YOU SAY RUN.

people like you don’t belong in a place like this

we don’t want you here

turning your back on things makes you an accomplice

how am i to decide anything if twenty different people tell me to pursue their version of ‘the right thing’?

we fought for our own right to live, on our own terms

i don’t care about what my actions look like to others

maybe you should start doubting the allegiances of certain people

everyone has their baggage to carry, will you let yours burn the world down?

i would have used anyone, anyone but you

you’re the only family i’ve ever been allowed to have

i’m so fucking sorry for leaving you behind

do you even want me if i can’t change back to what you knew me to be like?

i don’t care what people say, sometimes violence is the only answer

i try to make decisions that don’t force me to spill blood

it’s been long enough that i think you should start changing your view on things

what would you do, if you finally had a minuscule chance to actually live?

the way you live life is not how others do, they can’t understand you

i’ve burned a great many bridges to build this world, i won’t let it crumble

betrayal is all i know, please, please be the exception

out of all people, i’d never thought it would have been someone like you

thank you for making me see things more clearly and sorry for the pain that must have caused you

i’m sorry that people keep turning their back on your pain

please don’t do this, please give me a chance to fight for us

don’t drag them into this, they got involved on accident, they don’t know what they got themself into

your fight is against me

your fight is between the me i am now and the me you miss

you’re perfect the way you are, perfect in every single one of your imperfections

i don’t care how scared the world is of you

i can’t tell if you’re maddeningly idealistic or idealistically mad

you’re destroying yourself, is that what progress looks like to you?

can i even rely on you at this point?

i wear your uniform but i am still one of them, i was still born on the other side

it’s where i grew up, where i learned how to breathe, where i learned what scientific vileness is

there are things i regret that i’d still do all over again

i know it’s not morally good, but the best strategies are rarely ethical

you need to know how to spill blood to make sound decisions in this world

i don’t care about all the limitations you’ve set for yourself

this fight isn’t about who’s right or wrong, it’s about us, and the pain

we’ve built this place as a sanctorum, as something we would have never been granted

we honour the fallen, the fighters, the revolutionaries, the victims

let me try, at least, let me try to explain what i’ve seen

there are years of desperation imprinted into the broken skin of my knuckles

i’m tired of letting the oppressors police the language of my fight

i can do good things, i can make things right, i can win, i can show i’m worth something, please believe in me

you ruin everything you touch, get too ahead of yourself, tear it apart

why didn’t you just listen? why get this far?

there are skeletons in my closet you knew by name

at the end of the day, it’s usually about money

money can do great things, if used by the right hands, by capable hands

it’s not just business sometimes, sometimes it’s the move that will turn the game around

what are we tempted by, here, by the synergy of our minds or the dissonance of our hearts?

you’ve been at my side all this time, it’s time i show i am on your side too

how can you ask that of us, we don’t have that much time

some people just don’t understand what it means to bleed until they walk into the aftermath of a massacre

if i could look into your eyes from this angle just one more time

you listened, that’s what stayed with me, listened with wide eyes and an open heart

❝  you wanna know how i know you’re a good friend— not just for me but in general?  i always feel better after hanging out with you.  ❞

❝  sometimes things aren’t alright and they’re not gonna be okay for a while.  and that’s alright.  as cliche as it sounds it’s okay to not be okay.  give yourself time.  ❞

❝  have you even taken the time to let yourself feel it?  everything that’s been happening.  eventually,  you have to slow down and let it feel real.  ❞

❝   i’m not really the advice type,  but i am damn good at coming up with distractions to forget the bullshit for a while.  ❞

❝  was this not what you expected?  ❞

❝  i think the whole idea of ‘finding yourself’ is kind of bullshit.  we are what we chose to be.  we make ourselves.   ❞

❝  did you come by for a reason or did you just want some company?  ❞

❝  i’m going to tell you this,  once,  because i think you need to hear it.  you deserve more.  you should expect more from the world and put in the work to get what you deserve.  ❞

❝  i brought some seeds for your garden.  i thought about bringing a bouquet but— this way you can grow them and enjoy them longer.  ❞

❝  please,  stay for dinner?  i enjoy your company.  ❞

❝  come sit a little while with me.  tell me how you’ve been?  really.  ❞

❝  you don’t know how glad i am to see you made it.  here,  let me get you a drink.   ❞

❝  if you’d like to discuss it in private,  we can step outside?  ❞

❝  whatever it is you wish to tell me,  it won’t leave this room.  ❞

❝  well,  i’ve been wanting to talk to you.  but i don’t really know how to put it all in words.  ❞

❝  how have you been sleeping?  ❞

❝  don’t take this the wrong way,  but you don’t quite look well.  ❞

❝  don’t feel bad for not knowing—  i was trying not to bother anyone.  you didn’t know because i didn’t let you.  ❞

❝  miscommunication is a shitty trope in sitcoms and it’s even shittier in real life,  so let’s just take a moment to breathe.  and let’s get on the same page.  alright?   ❞

❝  is this a time for me to listen or fix it?  ❞

❝  i don’t really have anything to say,  i just know that i don’t really want to be alone.  ❞

❝  could you just…talk to me?  it doesn’t have to be anything important.  i just like listening to your voice.  it calms me.  ❞

❝  honestly,  it was a long time ago.  i don’t really remember the details.  ❞

❝  i’m rather proud of you.  i don’t say that often,  so believe i mean it.  ❞

❝  you seem content here.  happy,  even?  ❞

❝  i’m not here to drudge up the past.  i’m just hoping we could have a future.  ❞

❝  i see you’re not getting much sleep either.  should i make us both some tea,  then?  ❞

❝  are you sure you didn’t want to mention something to me?  ❞

❝  are you sure you’re alright?  ❞

❝  i’m a fan of your work,  actually.  ❞

❝  you have more of a reputation than you might think.  ❞

❝  you haven’t heard of me?  how refreshing.  ❞

❝  go on,  tell me what’s on your mind.  ❞

❝  something is troubling you,  yes?  ❞

❝  with a smile like that,  i can’t help but want to know your secret.  what’s got you so cheery today?  ❞

❝  come on,  you’re clearly upset.  and i’m not the asshole who pretends not to notice.  ❞

“That looks… f-fun.”

“You’re not so scary.“

“Cold… but not lifeless.“

“Why? No one will come.“

“I might survive this night.“

“I’ll only end up hurt again.”

“Shall I burn down the world?“

“If I’m lucky, it’ll be poisonous.“

“It’ll only prolong the inevitable.“

“They are more useful in death.“

“Is he dead? No. Just sleeping.“

“Some of us can see our cages.“

“Sleep is but a temporary death.“

“Life brings pain, pain brings life.“

“At least I can kill trees with style.“

“Soon it will be nothing but ashes.“

“I’m only taking back what’s mine.”

“I have learnt unspeakable things.“

“What if we let this world fall to ash?“

“Whatever is in there isn’t dead yet.“

“It’s useless on its own, just like me.“

“We were not meant to cheat death.“

“It burns with the anger of its maker.“

“Why bother with a permanent home?“

“I know not what lurks in the shadow.”

“Now no one can tell when I’m crying.“

“A terrible weapon for a terrible world.“

“They’re still alive in there. Poor things.“

“What terrible secrets might I uncover?“

“Those that burn brightest, burn fastest.“

“They seem to not wish us harm, for now.”

“I’m not very good at keeping things alive.”

“Alas, the relief it brings is only temporary.”

“There’s no salve for the pain of existence.“

“I can see the power sparkling deep within.“

“Will it teach me how to fly away from here?“

“I can’t be disappointed… If I expect nothing.“

“A pack. Now I can carry even more burden.“

“I was always destined to bear a heavy load.“

“No amount of decoration will brighten my life.“

“The sun upsets me. I couldn’t possibly sleep.”

“Why do I feel that it is measuring our mortality?“

“I don’t even remember what’s within anymore…“

“I bet one could see impending doom from there.“

“It makes me feel less alone. Plus, I can throw it.“

“Life can’t come from nothing… I need something.“

“It won’t insulate me from the horrors of this world.“

“I blow in this end and pain comes out the other end.“

“I don’t know why you bother. We’re all going to burn.“

“My stomach is as empty as my heart, I can’t nap now.“

“Another entry in a long line of unfortunate occurrences.“

“No need to lean in and check if it’s hot. I can feel it from here.“

“What’s the point of filling my stomach when my heart remains empty?”

my muse… 

“You don’t remember?” 

“What do you remember? Anything?”

“Well, you know your name, so that’s a start.”

“Here, maybe this will bring something back.”

“If you blocked it all out… it must have been bad.”

“Don’t worry, your memory should come back soon.”

How could you forget about me? We were so close!”

“Can you actually not remember, or are you just saying that?”

“You hit your head so hard. I’m not surprised you can’t remember.”

your muse… 

“I don’t remember…”

“I don’t even know my own name.”

“Where am I? Who are you, I don’t — !”

“I’m not faking it, I can’t remember anything!”

“I know I got hurt. I don’t know anything else.”

“I feel like I should recognize this, I just… don’t.”

“I’m sorry. I feel terrible, I don’t know who you are.”

“The chef is still crying.”

“Ignore the pee, please.”

“I don’t understand the decor.”

“Gang, we might have to kill him.”

“Just sell the walls we don’t need.”

“Come on, who wants 4am lobster?”

“I’m convinced the man is cursing us.”

“God is angry at what I’m doing here.”

“It’s nice and… burnt. Hope you like it.”

“And we’re fecking haunted by ghosts!”

“Everyone’s crying, pissing, or fighting.”

“Look at all these fecking dead people.”

“Sorry, everyone, lobster’s off the menu.”

“Today, we’re doing something dastardly.”

“I need you all to order the grilled cheese.”

“Emergency! Sell the clothes and the rake!”

“See? I didn’t even drop it. I’m good at my job.”

“Oh, that actually hurts my eyes. I can’t do that.”

“Oh, god, the army’s gonna get involved, scatter!”

“Needless to say, it’s, uhhh… not going very well.”

“Look at that, a roof. What more could you ask for?”

“You’re just standing around being annoying, leave.”

“I’m convinced you’re doing this on purpose, you ASS.”

“It would be technically correct, but its 100% misleading.”

“I can’t believe I brought you back from the dead for this.”

“I’ll go home and sell some of my furniture, I’ll be right back.”

“He’s cursed to be here forever and get food dropped on him.”

“We always sit them at this table. We love this mannequin thing.”

“Dude, I understand you feel betrayed, but you did die, to be fair.”

“Stop haunting me, I don’t deserve it… well, I do deserve it, but stop.”

“Very glad we bought that industrial oven just to make grilled cheese.”

“She’s definitely on some sort of acid trip, so this seems normal to her.”

“I just want the money. I don’t really care about my reputation anymore.”

“Why do you have love hearts around him? You’re trying to kill that man.”

“Lightning’s been striking this place all night and you wanna play in puddles?”

“You’re much worse than the dead people by the pool, they don’t do anything.”

“I was happy… once.”

“Do you think I could be saved?”

“There’s no reasoning with grief.”

“I am so tired of being so scared.”

“If this is reality, I’m not interested.”

“I put all my trust in an empty dream.”

“But what is grief if not love persevering?”

“I was too young to know how to love her.“

“I’m too young for eyes this sad, this tired.”

“You’re all duct tape and safety pins inside.”

“If you’re happy in a dream, does that count?”

“I can survive on my own. I have for this long.”

“I don’t want to give up hope… it’s all I have left.”

“I didn’t make the choice to give this up. You did.”

“How long have you carried this, all on your own?”

“I loved her… and, sometimes, she loved me, too.”

“Tears come from the heart and not from the brain.“

“Maybe some people are just made to be shattered.”

“There is no way to train your heart to be invulnerable.“

“You said you’d always be there for me, but you’re not.“

“I don’t trust anyone else. I can barely even trust myself.”

“Sometimes it’s better to be alone. Nobody can hurt you.“

“You don’t love me. You don’t. Love doesn’t hurt like this.”

“All that could be said has… and it hasn’t solved anything.”

“No one heard me screaming, then. How could they, now?”

“They’ve dulled your light. Even your smile is dimmer, now.”

“You were supposed to be my escape… not another prison.”

“How long am I supposed to wander before I can find home?”

“I hid my deepest feelings so well I forgot where I placed them.“

“Grief is not as heavy as guilt, but it takes more away from you.“

“I have to keep moving. Eventually, someday, I’ll be safe, again.”

“How can you move forward when you keep regretting the past?“

“Things change. And friends leave. Life doesn’t stop for anybody.“

“I should have been there. I should have done something, anything.”

“No matter how gifted you are… You, alone, cannot change the world.“

“Nothing… there is nothing I can do that will make my heart less heavy.”

“Loneliness is peaceful, but there’ll be no one to share happiness with.“

“Please don’t go away… No one’s ever stuck with me for so long before.“

“You know, a heart can be broken, but it keeps on beating, just the same.”

“I just want you to be happy. Even if that happiness no longer includes me.”

“People keep telling me that life goes on, but to me, that’s the saddest part.”

“I thought I could just apologize tomorrow. But that tomorrow… never came.“

“How has the weight of this not crushed you? How are you still able to smile?”

“The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person.”

“The scariest and the most painful thing is to be hated by someone you truly love.“

“Happiness is a fleeting notion. It fills you with false hope. Grief keeps you grounded.”

“Breathing is hard. When you cry so much, it makes you realize that breathing is hard.“

“Nothing has ever hurt more than realizing, in your darkest moment, you’re truly alone.”

“You cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness.“

“Sometimes I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I’m not living.”

“I know what it’s like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in, but you can’t.”

“But, if you want to leave, you can. I’ll remember you, though. I remember everyone that leaves.”

“You can love someone so much… But you can never love people as much as you can miss them.“

“Why should I apologize for being a monster? Has anyone ever apologized for turning me into one?“

“I have to believe that there are still good people in the world. I have to believe that kindness persists.”

“You have been, in every way, all that anyone could be… If anybody could have saved me, it would have been you.”

“So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad, and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be.”

“Every human walks around with a certain kind of sadness. They may not wear it on their sleeves, but it’s there if you look deep.”

“But grief makes a monster out of us sometimes… and sometimes you say and do things to the people you love that you can’t forgive yourself for.“

“People think being alone makes you lonely, but I don’t think that’s true. Being surrounded by the wrong people is the loneliest thing in the world.”

why are you here ?

drive .  drive fast .

i think we should make an informed decision .

are you coming or not ?

you’ve been avoiding me .

[ name ] ,  what were you thinking ?

this should be your priority .

let me hold you for a minute .

get out of my way .  i won’t tell you again .

that wasn’t supposed to happen .

can you keep a secret ?

i don’t know what i did to deserve you .

you seriously think i could’ve done something like that ?

you’re safe with me .

sorry isn’t good enough .

where is all this coming from ?

who told you about that ?

sorry i’m late ,  i got caught up .

you’re being paranoid .

why are you looking at me like that ?

you’re the single most important thing to me .

all i’m asking is that you hear me out .

whatever they told you ,  it’s a lie .

we shouldn’t stick around here .

hold my hand ,  i don’t want to lose track of you .

[ name ]  …  truth or dare ?

i love you .  nothing’s gonna change that .

can you tell me what happened ?

you can’t come around here anymore .

back off ,  okay ?

what ,  you don’t have time for me anymore ?

you’re asking for too much .

i’m trying to start a new life .

what do you mean ,  you aren’t coming back ?

sometimes i think you must hate me .

why can’t we just talk about this ?

i know i fucked up ,  you can stop rubbing it in .

you’ve got quite a reputation .

i’m not usually like this ,  i’m sorry .

please ,  just let me explain myself .

i love watching you work .

we’re on the same team .

did you ever tell anyone ?

you’ve got a lot of explaining to do .

really funny ,  you’re very mature .

you call THAT a PLAN ?

can we get out of here ?

i thought things would be different .

this is not up for debate !

do whatever you have to do .

karma’s going to get you for that .

it could’ve been a lot worse .

i asked you to leave me out of this .

maybe it’s time to take a leap of faith .

i never want to see you again .

can you see how many fingers i’m holding up ?

i’m gonna be there when you get what’s coming to you .

you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me .

i’ve been waiting all night for this .

i told you not to contact me .

sometimes i really think you have a death wish .

what do you need ?  —  what can i do ?

i would do literally anything to keep you safe .

that was supposed to be a secret .

you haven’t called me that in years .

stop telling me to calm down !

we make a pretty good team .

i have so much i want to say to you .

i’m not going to let anyone hurt you .

can we please not do this right now ? 

wait ,  wait  …  just breathe for a second .

how are you holding up ?

why don’t you stay the night ?  i’ll take the couch .

i don’t need your protection !

you’re not making this easier on yourself .

are you going to let me in ?

i’m supposed to be protecting you .

i will kill you if i have to .

do whatever you have to do .

this is going to hurt ,  i’m sorry .

what happened to you ,  where have you been ?!

there was nothing you could’ve done .

you’re all i need right now .

i don’t believe in love at first sight .

have you been following me ?

i need you to believe me .

what do you remember ?

i’m not a good person .

what the hell’s going on with you ?

you’re being followed .

just when i thought my day couldn’t be any worse .

i’ve been having weird dreams .

so you’ve been lying to me this whole time ?

are you trying to get us killed ?

this is the worst thing that’s ever happened to me .

i never asked for your help .

you’re being followed ,  pretend you know me .

why has it started to feel different with you ?

don’t worry ,  i have a plan .

i heard everything .

do you need to sit down ?

i have the right to know what’s going on .

i’ve just gotta catch my breath .

stay out of my business .

what did you think was going to happen ?!

don’t cause a scene .

tell me something about you that i don’t know .

can i buy you a drink ?

what if  …  we played spin the bottle ?

this was never a problem until  [ name ]  came around .

you can’t ask me to make that choice .

are you seeing anyone right now ?

i need you to listen to me ,  we don’t have long .

you’re lying ,  that doesn’t make any sense .

you look  …  stunning .

what are you trying to prove ?

who died and made you the boss of me ?

you can’t just show up here like this .

let me make it up to you .

there’s no way i’m leaving you like this .

can we stay like this ?  just for a little longer .

i don’t need you to fight for me .

so  …  you lied to me ?

you’re the only one that can help me .

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

i never introduced myself ,  i’m [ name ] .

i expected more from you .

you have no idea who i am ,  do you ?

are you real ?  is this real ?

can i stay with you ?  just for the night .

you’re going to get yourself killed .

why did you help me ?

tell me what i can do to help .

pick a card ,  any card .

i never wanted any of this .

do you wanna get out of here ?

what the hell are you talking about ?

i should have trusted you .

get your head out of the clouds .

how is any of this MY fault ?!

what aren’t you telling me ?

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

it’s never just one with you ,  is it ?

you’re not supposed to know about that .

shut your mouth .

i haven’t kissed you yet ,  today .

where is this coming from ?

come over here and make me ,  then .

keep lying to yourself ,  see where it gets you .

i’m not a bad person .

is that what you wanted to hear ?

we can’t be seen together .

i can’t give you what you want .

i need you to leave .

are you drunk ?

i’m here ,  i’m here .  i’m not going anywhere .

you might want to take a seat for this .

have you been listening to anything i’ve said ?

i haven’t heard from you in weeks .

you’re jealous ,  aren’t you ?

who do you think you’re talking to ?

what are you reading ?

you could’ve killed me !

come on ,  we don’t have time for this .

i just need ten minutes of silence .

really ?  that’s all you have to say ?

we could leave ,  you know .  go far away .

you don’t look too good .

i never want to see you again .

why can’t you just leave me alone ?

i thought you died .

you’ll do anything for attention .

how’s the weather up there ?

all you do is hurt people !

i’m sorry ,  none of this makes sense .

you need to get out of here before anyone sees you .

i told you i didn’t want you around here .

is that supposed to be a threat ?

you’ve changed .

don’t look at me like that .

it’s a beautiful day ,  don’t you think ?

i did what i had to do .

you never know when to stop .

i’ve got to get home ,  it’s getting late .

i have nothing to prove to you .

stop LYING to me  …  all you do is lie .

you don’t have to be nice to everybody .

don’t tell me what to do .

pull your head out of the past .

we are not talking about that right now .

are you new around here ?

you have no idea what you’re starting .

i’m gonna get us out of here .

everyone’s staring at us .

is there anything i can do to help ?

i won’t cause you any more trouble .

– just follow my instructions for once !

do you want to come in ?

i don’t know what you want me to say .

you’re not like anyone else i’ve ever met .

                         STOP TALKING. I WILL WIN. THAT’S WHAT HEROES DO.