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i say all this to say that when people think as though upon 'realization' life becomes boring, you have to become a monk on a hill, or adopt a nihilistic point of view, while possibly understandable at first, it now gives me pause. no one in this space is telling you to do any of that, that's not the point. i even sometimes think that trying so hard to cease and "reject" these seeming things "because suddenly now it's not real" reinforces duality more often than not where there is not, reintroduces seriousness. it, like most other things, is simply not necessary. it's all just a play of awareness, it's all self, why go out of your way to seemingly reject it.

i like to think about it using this analogy. people who seemingly lucid dream take the dream as illusory and yet still seem to experience them the way they do anyway because they can, because it's fun, because they enjoy it. it doesn't have to be serious, it being an illusion doesn't negate that for them. it's the same for everything else. it's not boring, bleak or somber just because they're aware it's a dream, in contrast it's actually quite freeing. as i've seen often in some of ko's older posts that's stuck with me: "enjoy your dream now." it's all fine, do that if that's what you wish to do.

See that “inside vs outside” is merely a slippery interpretation with no stability. See that even “experientially” there is nothing with staying power. You move around, perspectives of “spaces” constantly shift, the body and mind are a flurry of thought/sensations like a trillion lights going on and off infinitely. No solidity.

How could any of this be actual? How can we ever be certain of continuity when nothing is ever the same? In turn, where is the solid continuous person that could ever be certain of anything? It’s stunningly clear when you simply notice…nothing is ever continous or actually here in an ontological way…nothing is ever an actual “feature of reality”

Posts related to Nd but definitely not dismissing desires 🥺

There is nothing much to post about it, but I'll just say this;

Every experience is immediate. Right now is the only moment that ever was, ever will be. Manifestation is a non event because nothing was ever lacking, both are just ideas arising in the present. The deeper you investigate, the more you'll notice that you cannot tell what it is that you call "wanting", you cannot tell what it is that you call "fulfilment", you think you do but it's just that, a THOUGHT. An idea. And when you say that you "don't have" what you want, that's also just a thought that you're experiencing immediately. It's very difficult to talk about something that's completely experiential, but I hope I'm getting my point across. This is freedom already, you can experience all that you want right HERE. NOW. You decide whether it is what you call wanting, waiting, or something else :)) it's so simple, it's ridiculous really. Don't make it too hard, you are the source, infinitely experiencing itself, remember who you are <33

All is just effortlessly unfolding, label-less experiencing. You label it as something you don't want, you declare your imagination as something you DO WANT, immediately experiencing "lack" (an idea). There is no difference between imagination, dreaming, daydreaming, reality, Every experience is immediate and it's YOU who decide what to make of it, you decide what you experience :))

Here's a concise and much better said piece by NIF:

Everything is Knowing; the Self— A non dual perspective.

Before I begin, I heavily implore new readers and those who might come across this by chance to leave your preconceptions of what non duality is for the time in which you read this and keep the most open mind. Non duality is not a practice neither is it a law nor a religion, it is nothing new— in fact it is so ancient to our infinite Being that we willingly chose to forget the truth of Reality. Whether you choose to believe it or not, Everything is non-dual.

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If you closely examine into your current experience, the one you have and observe right now of what is going on and who you are, you would notice something immediately; that the very core of your unique experience has a quality so normally foregone and that is the Knowing. Knowing is the very thing that allows for ‘something’ to even be ‘something’.

This knowing is precedent to all the seeming things of life, it is within your knowing that you can touch the ‘stuff’ of experience. Consciousness is contained within Knowing, Reality is contained within Knowing, Shifting is contained within Knowing, The laws of manifestation are contained within Knowing. The very fact that a circumstance, phenomenon or object can be qualified as something reveals that there is the Knowing and something Knowing of it as such.

Not only is Knowing prior to, it is that which existence itself relies on; meaning if there was no Knowing of xyz then can you have an experience or can you even fathom xyz? This alone proves that Awareness/Knowing is not just the mere quality to be aware or know but something transcendental altogether.

Notice now, the infinite inconceivable quality of Knowing and the inability to know anything other than Knowing. The more you try to arrive at something other than what is known— you arrive at something else that is also Known. Experience itself is contained within Knowing, within Self.

The reason Knowing is Self is because the fact previously established that every apparent thing/ existence is dependent upon Knowing and hence the reason for its apparent existence shows how even to try and qualify or define Knowing as Knowing would also be Known and hence the reason for its apparent existence

What am I trying to say? I'm trying to demonstrate how Knowing is the ultimate factor onto which anything can exist. We've already previously established how everything has the quality of Knowing, everything is contained within the Knowing. So that means that for anything to even be, it would have to be known, and that means that we cannot directly confirm that what we know is the actual truth, because if anything can be within Knowing and hence ‘true’ then that means there is no concrete Reality/ Existence.

This is not even philosophy, this is just something you can notice right now. Are you able to have an experience separate from the Knowing of that experience? Are you able to conceptualize a phenomenon without the Knowing of said phenomenon? The answer is a plain and simple no.

So if even Knowing is Known then what is thing through which all appears to exist? To clearly pinpoint it as something such as the universe or god would be to Know of such a conclusion but we are not looking for a conclusion we are looking for what Knows. What Knows cannot be an object of Knowing so any sort of clear label arrived at would be inaccurate but you know one thing that cannot be overlooked? Is that in the center of Knowing is You.

Not you the person, remember anything that can be pinpointed is no longer Reality but rather an instant result of Knowing, but rather You here is what you remain as when all the stories and labels fall away, pure Being is You— pure Being is the Knowing, the Self, the Awareness.

Do you understand truly what this means my loves? That absolutely nothing is Real now, but that does not in anyway take away the apparent existence of everything. So long as Knowing is, everything will appear to be. That is why there is absolutely no 3d or physical reality, I’m not being metaphorical or poetic. I mean right now the world around is Knowing apparently divided into different things and conclusions.

That is why when people ask me “how do I change my reality” “how do I shift” I do not give a direct answer because the only difference between success and failure is the Knowing. If you Know right now of beauty and love — then that is indeed what the apparent reality IS. Not will be, IS.

You do not need to assume shit, assuming implies continuity, a future, a change. What I’m talking about is as direct as simply looking in a mirror and seeing a reflection, what is Known IS what IS.

The same way in which the story of who ‘you’ are right now and as unsatisfactory is Known, is the same way you can Know a seemingly different or better story. NOW

Read that again

There is no process, there is only Knowing; The Self.

I have a question that’s been really bothering me. If I decided, for example, to be an arts student tomorrow, how does the prior knowledge of the past classes or the exam dates come up? I’m not sure if I explain myself.

The experience is like a play, no? How do the details of this play display? Like now, looking at my phone with all my saved pics in my gallery or all the apps I have, how does it display? Just because?

Or I shouldn’t bother myself with these questions as they’re unnecessary and just focus on within? Thank you!

You don't have to concern yourself with the how, because there is none. Every conclusion you would reach would just be another story, and every question would eventually lead you to silence.

There's a quote, I don't remember who said it but it says "The point of questioning is not to arrive at the answer, but to dissolve the question/questioner", and I think that is a lovely pointer.

does this mean that the challenge of daily anxiety that makes it difficult to do anything will never go away? Even if this supposed freeing recognition happens?

Who can say? The statement you quoted is a pointer, not a verdict, so treat it as such. It simply points towards the emptiness of the idea of being someone living an actual life with actual problems.

The feeling of being a person is effortlessly replaced by label-less beingness, it's seen that the substratum for every appearance is the same. How concerned are you with the problems when you're imagining a scenario? Or when you're watching a movie? Or in your dream last night? What you call your life is no different, and that becomes effortlessly obvious once you realize you are the SOURCE for all. Not tied to any experience, yet no experience can be without YOU.

Also, the recognition doesn't have to look a certain way, that'd be just another appearance. Some feel ecstatic, some feel underwhelmed, for some it might appear as love and for some nothing changes at all. It doesn't matter because it is all just an idea appearing in the moment, a story.

I don’t know I’m just struggling and stuck in a rut of watching and over consuming content about non duality I’m also on the shifting side and manifestation side of tumblr and they give me hope but then I’m reminded that it’s not real and just delusion so I’m back to feeling terrible

diva please tell me what I can do to make these feelings go I just want peace

thank you for replying

First of all, please breathe and accept that you don’t know anything about how “realization” is supposed to look, the more you keep conceptualizing an experience the more you’ll be stuck trying to attain it perfectly by rejecting everything you think it is not

I understand trying to read and watch more but understand that there is nothing out there that will suddenly make all of this ‘click’ for you, that entirely depends on your willingness to remove your loyal attention on whats out there and place it on whats undeniably here. YourSelf

Notice Awareness, notice this unchanging knowing in the background of experience. THAT is the nature of True Being not the ideas of who you are and what you want, the fact that that you know of something that KNOWS of your circumstances means that what you really are is beyond those circumstances, identifications and scenarios

You must be able to return devotedly to Being the exact same way you return to suffering.

The suffering is nothing more than an appearing idea, you do not have to account for it or claim it as your own, perfection is the only thing that exists , joy and bliss become tainted when we start giving into the stories of lack and suffering when these things hold absolutely no truth

They hold absolutely no truth

Where is the lack and suffering outside the ideas of it?

Nowhere because lack and suffering are ONLY ideas and by default are not concrete

So make the decision now, this will not dawn on you when the time is right, no you must choose now to see Actuality

I hope you’re still answering questions as you’re the only one I feel could be of help for my current “dilemma”.

I seem to have hit a lull in my journey of coming to know my true nature. The subject/object illusion is still quite prevalent and I’m honestly unsure of what if anything, can be done to help me to collapse this illusion of separation.

Perhaps a better understanding of time (or lack thereof) would be helpful as I’ve noticed I really only have an intellectual understanding of it, not direct experience. I recall hearing a non-dual teacher mentioning that if we truly grasped the concept of time and actually experienced it directly, it would help collapse the entire idea of a subject/object. How true that is—I’ve no idea.

I know effort is futile in this process, so I know I cannot force an “awakening” or whatever you’d like to call it, I just have zero idea how to even approach this. It seems I’ve been stuck in this same spot for months. Self inquiry honestly hasn’t done a whole lot as far as actually causing a shift in perspective. I still very much feel as if there’s a mind/body and then there’s also Awareness. I know this is a common pitfall amongst those going through this process, but how does one break through it? It seems like everytime I gain any sort of clarity, it’s gone by morning.

I know meditation can also aid in coming to this realization as well, but I seem to have hit a wall with that as well. I cannot get past the mind to be able to progress any further. Essentially this is because I still feel like a person, trying to meditate.

Hopefully this isn’t redundant and please forgive me for my ignorance on the subject. Words are pretty useless when it comes to this stuff. As you can see, my identity is still tied to the mind even though I know it is nothing more than a collection of thoughts and beliefs.

So from your perspective, is there anything in particular you’d recommend or is there perhaps a certain direction you’d point me in? I respect your opinion as you seem to be incredibly knowledgeable on this topic and you are so articulate with your posts.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

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ANON I MUS: Thank you for reaching out and wanting to find some clarity in your journey. You must understand that it is the mind trying to control and figure out the problem that you are facing. This is the loop most people live in without ever realizing it. People believe that more thinking and analysis will eventually bring them peace and clarity. But it never does because the mind doesn’t resolve problems—it creates more of them (every thought leads to another thought, every question leads to another question). The deeper you go into thinking, the further you get from the serene space of clarity. This is why you feel stuck and nothing seems to fully resolve for you. It is not because you’re doing something wrong but only that your using the wrong tool. You have to stop chasing clarity with the thinking mind—and start recognizing it. This isn’t about controlling the mind and stop thinking. This is about recognizing the difference between the mental activity and the unperturbed awareness behind it.

You are in this predicament not because you want to suffer but because the familiar feels safer than the unknown. You don’t need to win the internal battle of your mind, you simply need step out of it. What feels like control is actually the mental loop that keeps you trapped. When you notice yourself getting pulled into your thoughts, don’t try to fight them (through force) or fix them. That is the trap. Instead, be still and recognize what is happening without getting identified or involved in it. Let the thoughts run if they want to, but stop engaging with them and give it your full attention. Bring yourself back to something simple and real—your surrounding, your breath and your physical sensations. You don’t need to force clarity or chase peace. It shows up naturally the moment you stop feeding the mental noise.

THERE IS NO ‘I’ : what is the point

Every time I try to look for myself, to find a solid existence of an individual separate from the arising conclusions of what ‘this’ and ‘that’ is, I always fail.

All I see are stories conjured up with their tales and emptiness but I cannot find me. Even the me I refer to in this writing is nothing but an idea within Awareness.

So what am I ?

I can be anything, for its evident that the simple act of definition is enough to qualify experience, I can be a turtle if I can help it

But the truth of my existence, I cannot find

Perhaps I’m not an individual, perhaps I’m not an identity, perhaps I cannot be defined

Perhaps I am not an I

In this blur of existence I find solace in the understanding that I never was and never will be

I grasp unto nothing and seem to lose my mind momentarily as I have no reference point

Perhaps this is why god decided to play this game, to touch something seemingly separate even though in truth it is not, maybe we forget our essence to experience experience.

Whatever the reason , it would be false

So what do I do?

I guess there is nothing left but to play the game, to join in the fuckery, to participate in the theatrics and drama

If you decide, it's decided. Cut out the idea of ​​"I'll decide something and see if it changes the character…”

Exactly. It’s all an empty appearance, but that doesn’t mean you can’t experience whatever you want to experience. This is not about having something better, but to realize that you’re free from what’s considered worse or better as these are just empty labels for empty appearances. You’re unaffected and you’ve “always been”.

You think there’s such thing as a “past”, that there’s a timeline when “this and that” has happened, but nothing ever is happening at all. You just think that you’re a person, that you have a life, that things has happened to you, but who is this “you”? Who is this “person”? What “past” if there is no “person” or “time” at all? Is there a person that “remembers”?

I'm very young, I'm close to turning 19 and I feel like I'm following the false concept of freedom, I think this is the closest thing to maybe trying to describe everything, I'm really lacking words. I just don't know, any advice? You seem very knowledgeable in your answers and words, especially in your masterlist comfort post. I don’t know what to do to have peace anymore

I would like to thank you in advance for any type of response I receive

(Dismiss the idea of a blogger being “more experienced”. This is all about you and my answer won’t be “better” because I have a blog. I ask you and whoever is reading this to not see bloggers as masters. Rely on yourself).

When I say “experience whatever you want”, I mean it. Have you seen my “change life” post? You don’t have a life as it is, just a handful of moments that you label as past, future, routine, persona… All empty, the point of no-thing actually being (as it is) prevails. There’s no others to impose any “right” or “wrong” way of “living” neither the ideology of a blissful life where whatever you labeled as “what is right” is, that would be boring and somewhat exhausting (in my opinion).

I’d dare to say that, because of similar ideas and judgement, a lot of people come to this with the expectation of “having better things” and end up so fixated with the idea of obtaining whatever they have claimed as better instead of noticing that there’s no “good” or “bad”, “worse” or “better” of whatever a life is because it is all equal, which is one of the main points that’s mentioned here. If that weren’t the case, there wouldn’t be people reacting “negatively” when they’re told this is not about making wishes come true or changing your life for what they think they lack, and that can be expected if the misconception of being an individual that wishes and lacks with suffering and desperation is “present”.

When you notice yourself, things like labels and appearances do not become empty, you notice they have always been empty. There’s no freedom for what is already free.

Saw some of the asks and 🤯

Guys it's literally in front of you

*The one that knows everything is the one you are* not what you know

What is known are some made up facts but what knows is the actuality

Senses are known, physical is known but they made up ( illusion ), just for once drop the labels please do so for your own good and then you see you are it

You want money, and you are trying hard for it because you know yourself as a limited person but if only you know yourself as " ".

It's not like you decide, I'll get a cake in 5 mins but then you don't

You are not deciding rather just expecting/hoping.

You don't wait because the moment you knew about your decision you experienced it so why will you expect?

It's all about awareness nothing else

Some still try to “grasp” their truth to make desires “come true” -> turn this as a method.

“Imaginary”, “real”, whatever. Empty labels for empty appearances.