You have found me at a very weird time in my life. I'm back here after leaving Tumblr in my 20s, attempting to live an adult life and basically ruining everything pretty catastrophically. I grew up in extraordinarily fucked up circumstances that turned me into a severely neurotic, obsessive compulsive agoraphobic mess and most of my life has been about trying to recover from my tragic backstory. I made this because I need somewhere to express myself honestly and openly, something I haven't really been able to do for most of my life either through abuse or repression. I'm trying to start my life over, or something like that. I'm also trying to deconstruct from my years long adherence to transfeminism, gender ideology, being "nonbinary" and the damage its done to me. As well, after years and years of denial I am finally coming to accept the likelihood that I have (traumagenic, not TikTok style) dissociative identity disorder. Because of this I might sometimes post contradictory thoughts and ideas, that usually indicates I am working something out with a part of me that I don't have regular access to. If you'd like to learn more about OSDD/DID I strongly encourage you to read the most recently available research, there are a tremendous amount of misconceptions about it and the reality of the disorder has almost no resemblance to the media depiction. https://did-research.org/did/myths https://did-research.org/controversy/international https://did-research.org/origin/structural_dissociation/
I'm a white bi woman from the American south, currently het-partnered, 7 years in recovery from alcoholism, trying to get out of the (digital) "sex work" industry. I'm in my early 30s and a humongous dork for history, geopolitics, political theory (still learning though), astronomy, physics, psychology, animal biology, and practically any kind of art but especially film, music, writing, painting and photography. Ask me anything you'd like about any of this stuff, I'm pretty friendly! If you reply to my posts or send me a message, thank you! It might take me a little while to respond because a lot of the time the parts of me that are posting are not the same ones who are capable of interacting with other people, or they just don't bother checking notifications at all. Just give me a bit and I'll usually get back to you. I try to tag for triggering content but I'm not always great at it, so follow at your own risk. Radfems, cryptos, detransitioners, communists, non-communists, haters, those on the fence, all are welcome except males. I have to deal with yall enough in real life, leave me alone here. If you're crypto/questioning/a TRA and you have questions or want to vent, my inbox is always open to you. If you follow me but you don't post any radfem content I probably won't follow you back just because I will forget and reply to/reblog your stuff and I don't want to out you, but you are more than welcome here, too. all personal posts - deconstruction diary - DID posts - misc thoughts - art
