Samhitha!!

It's Brokebacknatural for me.

i love the underlying factor in brokeback mountain that jack taught ennis it's okay to love

there's no doubt in my head that ennis loved his daughters, but he never really had a strong bond with them. he definitely valued jack over his own family, because that was somebody he truly loved and had, probably his first, real connection

i never have doubts that ennis loved jack, it's clear he did, but they loved so differently it could be hard to see it. compared to jack, ennis is very closed off and guarded, especially with his emotions and sexual orientation (even with jack, someone who also was gay)

over time jack obviously was able to get through whatever walls ennis had built up around himself, we see it in how comfortable ennis grows with jack. the tent scene where jack takes the lead, pulling ennis in and lying on top of him. the speech scene, where ennis breaks down in jacks arms. the motel (?) scene where jack is holding ennis in bed

jack showed ennis that love wasn't something to be scared of or run away from. connections and bonds weren't the monster under the bed, and especially in their case, ennis unfortunately learned not to take any relationships for granted, or overlook their importance to you

i love the end of the movie where ennis' daughter comes by, because that's where we really see jacks impact on ennis life, even after his death. ennis tells his daughter he'll be at her wedding, and he wants to see her more often. ennis is finally letting people in, finally accepting that love is okay. with jack gone, he realizes now the importance of the relationships and the people you have in your life

And finding out there's new material from last year after not checking the series page since quarantine times? I've barely slept in 3 days because I couldn't do anything besides reading the whole thing again, and thinking about it. It holds up so fucking well. I was ugly crying into my pillow last night reading the last few chapters of the original.

I was just sent this pic of the hardcopy of 91W (that I did the typeset and cover for) signed by Misha and Jensen and I haven’t stopped hiccuping between laughing and crying

not everything needs to be about supernatural

i can have a conversation without mentioning supernatural

s15 of spn cannot hurt me because i am pure of heart

i'm sane about sam winchester's emo bangs in s1

i think about jared padalecki a normal amount

my irls will never find my tumblr or ao3