fraction as if bracing himself for whatever teasing was about to come. âWhat do you want, Sam?â
âOh, nothing much,â Sam said breezily, his eyes darting between the two of them. âJust thought Iâd check in, maybe grab some pie, see whatâs happening over here.â He smirked. âLooks like I picked the right booth.â
She rolled her eyes, but the smile tugging at her lips betrayed her amusement. âCareful, Sam. Youâre gonna run me out of inventory if you keep showing up.â
Sam leaned on the counter, grinning. âDonât worry, Iâm here only to make sure Bucky doesnât scare off your customers with his broody face.â
Bucky shot him a glare, but Sam only shrugged, completely unfazed.
âActually, Buck, some of the people are starting to pack up. We should get a head start on breaking down everything so tomorrowâs not such a hassle,â Sam continued, his tone shifting to business mode. âDonât give me that look, I'm not the one who strolled in here right before closing time.â
Bucky sighed but didnât argue. âRight, right,â he muttered but didnât seem eager to leave just yet.
She chuckled softly at their dynamic, watching as Sam started to organize a few things, seemingly trying to speed up the process of wrapping up. Â âWell then, Iâll just get the last of these pies packed up.â she said, wiping her hands on her apron.
âOh, Iâm sure youâll make it a little easier on yourself if you let us take a couple of those home,â Sam said with a grin, his eyes scanning the remaining trays. âFor later, of course. Canât let all this deliciousness go to waste.â
Bucky didnât respond right away, but his gaze lingered on the last few slices, making it clear he wasnât about to pass up on some baked goods.
âYeah, well, I suppose youâre right,â she said, laughing. âGuess you both deserve some for your hard work on the structures.â
âIâm not gonna argue with that,â Sam said, grinning as he reached for the remaining slices of pie. âBesides,â he said, gesturing toward Bucky, âlook at him. He must be starving. You donât know the amount of food it takes to keep all that going.â
Bucky froze mid-chew, his fork hovering just above the plate, and gave Sam a pointed look, equal parts exasperation and disbelief. âSeriously?â
âWhat?â Sam shrugged innocently, though his smirk said otherwise. âItâs true. Youâre always munching on something. Remember last week? Three sandwiches in one sitting, and you still stole my fries.â
Buckyâs glare sharpened, but it only fueled Samâs amusement. âYou ate half my wings, Wilson,â Bucky said dryly, his tone low and unimpressed.
âDetails,â Sam said with a wave of his hand, his grin not fading. âPoint is, youâve got the appetite of a bear coming out of hibernation. Iâm just trying to make sure you donât go hungry.â
She laughed as she placed the box of pies on the counter. âWell, I canât have that on my conscience,â she teased. âTake as many slices as you need, Bucky. Weâll call it a public service.â
Bucky shifted on his feet, his gaze darting between her and the pies. The faintest flush crept up his neck as he mumbled, âThanks,â and slid another slice of pie onto his plate. His eyes lingered on the cookies for a moment before he reached for one, his movements a little hesitant, as if he wasnât sure how much was too much.
âYou sure?â he asked, glancing up at her, his voice quieter now.
She smiled warmly, waving off his concern. âPositive. Consider it payment for all the heavy lifting.â
He huffed a low laugh, the corner of his mouth twitching up in what could almost be called a smile. âAppreciate it,â he said, his words rough but sincere.
Sam clapped him on the shoulder, almost making Bucky drop the cookie. âAlright, big guy, letâs get out of her way before you clean her out completely.
Bucky shot him a half-hearted glare but allowed Sam to steer him toward a cluster of tables nearby, his plate balanced carefully in one hand.
She watched them go, her lips curving into a smile as Sam said something that made Bucky shake his head in exasperation.
With a deep breath, she turned back to finish packing up, though her gaze flicked toward their working spot every now and then.
That night, she lay in bed, the exhaustion of the festival weighing her body down but leaving her mind buzzing. Every detail of the day replayed like a film reel, but one moment stood out above all: Bucky and his awkward, utterly endearing comment about marriage.
She groaned, burying her flushed face into her pillow like a teenager. Guess you can marry now. The memory of his hesitant, almost panicked attempt to explain himself made her toes curl, not in secondhand embarrassment but in something far warmer, more thrilling. And the way heâd looked at her as he said it... that fleeting vulnerability, his ears burning red. She shook her head, biting her lip against a smile.
An idea came to her mind while sipping her morning coffee, staring at the half-empty box of baked goods and preserves she hadnât packed into the car the day before. Sheâd thought she was carrying too much, but now she saw what sheâd left behind: two jars of plum jam. The very ones Bucky had wanted at the festival but hadnât been able to get.
She turned one jar in her hand, smiling faintly. It wasnât much, but it felt like the right thing to do, a small gesture to thank him for all the ways heâd helped her. A friendly token, nothing more. The thought made her nerves tingle anyway.
Shoving those thoughts aside, she packed the jars into her backpack, laced up her boots, and headed out. She made her way toward the spot where sheâd found him last time, the rhythmic thwack of his axe cutting through wood still vivid in her memory. She tried not to feel disappointed when the clearing came into view and she didnât see him right away, but then a faint rustling sound caught her attention.
Bucky was there, further back, crouched near a stack of neatly cut logs, inspecting a wedge that had splintered unevenly. He looked so at ease in his element, that she almost turned back. But then he shifted, his head tilting slightly as if heâd heard her approach.
âHey,â she called, her voice lighter than intended.
He stood, turning to face her. His brow furrowed slightly in surprise, but it softened quickly. âHey.â
âI, uh...â She adjusted her backpack strap, suddenly feeling awkward for tracking him down like this. âI had some leftovers from the festival, and I remembered you wanted plum jam. Turns out I had two jars I didnât even bring.â She opened the backpack and pulled them out, offering them with a tentative smile. âFigured Iâd bring them to you as a thank-you for all the times youâve helped me out.â
Bucky stared at the jars, his expression unreadable at first, but then his lips tugged into the faintest hint of a smile. âYou didnât have to do that.â
âI know,â she said, shrugging lightly. âBut I wanted to. Itâs just jam, anyway.â
âJust jam,â he repeated, taking the jars from her hands, his fingers brushing hers briefly. He glanced at the labels, then back at her. âThanks. Really.â
âYouâre welcome,â she said, feeling breathless under his intense gaze. She stuffed her hands into her knitted jacket pockets, trying to play it cool. âHope itâs as good as my pies.â
His lips twitched, that almost-smile appearing again. âGuess Iâll have to let you know.â For a moment, neither of them moved, then he cleared his throat, gesturing toward the logs behind him. âYou walked all the way out here just for this?â he asked, slightly lifting his brow.
âPretty much, yeah,â she admitted, her voice softening as a hint of shyness crept in. She shifted her weight from one foot to the other, suddenly very aware of how much effort sheâd put into this small gesture.
Buckyâs gaze lingered on her for a moment, âThatâs... thoughtful of you.â
Her cheeks warmed under his quiet scrutiny, but she forced a casual shrug. âWell, I figured it beats letting them collect dust in my pantry.â
âStill,â he murmured, âthanks. Means a lot.â
âYouâre welcome. I, uh...â She glanced at the jars in his hands, suddenly unsure of herself. âI wonât take more of your time. Just wanted to...â She gestured vaguely toward the jam, the movement almost bashful.
Buckyâs gaze softened, his grip tightening slightly around the jars. Before she could step away, he called after her, his voice rough yet almost hesitant. âHey.â
She turned back, catching the flicker of something earnest in his expression.
âThanks again,â he said simply, holding up the jars slightly.
Her smile softened, more genuine now. âAnytime.â
Bucky stood there for a long moment after she left, staring at the jars in his hands. The deep, rich purple of the jam glinted faintly in the sunlight filtering through the trees, but his mind wasnât on the contents. It was on her. The way her voice had faltered, the slight hesitance in her movements when she handed them to him, like she wasnât sure if heâd even want them.
Why the hell wouldnât I? he thought bitterly, his jaw tightening. He shifted the jars to one hand, his free one dragging down his face. Damn it.
The easy confidence he used to have, -the kind that once let him charm anyone he wanted- was long gone, worn away by years of service that had left their mark on his body and mind. His scars, both visible and hidden, werenât just marks; they were reminders of a life split into before and after. He set the jars carefully on a stump, picking up his axe again and turning back to the log heâd been working on.
The first swing came down harder than necessary, the wood splitting with a satisfying crack.
What if Sam was right? What if she really did like him? What the hell would he even do with that? He couldnât imagine someone like her -a woman who baked pies for town festivals and brought plum jam out to the woods- being happy with someone like him. Someone who carried more baggage than he knew how to unpack.
The axe came down again, the sharp sound echoing through the clearing.
She deserved better than someone like him. Someone whole. Someone who didnât wake up in cold sweats or flinch at loud noises. Someone who could stand in a crowd without feeling like the walls were closing in. He couldnât even have a simple conversation without fumbling over his words like a damn teenager.
Another swing and the log finally gave way, splitting clean in two. He adjusted the pieces and started again, the rhythmic motion grounding him even as his thoughts spiraled.
And yet... there she was, walking through the woods just to give him something she thought heâd like. Her smile was genuine, her laugh soft, and for a moment, it had felt almost normal, like maybe he wasnât the broken mess heâd convinced himself he was.
Donât kid yourself.
The axe paused mid-air as his gaze flickered to the jars again. She wasnât just being polite, was she? There had been something in her eyes, something he didnât know how to name but felt keenly.
God, I used to be good at this, he thought, lowering the axe and resting his hands on the handle. Before everything went to hell, before the nightmares and the scars and the sense of being completely out of place in a world that had moved on without him, heâd known how to read people. Known how to charm them.
Now, he couldnât even tell if the kindest gesture heâd received in years was just... friendliness.
Bucky exhaled slowly, his grip tightening on the axe. He had no answers, only doubts, and a feeling in his gut that maybe, just maybe, he was about to screw this up like he did everything else.
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The afternoon sunlight filtered through the living room curtains as she sat cross-legged on the couch, her laptop balanced on her knees. She rubbed her temples and glared at the screen, rereading the same sentence for what felt like the hundredth time. The latest manuscript she was proofreading was a Highlander romance, complete with a Marie Sue, a couple of brawny warriors, and more plaid than a fabric store. It wasnât that she disliked the genre, but this one was so clichĂŠ-ridden it was almost impressive.
âAnd then his emerald eyes bore into hers, as if he could see the depths of her soul,â she read aloud, her tone dry. She let out a groan, rolling her eyes for what felt like the fiftieth time that day. âOf course he did.â
Still, it paid the bills. She took a sip of her now lukewarm tea and leaned back, debating whether to power through or take a break. Thatâs when a knock sounded at the door.
Her brows furrowed. Dorothy, the old lady he met at the general store, had mentioned bringing over some plant bulbs today, and it was her signature to show up unannounced. Closing the laptop with a sigh of relief at the distraction, she stood and padded to the door.
âDorothy, you didnât have to-â she began, opening the door with a welcoming smile, only to have the words die in her throat.
It wasnât Dorothy.
Bucky stood there, one hand gripping a well-worn toolbox and the other shoved casually into the pocket of his jeans. The red henley he wore was snug enough to highlight the curve of his shoulders and the breadth of his chest, but not enough to look like he was trying. His hair was slightly mussed, as if the wind had tussled it just before he knocked, and the faintest hint of stubble shadowed his jaw.
For a second, neither of them spoke. She blinked, her surprise evident, while he cleared his throat and offered a small, almost sheepish nod.
âHey,â he said, his deep voice tinged with a hint of hesitation. âI, uh... remembered you mentioned during the festival needing to fix a couple of roof tiles.â He lifted the toolbox slightly as if to emphasize his purpose. âThought Iâd stop by and take care of it. For the jam.â
It was a perfectly logical explanation, but the sight of him on her porch, looking like an ad for rustic competence, left her momentarily speechless.
She groaned inwardly, the warmth of embarrassment creeping up her neck as she registered her current state, an old pair of sweatpants and an even older shirt with a faded logo, complete with a jam stain right across the bosom. Great. Just great.
âYou didnât have to do that,â she finally managed, her voice brushing off the initial surprise as she tucked a stray hair behind her ear. âReally, itâs not that big of a deal.â
Bucky shrugged, the corner of his mouth twitching into a small, easy smile. âFigured I owed you one. Besides, itâs no trouble.â
Despite herself, her lips quirked in a smile as she stepped aside and gestured toward the side of the house. âWell, okay then. The tiles that need fixing are just over there.â
He nodded, his movements purposeful but unhurried, as he turned toward his truck. âIâll grab my ladder and get started.â
As he walked away, she shut the door with a quiet click and let out a soft exhale, leaning her forehead briefly against the cool wood. A glance down at her outfit made her wince. Nope. There was no way she was standing out there in this while Bucky Barnes fixed her roof looking like a walking ad for rugged, small-town charm.
She bolted for her room, tearing through her wardrobe with newfound urgency. A simple casual dress with a V neckline and cardigan was the winning combo, comfortable enough for an impromptu chat but still presentable. She smoothed the fabric over her hips and checked her reflection in the mirror, brushing her hair back into place before heading back to the living room.
The faint clink of metal outside signaled that Bucky was already at work. Feeling slightly more put-together, she made her way to the kitchen to make some lemonade, hoping she didnât look like she was trying too hard.
Once the lemonade was ready, she poured a glass, her movements steady as she tried to keep her thoughts from spiraling. It wasnât a big deal. Just a neighborly gesture to bring him something cool while he worked. Absolutely no ulterior motives, she told herself firmly, ignoring the tiny thrill that ran through her at the thought of talking to him again.
After tidying up a few things to stall for time, she finally stepped outside, the lemonade glass balanced carefully in her hand. The sun had warmed the air, and she spotted Bucky perched on the ladder, one boot firmly planted on a lower rung as he worked to secure a tile.
âHey,â she called out lightly, making her way toward him.
He glanced down, his hands pausing mid-adjustment. His gaze caught on her new outfit, lingering for a moment before flicking back to her face. She wasnât imagining it, the slight shift in his expression was hard to miss.
Feeling suddenly self-conscious under his sharp blue eyes, she offered the glass with a small smile. âThought you might want something to drink.â Then, in a rush of nervous energy, she added, âDorothy was supposed to drop by, so I figured I should look a little more... put together.â
His gaze flickered briefly to the neckline of her dress, the height of his vantage point affording a view to skin that other way should be concealed by cloth. For a split second, his focus lingered on the swell of her breasts before he forced his attention back to her face with an unreadable expression.
âThanks,â he said gruffly, reaching down to take the glass. His fingers brushed hers for a fraction of a second, the callouses rough against her skin, and she fought the urge to shiver at the contact.
âYouâre, uh, making good progress,â she said, nodding toward the roof as if that would distract from the warmth in her cheeks.
âNot much to it,â he replied, taking a sip. His Adamâs apple bobbed as he drank, and her eyes dipped of their own accord, watching the movement.
When he handed the glass back, their fingers brushed again, and she swore his hand lingered just a moment longer this time.
She lingered by the ladder, holding her glass of lemonade, the condensation cool against her fingers. âYou and Sam did a great job building the booths for the festival,â she said, her tone casual. âNot only a provider, huh? Seems like youâre quite the handyman too.â
Bucky glanced down at her, his lips twitching into a faint smile before he focused back on the tile he was securing. âIt wasnât just us. Plenty of other guys helped out.â
âStill,â she insisted, watching the muscles in his forearms shift as he worked, âitâs cool. You donât see that kind of dedication every day.â
He didnât respond right away, his grip tightening on the hammer. The compliment clearly unsettled him, and for a split second, his aim wavered. The hammer came down too close to his thumb, and he muttered a sharp curse under his breath.
âAre you okay?â she asked, stepping closer instinctively. Her brows knit together with concern as she watched him shake out his hand.
âPeachy,â he muttered with a gruff voice, though the faint pink creeping up his neck gave away his frustration, whether from the near miss or her watchful presence, she wasnât sure.
Her lips twitched at his tone, but she held back a laugh, not wanting to poke the bear. âAlright, then. Iâll leave you to it before I distract you into taking off a finger.â
He glanced down at her, his blue eyes sharp but not unkind. âYouâre not a distraction,â he said after a beat, his voice softer this time.
Her stomach did a little flip, but she forced herself to keep her tone light. âStill, Iâd hate to be the reason you get hurt. Let me know if you need anything else, okay?â
He gave a small nod, his gaze lingering on her for a moment longer before he turned back to his work, the tension in his shoulders easing slightly.
She stepped back toward the house, clutching the empty glass tightly as she crossed the threshold and shut the door behind her.
With a deep breath, she returned to the couch, her laptop waiting for her where sheâd left it. But even as she opened the screen and stared down the next line of plaid-covered Highlander melodrama, her thoughts drifted back to the man on her roof and the way his gaze lingered just a second too long.
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The knock at the door startled her out of the repetitive loop of her manuscript edits. Leaving the laptop on the coffee table, she stood, smoothing the fabric of her dress instinctively. When she opened the door, there he was, a faint sheen of sweat on his face and his toolbox in hand.
âAll done,â Bucky said, his deep voice a little quiet, as though he wasnât entirely sure how to say more. He gestured vaguely toward the roof with his free hand. âThe tiles should hold up fine now. No leaks to worry about.â
Her smile was warm as relief and gratitude washed over her. âThank you, Bucky. Really. That was so kind of you to come by and take care of it.â
He gave a small shrug, his lips twitching into a faint smile that didnât quite reach his eyes. âDidnât take long. Figured itâd save you some hassle.â
âStill,â she said, stepping back to open the door wider, âyou didnât have to. Can I at least get you something? Another drink, maybe?â
He hesitated, his hand tightening slightly on the handle of the toolbox. âYou donât have to-â
âI insist,â she cut him off gently, her smile unwavering. âPlease. Itâs the least I can do.â
After a beat, he nodded, stepping over the threshold with a cautious ease, as if unsure of how much space he was allowed to take up. She led him to the kitchen, motioning for him to sit at the small table while she poured a fresh glass of lemonade.
He sat stiffly, setting his toolbox carefully by his feet and rubbing the back of his neck. The kitchen smelled faintly of citrus and sugar, a scent that mingled oddly with the outdoorsy hint of sawdust and sweat he carried with him.
âHere,â she said, placing the glass in front of him before sitting across the table. âI hope itâs still cold enough.â
Bucky nodded his thanks, taking a sip. The silence stretched for a moment, not uncomfortable but loaded with unspoken thoughts. She was the first to break it.
âSo, how long have you been working with Sam?â she asked, leaning her arms casually on the table.
He set the glass down, his fingers lingering on the rim as he answered. âA few years. Helps keep me busy.â
She tilted her head, studying him with quiet curiosity. âDo you supply the rest of the workshops and stores too?â
Bucky let out a soft, humorless chuckle. âNot really, just a few. Donât think anyoneâs lining up to hire a guy like me.â
Her brows knit together. âI donât know about that. Youâre dependable, skilled... and clearly a good neighbor.â
Her words caught him off guard, and he looked down, a faint flush creeping up his neck. âJust doing what needs to be done,â he mumbled.
âMore than that,â she pressed, a hint of teasing in her tone now to lighten the moment. âIf I hadnât seen it for myself, I wouldnât believe how fast you fixed those tiles.â
Bucky shook his head, his lips twitching into that barely-there smile again. âItâs just a roof.â
âTo you, maybe,â she said lightly. âTo me, itâs one less thing to worry about. And I really appreciate it.â
Her sincerity left him quiet for a moment, his fingers tightening briefly around the glass. He glanced up at her, meeting her eyes. âYouâre welcome,â he said finally, with a low voice.
Another pause lingered between them, she smiled, leaning back slightly in her chair. âWell, if you ever need more jam -or a roof to fix- you know where to find me.â
He chuckled softly, the sound surprising even himself. âGuess Iâll keep that in mind.â
Their gazes held for just a beat too long before he stood, his hand already reaching for the toolbox. âI should get going.â
âOf course,â she said, standing as well, though she didnât move to rush him out. âThanks again, Bucky.â
As Bucky made his way toward the door, his gaze swept briefly over the living room, pausing on the open laptop resting on the coffee table. His steps slowed, curiosity flickering across his features. âWhatâs that youâre working on?â he asked, tilting his head toward the screen.
She followed his gaze and let out a soft, sheepish laugh. âOh, just... proofreading a manuscript.â
He raised a brow, the corner of his mouth quirking up slightly. âWhat kind of manuscript?â
Her lips parted as if she might dodge the question, but his steady, inquisitive look made it clear he wasnât letting this one go. âItâs, uh... a romance,â she admitted, her voice almost shy.
His brow lifted a little higher. âAbout?â
She hesitated, fidgeting slightly under his gaze. âItâs... okay, itâs one of those super cheesy historical romances. You know, with a rugged Highlander and a maid whoâs swept up in some dramatic, forbidden love affair.â Her words tumbled out in a rush, her cheeks warming as she spoke.
Buckyâs expression shifted. First skeptical, then mildly amused, and finally landing somewhere between disbelief and intrigue. âAnd that sells?â
âItâs a very popular topic,â She nodded, already cringing inwardly. âItâs... well, itâs got a lot of dramatic tension, flowery descriptions, and... other stuff.â
âLike what?â he asked, genuinely curious, his head tilting slightly as he leaned against the doorframe.
She bit the inside of her cheek, debating how much detail to share. âYou know... dramatic misunderstandings, passionate declarations, epic sword fights... and, uh...â She trailed off, waving her hand vaguely. âOther... things.â
âOther things,â he repeated, his lips twitching like he was trying not to smile. âYou mean... the spicy stuff?â
Her cheeks flamed, and she groaned, covering her face with her hands. âYes, okay? That stuff. Happy now?â
He chuckled making her peek at him from behind her fingers. âDidnât take you for someone whoâd spend their day reading about shirtless Highlanders sweeping maids off their feet.â
âI donât spend my day reading it,â she shot back, lowering her hands to glare at him, though her expression was more embarrassed than angry. âIâm proofreading. Thereâs a difference.â
âRight,â he said, dragging the word out like he wasnât entirely convinced. âSo youâre not secretly daydreaming about a plaid-wearing, hero coming to whisk you away?â
âAbsolutely not,â she replied firmly, though the faint crack in her voice betrayed her mortification.
He smirked, finally stepping back from the doorframe. âGood to know.â
She crossed her arms, watching him as he moved toward his toolbox. âNot that youâre one to judge,â she called after him. âYou seem to know an awful lot about what goes on in those books for someone whoâs never read one.â
That stopped him in his tracks. He turned back, his gaze narrowing slightly, though there was still a glint of amusement in his eyes. âI have a sister,â he said simply, as though that explained everything.
Her mouth opened, then shut, caught off guard. âTouchĂŠ,â she murmured, conceding the point. Still, she couldnât let it rest. âBut honestly, this one is so bad, I donât get how the editors went along with it.â
His curiosity piqued, and Bucky tilted his head. âAnd whyâs that?â
âItâs just... so cheesy,â she said, her voice dipping with exaggerated drama. âWay too fluffy, the guy wonât stop talking about his feelings, and heâs clingy in a way that makes me cringe.â She shuddered a little for effect.
Bucky raised a brow, his thumb absently tapping against the handle of the toolbox. âSo... that makes it bad for the genre? Or is that your personal taste talking?â
She blinked, thrown off by the question. âI-what?â
âI mean,â he continued, leaning casually against the doorframe, âarenât romance novels supposed to be... you know, emotional? Feelings and all that? Or is it just not your thing?â
She frowned, his thoughtful tone making her pause. âI guess... itâs not the emotions that bother me,â she admitted, her arms crossing loosely. âItâs the way itâs written. This guy is just so... over the top. Heâs constantly swooning over her, saying how sheâs his whole world, his sun and stars... itâs too much. Like, tone it down, man.â
Buckyâs lips twitched, and he gave a small, thoughtful nod as if chewing over her words. âSo, youâre more into the... brooding types?â
Her face warmed slightly at the observation, but she shrugged, trying to play it cool. âMaybe. I like characters who... donât lay it all out at once. You know, someone with a little mystery.â
A long silence stretched between them, his gaze lingering on her as if trying to read between the lines. âSounds like itâd be tough to figure out what theyâre thinking.â He observed.
She raised a brow at that, tilting her head. âSometimes actions speak louder than words, you know.â
Bucky seemed to consider that, his fingers flexing lightly around the handle of his toolbox. He nodded once, then glanced toward the door. âWell, Iâll let you get back to your... highlander drama.â He shifted his weight, toolbox in hand, and turned toward the door. But as he stepped through, he hesitated, glancing back. âHey,â he said, his tone quieter now, almost hesitant. âIf, uh... if you ever need something else, just let me know.â
She smiled âI will. The same goes for you, thanks again.â
He nodded, a small, almost shy tilt of his head, before stepping fully out the door. She stood there for a moment, staring after him as the faint crunch of his boots faded down the path. The quiet of her house enveloped her as she closed the door, replaying snippets of their conversation.
She had barely made it back to the couch when her phone buzzed. The screen lit up with a text from Sam:
Hey, Iâm grilling tonight. You should come by. No excuses.
A smile tugged at her lips. The idea of stepping out, getting off her screen, and being around people sounded better than staying cooped up with plaids and cringy lairds. She quickly texted back her agreement.
The gathering was small, just a handful of locals chatting around the glow of the garden lights and the firepit, the scent of burning wood mingling with spiced cider in the air.
She wasnât expecting to see Bucky there, given he wasnât the social type but there he was, standing slightly apart from the crowd, his hands shoved into his pockets as he listened to a conversation between Sam and another neighbor.
She hesitated, her pulse quickening at the sight of him. Sam spotted her, waving her over. âHey, glad you made it! Câmon, grab a drink.â
She made her way to the table laden with snacks and drinks, feeling Buckyâs gaze on her as she poured herself some cider. When she turned, he was standing just a few steps away, his expression unreadable in the flickering firelight.
âHey,â she said, her voice a touch breathless. âDidnât expect to see you here.â
His lips quirked in a half-smile. âSam can be... persuasive.â
She laughed softly âYeah, heâs good at that.â
They stood there in companionable silence for a moment, and then, as someone started strumming a guitar on the other side of the yard, Bucky glanced at her, his blue eyes glinting with something she couldnât quite place.
âWalk with me?â he asked, with a low but steady voice.
Surprised, she nodded, and they left the noise and light of the gathering behind, stepping into the quiet shadows of the trees that bordered Samâs property.
As they walked, the only sounds were the crunch of leaves underfoot and the distant chords of the guitar. Finally, he spoke.
âIâve been thinking,â he began with a cautious tone like he was testing the waters. âAbout what you said earlier. About liking... brooding characters.â
She blinked, caught off guard. âOh?â
His gaze stayed forward, but his hands fidgeted at his sides. âGot me wondering if you really meant that. Or if you were just... making conversation.â The vulnerability in his voice sent a wave of warmth through her.
âI wasnât just making conversation,â she admitted softly.
He stopped walking, turning to face her fully. The firelight was distant now, casting only the faintest glow, but she could still see the intensity in his expression. âGood,â he said, his voice rougher now. âBecause I donât want to keep wondering.â
Before she could respond, he stepped closer, his hand brushing hers, tentative but deliberate. And when she didnât pull away, he leaned in, his breath warm against her skin as his lips captured hers in a kiss that was both hesitant and deeply certain, as if heâd been waiting for this moment far longer than he dared to admit.
She melted into him, her hands sliding up to his shoulders. That small gesture gave him all the permission he needed. Tilting his head, he traced the seam of her lips with his tongue, a gentle yet deliberate request. She parted her lips for him, granting entrance, and he deepened the kiss with a low, quiet sigh that sent warmth spiraling through her.
His hand slid to the curve of her lower back, pulling her closer, while the other found its way to her nape. His fingers tangled gently in her hair as he cradled her. Their kiss broke slowly, reluctantly, his lips brushing hers one last time as if he couldnât quite let go. Bucky lingered close, his breath warm against her cheek, his nose skimming along her jaw before dipping to her neck. He pressed his face there, inhaling deeply, and his quiet, teasing voice sent a shiver down her spine.
âThis too clingy for you?â
A soft laugh escaped her, though it dissolved into a breathy sigh as she tilted her head, exposing more of her neck to him. âShut up,â she murmured, her fingers threading through his hair, keeping him close. Whatever witty retort she might have had melted into nothing as he pressed a lingering kiss to her pulse point.
Buckyâs lips lingered against her neck for a moment longer before he pulled back just enough to look at her. His fingers at her nape flexed, and then his gaze dropped briefly to her lips. Her heart stuttered as he closed the distance again, this time more demanding. His mouth claimed hers in a kiss that was deeper and hungrier. Gone was the tentative sweetness, this was need, raw and unrestrained. His hand slid from her lower back to her hip, splaying wide, pulling her flush against him as if he needed to eliminate even the smallest gap between them.
Her fingers tightened in his hair, tugging just enough to draw a low, throaty sound from him that sent a thrill through her. She arched into him instinctively, and his hand slid down to the hem of her dress, his fingers brushing her bare thigh. His touch was deliberate, teasing, but his restraint was evident. Her hands left his hair, sliding down to his chest, the soft flannel brushing her palms before she gripped the fabric and tugged him closer. He responded instantly, groaning softly into her mouth as the hand on her nape angled her tighter against his lips.
When they finally broke apart, their breaths mingling in the charged silence, he pressed his forehead to hers. Neither of them moved to step away, the distant chatter and laughter around the grill fading into the background. The weight of unspoken need between them was palpable.
âWe should...â she started, her voice catching slightly. Then, more firmly, âWe should go somewhere.â
His head lifted slightly, blue eyes dark as he searched hers for a beat before a slow smile tugged at his lips, agreeing with a low voice.
Without another word, he took her hand, intertwining their fingers briefly before leading her away. They drifted toward the edge of the yard with casual ease, their steps slow enough to avoid suspicion but quick enough to betray their shared urgency. Once theyâd slipped into the cover of the trees bordering Samâs property, she turned to him, their bodies close in the dim light of the evening. âYour truck or...?â
Buckyâs brows shot up at the suggestion, and for a moment, the idea tempted him, briefly, wildly. Considering the insistent ache in his jeans, the thought held undeniable appeal. But then, reason settled over him like a cool breeze. Not like this. Not tonight.
His lips quirked into a lopsided smirk, and he leaned in just enough that his voice sent a shiver through her. âYour place,â he murmured, low and deliberate.
The shift in his tone left her breathless, her pulse hammering against her skin as her cheeks warmed. She nodded wordlessly, her hand tightening slightly around his as they moved with quiet purpose. The path back to her house felt electric, each step charged with anticipation.
As the door clicked shut behind them, Bucky turned sharply, cornering her against the solid wood. His hands framed her face as his lips captured hers again, more demanding this time, his body pressing into hers with a heat that left no room for misinterpretation. She gasped softly into the kiss, the feel of his hardon against her stomach sending a jolt of desire through her.
Her fingers tangled in his long hair, tugging just enough to make him growl low in his throat. The sound vibrated between them, primal and electrifying. He broke the kiss just enough to murmur, his voice gravelly, âWhereâs the bedroom?â
She pointed vaguely down the hall, her breath hitching. Before she could blink, his strong hands were gripping her waist, and he effortlessly threw her over his shoulder in one smooth motion.
A surprised squeal left her lips, and she braced herself against his back, her fingers gripping the fabric of his shirt. His hand splayed firmly over her rear to steady her, his voice teasing but thick with intent. âEasy there,â he said, the words curling with a hint of amusement.
He strode purposely through the hallway, and when they reached the bedroom, he set her down on the bed with surprising care, though his gaze was anything but gentle. He stood over her for a moment, taking her in, the way her hair fell wild around her face, her lips swollen from his kisses, her chest rising and falling with anticipation.
His tongue flicked over his bottom lip as his eyes darkened. âDamn,â he muttered, his voice hoarse with hunger, âyouâre a sight.â
She shifted slightly under his intense stare, a flicker of shyness creeping in her despite her arousal. The way he looked at her, so unapologetically hungry, made her feel exposed. His lips quirked slightly as if sensing her hesitation, and he leaned down, his hand coming to rest against her jaw.
âYou okay?â he murmured, his voice softer now but no less intent.
She nodded, her breath hitching as his thumb brushed along her cheek. âYeah,â she whispered.
âGood,â he replied, his lips curving into a faint smile before he kissed her again. This time, it was slower, deeper, his tongue sweeping against hers in a way that left her clinging to him, her earlier shyness melting into the heat of his touch.
Her fingers found his shirt, tugging at the hem, and he pulled back just enough to strip it off, tossing it aside without ceremony. The scars on his chest and arm caught the dim light, but the confidence in his gaze never wavered as he leaned back in, his hands sliding down her sides with deliberate, teasing slowness.
Her teeth sank into her bottom lip as her eyes roamed over him, the sheer breadth of his chest and the powerful arms flexing with restrained strength. He was a bear of a man, solid and unrelenting, and she loved every bit of it.
âYou know,â he began, his voice low and rough, his fingers deftly popping open the buttons of her dress one by one. âI love seeing you in these dresses and skirts.â His lips quirked into a wicked grin, his gaze flicking up to meet hers. âMakes it so damn easy to get under them. Have my way with you.â
Her cheeks burned at his words, a mixture of arousal and shyness bubbling to the surface. âBucky...â she breathed, but her protest was feeble at best, especially as he continued his slow, deliberate assault, parting the fabric of her dress to expose more of her skin.
âThat one you wore at the festival,â he went on, his tone darkening with heat as he leaned closer, his lips grazing her collarbone. âThat vintage-looking thing? Sweetheart, it drove me crazy.â
She gasped softly as his hands slid over her hips, his thumbs tracing patterns against her bare skin. âCrazy how?â she managed to ask, her voice trembling under the weight of his attention.
He let out a low, throaty chuckle, his lips trailing down to the swell of her breasts. âCrazy enough to want to bend you over the booth table,â he murmured, his teeth scraping lightly against her skin, âand fuck you right there. Pies, jam⌠didnât care. Wouldâve made a mess of it all just to get my hands on you.â
A desperate whimper slipped past her lips as heat pooled low in her belly. Her hands slid into his hair, tugging slightly.
He growled softly at the sensation, pressing her back against the bed. His hands gripped the fabric of her dress and tugged it down her arms, exposing her fully to his gaze. âBut weâve got all the time we want now,â he said, his voice rough, his lips curving into a predatory smile. âAnd I plan to take my damn time.â
Her pussy clenched with anticipation as her mind whirled, trying to reconcile the quiet, awkward man sheâd come to know with this unabashedly vocal, commanding version of him. It was as though heâd been holding back all this time, and now, the dam had finally burst.
Her bra followed the dress, and his sharp intake of breath sent a fresh wave of heat coursing through her. His thumb traced the curve of her breast, slow and deliberate, before he leaned in, his lips hovering just above her skin.
âYâknow,â he murmured, his voice rough and teasing, âall I could think about this afternoon was pouring that lemonade on these.â His lips ghosted over her nipple, his breath warm. âThen drinking it straight off you.â
Her gaze widened, a sudden wave of shyness overtaking her. She let out a nervous laugh, pressing her hands over her face to shield herself.
âDonât hide from me,â he said firmly, his hand catching her wrists and gently tugging them away. His eyes burned with an intensity that made her stomach flip. âYou were the one who instigated our little escape from Samâs party, remember?â
His words sent a shiver down her spine, and she couldnât help the way her body arched toward him as his lips finally claimed the peak of her breast, his tongue swirling in deliberate, maddening strokes. Any remaining hesitation evaporated as he pressed his hips against hers, letting her feel just how much he wanted her.
âYou donât get to act shy now,â he muttered, his voice low and gravelly against her skin. âNot after everything youâve been driving me crazy with.â
Her voice came out barely above a whisper, trembling as she stammered, âI... I didnât do anything...â
Bucky pulled back just enough to meet her wide-eyed gaze, his lips curving into a wicked smirk. âOh, you didnât?â he drawled, his tone laced with teasing disbelief. His hand slid down her side, his calloused fingers leaving a trail of fire in their wake. âThat little dress at the festival? the lemonade with that neckline? The way you bit your lower lip every time we spoke? Sweetheart, youâve been doing everything.â
Her cheeks burned, her lips parting as if to protest, but no words came out. Instead, he leaned in closer, his nose brushing the curve of her jaw as he whispered, âAnd Iâve been trying real hard to keep my hands to myself... but now? Now, Iâm done trying.â
Her breath caught, and before she could respond, his lips were on hers again, claiming her in a kiss that left no room for doubt. His hands roamed her body with purpose, pulling her flush against him, his erection pressing firmly against her pussy.
Her fingers found their way into his hair again, tugging gently at the strands as he groaned into her mouth, the sound reverberating through her. âYouâre killing me, you know that?â he murmured against her lips, his voice rough and filled with longing. âAll Iâve been thinking about is this... you... for weeks.â He kissed her again, slower and deeper this time, as if savoring the moment.
âYou donât even know what youâre doing to me,â he rasped when they parted for air, his forehead resting against hers. âBut youâre about to find out.â
He left a trail of open-mouthed kisses down her body, his lips lingering on every inch of skin as if committing her to memory. When he reached the waistband of her drenched panties, he paused, his hands gripping her thighs firmly to keep her in place. Pressing his face against the soaked fabric, he inhaled deeply, a guttural groan rumbling from his chest.
âGod, you smell so good,â he murmured, his voice thick with hunger. His thumbs hooked into the sides of the delicate lace, slowly pulling it down her legs as he kept his eyes locked on hers. The intensity in his gaze made her pulse thunder in her ears. âYouâve been driving me insane,â he confessed, his lips brushing against her inner thigh as he tossed the damp fabric aside. âEvery time I saw you in those little dresses... I thought about this. About getting under that hemline and taste you.â
Her body quivered at his words, her fingers tangling in the sheets beneath her as anticipation coiled tight in her core. âBucky...â she breathed, her voice a plea.
âPatience,â he said again, his voice low and teasing, but there was no mistaking the edge of hunger in it. His hands spread her thighs further apart, thumbs pressing into the soft flesh as he held her open. His breath ghosted over her pussy, warm and tantalizing, making her gasp and clutch the sheets. âI want to take my time with you.â
And then his mouth was on her. His tongue dragged through her slick folds with slow, deliberate strokes, before barely retreating with a sinful hum. âFuck,â he groaned, âYou taste even better than I imagined.â He paused only long enough to meet her eyes, his own dark and full of promise. âAnd Iâve been imagining this for a long time.â
Her breath caught in her throat as he spread her pussy lips with his thumbs, baring her fully to him. His mouth latched onto her clit, his tongue swirling in lazy circles before he nursed it with intent. The sharp jolt of pleasure ripped a cry from her lips, her hips thrusting against his mouth involuntarily.
âBucky! oh, God!â she gasped, her voice trembling as he kept at it, alternating between sucking and flicking her sensitive nub with maddening precision. His growl vibrated against her, the sound and sensation drawing another moan from deep within her chest.
âStay still,â he commanded, pulling back just enough to speak, his lips glistening. The rumble of his voice sent shivers down her spine. âIâm not done with you yet.â
Two thick fingers joined the assault, sliding slowly into her wet heat, stretching her as they pressed in until they were knuckle-deep. She gasped, her walls clenching around him as he paused for a moment, letting her adjust before starting a maddening rhythm.
His mouth stayed on her clit, tongue flicking and circling in tandem with the slow, deliberate thrust of his fingers. The combination was overwhelming, a perfectly orchestrated symphony of pleasure that had her crying out his name, her thighs trembling as she struggled to keep still.
âFuck, youâre so tight,â he murmured against her, his voice filled with awe and lust. His fingers curled inside her, finding that sweet spot that made her hips jerk off the bed. âRight there, huh? Thatâs it.â
Her breathing turned ragged, her hands gripping his hair tightly as her body climbed higher and higher toward release. He didnât let up, his tongue and fingers working her with relentless precision, coaxing her closer to the edge with every stroke.
The orgasm tore through her like an electric shock, sharp and all-consuming. Her body clenched tight, her muscles locking for a heartbeat before releasing uncontrollable spasms. Her walls clenched around his fingers, her back arching off the bed as a sharp cry tore from her lips. He growled with satisfaction, his fingers slowing but not stopping as he rode her through her climax, his mouth pressing soft, soothing kisses to her inner thigh as she shuddered beneath him.
âThatâs my girl,â he murmured, pulling his fingers free slowly and bringing them to his lips to taste. His darkened gaze met hers, his tongue flicking out to clean the slick from his fingers. âYouâre fucking perfect.â
She barely had time to catch her breath before Bucky stood, towering over her, his eyes dark with intent. With a sharp tug, he kicked off his work boots, the thud of them hitting the floor making her jump slightly. Then came the metallic clink of his belt, the sound sending a thrill straight through her.
Her gaze was locked on him as he unzipped his jeans, the low rasp of the zipper making her stomach tighten. He tugged them down along with his underwear in one swift motion, revealing himself in all his glory. He was all broad shoulders and thick muscle. His broad chest and left arm were marred by scars that only added to the raw magnetism he exuded. And then there was his cock. Thick, hard, and so utterly intimidating that she bit her lip at the sight.
âLike what you see?â he asked, a lazy smile pulling at his lips.
She nodded, unable to form words as her cheeks flushed.
âGood,â he said, his hand wrapping around his shaft, stroking lazily as he took a step closer. âBecause youâre going to feel all of me.â
Bucky climbed onto the bed, positioning himself between her parted thighs. His hands gripped her waist, firm but careful, as though he might crush her if he wasnât mindful of his strength. His cock rested heavy and hard against her slick folds, the head teasing her entrance as he rocked his hips slowly, coating himself.
âSo wet,â he murmured, his voice a husky growl that sent a shiver down her spine. She moaned softly, her thighs trembling as the thick head of his cock pressed against her opening, the stretch beginning even before he was inside. He moved slowly, agonizingly so, letting her body adjust to his size inch by inch. Her walls fluttered around him as he filled her, her slick heat clenching tightly as he pushed deeper. Her hands gripped his shoulders, nails biting into his skin as her breath hitched. âOh my God, Bucky... youâre so-â
âBig?â he finished for her, his tone edged with dark amusement as he paused, fully sheathed inside her. He leaned down, his lips brushing her ear as he rumbled, âThatâs it, sweetheart.â
Her head fell back against the pillow as she panted, her body stretched to its limit, the delicious pressure bordering on too much. But as her hips shifted slightly, the friction sent a bolt of pleasure through her that made her moan his name.
Bucky groaned low in his throat, his hands sliding to her rear to tilt her hips upward. He withdrew slowly, almost to the tip, before thrusting back in with deliberate care. âFuck, youâre tight,â he murmured, his gaze locked on her face as he started to move in earnest.
His pace began slow and steady, each thrust measured, but it wasnât long before his control began to slip. His grip on her tightened as he quickened, the powerful thrusts rocking her body against the mattress. The sound of their bodies meeting filled the room, the wet slap of his cock driving deep into her pussy mingling with her moans and his guttural groans.
âHold on to me,â he ordered, his voice rough with lust. Before she could process his words, he hooked an arm under her ass and lifted her effortlessly, sitting crisscrossed with her perched in his lap.
Her arms flew around his neck, clinging to him as the new angle made him hit even deeper. His hands gripped her hips, guiding her movements as he thrust up into her, the force of his cock driving her wild. Her head fell forward, her forehead resting against his as she whimpered, overwhelmed by the intensity of the pleasure building inside her.
âLook at me,â he demanded. Her hazy eyes met his as he tilted her hips slightly forward, the firm muscles just above his shaft slapping her clit with every thrust.
She cried out, her nails raking down his back as the coil inside her tightened, ready to snap. âDonât stop, please donât stop!â
He groaned, his cock swelling even harder inside her as he chased her climax. âIâve got you,â he promised, his thrusts growing rougher, deeper. âCome for me, sweetheart. Let me feel it.â
Her orgasm hit her hard, her pussy clamping down on his cock as she cried out his name, her body trembling violently in his arms, and he growled in satisfaction.
âFuck, thatâs it,â he ground out, his movements growing erratic as her spasming walls pushed him closer to the edge. âYouâre mine, doll. Mine.â
With a final, deep thrust, he buried himself fully inside her, his cock pulsing as he spilled into her with a guttural moan. He held her tightly, pressing his forehead to her shoulder as they both panted, their bodies trembling from the intensity of their encounter.
For a moment, neither of them moved, the room filled only with the sound of their heavy breathing. Then, with utter gentleness, Bucky eased her back onto the bed, his body following hers as he stayed buried inside her. He braced himself on his forearms, keeping his weight off her but staying close enough that she could feel the warmth of his skin against hers.
A lazy smirk tugged at his lips as he glanced down at her, the faintest hint of mischief in his eyes. âSo,â he murmured, his voice low and teasing, âbetter than the breathtaking Highlander?â
Her breath hitched before she burst into laughter, making his smirk widen. âOh, so much better,â she stated, wrapping her arms around his neck and pulling him down for a quick, playful kiss. âI find the curt and gloomy lumberjack character more appealing.â
Bucky raised an eyebrow, his smirk faltering just slightly. âCurt and gloomy, huh?â
She nodded, her voice turning softer. âMysterious. Rugged. A little broody. Kind. Thoughtful. Handsome.â
He blinked, caught off guard by the weight of her words. A faint flush crept up his neck, blooming across his cheeks, and he glanced away, suddenly looking very much like the socially awkward man sheâd come to adore.
âDidnât know I was signing up for flattery,â he muttered under his breath, his ears reddening as he busied himself with brushing away a strand of hair hanging on his face.
She laughed and cupped his cheek, gently forcing him to meet her gaze. âJust telling the truth,â She said softly, her thumb brushing over his stubbed skin.
He swallowed hard, the blush deepening as his lips twitched into a shy, crooked smile. âStill not used to it,â he admitted quietly, his voice barely above a murmur.
âGuess Iâll just have to keep saying it until you are,â she replied with a grin, pulling him down for another kiss before he could argue.
personal assistant rules: donât crush on bucky barnes. definitely donât misinterpret a flower purchase and spiral into silent heartbreak, and absolutely never ever get stuck alone with him in an elevator.
Warnings: 18+ content minors dni, smut, oral (f receiving), public (ish) sex?, wall sex (?), okay they fuck in an elevator guys, kissing, angst, miscommunication (not badly), hurt/comfort, there's some plot if you squint, insecure/self-conscious reader undertones, reader is an overthinker, reader is horny lol, no use of y/n, lmk if i've missed anything
Word Count: 9.1k
A/N: hi, hopefully this will keep you all fed while i work on part five to lessons in lovemaking. finally getting around to some of these requests in my inbox. this one is based off this request, but i changed it up so the reader is a PA instead of an avenger. lmk your thoughts thanx for reading <3 sorry for any typos - not proof read.
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Youâd never pegged Natasha as the type who enjoyed flowers.
No, she struck you more as the encrypted-flash-drive-on-a-park-bench type, the kind of woman who appreciated mysteries with teeth. A custom leather jacket, stitched with the same precision she used to dismantle a glock. One of those sleek, low motorcycles. Not daisies. Not peonies. And definitely not whatever soft, pastel nonsense Bucky was currently handing over cash for.
You stood a few feet away, halfway hidden behind a sidewalk sign advertising oat milk lattes and gluten-free muffins, clutching a cardboard drink tray and a bag full of vegan pastries in a death grip. The barista had spelt âBruceâ as âBrooseâ again, and under any other circumstance, that would've made you laugh, but now it felt like the most irrelevant thing in the world.
You liked Natasha. You respected her. You just didnât think she had it in her to giggle over roses like the girls in those sappy rom-coms Clint insisted he hated (right before he would watch three in a row, a beer in each hand). But there Bucky was, brushing pollen off a bouquet of pale pink ranunculus, face soft in a way youâd never seen during mission briefings or sparring sessions.
And suddenly, you were building a list in your head of all the things you were sure Natasha Romanoff would rather receive as a romantic gesture: a knife, balanced perfectly for throwing, an expensive bottle of vodka, a vintage chess set with hand-carved pieces, a bottle of expensive ink and a fountain pen with a sharp nib, cookiesâmessy onesâoverloaded with chocolate chips, or simply just black coffee, straight from the pot, no sugar, no cream. Yet, as Bucky handed it over to the redhead, she smiled. Smiled. And suddenly you felt like you were witnessing a scene you were not welcome to.Â
Truthfully, it stung. Maybe it stung a little more than what was appropriate. Youâd been harbouring a quiet crush on the dark-haired, sullen supersoldier from the moment he joined the team. Fresh out of Wakanda, new vibranium arm in tow, and god, he was handsome. Not in the polished, television commercial way Steve was, but in a way that made your pulse skip and your thoughts stall mid-sentence. He had the kind of face you didnât know how to look at for too long, sharpened jaw, stormy-blue eyes, and a mouth that always looked on the verge of saying something heâd regret.
There was something electric about his stillness. Like if you leaned in close enough, youâd hear the hum of danger beneath his skin. He walked like a man who never quite trusted, drifting through the tower like he expected a fight around every corner. He barely spoke, but when he did, his voice was low and gravel-worn, something that settled right in your gut and made its home there.
He never smiled. Not really. But sometimesâsometimesâyouâd catch a flicker of it when Sam teased him, or when Steve nudged him just right, and it was devastating.
And yeah, maybe you had a soft spot for broken things trying to heal.
As the Avengersâ personal assistant, it was your job to keep everyone comfortable, informed, and running like clockwork. You were a one-person organisational machine, constantly juggling the chaos that came with managing a tower full of enhanced individuals with the emotional range of a brick wall to a nuclear reactor. Your days were a blur of colour-coded schedules, back-to-back briefings, and the never-ending group chats.
You coordinated mission debriefs, booked international flights with military clearance, and handled press requests that would make most people cry. You endured complaints when Thor overloaded the power grid again, trying to make toast, and even replaced the mugs he shattered before anyone noticed. You wrangled Clintâs kids when they came to visit, sourced obscure snacks from remote parts of the world because Sam liked those protein bars, not the other ones, and Steve wouldnât touch anything processed. You replaced a record number of coffee machines, hunted down whatever special detergent could get oil out of Tonyâs designer shirts. You knew which brand of muscle balm Banner preferred and how to order it without triggering a random Homeland Security check.
And then there was Bucky.
With him, it was always a little extra, whether he noticed or not. His schedule came first in your Monday morning rounds. You made sure the pantry was stocked with the Eastern European tea he liked but never asked for, and remembered the exact setting he preferred on the towerâs training room temperature controls. You adjusted group plans so heâd be paired with Steve or Sam, just in case the crowds and questions became overwhelming. When he disappeared for a few hours, you didnât ask questions, but you made sure no one came looking. You even swapped out the scratchy tags in his mission gear with soft ones, because he never complained, but you noticed the way he fidgeted with them.
Every day, youâd beam at him like some hopelessly love-struck idiot when you handed over his usual coffeeâblack, two brown sugars, just the way he liked itâand in return, heâd offer little more than a grunt. A low, barely-there sound that most people wouldnât even register as a greeting. But you did. Somehow, that grunt became the highlight of your day.
So yeah, maybe seeing him hand over flowers to Natasha broke something in you. Not just a hairline fracture, but a quiet, splintering break that left your chest aching in places you didnât know could hurt. Still, you understood. Natasha belonged to his world, effortlessly cool, all smoke, shadows and secrets. Yet she was kind. Not cold or unapproachable, just⌠carved from something rarer than you. The kind of woman who didnât need to try to be extraordinary, she just was.
And you? You were the sweet, well-meaning assistant who made people laugh in the kitchen, who fetched dry cleaning and remembered everyoneâs birthdays. You were the one who labelled tupperware and chased down Clintâs kids with bandaids. You were an afterthought, the background noise in the buzzing hive which was the Avengers Tower.Â
So maybe you could justify feeling jealous, but angry? No. Not really. They didnât know. They couldnât know. And it wasnât their fault that youâd let yourself hope.
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Two weeks later, and you timed it perfectly, like you always did.
Just as the door to Buckyâs apartment clicked open, you rounded the cornerâfolder in hand, clipboard tucked tight to your side. The hallway was quiet, save for the low hum of ventilation and the soft thud of your heels against the carpet. Bucky stepped out, his gym bag slung over his shoulder, hair tied back, and his hoodie sleeves shoved up just enough to show the gleam of vibranium. Predictable. It was routine, every morning just before six he would meet with Steve in the gym. On Mondays, youâd catch him just as he exited his apartment, unload the details for the week, a freshly printed schedule and all.Â
âMorning,â you said lightly, handing him the weekâs itinerary. His reply was his usual, a grunt. Not annoyed. Not grateful. Just Bucky. That gruff, barely-there sound that once felt like a small victory. The kind of grunt that used to warm your chest when he followed it with a question, even if you knew the answer was printed in the folder youâd triple-checked. You always answered anyway. You liked having his attention, even just for a few seconds.
You used to dress the folders up with care, multicoloured sticky notes marking key tasks (blue for meetings, yellow for reminders, red for anything urgent and green for personal events). Youâd highlight sections like traffic lights, add stickers you thought might make him smile, sometimes even scribble little crooked cartoons in the margins with cheesy encouragementsâseize the day!Â
The folder looked rather sad today, just a plain manila folder packed with stapled papers. No colours. No stickers. No effort. Just the essentials. You didnât let your fingers dawdle when he took it. Didnât smile like you used to. Just handed it over and kept your gaze somewhere past his shoulder.
Bucky took it slowly, eyes flicking down at the cover like he was trying to spot something that wasnât there. His brow pinched, barely, but enough for you to notice. His fingers lingered on the edge of the folder, like he thought maybe heâd missed a note tucked inside.
You nodded and turned to leave, forcing yourself to shift your mind to your next chore mentally, restocking med supplies in the Quinjet, cross-checking Clintâs revised travel forms, hunting down the coffee machine Tony had threatened to ârepurpose as target practiceâ. Youâd have to order a replacement before the morning debrief. Double-check everyoneâs dietary preferences. Update Steve on the tech room schedule. Get maintenance to repaint the lines in the training room because someone (probably Thor) had scuffed them again.
You stayed busy. It helped. Kind of.
But the guilt still trailed you like a shadow.
It was probably obvious how abruptly you changed. The way your voice had lost its warmth. The way your gaze dodged his like it might burn you. You wondered if he noticed, if he thought you'd simply grown tired of him. Maybe he had. That was better than the truth that you couldnât stand to be near him, not when every glance felt like pressing fingers to a bruise youâd caused yourself.Â
You had made your choice, professionalism. The kind of cool, curated detachment you admired in Natasha, only it felt all wrong on you, like an ill-fitting coat. You knew it was for the better, not mixing up work and matters of the heart. Youâd already let your little crush spiral too far, thinking maybeâjust maybeâif you tried hard enough, youâd earn more than a grunt. That he might see you as something more than the charming assistant with her clipboard and her stupid stickers. But he didnât. And he wouldnât. And that was fine. It had to be.
You couldnât afford to fall apart over a man who had no idea heâd broken your heart.
But it was Buckyâs voice, soft and unsure, that startled you from your thoughts. âHey.â
You paused mid-step and turned, forcing a tight smile that didnât quite meet your eyes as your fingers curled against the clipboard. âWhatâs up?â
He shifted his weight, clearly caught off guard by the fact that you stopped walking at all. He was rather devastating to look at when he grew all shy and unsure, fingers fidgeting against the edge of the folder like he didnât know what to do with them. He didnât quite meet your eye as his weight shifted nervously, like he hadnât thought before he called out.Â
âUh. Nothinâ. Justââ He raised the folder slightly, an awkward gesture. âYou usually give me the rundown. Yâknow⌠what everyoneâs doing. Whoâs where. Who Iâm stuck with.â
You swallowed. Of course, heâd noticed. Of course, heâd grown used to your chatter about meetings and mission rosters, about who was off-world and who was due back, like it was the weather. The casual, effortless way you used to tell him what movie was playing, who cheated at Monopoly the night before, or which team member had stolen the last protein bar. Youâd always done it to help, keep him grounded, and make him feel like part of the team, like he belonged.Â
But after what youâd seen two weeks ago, you were sure he didnât need that from you anymore. Natasha would look out for him now. Sheâd keep him balanced, keep him fed, keep him from slipping through the cracks.
âNothing interestingâs happening,â you shrugged. âJust the usual.â
He didnât move. âWell⌠thereâs that dinner. On Friday.â
You gave a curt nod, tone clipped. âYes.â
âWandaâs dinner,â he added, as if you hadnât already acknowledged it.
âCorrect.â
He hesitated again, brows drawing together in a faint crease of worry. You could see him floundering, stuck in some internal scramble. It made your chest ache because you knew that look. Youâd helped talk him down from that look more times than anyone else in the tower probably realised.
You sighed quietly through your nose, against your better judgment, against every wall youâd tried to build in the past week, you caved. He looked five seconds away from spiralling.
âItâs in there,â you offered gently, nodding toward the folder. âOn your schedule.â
âRight. Itâs just⌠for me, you usuallyâŚâ His voice trailed off, frustration and uncertainty knotting in his brow. âSorry. Youâre probably busyââ
That felt like a punch to the gut.Â
You shook your head and, before your pride could stop you, your feet were already moving back toward him. His eyes dropped as you reached into your pocket for a pen, scribbling âWandaâs Dinner â Fridayâ on a green sticky note. Green for personal events, always. You hesitated, then added a smiley face underneath. You peeled it off and stuck it neatly onto the folder in Buckyâs hands.Â
His eyes dropped to it, finger brushing over the paper like he didnât quite understand why it mattered so much. âThanks.â
You just nodded, already stepping back, spine straight, pretending your heart wasnât hammering in your throat.
âShe saidâŚâ Bucky cleared his throat, clearly not done with the conversation. âWanda said sheâs going to do curry.â
You paused, unsure what to do with the information. Why was he telling you that? Why was he still talking?
âThatâs nice,â you said carefully, not sure what to do with this strange, lingering version of him.
âAre you going?â he asked suddenly, and you frowned.
âI wasnât invitedââ You began, already covering from the invasive thoughts, already working to mask the sting. You didnât want to imagine them next to each other over curry, leaning close, whispering in the way people did when they thought no one else was watching. It would only make the crack in your chest worse.
âYou should go,â Bucky said quickly, cutting across your thoughts. âIâll tell Wanda youâre coming.â
âThatâs not necessary. Iâll be busy that night anywayâŚâ You lied through your teeth, heart thumping hard against your breastbone as Buckyâs face crumpled a bit. You cut in before he could argue any further. âYouâre going to be late. For the gym. Itâs nearly six.â
âRight, shit, yeah. Sorry, I justâŚâ He trailed off again, rubbing the back of his neck. âThanks. Iâll⌠Iâll see you around.â
You raised an eyebrow at him, unsure if you were more confused or stunned by his sudden jitters.
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Before the whole flowers incident, you made it your unofficial mission to âaccidentallyâ bump into Bucky as many times as humanly possible in a day. Now? It was the opposite. Every hallway was a trap to avoid, every room a potential ambush. Navigating the Tower had turned into something between a tactical stealth op and a personal game of hide-and-seek.
Unfortunately, your strategy for quiet withdrawal hadnât gone unnoticed.
In fact, Bucky had picked up on your sudden cold shoulder almost immediately. The folder debacle had only been the first of many increasingly awkward run-ins.
There was the time youâd practically sprinted away from the elevator when the doors slid open to reveal him standing inside, a brow raised and coffee in hand. Or when you turned a corner too fast and walked straight into him, muttering a rushed apology before disappearing again like you were being hunted. Then there was the silent, painful breakfast youâd shared at the communal kitchen counter, where you busied yourself with peeling an orange for ten minutes straight while he sat beside you, occasionally glancing over like he wanted to say something but didnât know how to begin.
Youâd even pretended to be asleep on the common room couch when he walked in one evening, piles of paperwork scattered, laptop still open, only for him to drape a throw blanket over you before quietly leaving again.
And yet, instead of giving you space like youâd expected and hoped for, he seemed to find any excuse to be around you. He trailed after you like some misplaced puppy whenever he wasnât buried in a mission or holed up in a meeting.
Youâd assumed that the moment you stepped back, heâd naturally gravitate toward spending more time with Natasha. It made sense. Why wouldnât he want to be around her? They were obviously dating, even if they hadnât made it official yet. Maybe it was one of those quiet, close things kept just between friends, like Steve and Sam. Who were you to come barreling in and expose their secret entanglement? You expected Bucky to be relieved to no longer be on the receiving end of your babbling, your perfectly-timed coffee deliveries, or the not-so-subtle gifts you littered around.Â
But if anything, Bucky seemed determined to figure you out. Like your sudden shift had become his new pet project, and he was personally committed to cracking the case.
Youâd taken the back hallway, the long, winding route that steered well clear of the gym on your way to the shared office. High-traffic areas were too risky nowâtoo many chances to run into him. But clearly, Bucky had caught onto your little detours, because as you turned the corner, there he was, headed straight toward you.
You froze for half a second, pulse quickening. Turning around would be too obvious. Suspicious. Heâd know exactly what you were doing, and then your carefully-constructed avoidance strategy would unravel entirely. If he suspected anything now, you were one panicked backpedal away from confirming it.
It was a nightmare. And a daydream.
A part of you, some soft, hopelessly romantic piece, ached at the sight of him, at the quiet way he seemed to look for you, worry always etched into his brow like you were some puzzle he couldnât quite solve. But the rational part of your mind, the part that had dragged you into this self-imposed emotional lockdown, screamed that letting him get closer again would only undo all the fragile healing youâd managed to piece together.
So you steeled yourself.
Shoulders squared. Laptop and paperwork clutched like a lifeline. Eyes locked on an imaginary point just past his shoulder. If you kept walking and moved quickly, calmly, maybe heâd let you go. Perhaps heâd pretend not to notice how your pace picked up and your gaze carefully avoided his.
You nearly made it.
But of course, he noticed.
âHey, waitââ
His voice was hesitant, just enough pressure to pull you to a stop. Your footsteps faded into the hush of the corridor, your spine straightening instinctively as you turned. Bucky stood a few paces behind, one hand lifted halfway between reaching and retreating, like heâd almost grabbed your arm but lost the nerve.Â
He looked sheepish. Timid, even. It killed you.
You swallowed. âYeah?â
He scratched the back of his neck, boots scuffing lightly against the floor. âDid I⌠forget to grab my coffee this morning? Or⌠did you not bring it?â
A pause. Too long. You could feel the beat of your pulse behind your sternum as you forced a casual shake of your head.
âNo, sorry. Thatâs on me. Slipped my mind.â
The lie didnât sit well in your mouth.
It hadnât slipped your mind, in fact, it was still sitting on the corner of your desk, cooling beside a stack of unfinished paperwork. Youâd brewed it, as always. Even used the brown sugar he liked. But then youâd walked away from it, deliberately, like some idiotic breadcrumb trail you hoped he might follow.
God, you were pathetic.
Your stupid fucking brain couldnât even decide what it wanted anymore. One half of you was charting escape routes through the tower to avoid him, the other was fantasising about him pinning you to the nearest wall. From the way your thighs pressed together now, breath catching as his voice brushed over you, maybe the answer wasnât distance at all. Perhaps you just wanted to taste himâ
He didnât move. Just stood there, one brow lifted, faint worry creasing the edge of his expression.
âYouâre usually down by the gym by nine,â he said, his voice low. âItâs eleven.â
âIâm running a bit behind today.â
âYou usually text me if youâre running behind.â
âWell,â you said, shrugging like it didnât matter, âI didnât this time.â
He paused, the silence between you laced with something dangerously close to concern. âIs everything alright?â
You forced a small laugh, trying to shake off how his low, worried voice made heat pool in your gut. âYeah. Why?â
âYou seem off.â
There it was. Soft, plain and far too knowing. He said it in that maddeningly sincere way that only he could manage. Like he actually gave a damn. Like this wasnât unravelling you by the day.
Your shoulders tensed. âOff?â
âYeah,â he said gently. âJust⌠I dunno. Youâve been quiet lately.â
He didnât know. He couldnât know about the hours you spent spinning in your head like a lunatic, trying to compartmentalise this crush until it shrank into something survivable. About the way youâd stared blankly at Tinder profiles, your phone clutched in your hand, wondering why no one else ever came close, why none of them were him.
Why you couldnât stop thinking that if youâd just told himâconfessed that stupid crush before Natasha didâmaybe you wouldnât be standing here now like some stray mutt, sniffing around for scraps of attention.
Maybe then heâd be yours.
Maybe then you wouldnât be fantasising about quitting just to put yourself out of your own misery like some lame racehorse.
âIâve just got a lot on my plate,â you finally mustered, tone strained. âTonyâs soirĂŠe. The fittings. Admin crap. Didnât even have breakfast today.â
His brows furrowed further. âThatâs not good.â
âIâll survive.â
Would you, though?
Would you survive the heat that flared low in your stomach every time he got too close? Would you survive the ache that gnawed behind your ribs every time he glanced over at Natasha like you didnât exist? Would you survive the constant, desperate craving to be touched by him? To be looked at like she was looked at?
He didnât speak for a second, and for a moment, you were sure he could smell the reek of desperation on you.
âThe oranges in the fridge are gone.â
You blinked. âWhat?â
âAnd the tea. The fancy one,â he added. âThe one with the dried raspberries in it. Youâre the one who always restocks them, arenât you?â
You looked down, fingers clenching around your folder. âIâll add it to the list.â
âI didnât mean it like that,â he said quickly, stepping forward a half-inch, enough to make your breath hitch. âI just⌠I didnât realise it was you. Doing all of that.â
Of course, he hadnât because youâd made it invisible. Seamless. That was the kind of care you practisedâsilent, anticipatory, never asked for, never returned. You had cared for him with a thousand tiny efforts, but he never noticed until you stopped.
You looked up, and the hallway felt suddenly too narrow. His face was open in a way you hadnât seen in a long time. Gentle, confused, like he was trying to work you out and couldnât quite bear not knowing.
You dropped your gaze. âI said Iâll do it.â
He paused. You could feel him thinking again.
Then, to your disappointment, he slowly nodded. âOkay.â
But he didnât move. Not right away. He lingered like someone who hadnât yet decided if leaving was the right call, like he was caught between concern and curiosity.Â
âIâll leave you to it, I guess.â
You didnât answer. Couldnât. You just nodded and turned, walking away quickly before he could see your face fall, before he could catch the naked want in your expression, the way your heart was clawing against your ribs, screaming for you to turn around and ruin everything.
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If time travel were an option, you'd gladly launch yourself into a wormhole and strangle your past self for being stupidâno, lovesickâenough to organise this little errand. You deserve it, really. A swift kick to the gut from future-you for being this hopeless.
It had all started a month ago, when you, like a fool, volunteered to collect the tailored suits and dresses for some little soirĂŠe Tony Stark had decided to throw. Of course, in true Tony fashion, what was pitched as a âcasual get-togetherâ had evolved into a full-blown, black-tie spectacle. The first warning sign? Tony footing the bill for everyone to have custom outfits made to their specifications. TranslationâŚthis was going to be a thing.
Youâd spent weeks wrangling Avengers into fitting appointments, helping them choose fabrics and cuts, managing last-minute alterations and tracking shipments. It was exhausting but under controlâŚuntil the catch. The aggravating, absurdly attractive, brooding catch currently sitting across from you in the tailorâs waiting room, his knee bounced like it was transmitting a detailed morse code manifesto on every possible way he planned to ruin your day.
The plan had been simple: grab an Uber, pick up the garments, pressed, stitched, and boxed to perfection and head back to the tower. But then you got the call. The one that told you Bucky Barnes had missed his final fitting, and that his suit needed some last-minute adjustments...
Of course he did.
Of all your perfectly laid plans, it only took one missed appointment to bring it all crashing down. Now here you were, stuck waiting beside the man who occupied far too much of your brain lately, silently praying the tailor would finish quickly so you could escape before your sanity, or your dignity, completely unravelled.
âI really am sorry,â Bucky said for what felt like the fiftieth time.
Between the brooding and the nervous leg tapping, heâd spent the last five minutes watching the side of your face with an expression so guilty it was practically carved into him.
âLike I said, itâs fine.â You replied, though it came out a little too tight, a little too forced, like you were speaking through clenched teeth. Which, maybe you were. Not that it mattered. Not when you could smell his cologne from how damn close he was sitting. God, you wanted to lean over and bury your face in his chest and just inhaleâ
You straightened abruptly, shoulders stiffening as the tailor entered the room, and mentally reacquainted yourself with the concept of boundaries.
It had been an hourâsixty minutes of waiting while Buckyâs suit got its final adjustments. An hour of you trying to distract yourself with work emails and unanswered texts, pretending the man beside you wasnât single-handedly causing your emotional stability to nosedive. At least when heâd stepped away to get re-measured, you could breathe without risking spontaneous emotional combustion.
This wasnât like you. You werenât usually this wound up. Maybe it was the exhaustion, days of juggling your regular duties with Tonyâs ever-growing list of soirĂŠe demands. Perhaps it was the heartbreak. Or the missed meals. Or the fact that you genuinely had no idea what day it was anymore.
âWould you like to try it on before we package it up for travel?â the tailor asked, her voice gentle. A measuring tape hung loosely around her neck, her pinned bun fraying slightly at the edges.
Bucky looked at you again, eyes flicking toward yours like he needed permission. You swallowed what was left of your pride and gave him a slight, strained nod.
âItâs okay,â you said quietly. âGo on.â
âIâm sorryâagainâthis is probably eating into your whole afternoon, I know how busy you areââ
âItâs fine. Really. Just go.â
He offered a sheepish smile before disappearing behind the velvet curtain, tugging it closed with a rustle. You pressed your fingers to your temples, let your head drop into your hands, and exhaled through your nose like it might stop your heart from trying to break out of your chest.
Across the counter, the tailor glanced up at you with a sympathetic look as she readied the boxes for the other garments. âLong day?â she asked gently.
You lifted your head, managing a tight smile that didnât quite reach your eyes.
âOnly going to get longer.â
You were still nursing the tail end of your sigh when the velvet curtain swished open again.
And then your brain stopped working.
Bucky stepped out in full formal attire, sharp navy suit, tailored within an inch of its life. The cut of it hugged his frame perfectly. Broad shoulders, tapered waist, long legs. A deep navy waistcoat peeked out beneath the jacket, the subtle sheen of the fabric catching the light just enough to look expensive without being flashy. His tie was already perfectly knotted, like heâd done this a hundred times, and the sleeves of his shirt revealed just enough of the polished metal edge of his vibranium arm to make your mouth dry.
He cleared his throat softly, tugging at one cuff. âHowâs it look?â
You blinked. Opened your mouth. Closed it again.
Words? No. Words were gone. Your vocabulary had packed up and left the building.
Bucky shifted his weight, clearly mistaking your slack-jawed silence for disapproval. âItâs weird, right? The waistcoat maybe doesnât work, I told her I wasnât sure about itââ
âNo,â you said quicklyâtoo quickly. âNo, itâs⌠Itâs perfect. You look⌠great. Seriously.â
His brows lifted slightly, a flicker of something you couldnât quite place crossing his face. Relief, maybe?Â
âYeah?â he said, glancing down at himself, tugging slightly at the jacket hem. âI feel better about it now. The sleeves fit properly this time. Thanks for waiting.â
The tailor beamed from behind the counter, clearly proud of her work. âWonderful. Iâll box it up immediately once youâre out of it.â
Bucky nodded, but the tailor turned to you with a friendly smile before he could disappear again.
âAnd for you, would you like to try your gown on as well before I pack it away?â
You blinked, suddenly snapped out of your holy-shit-Bucky-hot-hot-hot haze. âMy what?â
She gestured toward the row of garment bags. âMr. Stark sent over your measurements earlier this month. Thereâs a gown here for you.â
You frowned. âThat must be a mistake. Iâm just the assistant. None of those are for me.â
The tailor hesitated. âI donât think so⌠He was very clear. Your name was attached to the order.â
Before you could argue, Bucky cut in smoothly, like heâd seen this train coming and stepped in to redirect it.
âTony probably just wanted you to look the part, too,â he said, voice low and casual. âYouâve done all the work, he probably figured you deserved to enjoy the night a little. Might as well try it on, just in case.â
You glanced at him, but he didnât look smug or teasing. Just⌠earnest. Calm. Like he meant it. Which made it all the harder to protest.
âFine.â You sighed, scrubbing a hand down your face. âJust to check it fits.â
The tailor clapped her hands together. âWonderful. Itâs a beautiful gown, I promise.â
You gave Bucky one last side-eye before following her toward the changing rooms, the fabric bag already in her hands.
From behind, you could hear him chuckle under his breath.
âJust wait 'til you see her,â the tailor murmured to herself, and you werenât sure whether to be flattered or deeply, deeply nervous.
The gown was heavier than you expected. Luxurious fabric slipped off the hanger like water, pooling in your arms as she handed it over with the kind of reverence usually reserved for wedding dresses.
âIâll give you a minute,â she smiled, disappearing to finish boxing up the suits.
Left alone in the changing room, you peeled out of your clothes, letting the gown slide on over your hips, your waist, up past your ribs. It clung like it had been sewn directly onto your body, the bodice snug, the neckline just daring enough to make you blush.Â
You twisted to try to reach the zipper at the back, fingers fumbling and straining, but the angle was impossible. You spent the better part of five minutes twisting in the mirror like a lunatic, trying to reach the zipper that refused to budge. Your arms ached. The corset bodice was half-fastened. You were flushed, annoyed, and far too aware of the sliver of bare spine still exposed.
You were about to peek your head out and ask the tailor for help when a low voice cut in behind the curtain.
âNeed a hand?â
You flinched, fabric clutched to your chest. âJesus, Bucky! Donât sneak up on me like that!â
âDidnât mean to scare you.â His voice was rougher than usual, like heâd just cleared his throat. âHeard you cursing. Tailor said sheâd be a minute out back.â
You hesitated, and your voice came out thin. âYeah. IâI canât get it up.â
âOkay,â he replied, oddly determined. âTurn around.â
You cracked the curtain open a pinch. He ducked inside, too broad for the narrow space, his frame practically filling it. He was careful not to look at you directly, at least at first.
You turned slowly, presenting your back. âJust the zipper,â you murmured, barely trusting your own voice.
âSure,â
A single fingertip, cold metal, dragged up from the base of your spine to the dip between your shoulder blades. It barely touched the skin, but you shuddered from the sensation. Bucky wasnât even fastening yet, just tracing the line the zipper would follow. The sound you made was too soft to catch.Â
The zipper came up slowly. Agonisingly. His knuckles brushed your skin every inch of the way, not by accident. No, this was too slow, too precise, to be innocent.
He was savouring it.
His other hand steadied you, palm ghosting just over your hip. His breath fanned warm against your shoulder.
âYouâre trembling,â he commented.
You swallowed hard, unable to muster a response.Â
When he reached the top, his hand didnât fall away. Instead, he swept your hair off your shoulder completely, fingertips grazing the line of your throat as he let it fall over one side.
He leaned in. Not touching, but close. Mouth just behind your ear. The heat of his breath against your neck.Â
âShouldâve let me help sooner,â he whispered, voice like a purr. âWouldâve had you dressed in seconds.â
You didnât answer. You couldnât. Your lips parted slightly, breath caught somewhere halfway as your lungs deflated in shock. And maybe it was the gown. Or the silence. Or the way your thighs pressed together of their own accord, but you didnât move. You didnât step away.
You leaned in.
Only a fraction. Just enough.
He noticed.
You could feel it in the slight shift of his stance. The faint sound of him exhaling a chuckle through his nose. The way his hand brushed ever-so-slightly along the small of your back before falling away.
And then he was gone.
He stepped back like nothing had happened. Like the tension wasnât choking the air between you. You turned toward the mirror in a daze.
The dress shimmered in the soft light. Deep, elegant, form-fitting. The neckline exposed the curve of your breasts, the slit at your thigh scandalous enough to make you self-conscious.
You caught his reflection in the mirror. He was watching you, but not with the restrained professionalism you were used to. It was only the sudden reentrance of the tailor that made him hesitate in whatever words were forming on his tongue. He stepped aside, finally giving you space to exit. And you didâlegs shaky, palms sweatingâlike a deer walking straight back into the forest fire, pretending it wasnât about to burn.
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Your plan to avoid Bucky after the tailor incident had gone off without a hitch, maybe a little too well. You'd buried yourself in helping Tony pull together the final touches for his âsoirĂŠeâ (which, if you were honest, was less soirĂŠe and more âblack tie circus in a penthouseâ).
You'd been so laser-focused on your tasks that you'd almost managed not to think about Bucky in that goddamn changing room. His fingers ghosting up your bare spine like a spark setting fire to dry kindling. Youâd folded instantly. Your body betrayed you instantly while your brain screamed to keep it together. Pathetic.
The moral implications of whatever that moment had been were filed away for another day. Were you the other woman? Was Natasha going to slit your throat in your sleep? What was Bucky doing, touching you like thatâin a public changing room, no lessâwhen he had a bombshell redhead waiting for him back at the Tower?
No time for that now. Not when Tonyâs precious âsoirĂŠeâ was already in full swing upstairs and the caterers had somehow forgotten an entire section of the food. Youâd scrambled together an emergency order from some overpriced restaurant Tony swore he was âbasically familyâ with, and by some miracle, they came through in the nick of time.
Now you were in damage control mode, hauling three boxes of overpriced canapĂŠs up to the penthouse. Your heels bit into your feet with every step, your dress clung too tightly to bend properly without your tits spilling out, and your patience was hanging on by a single goddamn thread.
You pressed the elevator button with your elbow and exhaled as the doors slid open.
Drop off the food. Grab a free drink. Drown your Bucky-related sorrows. Maybe, just maybe, keep the beast between your legs from waking at the mere sight of him.
The doors began to close. You shifted your weight, careful with the boxes balanced in your armsâ
Then someone slipped through at the last second.
Him.
Bucky fucking Barnes.
Tall and devastating as usual in his dark navy suit, his tie loosened just enough to suggest mischief, or maybe carelessness. You werenât sure which one made you feel worse.
Your breath hitched. Instinctively, your gaze dropped to the floor, feigning sudden, all-consuming interest in the stability of your precarious tower of hors d'oeuvres. But teetering stacks of overpriced finger food or not, Bucky didnât seem inclined to play along with your avoidance act. Not now. Not when the elevator doors had sealed you in together, finally, and you were without escape.
You winced at the sound of his sharp inhale, the question already pressing past his lips before the elevator even jolted into motion.
âDid I do something to piss you off?â
You didnât look up. Eyes fixed firmly on the floor, you muttered, âWhat?â
âI justâŚâ His voice was rough. Tired. âIt feels like youâve been avoiding me.â
Shit.
He stepped forward slightly. Not enough to be invasive. Just enough to make your stomach flip.
âYou hardly talk to me anymore,â he continued. âWonât even look at me unless itâs about work. And even then, itâs like youâre somewhere else. Did I do something to offend you? Hurt you? Just tell me what I did so I can fix it.â
The elevator hummed to life beneath your feet, gliding upward smoothly. You shifted your weight, bracing against the cool metal rail, eyes stubbornly fixed on the buttons, anywhere but his maddeningly perfect face.
âYou havenât done anything,â you said quietly, the words tasting sour the second they left your mouth.
âThen why are you doing it now?â he asked, eyes searching yours. âWhy wonât you even look at me?â
âBuckyâŚâ
âPlease. Just tell me.â
You hesitated. His hand twitched like he meant to reach for your arm, then faltered, falling back to his side. Your grip tightened on the containers, your fingers slick with sweat. âItâs not you,â you murmured. âItâs me⌠I justâŚâ
He didnât move. Didnât even blink.
âPlease,â he said again, quieter now. âTell me the truth.â
And that was what did it. The tremor in his voice. The way his brow creased like he couldnât stand not knowing. Something broke open inside your chest, raw and unhealed. The dam cracked, split, then gave way completely, and the truth came spilling out before you had the chance to swallow it back down. You were exhausted. Wound tight. Running on fumes and nerves and far too many feelings. Youâd tell him, you decided. Then drop off the canapĂŠs, quit on the spot, and flee the country if necessary. Stark would write you a killer reference. Youâd survive.
âOkay,â you said, breath hitching as a nervous laugh bubbled out, half-bitter, half-resigned. âYou want the truth? Fine. Youâre going to think Iâve completely lost it.â
He stayed quiet, letting you spiral.
âThis is so stupid,â you muttered. âI like you, Bucky. There. I said it. I like you. And it was fineâmanageableâuntil it wasnât. Until I started imagining things. Thinking maybe⌠maybe you liked me too.â
His eyebrows lifted, surprised but unreadable.
âIâve had this massive, embarrassing crush on you since the moment I met you. And I know itâs weird, and probably unprofessional because youâre kinda my boss, but not. Technically, Tonyâs my boss, but I basically manage everything around here, andâugh, Iâm rambling.â You squeezed your eyes shut. âI like you. And Iâve been avoiding you because it was getting out of hand. I couldnât stop thinking about you. And it felt wrong. Especially since youâre dating Natasha, which just made everything worseââ
âWhat?â he interrupted, voice sharp. âIâm not dating Natasha.â
Your eyes snapped open. âThatâs what you took from all of that?â
âNo, Iâwait. You think Iâm dating Natasha?â
âYes!â you burst out, cheeks flaming. âI saw you! At the Sunday market about a month ago with the flowersââ
His brow furrowed. âWhat flowers?â
âThe bouquet you gave her.â
âI didnât give Natasha flowers.â
You let out a dry, disbelieving laugh. âI saw you. It was that dumb little market Tony makes me go to for those overpriced vegan pastries Pepper lovesââ
Bucky stared at you, confused. And then, slowly, understanding clicked into place. His face contorted like heâd just remembered heâd left his stove on.
âOh my god,â he muttered, dragging a hand down his face. âThe flowers. Those werenât for Natasha. They were for Wanda.â
Your heart stuttered. âWhat?â
âVision,â Bucky groaned. âIt was their anniversary. He was stuck on the phone trying to get a fancy reservation and begged me to pick them up. Natasha tagged along because she was hunting for jewellery for Mariaâs birthday. Thatâs all it was.â
You blinked at him. âYouâre joking.â
âIâm not,â Bucky replied earnestly. âI didnât know you thought that. I swear, Iâm not with Natasha. I never was.â
Your stomach dropped. âOh god.â
âHeyââ
âNo. No-no-no.â You squeezed your eyes shut, wanting to sink straight through the floor. âThis is mortifying. I literally thought you were in a secret relationship. Iâve been avoiding you like the plague. Iâve been thinking about moving cities. I googled how hard it is to change your name legally.â
He snorted. âYouâre not serious.â
You opened your eyes, and the horror must have been plain on your face because Buckyâs expression melted into something far too amused. âOh, you are.â
âI might never recover from this,â you mumbled.Â
âHey, câmon. Itâs not that bad.â
âI confessed my undying crush and accused you of being in love with someone else in the span of like, sixty seconds.â
His mouth twitched, lips threatening a smile. âYouâre kind of adorable when youâre spiralling.â
âIâm going to chuck these hors d'oeuvres at your head.â
As if mocking your attempt at dignity, the elevator gave a slight mechanical whirr, nearly at the top floor. The distant hum of the party pulsed just beyond those sleek doors.
You straightened suddenly, panic creeping into your chest. âOkay, Iâm going to deliver these and then Iâm leaving. Possibly forever. Please never speak to me again.â
But Bucky, ever faster than you, stepped in.
And before you could react, he pressed the emergency stop button.
The elevator jolted to a halt. The tower of overpriced hors d'oeuvres wobbled dangerously in your arms. âOh my god,â you gasped, teetering.
Bucky was already moving, steady hands catching the top box before it could topple, plucking the rest from your shaking grasp. He crouched to stack them on the floor carefully, then rose slowly, smirking as you stood frozen, mouth agape in pure horrified disbelief.
âBucky, what the hell are you doing?â
âNo more running,â he said simply, as if that explained everything.
You could barely breathe. âYou stopped the elevator?â
âDidnât want to risk the doors opening and you disappearing into the night,â he said, a little too pleased with himself.
âI hate you,â you whispered, eyes wide.
He leaned in, just close enough for you to feel his breath. âNo, you donât.â
You were going to die right here in a metal box. With your dignity in ruins and the man of your dumb, desperate daydreams giving you that look.
And somehow, somehow, you didnât even want to stop him.
âIâm serious,â he said, stepping closer. âDonât shut down. Please.â
You glanced up at him, finally meeting his eyes and immediately wished you hadnât. They were dark. Hungry. That gaze alone could melt you to the floor.
He stepped closer again. And again. Until his frame caged in you, his arms braced on either side of your head, the heat of his body swallowing you whole.
âI like you too,â he said, low, rough, like it was pulled from deep inside. âChrist, I was so blind. I didnât see it. It didnât click until that day at the tailor, until I saw you in this damn dress.â
Your breath hitched.
âI canât stop thinking about you,â he murmured. âIâve been looking for excuses just to be near you. I keep the notes you leave me with the stupid little drawings. I like looking at them. Thinking about you.â
Your heart felt like it might crack your ribs.
âI smelled every shampoo at the store one day,â he confessed, almost sheepish, almost proud. âHoped Iâd find the one you use. Because you smell so fucking good. Itâs been driving me crazy.â
âBuckyâŚâ
âI donât know. You make me feel special. Seen. Like Iâm not some monster, like Iâm normal. And then one day you were just⌠gone. I didnât realise all the little things you did for me that I never noticed.â He groaned, somehow pressing closer. âI missed the sound of your voice⌠and it made it hurt even more⌠I lie awake at night, every night, thinking about you and how much I want to kiss youââ
âBucky.â You interrupted, and he looked back at you with a barely contained hunger. âAre you going to kiss me or not?â
And then his mouth was on yours.
Hot. Messy. Desperate.
You gasped into it, and he swallowed it whole, groaning as he pressed harder, deeper, hands sliding down to your thighs as he grabbed one and hitched it up around his waist. You clung to his shoulders, lips parted as he slotted himself between your legs, guiding you up until your ass was perched on the elevatorâs handrail bar.
âFuck,â he breathed against your mouth. âTell me that you want this, tell me that you want me.â
Your head fell back against the wall, lips swollen, breath shaking. His mouth travelled to your jaw, your throat, hands digging into your hips.
It was dizzying. Chaotic. Perfect.Â
âI want you, Bucky.â You panted.
âFuck,â Bucky muttered again, but this time it was different, lower. Hungrier.
His hand slid along your thigh, fingertips brushing beneath the hem of your dress. You panted as he kissed across your collarbone, his breath hot against your skin. His hands settled on your knees, then slowly, deliberately, he spread them apart.
âBuckyââ your voice was barely more than a whisper, a tremble of anticipation and disbelief.
But he didnât answer. He dropped to his knees.
Right there. In the goddamn elevator.
You almost came on the spot at the sight, lips swollen and slick with saliva, pupils blown, the slight smudge of your lipstick on his chin. His hands slid up the back of your calves, kneading into the flesh like he was savouring the shape of you. Your dress inched upwards, his mouth suddenly pressing a kiss to the inside of your knee.
Your breath hitched. Your hands shot to the railing behind you, clutching tight.
âYou have no idea,â he said, voice wrecked with want, âhow long Iâve thought about this.â
His eyes flicked up to yours, dark with something dangerous. Devotion, desire, something molten and drowning. Then his mouth moved higher.
Another kiss. Inner thigh this time. Then another, and another, slow, lingering, like he was memorising you. He disappeared until the fabric of your skirt, only the back of his head, dark locks messy peaking out from between the slit.Â
You moaned, soft and involuntary, your hips twitching at the heat of his breath through the thin fabric of your panties. He nuzzled in close, his nose brushing against you, and his hands pressed firmly to your thighs to keep you spread.
âIâve thought about how youâd taste,â he muttered, lips grazing the soaked lace. âHow youâd sound.â
You whimpered.
And then, he peeled your panties to the side.
The groan that tore from him was obscene.
âJesus,â he hissed, voice muffled. âYouâre fucking perfect.â
And then, his mouth was on you.
Hot. Wet. Relentless. You cried out, one hand flying to his hair, tangling in it as his tongue licked into you with precision, with hunger, with something close to worship. He devoured you like he was starving. Slow circles, then quick flicks, his mouth dragging across your clit with maddening rhythm. You writhed against the rail, your leg still wrapped around his shoulder, the other trembling against the elevator wall.
âOh my godâBuckyâfuckââ
Your words slurred together, breath coming in ragged gasps as he groaned into you, the vibration shooting straight through your core. One of his arms snaked around your thigh, pinning you in place, as if he thought you might try to escape. As if heâd let you.
His tongue slid down, dipping into you, then back up, his mouth latching onto your clit with a filthy, wet sound that made your spine arch. You were unravelling, fast, dizzy, overwhelmed.
He pulled back just enough to pant. âI could stay here all night.â
His mouth was merciless. His grip was unrelenting on your thighs, mouth working you over like a man possessedâ
Bzzzzt.
A shrill, sudden buzz sounded from the elevatorâs emergency panel, followed by a crackling voice.
âHello? This is Tower Maintenance. Weâre registering an emergency stop on lift three. Is there an issue?â
You froze. Every muscle in your body went rigid, as if someone had cracked open your spine and poured ice water down it. Dread spread like frost through your veins. Your heart thudded painfully in your throat, threatening to climb up and out entirely.
You could barely breathe. Could barely think.
This was it. This was how you diedâlegs spread, Bucky between them, and Tower Maintenance on the fucking line.
Bucky, in sharp contrast, did not freeze.
He groaned softly with wicked glee, his mouth still very much between your legs. The sound vibrated against the most sinful part of you, and then he doubled down. Mouth and hands working with infuriating, diabolical precision, like heâd just taken the intercom as a challenge.
You clamped a hand over your mouth, the other shaking as you reached blindly for the emergency call button, trying not to sound like you were seconds away from being ruined.
Your voice came out like a panicked squeak. âHi! Uhâh-hi, yes, sorry! Mustâve been aâa small electrical fault. Iâm fine! Everythingâs⌠fine!â
Bucky nipped at your thigh in response.
There was a pause. You could feel the suspicion through the line.
âMaâam, weâre not showing any electrical inconsistencies in that shaft. Did you press the stop button?â
You shot a wide-eyed glare down at the man currently devouring you.
Another wave of pleasure threatened to knock the air from your lungs. You were barely holding it together, every nerve ending aflame, skin flushed, thighs shaking. The cool metal of the elevator wall against your spine did little to ground you.
You cleared your throat, struggling to piece together somethingâanythingâresembling human speech. âOh. Oh, thatâum, I mustâve bumped it. With my elbow. While holding a tray. Itâs, uhâcrowded. In here.â
Bucky chose that exact moment to suck hard, and you slapped your hand over your mouth to muffle the helpless sound that nearly escaped.
A longer pause. You could practically hear them frowning.
ââŚRight. Well, weâre releasing the stop now. Please remain calm.â
The line disconnected.
The elevator jolted slightly as it roared back to life.
Bucky gave a dark chuckle. âCrowded, huh?â Thenâwith zero mercyâhe sped up.
âBucky,â you gasped, head falling back against the wall, âIâmâIâm gonnaââ
You shattered.
It hit hard, hot and blinding. You cried out, thighs clamping tight around his head as he groaned against you, mouth not stopping for a second, drawing it out, milking every twitch, every whimper. You barely had time to breathe, let alone moan, your hands flying to steady yourself just as the elevator dinged cheerily and the doors slid open.
Right into the penthouse. Packed full of people, who by some miracle, were utterly oblivious to your predicament.Â
You staggered slightly as Bucky stood smoothly, wiping his mouth with his sleeve, one arm slipping around your waist to steady you while the other casually reached down and grabbed the stack of forgotten canapĂŠs off the floor like he hadnât justâ
âEvening,â he greeted a passing staff member, utterly unbothered.
You were glowing crimson, pupils blown, lips parted, trying hard to fix your face. Bucky guided you forward, his hand warm on your back, keeping you between him and the crowd as your legs trembled. You barely managed to set the tray on the nearest table before someone whistled.
âWell, damn,â came Samâs voice from the drinks bar. He gave you both a once-over, a wicked grin spreading. âBuck, next time youâre gonna eat face in the elevator, maybe wipe the lipstick off your chin first.â
Bucky only smirked and licked his bottom lip slow, on purpose, you were sure of it.
You nearly combusted on the spot.
âBathroom?â he murmured into your ear, low and gravelly.
You nodded quickly and wordlessly.
He guided you with all the smugness of a man who had no regrets, his hand just a little too low on your back to be innocent.
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Youâd just moved into your cousin Chloeâs townhouse to finish high school, and as much as you didnât exactly dream of a town where cows outnumber people, you tried to stay positive. You kept your head down, focused on school, and did your own thingâvarsity sports, a 4.0 GPA, and a part-time job at The Talon.
But no matter how much you tried to do your own thing, Chloeâs friend group kind of swallowed you whole. Which wouldâve been fine⌠if it werenât for him.
Clark Kent.
Chloeâs annoying, snarky, do-gooder best friend. You couldnât stand him, as a matter of fact you despised him. And you were pretty sure the feeling was mutual. It wasnât just the fake boy-next-door act either. It was how he always had to compete with you.
You were used to being the best. The smartest. The fastest. The one teachers praised and students envied. But then came Clark, all tall and humble with his stupid blue eyes and casual perfection. If you got the highest grade in the class on a math test? Clark beat your scoreâin another period. You crushed the fitness exam in P.E.? Clark doubled your reps and didn't even break a sweat.
âSorry I beat your score, superstar,â heâd say, looking down at you like the universe itself handed him the win. âSomeoneâs gotta keep things interesting.â
âOh, buzz off, farm boy,â youâd snap, rolling your eyes and stomping away.
Your rivalry only got worse from there. You started studying more. You even baked your (evil) history teacher muffins. But the worst part? You couldnât explain why Clark Kent got under your skin the way he did. Maybe it was because he was too perfectâathletic, smart, kind. Suspiciously kind.
Then everything shifted.
It happened late one night when you were closing at The Talon. You were taking the trash out when, out of the corner of your eye, you saw someone messing with Chloeâs carâthe one youâd borrowed.
âHey! Back off!â you called. But if the guy heard you he didnt let it show. So you approached. Stupid, in hindsight, but it wasnât like you were going to just let him steal it. You were inches away when he turned and shoved you against a brick wall.
You kicked, punched, flailed, screamed. You were sure you were doomed when suddenly, the pressure lifted. The weight disappeared. And instead, there were those familiar blue eyes, lit up in the dark like some kind of divine intervention.
Clark.
Without thinking, you threw your arms around him, clinging to him like he was the last solid thing on Earth. But once the adrenaline wore off, you jumped back like he was a live wire. Your brain was filled with questions.
âHow did you get here so fast?â you blurted. âWhat were you doing out here?â
He scratched the back of his neck, looking guilty as hell. âI was⌠getting coffee?â
âHere? At 10 p.m.?â you raised your eyebrows
He offered to drive you home, and you let himâmostly because your legs were shaking, and your eyes were still welling with tears.
But after that night, you couldnât unsee it. The weirdness. The speed. The perfectly timed rescues. The way he caught you that one time before you tripped, like he knew before you did.
You paid attention. Watched. Waited. And when the pieces started coming together, you set a trapâŚ
You invited Clark to the old grain mill. Climbing to the top level, you looked out over the edge, feeling the height in your bones. Clark stood a few feet behind you, confused but curious.
âListen, Clark,â you began, voice steady. âYouâre super fast. Strong. You lift things like they weigh nothing. And youâre always there. Always. Just before something happens.â
His smile dropped. âWhat are you saying?â
âIâm saying youâre different.â
âIâm not,â he said quickly. âIâm just like everyone else.â
You could tell he was lying. The way his jaw clenched. The rehearsed tone. Heâd said this beforeâto someone else, maybe even to himself.
âSo Clark, youâre telling me if I jumped off this building right now, Iâd just fall? Die? And I wouldnât find you at the bottom waiting to catch me?â You raised your brows, fighting a smirk. You knew you had won.Â
âY/N, please donât,â he said, voice suddenly panicked. âI wonât be there. Just come down and Iâll explain, okay? I promise.â
âOkay,I'll come downâ you saidâand jumped.
The wind roared past you, but you barely felt it. A second later, you were weightless in warm, steady arms. When you opened your eyes, you saw hisâblue, wide, terrified.
âOH MY GOD, why would you do that?!â he practically shouted, setting you down.
âI didnât die,â you said, brushing dust off your shoulders. âAnd⌠I proved my theory.â
Clark lookedâpissed. Like, actually mad, you couldn't help but think this was the first time you had seen him angry. âYou did all that⌠for a theory?â
You crossed your arms. âYes. Itâs not like I couldâve just asked you. Because news flashâI tried.â
His jaw clenched. Then his eyes softened.
âI wasnât trying to lie. I just didnât want you to think I was some kind of freak.â
You let out a dry laugh. âClark, you literally have superpowers. âFreakâ isnât the word that comes to mind.â
âReally? Then what is?â
You shrugged. âSpecial, maybe. Or different. Or just⌠heroic.â
He let out a breath of a laugh. âIâm no hero.â
âAre you sure?â you asked. âBecause youâre always trying to save people. That sounds pretty heroic to me. I mean, you have saved me twice now, most guys wouldâve just asked me out by nowâbut youâre out here catching me mid-fall.â
You smiled at him, soft and teasing. He blushed.
âClark?â
âMmhmm?â
âWhen are you going to kiss me?â
You didnât have to wait long.
His hands cupped your face gently, thumbs brushing your cheeks as he leaned in. His lips met yours in a way that was soft and warm and just a little unsure, like he wasnât totally convinced this was real.
But it was real.
One of his hands slid to your waist, pulling you closer as his mouth moved against yours. Your hands found his hair, fingers curling through the soft strands as your heart thudded hard in your chest. When he deepened the kiss, his tongue brushed yours, slow and curious, and you didnât pull awayâyou leaned in, kissing him like youâd been waiting all year for this exact moment.
You both pulled back slowly, a little breathless. His forehead rested against yours, and you caught the tiny, smug smile tugging at his lips.
âWhoâs keeping things interesting now, farm boy?â you whispered.
Summary: You're the smallest one on the team, and you have the compulsive need to prove yourself to Ghost... but have you chewed off more than you can swallow?
Pairing: Simon!Ghost Riley x Fem!Reader 'Bambi'
Warnings: Unspecified age gap, but implied that it's large, Power imbalance (military superior and soldier), DubCon, Degradation, Forcefulness, Smut, Dirty themes, Dirty talk, Dead Dove Do Not Eat, Unsafe use of a gun... Read at your own risk
Wc: 4k
Notes: I have never written cod smut before and I know nothing about military stuff so bare with me, also this is way darker than my previous pieces, just a heads up. I love your notes in the comments so tell me what you think! also note that Bambi is a nickname.
You stretch your arms, extending them in front of your chest, rolling your wrists around. The smell of coffee invades your every senseâon early mornings like these on base, the cheap coffee your superiors buy for the worn down common room is like your own personal brand of cocaine, the only thing that wakes you up after sleeping too little.
The physical aspects of military training are tough. They were almost a deal-breaker for you when you first came here... but over time, they had gotten easier. You had grown to enjoy the burn of a long run or the sting of a cold shower after extensive muscle training. After a while, feeling and seeing the results became almost addictiveâbut that didn't take away from the fact that most days, you were almost too tired to function. Most of the required workouts you were forced to endure were designed for men twice your size, and frankly, you found it a bit sexist. Why couldn't your superior adjust them to fit you better? It would take him a maximum of 20 minutes. You had come to the conclusion that he was a sadistic asshole who enjoyed torturing you every single day with insane workouts.
You hear the coffee drip slowly into the pot. You're too tired to fully open your eyesâeven putting on gear this morning had felt like an impossible task. But here you were, awake (barely), in gear, and ready to start training in a couple of minutes. Finally, after what felt like an eternity, you have the huge coffee mug in your handsâburning hot, probably making the skin beneath it fiery red, but you are too exhausted to care.
You barely have time to swallow your first sip of the steaming, bitter, brown liquid when the door to the common room opens forcefully. Like instinct, you are up and alertâyou can't show weakness here. You're already considered the runt of your entire team, being the youngest and also a woman. You turn around, ready to greet whoever it is with the alertness and determination of a starving fox during winter, hunting for the last rabbit left in the forest.
"Mornin', Bambi." Ghost said, his voice hoarseâbut his manner alert and assertive, like always.
Bambi is your nickname on base, given to you by squadmates the first week you arrived. You liked to think it was because you were pretty like a fawn, but obviously, it was given to you for more degrading purposes. Everyone on your team thought of you as inexperienced, naive, and wide-eyed. But everyone had their own slightly degrading nickname, even your commander, Ghost. His real name was Simon Riley, but he was given the name Ghost because he stood out and had a tendency to move around quietly, like a ghost, not to mention his patent skull hood, a tactic to scare or to hide? No one knew.
"Good morning, sir," You said, trying to sound as awake as possible, waiting for the tension in the room to cool off before taking another careful sip of your coffee.
Ghost walks over to the coffee maker nonchalantly and pours himself a tall cup of coffee. You are surprised that he would even need caffeineâhe's like a machine, inhumanâyou've never seen him show any signs of weakness, and the manner in which he leads the team is brutal. He doesn't care if you're too tired to do push-ups; he will make you do them. Sometimes you consider the possibility that he just has no human emotions, or that he's a robot or something. Regardless of all this, you often find yourself with a compulsive need to make him happy. It's like you have to prove yourself to him constantly. You rarely complain to him about the difficult exercises he puts your team through, although you want to.
You've never been the kind of girl that just sits there quietly and lets everyone walk all over her. Noâyouâre the kind of girl who used to stand up for her friends in elementary school when the boys would pull their hair. You're the kind of girl that couldn't be mistaken for a doormat because you make your opinions known. If you weren't so fiery, you would never make it in the squad. Your squadmates are like brothers to you. You play roughâbut when it comes to Ghost, you find that all your outward confidence just crumbles in his vicinity, and you become this pathetic rookie he can treat however he wants to. Although, you find that the same happens to most of the men on your team. Ghost is eerily calm; he radiates this quiet, overpowering energy, like a psychological horror film. And it makes everyone below him obey his commands like dogs. But it also makes you crave his approval. He never yells at you, but he never praises you eitherâit makes you almost obsessively try to get a reaction out of him with your good work on the exercises.
âWe're doing the shooting range and combat alone today. Don't be late.â                                  And with that, he's out of the door, leaving behind nothing but an empty coffee mug and a slight lingering smell of smoky cologne.
As you stand anxiously at the metal door of the gun range, it's like your body is stopping you from going in. You can feel the harsh cargo pants rubbing against your legs in an annoying manner, and your shirt feels too tight around your armpitsâalso, the coffee you drank did nothing but replace your tiredness with urgent nervousness. You've never trained with Ghost alone, but last week you were sick, so this morning you had to wake up before the sun to play catch-up with him. You are a great shooter, it's in your blood⌠but you have a gnawing feeling that being so close to Ghost will mess with your aim, and you will disappoint him.
You swallow the lump in your throat and force your hand to go up to the door handle. As you push open the heavy door, the lighting inside the gun range is dimâyou can barely make out Ghost's silhouette, standing near the guns. You step inside carefully, as if you need to be quiet. But the gun range was far from housing; it stood alone on the other side of the base, with only woods surrounding itâyou're also pretty sure it's soundproof, but not entirely sure. The range smells like mold and gunpowder, it's oddly comforting.
âAre you just going to stand there or come in?â                    Ghost says in a low voice, sounding indifferentâbut nonetheless intimidating. You make your way inside and close the door behind you.
âLock it.â                                                      He commands, not even trying to phrase it as a question, just a blunt order. You feel a little confused as to why he would want you to lock the door, but alas, you twist the lock until it clicks, and walk over to Ghost wearily.
âNo lights?â                                                    You ask, trying to calm your nerves by talking, your hands finding the hem of your shirt and fidgeting with it.
âBurnt fuse. I expect you have no trouble shooting in the dark, rookie?â         He saysâit sounds like a snarky remark. You're annoyed at his tone. Obviously, you find it hard to shoot in the darkâbut you can't tell him that. He'd paint you as weak and incapable.
âNo problem.â You gear up, putting on hearing protectors and safety goggles. You take a gun, a simple, sleek Beretta 91, and you point it at the cardboard target ahead, waiting for Ghost to give you the okay to shoot. You are faced with silence. As you turn to look at Ghost, you see him standing next to you with a wide stance, his arms crossed over his chest, the sleeves of his black t-shirt tightening and showing off his muscles. He stares you down intensely.
âWhat are you doing wrong?â He asks, sounding annoyed, like you should know all this by nowâalthough you haven't even trained shooting much.
âIâI don't know.â You hesitate, checking that the gun safety is off, your gear is on, and that you're facing the right wayâyou look at Ghost, confused.
âYour stance is all wrong, Bambi.â Without giving you a second to react, he moves behind you and guides your hands to the correct position. He kicks your legs farther apart and taps your thigh to signal you to move your foot slightly to the left. The gesture has nothing inherently sexual to it, but it makes a knot start to form in your lower stomach.
Ghost isn't a bad-looking man, or at least his body isn'tâno one on your team has ever seen his face. He hides behind his signature skull balaclava daily, only revealing his dark brown eyes, and you presume he only takes it off to sleep and shower⌠if then. He has the type of body that any respectable captain would be expected to haveâhe's all muscle and mass. Not only that, but he's tall and broad, and if he was anyone else, you'd be trying to flirt with him every time you saw him⌠but even attempting to flirt with a higher-up is highly frowned upon hereâyou would both get fired. Also, it's not so difficult to push aside your feelings for someone who makes you train until failure every single day and rules your unit with an iron fist.
âShoot.â Ghost orders, keeping his hold on your upper arms, directing the gun to hit the target right in the chest. He's standing so close to you that you can feel the heat radiating off himâhe towers over you, and being caged in his hold like this sort of makes you feel safe. The feeling doesn't last long when he removes his hands from yours and steps back, resuming his position as the judgy officer watching you train intently.
âNow try it by yourself. Less than seven points, and you get punished.â He says, his voice dark and determined. He looks at you through narrow eyes, and his stance remains official and intimidating. It's not even his worst requestâlast night, he punished your fellow teammate with 100 push-ups for laughing during training. If he made you do that many push-ups right now, you would probably collapseâyou needed to get this.
With nervous, shaky hands, you point the barrel of the pistol the same way as last time, you gather all your courage, only able to think of one thingâ one hundred push-ups, before sunrise. Or maybe he'll make you do something worse, 200 burpees⌠150 pull-ups. You shake off the distracting thoughts and by some miracle, you pull the trigger-- the bullet hits the very corner of the cardboard target, and you visibly cringe at the sight. You got zero points⌠you curse yourself in your mind, how could you be this bad, now he's going to make you do so many push-ups. Slowly, you turn to look at Ghostâ he doesn't look disappointed, his position remains calm and collected, and that's what scares you the most.
âGet on your knees.â He says, darkly, you think it's a joke at first, but his eyes remain serious. Your eyes widen as you try to process the words that just came out of his mouth.
âNow.â He adds, when you don't move. Maybe it's just your dirty mind⌠maybe he meant nothing crude with it, maybe it's a new form of punishment in your squad. So you put the gun down on the cold metal desk, and slowly, anxiously, you start to lower yourself onto your knees. Ghost remains cool, his gaze following yours, as you fall lower and lower, until your knees hit the ground. He takes a couple of steps closer to you, forcing you to be face to face with his crotch. He picks up the gun from the desk, and your mouth goes dry when you try to focus, to hear the safety click on, but it never does. He crouches down slightly, and brings the barrel to your chin, lifting your chin up, and straining your neck as you're forced to look up at him.
âDo you think I haven't noticed the way you look at me when I teach combat?â He asks, his voice remaining low and calm. You're shaking, with nervousness or anticipationâ you're not entirely sure.
âIâ â You begin your sentence, but are quick to notice that no other words are coming outâ you wonder what he'll do to you⌠he might send you home, or hurt you.
âI know all the others think you're this naive little Bambi, but I see through thatâ you're a fucking slut.â He puts emphasis on the word slut, and the contrast between his collected voice, and the crude words, makes the knot in your lower stomach tighten, and worsens the heat between your thighs.
âAnd you think I don't hear you in the common room, complaining to the others about my training methodsâit's like you're begging to be put in your place.â
âI haven't sai-â You begin frantically explaining, but quickly stop as he hits the gun against your chin, a clear sign to remind you who's in control.
âI suggest you shut the fuck up.â He stares into your eyes with the intensity of a hungry wolf. You expect that sort of raw intensity from him, but you are never prepared for it. You can see the conflict in his mind, in his eyesâyou can almost feel what he's thinking. Furthermore, you can sense the war going on in his head; you are fighting the exact same one in yours.
âYou knowâin war, the good people get eaten.â He starts, enigmatically.
âWhat do you mean?â
âYou know what happens to the smart people?â He asks, almost expecting you to give the wrong answer, his demeanor remaining slightly degrading.
âThey survive?â You ask, unsure of what he's trying to say.
âThey go bad.â
You look at him, confused. His words sound almost apocalyptic. You're trying to figure out what he means by them⌠does he mean that he's gone bad? Maybe that you should go bad? What does going bad even mean?
âWhich one are you, little Bambi?â
âSmart.â
âWrong answer.â He throws the gun on the floor, the safety remaining off, but you have no time to think about gun safety right nowâ as he begins to forcefully unbuckle his black, leather belt, you can't help but feel all your senses heightened, intensely pumping through your body. You can feel the heat rising up your chest, over your throat, into your cheeks and ears, turning them undoubtably red. You can hear the broken clock on the wall tick sporadically, in a completely unorganized manner. The sound of his belt buckle flying open almost hurts your ears. You imagine this is what rabbits feel, in that small window of time, right before they get eaten, when they feel the fox's eyes on them, lurking somewhere in the dangerous night. You look up into his eyes, pleading with your gaze, but you are met with a look that could almost be mixed up with sympathy. He looks like a disappointed teacher, handing you a test with a failed grade, knowing that he's the one who failed you, but displays a fake, degrading sympathy in his eyes.
He takes his cock out of his black cargo pants, it looks almost intimidating. You can't see his mouth, but you swear he's smiling a sadistic smile under his mask. He wraps his big, warm hand, into your hair, where your occiput meets the back of your neck, and he pulls your head backâ the motion stings, but it brings your attention to him, away from your thoughts. When he sees you've returned from inside your head, to the current moment, he pushes your head forward. Instinctively, you open your mouth, almost inviting him inâ he stuffs his rock-hard cock into your mouth, with little regard for your feelings.
âSee, you're too good for war, Bambi.â He remarks, his voice soft, you can feel the patronizing tone pierce through you and hit the warm spot between your legs like lighting. You try to answer him, but your mouth lets out a small, pathetic moan, as he pushes himself further into your throat, making your eyes tear up.
âA smart girl would've never come into a dark shooting range with a dangerous man. You're too good, and you're too dumbâ that's why you get eaten alive.â His words remain condescending, degrading, but his voice keeps a calm, soft tone, which contrary to what you'd hope it would do, turns you on like nothing you've ever experienced before.
Finally, he pulls you off his cock. You gasp for air, confused as to why he would stop before he finishedâ but it gives you an eerie sensation that there's more to come. And while you wish you could hate this, while you wish you could call him an absolute creep and report him to someone⌠you were smart. You had come into this dark room with this dangerous man, with full awareness and a calculated plan. You saw how he looked at your pleading eyes when he made you train until failure. Furthermore, you saw the bulge in his pants when in late night combat sessions he got you under him, and you looked like a scared rabbit. When you started in his unit, a while agoâ you gathered that the best way to survive, was to play into the naive role, in reality, you were exceptionally smart, top of your class. But they didn't need to know that. Every single time Ghost talked down on you, you felt like you had the control, you'd made the decision to act dumb, to get him to lose control ever so slightly, because he gave into his anger.
Much to your avail, he turns around, going to fetch something out of the gun range closet. Dumb move, because when he was turned away from you, you grabbed the gun off the floor, making a quick, uncalculated move. As he turns around, he sees you nowhere, despite being a tough military officer, he feels a slight eeriness about not seeing you⌠like in horror movies, when the innocent kid starts acting odd and eventually kills everyone. He stands still, looking around the pitch black room as best as he can, until he feels the cold nozzle of a pistol on his mid back. He turns to face you, with a blank expression, and you see the rope in his hands.
âThe smart people go bad, no?â You smile a wicked grin, you have the control now⌠and you want him to know it.
âDrop the rope and get on the floor.â
You thought he'd resist, that he'd fight the gun off your handsâ but he just lays down on the cold concrete, and supports his head on his hands, and smiles at you, a smile proposing a challenge. You keep the gun in your hand, as you make your way on top of him, straddling him.
âWhat's your big, smart plan now, Bambi?â He says, with an annoying amount of confidence painting his words.
You bend down on top of him, and push your lips against his, like you want to devour him. His lips feel surprisingly soft, and you can still taste the faint residue of coffee and cigarettes on his tongue. He doesn't fight for dominance, instead, he sort of submits to the kiss, letting you take the lead. You feel like you've won the game, until his hips come crashing into yours, his bulge pressing against your most sensitive spot. Your mouth opens and leaves his ever so slightly, and you don't notice the gun falling out of your hand. With the newly gained advantage, Ghost pushes his tongue into your mouth, starting the long overdue war for dominance. You try to fight it, trying to gain back the small amount of control you craveâ but he turns you around with ease, until he has you on your back. He's straddling you with knees on both sides of you, and his hands holding your arms tightly on both sides of your head. You're trapped again.
He doesn't waste time taunting you, he's done playing the game. Hastily, his hands leave their bruising grip on your wrists and find the button of your pants. He moves quickly and removes your pants with a sense of urgencyâ you don't try to stop him, you leave your hands laying where he's been holding them, and you let him remove your pants, and then your underwear. His finger finds a spot very close to your most sensitive one, but it doesn't hit the spot you need it to. He continues this torture for a while, until he stops completely and looks at you.
âNo attempts to stop this? No fighting?â He questions. You never took him for this clueless. You move your hand to his, and grab it, bringing his entire hand to your throbbing center, and forcing him to please you. With a breathy voice, you say.
âJust shut the fuck up and fuck me.â
He doesn't need another word from you, as he spreads your thighs open with force, and pushes himself into youâ giving you no time to get used to his size. With no warning, he starts pumping into you relentlessly, keeping up a torturous pace you thought was only possible in porn. When you open your mouth slightly, to complain or to moan, you're not sure. He stops you, wrapping his veiny hand around your throat, in an attempt to show you who's actually in control. It only makes you wetter, you like having him so desperate for control, that he would choke his own soldierâ you think it only makes him seem weaker. When he loses himself like this, it's you that gains the upper hand.
âYou're never telling anyone about this.â He says, through desperate pants. His hand on your throat tightens ever so slightly.
âWouldn't want you to get fired, perv.â You shoot him a snarky remark, trying to sound confidentâ but the whimpers in between every word make you sound more like a pathetic adolescent. His lips latch onto your neck, biting it so intensely, his sharp canine teeth pull a little blood. You love the contrast between pain and pleasure, and feel your orgasm building up. He can feel it too.
âTry to make a smart comment now, I dare you.â He bullies, and you try to say something smart, or just something, anythingâ but what comes out of your mouth is a deep guttural, animalistic moan, as your orgasm washes over you.
He begins to laugh in a low tone, in between groans, as he pulls out of you, and releases his cum onto your lower stomach. It would feel degrading and dehumanizing, if you weren't just fucked out of your mind. With a weak, breathy voice, you manage to say.
Youâd just moved into your cousin Chloeâs townhouse to finish high school, and as much as you didnât exactly dream of a town where cows outnumber people, you tried to stay positive. You kept your head down, focused on school, and did your own thingâvarsity sports, a 4.0 GPA, and a part-time job at The Talon.
But no matter how much you tried to do your own thing, Chloeâs friend group kind of swallowed you whole. Which wouldâve been fine⌠if it werenât for him.
Clark Kent.
Chloeâs annoying, snarky, do-gooder best friend. You couldnât stand him, as a matter of fact you despised him. And you were pretty sure the feeling was mutual. It wasnât just the fake boy-next-door act either. It was how he always had to compete with you.
You were used to being the best. The smartest. The fastest. The one teachers praised and students envied. But then came Clark, all tall and humble with his stupid blue eyes and casual perfection. If you got the highest grade in the class on a math test? Clark beat your scoreâin another period. You crushed the fitness exam in P.E.? Clark doubled your reps and didn't even break a sweat.
âSorry I beat your score, superstar,â heâd say, looking down at you like the universe itself handed him the win. âSomeoneâs gotta keep things interesting.â
âOh, buzz off, farm boy,â youâd snap, rolling your eyes and stomping away.
Your rivalry only got worse from there. You started studying more. You even baked your (evil) history teacher muffins. But the worst part? You couldnât explain why Clark Kent got under your skin the way he did. Maybe it was because he was too perfectâathletic, smart, kind. Suspiciously kind.
Then everything shifted.
It happened late one night when you were closing at The Talon. You were taking the trash out when, out of the corner of your eye, you saw someone messing with Chloeâs carâthe one youâd borrowed.
âHey! Back off!â you called. But if the guy heard you he didnt let it show. So you approached. Stupid, in hindsight, but it wasnât like you were going to just let him steal it. You were inches away when he turned and shoved you against a brick wall.
You kicked, punched, flailed, screamed. You were sure you were doomed when suddenly, the pressure lifted. The weight disappeared. And instead, there were those familiar blue eyes, lit up in the dark like some kind of divine intervention.
Clark.
Without thinking, you threw your arms around him, clinging to him like he was the last solid thing on Earth. But once the adrenaline wore off, you jumped back like he was a live wire. Your brain was filled with questions.
âHow did you get here so fast?â you blurted. âWhat were you doing out here?â
He scratched the back of his neck, looking guilty as hell. âI was⌠getting coffee?â
âHere? At 10 p.m.?â you raised your eyebrows
He offered to drive you home, and you let himâmostly because your legs were shaking, and your eyes were still welling with tears.
But after that night, you couldnât unsee it. The weirdness. The speed. The perfectly timed rescues. The way he caught you that one time before you tripped, like he knew before you did.
You paid attention. Watched. Waited. And when the pieces started coming together, you set a trapâŚ
You invited Clark to the old grain mill. Climbing to the top level, you looked out over the edge, feeling the height in your bones. Clark stood a few feet behind you, confused but curious.
âListen, Clark,â you began, voice steady. âYouâre super fast. Strong. You lift things like they weigh nothing. And youâre always there. Always. Just before something happens.â
His smile dropped. âWhat are you saying?â
âIâm saying youâre different.â
âIâm not,â he said quickly. âIâm just like everyone else.â
You could tell he was lying. The way his jaw clenched. The rehearsed tone. Heâd said this beforeâto someone else, maybe even to himself.
âSo Clark, youâre telling me if I jumped off this building right now, Iâd just fall? Die? And I wouldnât find you at the bottom waiting to catch me?â You raised your brows, fighting a smirk. You knew you had won.Â
âY/N, please donât,â he said, voice suddenly panicked. âI wonât be there. Just come down and Iâll explain, okay? I promise.â
âOkay,I'll come downâ you saidâand jumped.
The wind roared past you, but you barely felt it. A second later, you were weightless in warm, steady arms. When you opened your eyes, you saw hisâblue, wide, terrified.
âOH MY GOD, why would you do that?!â he practically shouted, setting you down.
âI didnât die,â you said, brushing dust off your shoulders. âAnd⌠I proved my theory.â
Clark lookedâpissed. Like, actually mad, you couldn't help but think this was the first time you had seen him angry. âYou did all that⌠for a theory?â
You crossed your arms. âYes. Itâs not like I couldâve just asked you. Because news flashâI tried.â
His jaw clenched. Then his eyes softened.
âI wasnât trying to lie. I just didnât want you to think I was some kind of freak.â
You let out a dry laugh. âClark, you literally have superpowers. âFreakâ isnât the word that comes to mind.â
âReally? Then what is?â
You shrugged. âSpecial, maybe. Or different. Or just⌠heroic.â
He let out a breath of a laugh. âIâm no hero.â
âAre you sure?â you asked. âBecause youâre always trying to save people. That sounds pretty heroic to me. I mean, you have saved me twice now, most guys wouldâve just asked me out by nowâbut youâre out here catching me mid-fall.â
You smiled at him, soft and teasing. He blushed.
âClark?â
âMmhmm?â
âWhen are you going to kiss me?â
You didnât have to wait long.
His hands cupped your face gently, thumbs brushing your cheeks as he leaned in. His lips met yours in a way that was soft and warm and just a little unsure, like he wasnât totally convinced this was real.
But it was real.
One of his hands slid to your waist, pulling you closer as his mouth moved against yours. Your hands found his hair, fingers curling through the soft strands as your heart thudded hard in your chest. When he deepened the kiss, his tongue brushed yours, slow and curious, and you didnât pull awayâyou leaned in, kissing him like youâd been waiting all year for this exact moment.
You both pulled back slowly, a little breathless. His forehead rested against yours, and you caught the tiny, smug smile tugging at his lips.
âWhoâs keeping things interesting now, farm boy?â you whispered.
hey y'all this is my first one shot, and I am kind nervous, but I just watched euphoria and thought this would be a good fic idea y/n goes to fez's house and gets drugged by mouse instead of rue leading to a steamy confession
You knock on your best friend Fezco's door. "Fez, open up! It's pouring out here!"
The door cracks open a moment later. "Y/N, you really shouldn't be here."
"Too bad, I'm starving," you reply,making a beeline for the kitchen. You grab your favorite chipst.
"Nah, Y/N, I'm serious. You gotta get the fuck up out my house," Fez insists.
"Man stop stressin," you reply, plopping down on his couch and flipping through the TV channels.
"My supplier's bout to swing by, and I don't want you here when he does," Fez explains, growing more tense.
"I'm hungry," you repeat, munching on another chip.
"Then take the fucking chips with you," he grumbles.
"You're being hella rude today, butâ" Before you can finish, Fez's phone rings, breaking the tense silence.
After a long pause, Fezco shakes his head. "I could fucking kill you right now."
Fez heads to the door as you turn off the TV. A tall, tattooed guy, way taller and bulkier than you expected, steps in behind Fez.Â
"Well, shit, I didn't know your bitch would be here," he says, eyeing you.
"Nah, man, she's just a friend," Fez replies, taking a seat across from you.
"Well, hello there," the guy kneels in front of you, extending his hand. "I'm Mouse. Pleasure to meet you."
"Um, hi," you mutter, cautiously shaking his hand. His intense gaze makes you uneasy, like you want to crawl out of your skin.
he says, he stands up and unpacks his bag and starts describing its contents.
"Sure you don't want any fentanyl?"Â
âNah man im cool too many ODsâ fez saysÂ
âHow bout you little lady want any fent?âMouse asks, looking at you.
"No," you reply firmly.
"Nah, man, she's cool," Fez interjects. You've never used drugs before (besides vaping once), and you certainly don't want to start with something as dangerous as fentanyl.
"You gonna let him speak for you?âyou look to fez for help âlook at me when i talk to you." Mouse demands. He grabs your chin, playing with your hair.
"Have you ever tried it?" he whispers into your ear. You shake your head, speechless.
"No, for real, bro, I don't want her messing with that shit," Fez asserts, his voice steady but tense.
"Don't look at him. Look at me," Mouse insists, grabbing your chin and staring into your eyes. "Ever tried anything?"
You remain silent, unsure how to respond.
"No, seriously, man, she's good," Fez tries to defuse the tension, but Mouse isn't done.
"You know that feeling when you come so hard you can't hear or feel shit?" Mouse whispers, leaning in close. You freeze, feeling the point of his knife against your glossed lips.
You pray silently. You can't believe you're about to die. But you glance at Fez and open your mouth.
The drug hits you fast. In less than a minute, you're numb, barely able to sense anything. You lie down on the couch, eyes barely open.
"You like that?" Mouse asks, placing your legs on his lap.
"Uh-huh," you mumble.
"Wanna try more?" Mouse offers, leaving light touches on your thighs.
"No, man, she doesn't want any more," Fez says, struggling to keep his voice calm, hiding his growing anger.
"I-I want more," you slur, wanting to feel like this forever. Mouse places patches in your shorts' waistband, his hands lingering on your hips.
"That'll cost you three hundred," Mouse says.
"I'm broke," you manage to say.
"That's too bad. Guess you'll have to find another way to pay," Mouse says, his hand creeping toward your hips.
"Man, don't make her do that. I'll pay for her," Fez interjects.
"Nah, thought you were too good for fent," Mouse retorts. Fez grabs the gun, but ultimately decides against using it. That's the last thing you remember before drifting off.
When you wake up, Mouse is long gone, and Fez is nowhere to be found. You're in Fez's room, wearing one of his sweaters. You get out of bed and head to the kitchen, where Fez is eating cereal.
"I'm sorry," you say, barely holding back tears. Fez turns around.
"No, no, don't apologize. It's my fault. I should've had you wait in another room or just fucking shot him," he says, seeing your quivering lips. He pulls you into a hug.
"That was so scary," you admit, barely keeping it together.
"I know, ma," Fez consoles you.
"I thought I was going to die," you confess.
"It's okay. You're here now, and you're safe," Fez assures you, pulling away to look into your eyes.
"I won't let him hurt you again," Fez vows.
"I know," you whisper.
When you thought you were going to die, there wasn't much you regret. You love your family. You're on good terms with almost everyone. But you had never been in love before. You always thought you and Fez would end up together, and it was only a matter of time. But life isn't guaranteed. Tomorrow might not happen. And the next time you almost die, you don't want it to be without kissing Fezco O'Neil.
You look into Fezco's blue eyes. Without thinking, you ask, "Will you kiss me?"
Fez's blue eyes widen, but he doesn't hesitate. His lips touch yours, lingering for a moment longer than necessary. You look up at him, then at his lips.
"Do it again," you demand.
This time, Fez doesn't wait for you to finish your sentence. He kisses you fiercely. The kiss, sweet and hesitant before, is now intense and passionate. Teeth clash, and tongues wrestle as you try to get as close as possible. His strong hands wrap around your waist, and your arms tighten around his neck. You step closer, until every inch of your body presses against his. He lifts you up, and you wrap your legs around his waist. He moves one of your hands from your waist to your neck, pressing a little harder. You let out a small gasp, pulling his face back into yours and kissing him harder. Your hands meet behind his neck, and unexpectedly, he bites your lip and looks into your eyes. You let out a whimper, but your phone dings.
"I need to get that. It's probably my mom," you sigh, disappointed that the moment is over.
"Yeah, of course," Fez says, setting you back on the ground. You look at the message from your mom, telling you to let her know if you're going to stay overnight at Maddie's house and come home.
"I'm so sorry. I have to go," you apologize.
"Okay, let me walk you out."
When you two reach the door, Fez speaks up. "Listen, I really like you. I want this to happen again. Can we do this again but not just like hooking up and shit? I want it all."
"Are you asking me to be your girlfriend, Fezco?" you ask, smiling.
"I mean, I guess, if you want to be," Fezco says, looking down and fiddling with his hands.
"Of course," you say, standing on your tiptoes to kiss him.
"See you tomorrow."
"Bye, Y/N," he says, watching you walk away, the ghost of your kiss lingering on his lips.
Explaining why you and Fezco had broken up was hard. You two had been arguing more and making up less. Your family hated him, and every other girl seemed to want him. In the end, it was Fezco who ended things beacuse in his words you were âfucking crazy.â
For the past couple of weeks, youâd been in shambles. Tonight, though, was supposed to be the last time youâd sit around feeling sorry for yourself. As your best friend Maddy said, âThe best way to get over a man is to get under a new one.â So, thatâs how you ended up at some random party, desperately pulling down the skirt you borrowed from Maddy. You two had promised to stay close, but you lost her while taking your third shot of straight vodka.
You reached the best stage of tipsinessâwhere the self-conscious voices in your head quieted, but you were still aware enough to avoid doing something you would regret tomorrow. You walked out to the center of the room, swaying to the music. You stayed like that for a while until, out of the corner of your eye, you saw Maddy leaving with some guy. Without thinking, you followed her to remind her that you two were supposed to stick together.
As you approached the door, some drunk girl collided with you, her body weight sending you sprawling. Your oversized platforms tripping you up, and before you could brace yourself, you hit the floor hard. The impact jarred your teeth, and a sharp pain shot through your palms as you tried to catch yourself.Â
The room seemed to freeze for a moment, and the music felt distant. You lay there, face-down, as a hush fell over the crowd. Whispers and snickers spread through the onlookers. You could feel the heat rising in your throat.
Yeah, this night was the worst.
You got up quickly and stumbled into the kitchen, taking another shot or two or three. You had lost count now. Someone tapped you on the shoulder. You turned around to see a guy you recognized from either your English or Geometry class,your brain was too foggy to know and to be honest you didn't care.
âHey, do you want to dance?â he asked.
âYeah, why not,â you slurred.
He led you to the dance floor, his hands on your waist but creeping lower. You started dancing, feeling him press against you. You turned back and giggled, but he kept his grip too low. When a slower song came on, he began grinding into you and kissing your neck. You stood there, trying to avoid making things awkward but wanting him to stop. Finally, the song ended, and he whispered in your ear, âWanna go upstairs?â
âOh, um, Iâm good. Iâm not really in the moodââ
âItâs fine, letâs just go,â he insisted, grabbing your wrist and heading for the stairs.
âNo, I really donât want to,â you said, pulling your hand back.
âWhatever, bitch,â he said, walking away.
Now you felt even worse. You stumbled to a couch, fished your phone out of your purse, and did the unthinkable:
 you called your ex.
He answered on the second ring. âHello? Y/N?â
âFezzy,â you slurred.
He sighed. âAre you drunk?â
âMm-hmm,â you began to cry. âI was at this party with Maddy to get over you, but she left, and this guy kept touching me. Then he called me a bitch.â
âwho?,â he asked.
âFezzy,that doesn't matter, just please come pick me up. Iâm sorry, and I still love you!â you cried, hiccups interrupting your sobs.
âIâll be there in five.â
When Fezco arrived, you were sitting on the couch, hugging your knees. You stood up as he walked in, and his eyes widened. Despite your mascara-streaked cheeks and unruly hair, he hadnât seen you in weeks, and somehow, you looked even prettier.
âCome on, baby, letâs get you home.â
âOkay,â you sniffled, heading for the door. The guy from earlier spotted you.
âSlut,â he muttered under his breath. You tried to ignore him, but Fez didnât.
âYou want to say that again, punk?â Fezco said, sizing him up.
âYeah,â the drunk boy repeated. âThat girl is a fucking whore.â Before the words had fully left his mouth a punch landed with a sickening crack, snapping the boyâs head to the side. The crowd gasped collectively, and the boy stumbled but Fezco wasn't done He followed up with a series of brutal, relentless blows
You tried to intervene, your voice broke with desperation âFez! Fezco! Stop, he isnât worth it! Fezco, stop!âÂ
Fez stood up and dusted himself off. âLetâs go,â he said, his tone leaving no room for argument.
You woke up on Fezcoâs couch in yesterdayâs outfitâshoes and allâwith a pounding headache and a parched tongue.
âUghhh,â you groaned, sitting up to take the aspirin Fezco had set aside for you.
âThat bad, huh?â Fezco asked from the kitchen.
âYeah, I feel like I just got hit by a truck.â
âYou want some waffles?â Fezco asked, gesturing to a box of frozen waffles by the toaster.
âNo, I should probably get going,â you said, turning for the door.
âReally, Y/N? Youâre just going to leave after what you said yesterday!?â
âWhat did I say?â you asked, playing dumb.
âThat you still fucking loved me!â he shouted, exasperated.
âWell, I donât, Fezco. I was drunk and upset!â you yelled back.
âThatâs bullshit. Just tell the truth!â
âWhy the hell should I? Just so you can break my heart again!â
âNo, because I was fucking wrong. Damn it, why do you make it so hard to say shit? I was wrong, okay? I shouldnât have broken up with you,â he shouted, raising his hands in frustration.
âThen why the hell did you?â
âOh my god, Y/N, just stop.â
Without warning, his hands were on you, grabbing your face roughly. His lips crashed into yours with a force that stole your breath away. It wasnât a gentle kiss; it was full of anger and need. He tangled his fingers in your hair and pulled you closer. His hands moved from your face to your waist, pulling your body flush against his. The contact sent a shockwave through you, and you arched into him, deepening the kiss. Your tongues clashed, each of you fighting for dominance, the taste of him mingling with the metallic hint of blood from where youâd bitten your lip.
He pushed you back against the wall, the force making a picture frame rattle. His grip tightened on your hips, fingers digging into your skin in a way that was almost painful but only fueled the fire inside you. You bit his lower lip, tugging at it, and he groaned into your mouth, the sound sending shivers down your spine.
Your hands slid down his back, feeling the muscles tense beneath your touch. You tugged at his shirt, needing to feel more of him, to erase the distance between you. He helped you, pulling it over his head and tossing it aside.
He lifted you, your legs wrapping around his waist instinctively, and carried you to the couch. He trailed his lips down your neck, leaving a trail of fire in their wake. You moaned and tilted your head back, giving him better access, your breath coming in ragged gasps. His mouth never left your skin, trailing kisses across your collarbone, down to the hollow of your throat. Each touch was electrifying, sending waves of heat coursing through you.
Your hands found their way to his back, nails digging into his skin, you heard a groan from deep within his chest. The sound vibrated through you, making your pulse race even faster. He shifted, his lips brushing against the sensitive skin just below your ear, and you could feel his breath, hot and ragged, against your neck.
âWait,â you said, pulling away.
âWhatâs wrong?â he asked.
âNothingâwell, um, what does this mean for us?â
âI donât know. What do you want it to mean?â Fezco asked.
âI don't know, I just don't want to get hurt againâ
âI won't hurt you again, I promise babyâ
You stared at Fezco, the weight of his promise hanging in the air between you. For a moment, everything else fadedâthe pounding headache, the throbbing pain from the previous night. It was just the two of you, raw and exposed.
âI love you, baby,â you admitted.
âI love you more,â Fezco said, wrapping his arms around you, and everything felt right.Â
You didnât care that he was a dealer and you had never even gotten a speeding ticket. You didnât care that he was 20 and you were in high school. All that mattered was that he loved you and you loved him. That was enough. As you lay there together, tangled up in each other, you couldnât help but feel hopeful that things would work out this time.
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