shelly

Umbrella Boy

I think to myself, This is it. I think to myself that this must be what it is to actually be vulnerable. Not have someone strip you of your defenses, but willingly lay them down. An invitation instead of an attack.

Modern College AU

OOC Katniss

Smut and Fluff and Angst

1/1 Chapters Completed

Word Count: 56k

Haymitch: Yes he does.

Effie: Yes he does.

Tiny Peeta POV "so after" drabble

@rosegardeninwinter and @triassictriserratops are to blame for this getting yanked out of my head

I look at her flushed cheeks and awe struck eyes in total euphoria. Something shifts in her expression and it’s a familiar look, something both soft and knowing, long suffering and friendly. It’s a look I’ve seen a thousand times from her. This morning, last week, in the quell, in her kitchen, on the train. I can’t think of when I first saw that particular gaze, it’s become such second nature to accept it with a grin or a squeeze of the hand. For her to be here, naked in my arms with the red stain of pleasure still hot on her cheeks, and look at me the way she’s always looked at me… it’s…

Oh what a fool I’ve been. 

How much time have I wasted gifting her space that she didn’t ask for? How long have I ignored those looks, made excuses for intimacies, reasoned away every stubborn, reckless act of self sacrifice? My memories of the quell are some of the hardest to sort through, but I know at least that we were in disagreement on who should make it home. Did I know then, and just lost the memory? Or did I push it down because I didn’t want to see it when I knew I wouldn’t make it back? 

Katniss dips her head to lay a petal soft kiss on my collar bone. How did I not notice? 

“You love me,” I breathe in realization. In shock. In shame for ignoring it all this time. “Real or not real?” 

Her eyes flick up to meet mine, and I watch my words settle over her. She smiles. 

Well, I needed to post it here weeks ago, I’m sorry 🙈

Here are my TWO versions of Lenore Dove:

1. I have a headcanon that her father was a peacekeeper. That would explain “hint of red” in her hair (that’s a little far fetched but I imagine her father to look like Darius). Also green eyes are pretty rare and not common for D12. So combo of Maude Ivory + redhead peacekeeper results in Lenore Dove ver.1

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2. If her father was mysterious Seam boy (one of Chances probably) then we have Lenore Dove ver.2, with olive skin and dark hair more common for Seam resident. This version looks too close to how I imagine Lucy Gray 🙈. So I think I prefer ver.1, but I like both actually ;)

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I always struggle to understand why he did that. I know it’s because he’s protecting Haymitch, and he wants to ensure Katniss makes it out of the games Alive. And he doesn’t think he means anything to her, so he’s pretty sure she won’t miss him when he dies. But I just. He’s so incredibly wrong.

But it also made me realize that he single handedly ensured Haymitch didn’t die. Knowing what we know from SOTR…there’s no way Snow would have let Haymitch into another arena. Not after what happened the first time. Especially if he was going to be with all the same people he conspired with the first time. Snow would have ensured Haymitch was the first to die, and I’m sure of that. Where would the rebellion have gone then? Katniss would have been completely on her own with no one else there to convince her to stick with Finnick and Mags (not to mention she just lost her Mentor and her Stylist- we can’t forget about Cinna). She probably would have been killed as well. And I’m sure Haymitch would have been under a magnifying glass before he got into the arena, and there would have been no way he could have discussed the rebel plans with the other victors. I think it all would have fallen apart.

when i was younger and read the original trilogy for the first time i was so bothered how it was 74 years of games, i remember thinking how could it have gone on so long without anyone doing anything

these prequels highlight that people have been fighting from the get-go: lucy gray's defiance, reaper ripping down panem's flags to cover the fallen tributes, haymitch's games and how many others shared his ideologies - the capitol just drowns them out, they rewrite their stories so their efforts are forgotten