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175 lbs -> 195 lbs -> 220 lbs

When a craving hits, it doesn’t feel like a simple want… it feels like I need to eat. I’ll tell myself I’m just grabbing a small snack, but I already know how it’s going to end. One thing turns into five. A normal meal turns into a stuffing session. I keep going long after I’ve stopped enjoying it because for some reason being completely stuffed feels like the only way my brain finally goes quiet.

There are nights when I eat until I can barely move. My stomach is stretched tight, I’m uncomfortable, and I know I crossed the line a long time ago. But even then, there’s a strange sense of relief. It’s almost like I’ve finally given my brain what it’s been demanding all day. For a little while, everything else fades into the background.

That’s the part that turns me on so much… It’s not about being hungry. It’s about chasing a feeling. The relief is temporary, and before long the thoughts start creeping back in again. What am I going to eat tomorrow? What’s my next craving? How can I get that feeling back?

It’s always one more meal… One more order. One more snack. One more bite. And even when I know it won’t, I still find myself listening.

It’s exhausting to know something has that much control over your thoughts. Every day feels like a tug-of-war between wanting to take that control back and wanting the comfort that only food seems to bring.

feeding my wingstop addiction

Thinking of what to stuff myself up with atp!

it feels yummy being this big I promise.🐷😙

I know you love a comparison just as much as I do. these were 1 year apart on OF.