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The way Shane always melts when Ilya kisses his neck 🥵

kevin day should’ve been an ancient greek tragic heroine and instead he got stuck in a self published 2010s contemporary sports/crime thriller… and he didn’t even get put on the woke team so he doesn’t know about estrogen or bisexuality

"being queer is about love" hmm actually being queer is about defying societal norms about gender and sexuality and does not depend on feeling love at all

Neil accidentally calls Wymack dad once and Wymack tears up because that's HIS little boy and he went through so much at the hands of Nathan and Neil calling Wymack dad is the biggest honour and achievement

i love how neil views kevin because it just goes back anf forth between “kevin’s a bitch” and “kevin’s THE bitch”

someday “kevin’s MY bitch”

the foxes finding out that wymack is kevin’s father in tkm is such a genuine ragebait chapter. i forget every time until i read it again how infuriating it is: ‘neil heard matt utter a low warning not to strike kevin where it’d leave a mark’. like broooo

Jean leaving the court room, heading into the halls. He needs to get away. He can’t look his parents in the face anymore, it hurts to see them alive when he knows a little girl will never be alive again. Kevin goes after him and hinds him struggling to breathe in the halls. “Jean” Kevin says, “Jean look at me.” Jean doesn’t he looks at the floor and tries to remember how to breathe. He reaches out a grabs Kevin’s arms. It’s the only thing keeping him from floating away. Jeans legs buckle, but Kevin is there catch him and slowly guide him to the floor. Jean puts the top of his head to Kevin’s chest while Kevin runs his hands up and down Jean’s arms, he can’t feel his scars through the fabric but he knows they’re there. “Jean, I’m sorry,” Kevin says, once Jean’s calmer, “I’m sorry they hurt you, I’m sorry you have to look at them again. I’m sorry I never helped you better in the Nest. I’m sorry I let them hurt you. I’m sorry I hurt you. I’m sorry I sent you away and used the fact that you loved me against you. I love you too Jean…just not the way you need me too.”