so i wish you good night

i know it's such a non-issue really but every time i draw a woman who happens to be blond and/or has some blood or feathers on her and tag her #oc only for every other reblog to assign her falin dungeon meshi as if she has the monopoly on being blond bloody and feathered i do get quite annoyed. can people read and actually look at things

i love adhd because it would take me days and weeks and months to reply to people and things would sit on my to watch list for years but then i'd binge all mission impossible movies in the span of three days because some random post reminded me how much i like mi2 and i didn't want to skip mi1 and at that point you might as well commit

zero days since getting annoyed because someone decided to make an addition to my post that i don't even really agree with where they insist on he/himing yashiro instead of writing their own damn post

grandma keeps doing misogyny to one of my budgies

it really does feel like a lot of transmasc/tme trans people's negative reactions to characters being read as or revealed/implied later in the story to be transfem stem from this weird place of just like, desperately wanting to relate to them, but only being able to do so if they're tme. as if a switch gets flipped where any general trans experience a character goes through that could still be relatable if not in the specifics then at least in a broader sense doesn't matter anymore, doesn't count, is alien and uninteresting and not worth thinking about or engaging with

many people on here fit in one of the two categories wrt their opinion on russia: 1) russia is basically ussr (that's bad) and 2) russia is basically ussr (that's good), and while neither is correct i can at least take a guess who is more likely to view me as a human being based on that alone

seeing how the fandom treats jax and once again thinking that maybe it's for the better that yashiro will never be canonically transfem lest we want to hear takes about how she almost got off scot-free when she tried to kill herself or something else along those lines

quite frustrating to be confident in your take but not in your ability to make a compelling case for it, not to mention not feeling like putting in the effort it would take on most days. people should simply accept that i'm always right about the yakuza yaoi because i am

my city (for) now

this fandom is so cooked man

two interesting and somewhat related uhh consequences? of accepting being plural and working through some things is that on the one hand it helped me finally understand this very specific "unreasonable" kind of loneliness i often experienced, which i can now describe as "feeling lonely in my own head" that not properly distinguishing between myself and 🌠 caused and it's not really an issue anymore unless i'm having a really, really weird week. on the other hand, i'm thinking back on hanging out with my friends who i haven't seen in over a year the other day, how fun it was to listen to them talk about this and that, and how i wasn't the one talking at any point. which is a different kind of loneliness that i'm not quite sure what to do with, but it's nice to be able to understand it

planning to meet up with an old friend you haven't seen in months (years?) shouldn't feel like agreeing to be held hostage for a couple of hours or cause your mind to spiral, and yet

this is like, at the very bottom of the list of my current issues with saezuru but none of the tiringly excessive sex has even been interesting or appealing to me for literal years now. i miss when yashiro was jerking herself off while doumeki sat there flaccid and when there were all the rules to follow and eventually break and the tension it caused

[desperate] maybe the writing in ch66 is supposed to feel bad

i'm sure other yakuza yaoi posters' askboxes are also blowing up but since i'm avoiding the fandom like a plague and not seeing anything it adds a layer to an already funny feeling of "is everyone coming to me to complain all of a sudden because i'm the local hater or what"